(Jeff)
There was only darkness, nothing but darkness but I was still surprised by what Katie had done and it hurt by what I was shown. She had sent me back in time it seemed and hearing Sally scream...I just couldn't believe that it had come down to this that I would end up laying there next to Katie as we both laid there on the very steps where it had all began. The very steps where Katie had chased me, where she asked me why I hadn't killed her, where I realized that she was different and that maybe I could possibly save her and we could become friends. Seems like I screwed that up, somewhere along that way I had hurt her beyond repair and she fell turning into the monster I had only seen moments before. But I'm ready to die, I'm ready to meet whatever torture awaits me in hell, I just wish that they hadn't been there watching as Katie put me through a different through a different kind of hell and finally when I couldn't take it anymore she killed us both.
I didn't want to think of little Sally crying as I lay here bleeding, Ben's scared face as he holds Sally trying to look away, I doubt Jane would care what happened to me I know she's always wanted me dead. But how would the other's respond, they probably wouldn't care either I wasn't that important to them was I? But still this wasn't what I wanted, I didn't want Katie to become one of us, I didn't want her to go down this path it's hurt to many people, broken to many families, broken...It wasn't right but as I laid there in the darkness there was no gates, no fiery pits or demons flying about, there was nothing even close to what people think hell is like, there was just darkness. But as I laid there in the darkness I felt better, calmer in a way as though I wasn't dead but sleeping instead and that this darkness was just the ending to a bad dream and that I'll wake up and Liu will be asleep in his bed. My family will be together again and that I could start again, do something differently about those goddamned bullies, I could stop Liu from taking the blame for what I did, I could stop any of this from happening and maybe...maybe everything could be normal for once.
That in itself unfortunetly was a dream, Liu wasn't alive I had killed him that night, slashed him with my damned knife and told him to go to sleep. This darkness wasn't the end to a terrible nightmare, I wasn't going to wake up to my, wasn't going to regain my sanity, everything that I had become was final and set in stone there was nothing that could let me start over again but then again would I even take the chance? It seems like everything that's happened to me was meant to happen, I guess it was destined for me to walk down this terrible path and become the killer I was or am.
When I woke up Sally flung her arms around me, crying it took me a moment to understand what was going before I wrapped my arms around her too. I looked up at Ben who was leaning against the wall, arms crossed, and poison in his dark eyes; Jane was there too. Wait Jane, for a moment I thought I saw her and when I looked closer I knew that she really was there but she left shortly after.
"You're alive." Sally said leaning in closer
"Your an asshole you know that." Ben stated "You had us all scared we thought you were dead, what the hell were you thinking?" he faced away from me and Sally. Sally let go and faced Ben with sorrow in her eyes. They were scared that I was dead? For some reason I had a hard time wrapping my head around what Ben had said, I just couldn't believe it. Well I mean it was pretty clear that Sally was scare about me, I guess jane was worried for she didn't take the opertunity to make sure that I died, as for Ben...I don't really know if he hated me or was worried as well that I could have possibly died after all its not like any of us are immortal.
But there was still one thing on my mind well actually one person. After they left I sat up and tried to stand, my head hurt, body was numb, and my mind was in a daze but it felt good to stand and as I made my way to go find Katie I ignored Sally's constent attempts to stop me but I had to find her, I had to know that she was alive too. As I ran into her room there she was lying completly still, barely breathing, deathly white, eyes shut tight, her many scars were clearly visible and she was marked with some fresh scars one left by burns. There must have been a fire sometime after Katie's attempt to kill us, had they set her house on fire to make her disapperence look like she burned to ashes? I sat next to her seeing the scared teenager that I had always known her as before my first encounter with the monster she had let consume her. No the girl lying before me had a kinder face that held a look of innocence, what in the hell happened to us? I took her hand in mine, it was cold.
"Jeff? What are you doing here?"
I didn't look at Masky my eyes were fixed on Katie.
"She's going to be fine she's just out cold still." he stated walking over to the other side of her but still I didn't look up at him I was trying to piece it all together, everything that had led us to this point and I wish that I could take it all back and start again but I had to deal with the consequences and I had to accept that. After a few minuets of silence Masky left and I was alone once again with Katie, it almost felt like before when I would sit by her side and watch her sleep not leaving until she woke up and that's exactly what I planned to do. There was nothing that was going to get me to leave her side, not until she woke up from this terrible dream she was stuck in.
(Katie)
I know that I'm still alive after all you only see darkness for this long when your asleep and refuse to dream. I didn't want to be alive I wanted nothing more then death cause only in death could I truly be free of all this hell that I've gone through, only in death could I no longer feel pain or misery and there was no one to hurt me in death. All of that seemed like a dream, it was to good to be true and it was for I wasn't dead and if I wasn't dead then that meant that Jeff wasn't either, but did I really want him dead? I was angry with him and I hated him but did I really want to kill him especially after showing him all I knew he feared? It seemed like in those few minuets of watching him run away from fear, calling out to Sally, I loved watching him scream in pain and terror but as the scenes went on Jeff changed. His screams were agonizing, tears in his eyes, his "human" for begging for it all to end and screaming that he was sorry to people who weren't really there.
During that moment I had seen a different side the killer, a kinder side that I had never known and now that I think about it it hurt to see all that pain especially from him, from the only one who had ever cared about me, my only friend, the only person to not leave me behind in the dust as everyone else always did and how did I repay the favor? By torturing him with his darkest fears and secretes, by changing his mind into hell and bringing his nightmares to life. But I couldn't stop my mind was to far gone to truly comprehend the pain I was inforcing and who was that girl? Was she my own conscious or was she the girl that Jeff knew me as and she was coming forth to protect him knowing that if I killed him then I would have lost the only person who knew I exsisted and wanted me to keep living, I'd lose the onlly person to ecer care about me and not see me as a freak, maybe it is good that Jeff was still alive.
After all there were others like Jeff who cared about him and didn't want him to die, they were prepaired to fight to do whatever it took to keep Jeff alive and that was something that I though I could never experience but within these moments of darkness I had my own flashbacks. Flashbacks of dark nights, missing razor blades and pill bottles, and waking up to a pair of un-blinking eyes full of comfort. Flashbacks of bullies, of chasing a killer begging for death. Flashbacks of a party gone wrong, of flames eating away at my skin, of a gun loaded and pointed to my head, of strong comforting arms carrying me to the hospital, of a girl who changed a killer. That's what I had done, I had changed a killer and now I had tried to destroy him in my own downfall into darkness. I tried to kill the one person who had tried so hard to keep me alive because he believed in me, believed that I still had a purpose, because he didn't want me to die.
What in the hell was I doing? I had fallen so hard into the darkness and wasn't thinking straight but still Jeff shouldn't have come knowing what I was capable of doing now and yet he still came, but why? Why would he come knowing that I could very well kill him, was that what he was hoping on happening? Did he hope that I actually would succede in killing him and ending his own pain and suffering? I guess I would have been doing the same thing for him as he did for thousands of others, he saved them after all from their own hells and torments so maybe he was hoping that I would save him too. What a fucking idiot he is, he knew what I was capable of doing, he knew of all the nightmares and horror I had put people through and yet he still came back to me after all this time. I don't know what to think much anymore, I just wanted to be able to wake up, to leave this darkness and wake up on those steps all alone so that maybe I could just pretend that I had just fallen and hit my head really hard and passed out, I could just pretend that all of this was just a bad dream, that none of this ever happened and that Jeff had never came to me, that he was just a distant dream, a small hope that there really was someone out there who cared for me and since I had always like Jeff he was just the person that my mind decided to bring to life for me to keep me in the darkness for as long as possible.
Some feeling came back to me and I felt something soft under me, to soft to be the stairs in the hall but then again they were carpeted so maybe they were soft and I never realized it, I couldn't really hear anything, but I felt something grab my hand. It was soft, warm, comforting and familiar as though I knew who was by my side and I hated the comfort and not wanting the hand to leave mine I wanted his hand to stay with mine. I wanted to scream, wanted to do anything to wake up just to see him there, see his eyes, his smile, I wanted to know that he really was still there but also so that I could see where I was for I knew that there was no way I was back home or at that house I don't really know if I can call it a home since it's never been that to me so why would it be a "home" now? I heard him say something but his words weren't clear but it was clear that he was talking to someone else and I was ready to feel his hand leave mine but it didn't it stayed there and I hated myself even more for appreciating that he didn't leave.
I had just tried to freaking kill him and now I didn't want him to leave my side! What the fuck's wrong with me, or was I ever truly myself to even begin with? Demented Katie didn't seem at all like me after all I was the creative, freaky, emo kid that just sat there quietly and tried to make it through every beating, I was always alone trying to win the battles I fought but always losing, I was the kid that everyone picked on because I couldn't stand up for myself, I was the suicidal kid that wanted to leave this hell all behind. She was a psycho, she loved inflicting pain and fear on people especially getting into their minds and giving them the worst nightmares ever by forcing them to face their greatest fears and darkest secretes. She could fight, she was strong, everyone feared her, she wasn't afraid of anything and she scared me because she was so much stronger then myself I guess that's why I gave up and let her take over because I didn't want to fight her, I didn't want to get hurt anymore then I already was and she made me promises. She promised to protect me, that she would get back at everyone who ever hurt me and she hated Jeff because while he helped me the most he hurt me the greatest. He twisted my hopes, my dreams, he took my trust and ripped it to shreds but he also stole my heart and right in front of me he tore it apart, destroying the only thing that I had left leaving me empty and devested.
But she was gone now, I couldn't feel her, couldn't sense her inside my mind. Maybe she really was gone and I was me again, I was just Katie and I could go back to fighting my battles, trying to survive through school, I grow up and try to get past my demons or die trying but then again death hasn't ever scared me infact even still I welcome the idea of leaving this all behind. I felt tears push through my closed eyes at the thought of all that I've done while under her control, of all the people I hurt, the families I tore apart, of everything that I had done. I never meant to cause so much pain but there was nothing that I could do I was a prisoner to myself, I had no other choice, she was to strong for me and there was nothing I could to stop her. She craved blood, torment, fear, she craved to hurt people and watch them suffer knowing that once again she was the stronger one, she wasn't me not at all.
His other hand lifted to my cheek and brushed away the tears that fell and his hand held onto mine tighter and all I could managed was to squeeze back I had to at least let him know somehow that I was still alive, that this nightmare was over and that I was me and not "her", I never wanted to be her again but I knew that sooner or latter she would surface back and this nightmare will all begin again. Once I was awake I had to leave this place wherever here was, I had to get away from Jeff, I didn't want to hurt him not in the way she did, she wanted to torment him until he begged for death in wish she would do in the slowest most painfulest way she knew how, she wanted him to feel pain like no one has ever felt before and I didn't want that, I didn't want to see him suffer any more then what I...we had put him through that just wasn't me I wasn't capable of doing any of that myself but she was and she wanted to hurt him in ways that terrified me.
"Don't cry Katie you're safe now." he whispered in my ear but that did little to calm me down for I knew that I wasn't safe, he wasn't safe, no one was safe not anymore.
A/N
Jeff: thank god Katie's not dead I don't want her to die I actually do care about her for your information and yes I am capable of "caring" I do in fact have a freakin heart. Anyways I'm just glad Katie's back and safe but what about "Demented katie"? Is she still around and is anyone truly safe from that freak? I'm going to try and start again with Katie hopefully I can held her defeat her damned demons so that way she wont have to be so afraid anymore. So without further-a-do review what you think so far and "go to sleep."