Just As Buffy closed the door she saw Faith turn to her with tears in her
eyes and quickly turn away. Buffy walked slowly to Faith not sure what the
girl was up to but had to admit the girl looked like she was really upset.
She thought that maybe this time Faith was being sincere. Still there was
no way to be sure till they talked. She tried to lay a hand on Faith's
shoulder to get her to turn around. But Faith shrugged it off still not
turning to face Buffy she wiped out her face. " I'll be gone in a few B.
then you and the rest of the gang won't have to worry about hearing or
seeing me anymore"
Buffy wasn't sure why but as soon as Faith spoke those words it had felt
like somebody punched her in the gut. Part of her knew it was the senisable
thing to do. Especially since she still wasn't sure of what would happen if
Faith stayed but the part of her the biggest part that had fallen in love
with Faith and still was very much in love with her. Nagged at her to do
something that would make the girl stay. She had to know if there was a
chance they could get past this and maybe have a chance at something more.
Faith looked into the mirror meeting Buffy eyes. For a few seconds they
stared in silence then Faith broke it saying " What is the one and only
great slayer at a loss for words, Jesus B. I thought you would have
something to say'
Buffy still wasn't sure what to think but she had to ask " Why Faith? Why
now after all that has happened have you decided to come and declare your
love" Faith just shook her head and shrugged her shoulders then dropped her
gaze from Buffy.
This was a sign that she was giving up and closing everything out. Buffy
was bound and determend that she wasn't going to let the girl off that
easy. She grabbed Faith's arm and turned her so that they stod face to
face. This way Buffy could see if this was all a game or if Faith's
feelings were sincere. Faith tried to resist but Buffy wasn't letting go. "
No, Faith it's not ending that easy your not going to come in say the
things you have then clam up like it never happened, You did that once
before and we see where that got you. So before you think of running don't
cause I will find you and I won't be so easy going as now. So tell me why
you came back when you could have easily have left".
Faith knew if she really wanted to she could get out of Buffy's hold but she knew if she tried then Buffy would take that as her lying about everything and she didn't want that. Plus she was tired of running it was what she had always done before it was easier but it also led to her hurting people and she didn't want to that anymore either she had hurt enough people including herself. Which nobody seemed to be able to see all could see was Faith the party girl the one that took what she wanted no matter the circumstances. They didn't see the girl deep inside that only wanted somebody to care for and to care about her.
She looked into Buffy's eyes and said" It's like I said I came back cause I had to. Yeah I could have ran but I'm tired of that plus I wanted no that's not right I needed to apologize for what I have done and to tell ya how I felt even though I knew you probably wouldn't believe me. Now I have and I'll go the only thing I regret is knowing that I could have had a chance with the only person I loved and claimed they felt the same. But I Fucked it up, Like I always do'. With that she switched positions to where she held Buffy's arms giving her a quick kiss and saying " I really do love you B. I always will and hopefully one day you'll believe that and forgive me'.
Then making a quick sweeping motion with her leg she tripped Buffy making her end up on the floor. Then took off she stopped for a sec only long enough to tell the rest of the scoobs to tell Buffy she was sorry but she had to do it. The ran out the exit into the darkness of the city streets. Willow was the first to check on Buffy finding her getting back to her feet. She asked "What happened?'
Buffy explained everything to the rest of the group and then looked towards the door wondering exactly where Faith was headed and how she was going to be able to find her.
Faith knew if she really wanted to she could get out of Buffy's hold but she knew if she tried then Buffy would take that as her lying about everything and she didn't want that. Plus she was tired of running it was what she had always done before it was easier but it also led to her hurting people and she didn't want to that anymore either she had hurt enough people including herself. Which nobody seemed to be able to see all could see was Faith the party girl the one that took what she wanted no matter the circumstances. They didn't see the girl deep inside that only wanted somebody to care for and to care about her.
She looked into Buffy's eyes and said" It's like I said I came back cause I had to. Yeah I could have ran but I'm tired of that plus I wanted no that's not right I needed to apologize for what I have done and to tell ya how I felt even though I knew you probably wouldn't believe me. Now I have and I'll go the only thing I regret is knowing that I could have had a chance with the only person I loved and claimed they felt the same. But I Fucked it up, Like I always do'. With that she switched positions to where she held Buffy's arms giving her a quick kiss and saying " I really do love you B. I always will and hopefully one day you'll believe that and forgive me'.
Then making a quick sweeping motion with her leg she tripped Buffy making her end up on the floor. Then took off she stopped for a sec only long enough to tell the rest of the scoobs to tell Buffy she was sorry but she had to do it. The ran out the exit into the darkness of the city streets. Willow was the first to check on Buffy finding her getting back to her feet. She asked "What happened?'
Buffy explained everything to the rest of the group and then looked towards the door wondering exactly where Faith was headed and how she was going to be able to find her.