Regrets Chapter 4 by believesvueo

"It's been three whole days since I've had sleep And I got the point that I should leave you alone But we both know that I'm not that strong And I miss the lips that made me fly…" - Miserable at Best by Mayday Parade

Present Day

"She hasn't forgiven you has she?" Dave asked.

"No, she hasn't Dave. I am trying my best."

"It's been what now, six months since that day you decided what you really wanted?"

"Yeah, you know that it has, Dave. And I wanted to thank you again, for all those times you kept me updated on her and the baby."

"You're my friend Aaron and I know you made a mistake that day. But you just really have to be patient with Emily. She's a tough nut to crack and she's not the easiest to break once she puts up that wall."

"I know. Emma is beautiful isn't she?"

"Yeah, just like her mother. But I do think the team knows you're the Dad. The dimples were a give away."

"But Emily has them too."

"Do you have regrets?"

"I don't regret being with Emily and creating Emma. I love her Dave. And I love our daughter."

"Go to them Aaron."

"I don't know, Dave. She needs space. I don't want to upset her."

"Suit yourself, Aaron."

Hotch sat in his office and thought about the past 6 months. He tried so hard to reach out to Emily but it's obvious that she had closed off.

The following day, after he talked to Haley, Hotch was in good spirits but he prepared himself to be rejected.

He decided not to call her before heading to her apartment. If she wasn't home, he was willing to wait for her outside her door until she got home.

He knocked softly on her door.

He could hear her voice and it sounded like she was on the phone talking to someone.

"Hold on a second JJ, I think that's Morgan at the door."

"Morgan, when you said you were coming over, I didn't think it was before…" Emily had stopped talking and was shocked to see the last person she wanted to see at her door.

"Listen, JJ I'll talk to you later okay. Kiss Henry for me. Bye."

Emily clicked the phone and turned her attention to Hotch, who was still standing outside her door.

"What are you doing here Hotch?"

"I was wondering if we could, maybe talk?"

"Well, you can stop wondering and no, we will not talk unless it's about a case."

"Emily, I sorry. I am so sorry about what I said that day."

"You don't get to take those words back and think that everything is okay, Aaron. You said everything you needed to say that day and you made it quite clear that you wanted nothing to do with me and the baby. I told you Aaron, I don't need you. We don't need you."

"Emily, please just hear me out."

"Did you give me a chance that day, Aaron? All I wanted to tell you was that I was pregnant and I wasn't expecting anything from you. I perfectly understood that you would have wanted to reconcile with Jack and Haley. I was aware the whole time that you would want to be with them once you got them back safe but what I never expected was that you, of all people accuse me that I planned all this. I'm a career-oriented woman and our job is hard, do you think I would want to get pregnant?"

"I know that now Emily. I was just so confused that day when you told me, Emily."

"And I wasn't confused? God, Aaron, you know how much I debated that day whether to tell you or not? But I did because you deserved to know."

"What can I do Emily?"

"Nothing, Aaron. I'm done. So please just leave."

"I'm not giving up Emily. Whether you want to hear it or not, I would give anything if I could take back what I said that day. I love you Emily."

"Aaron, please just leave."

"I'm leaving for now but I will be back again and again. I want you and our baby in my life, Emily."

Emily closed the door behind her and collapsed on the floor.

Aaron could hear her crying against the door. The sound of her cries broke his heart. He knew that Emily was hurting as much as he was and there wasn't a damn thing he can do. He cried along with her outside her door. He probably looked like an idiot to the people passing by but he didn't care. He needed to let it out.

He touched to door, hoping that she could hear him, "I love you."

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