Illusions

There's more in this world than we see,
Just leave these illusions behind and run with me.
If all of the things that you thought you would be,
Pass you by. Pass you by.

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Back then I didn't know a thing.

How was I supposed to?

I wasn't there.

I heard it from my brother that night.

Already I knew it was going to be a long week.

--

Shuichi watched on with a mixture of astonishment and confusion.

Yuki was kissing Ayaka……

"Yuki, you bastard!"he screamed.

Yuki……

Shuichi ran out the door, half-blinded by tears, not knowing where he was headed and not caring. It hurt far too much to care about something as trivial as a destination, so long as it was far from there. Besides, at this point, anywhere was better than there.

How could this have happened?

"Just when I was getting through to him too….." Shuichi whispered, covering his face with his hands.

Yuki looked up in surprise, worry creeping into his face.

"Did I do something wrong?"

Ayaka looked at him apologetically, embarrassed, even.

"I should have explained it before. Even if I'm your fiancé, that boy, Shuichi- he's your lover."

--

"He's my what!" Yuki asked in astonishment.

"Your lover. You know, boyfriend."

"I don't need a boyfriend! I'm a boy!" he said. "Besides, I'm not-gay."

Ayaka just looked at him with sorrowful eyes. "Well, gay or not, you were his lover and you just broke the poor boy's heart."

"I was…..what?"

"I shouldn't have done that. I really shouldn't have let you kiss me." Ayaka looked extremely worried.

"Ayaka-chan, if you are my fiancé, then why are you sticking up for that Shi-shu-what's his name?"

"Shuichi." The girl answered plainly. "Shindo Shuichi."

"Why do you want us to be together?' Yuki asked.

Ayaka arranged the flowers in their vase. "All I want is for you to be happy, Eiri."

"But I am, with you."

"What you think and what you feel….are two completely different things." She said quietly, turning to leave the room.

"Ayaka…." He reached out to grab her arm but she moved out of reach.

"I'll see you tomorrow, Eiri." She whispered, before hurrying out of the room. But noise that Yuki heard just as the door close was the unmistakable sound of a choked sob.

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People screamed and cars honked at him as he ran across the road, but Shuichi paid them no heed.

He ran, large drops of tears running down the sides of his face, threatening to overcome his vision. Finally, he collapsed in a darkened alley, his whole body shaking uncontrollably.

He hugged his knees to his chest.

Remembering Yuki…..

Remembering his touch, his rare smile……

Remembering everything about him, how perfect he was in every single way….

Something was pushing against his leg, bringing his awareness to the present again. He looked down. A small white kitten was nudging him with the side of his head.

"How pretty you are…" he said, picking the kitten up. "White…like the snow. Yuki."

"How everything reminds me of you……" Shuichi muttered vaguely, fondling the kitten's ears.

Funnily enough, he felt nothing.

All his tears were spent and he was tired. To tired to feel anything at all.

He let go of the kitten and it slid off his lap easily.

It left the alley without a backward glance.

So you too have decided to leave me...

Yuki?

I miss you already.

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I don't own Gravitation. Sorry for the long wait! All my stories are going really slowly, writer's block, I guess. I've got some many things to sort out. Tatsuha and Ryuichi will be in the next chapter, I promise!

Help? Review please! Thank you!