AN: So I didn't want a week to pass before I updated, that would've been cruel for those who are truly invested in this story. So I got my tragus pierced on Monday and when my parents found out they totally flipped, let's just say things did not go well. I wasn't even allowed to go to San Antonio with my friend this weekend :( I'm bummed but those are the consequences for doing stuff behind their backs while living under their roof. I am looking for an apartment to move into with my two sister but apparently between us three we make too much money, I'm just wondering where all our money goes :/ I wont keep you guys any longer but I do want to tell you that I will slowly start introducing more characters and more interactions. This Edward and Bella will be slightly different. They have built this wall up that needs some breaking down :) So please Enjoy!
Glass House- Red
We deceive the world with lies we hide
Behind the smiles we can see the home of desperate hearts
The truth is falling down
The illusion we've become
A fear we can't outrun
We're closing in our emptiness
We're broken
BPOV
"Hey Mom," I said a little out of breath.
I'd just finished practice and all I wanted to do was head up to my dorm room and sleep but I knew that wouldn't even be possible with the family I had.
"Oh Finally! Bella you had us all worried! Goodness why do you have a cell phone if you don't even answer it! I'm considering making your father put in tracking device just to make sure you're okay-"
"MOM! Goodness stop rambling I'm fine did you not read the message I sent you?" I was exasperated, I needed to get to the music building to help Mrs. Cope but seeing as how this conversation was going I'd never get off the phone.
"Sorry bells you know me, ever since the whole Em thing I've been more worriesome, anywho I just wanted to tell you the news Jake told us the other night," she said all jittery. Sounded like her but I could still sense the pain behind it. It hadn't been easy on her when Emily, my twin sister died.
"Ummm...mom no offense but shouldn't you just let jake tell me himself" I asked hoping to get her off the phone soon.
"Oh you know what I think I will. Will I see you next week for dinner?" Hoping she wouldn't ask but knowing there was no way around it. I knew these yearly dinners were to remember what had happened but I just didn't always want to be reminded of the tragedy we all faced. Especially me, I had put that behind me and really focused so much on dancing that I only wanted to remember the good things of my short lived life with Em.
"Yes mom of course I'll be there, I wouldn't miss it for the world. What time is Riley's flight coming in?" I inquired.
"12. So make sure you and Jake aren't late," her futile commanding voice.
"Yes ma'am," appeasing her, "well my I really have to go Mrs. Cope is waiting on me so she can head home. I'll call you tomorrow. I love you!"
"I love you too sweetie, be careful," I smiled as I ended the call I missed them truly even though we lived in the same city. They had moved here from Seattle when I got accepted to Julliard. It was more convenient given that Riley was in Boston studying law and Jake was at Parson's studying fashion. They wanted to be closer and I was beyond ecstatic when they told me the news. I could finally put everything that had happened in Seattle in my past and then to have your best friend in the same school, I couldn't have asked for anything better. Jasper was my rock, he had mad acting skills but the guy had a heart of gold and he was the only one outside of my family that I felt comfortable enough to trust with my secret past.
I walked into Mrs. Cope and was immediately relieved to see her on the phone. I was glad I hadn't kept her waiting. when she finally ended her conversation she handed me the keys and bid me farewell.
I began cleaning up and putting sheet music away and other papers in their respective places. When I was finally finished organizing all the classrooms and private studios I took my place behind a black baby grand piano in one of the private recording booths and began to play. It truly helped release the stress but I knew that I had to play the song that had been circling around my mind.
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been praying hard,
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars, yeah we'll be counting stars
I felt refreshed, like a new person when I sang and played and I just kept playing feeling free and finally let my guard down showing my true self and somewhat broken side.
I see this life like a swinging vine
Swing my heart across the line
And my face is flashing signs
Seek it out and you shall find
Oh, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
I feel something so right
Doing the wrong thing
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been praying hard,
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Suddenly I could sense someone in the room but I just couldn't stop myself from playing. I was in so deep, I was pouring my heart into this room and piano something I hadn't done in so long. I rare;y sang especially in front of anyone let alone play. I stopped playing after Emily died but once I got into helping Mrs. Cope I picked it back up.
I feel the love and I feel it burn
Down this river, every turn
Hope is a four-letter word
Make that money, watch it burn
Oh, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could b
e But baby, I've been, I've been praying hard,
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt
Everything that kills me makes feel alive
As I sang the last verse and pulled my hands up from the ivory keys I heard someone begin to clap but I just couldn't look up. I was so embarrassed that I'd just been caught playing, let alone singing. I knew my face was red I could feel the heat rushing to my cheeks and my heart hadn't stopped racing but when he spoke I knew that I'd recognize that voice anywhere.
"Come on, don't be embarrassed you were beyond incredible. The best I've heard in a really long time. Are you a music major? What's your name? I've never seen you around here before, are you a freshman?" I know he was just curious but I couldn't help how I felt, I felt like a part of me had been exposed to a complete stranger.
I finally looked up a gasped I couldn't believe What I was seeing. This couldn't be could it. Was I dreaming again? This would make more sense if it was a dream. Just then my phone went off interrupting my silent musing and pulling me out of my little bubble. It was Jasper, he never called unless it was something serious he usually just texted but a phone call meant he needed me.
"I'm sorry I have to go," I said in a rush and ran out as fast as I could grabbing my things and answering the phone in the process.
"Bella? Alice is in New york!" He said in so much pain.
I knew he needed me immediately.
AN: Okay that's as much as I'm giving away for now. If I wake up early enough tomorrow maybe I'll update but my sisters Team Captain for Relay for Life so I'm in charge of basically keeping her from going ballistic this should be fun! If not possibly Saturday just depends my friend is having her wedding shower so maybe Sunday :) I try, I try...Now Please go review and tell me how much you hate it!
Much Love Yeli :)