Present Day

"What do you think this is about." I ask Ontari quietly as we were summoned to the Queens Private Study area late at night and didn't want the guards who are escorting us to hear our conversation.

"I'm not sure but if it was important enough to wake us up in the middle of the night it can't be good." she replies just as quietly but sounding slightly nervous. For both of us to be summoned something bad must have happened. Dread ran through thinking that Nia had somehow learned of our plan to dethrone her. From the way Ontari is tense and anxious I can tell she's thinking the same thing.

"What should we do." I ask unsure how to handle this situation.

"Just act normal." she tells me. "it could be nothing so acting nervous won't look good and it will make her suspicious. If it is about that act surprised and outraged at the accusation." so our lives might have to depend on how well we can act. Well people do think I'm loyal to the Queen so my acting can't be awful which fills we with a little hope.

The guards force us to stop outside the doors to the Queens study while they announce our arrival. Me and Ontrai quickly hide our nervous and feelings as the doors us and we walk in. The guards who were escorting us took watch on the doors to make sure we're not disturbed. The Queen is standing over a table full of maps looking very angry. She doesn't look up as we both bow before moving to stand across from her at the table.

"We have a problem." she states skipping greetings focusing solely on the maps. "The child that is the Commander is hosting a peace submit and all leaders have to go." I can't stop the rage that fills me at the mention of Heda. She betrayed me and left me my family and people all to die. "I want both of you there to show our strength and power." we both quickly agree. "Good we leave in the morning pack what you need and go to the stables." I know the Queen and the Commander hate each other but I thought something else would have made who this angry. Then again Nia doesn't like being summoned by what she calls a cowedly child.

"Of course, my queen" me and Ontari say with respect even through it makes me feel sick to follow her orders and act like she is the greatest being on the planet. Taking our leave, we head back to our rooms in silence not trusting ourselves to speak until we are completely alone.

"Are you ready for this." she asks as soon as the doors closes. Am I ready to see Lexa again. No. Am I ready to see my mom again. No. Am I ready to see everyone else I left behind. No. Do I have a choice. NO.

"No. But I'll be fine." I tell her attempting to erase her concern. "Nia won't want us talking to over people and to be at her side most of the time so It'll be ok." I'm not sure if I'm trying to convince her or myself.

"If you're sure." she says before moving to gather her gear.

I honestly don't know how I feel about seeing the people from the ark again. I left right after the destruction of Mount Weather not being able to handle seeing everyone every day and being reminded of what I had to do for them to be here. I have wondered what had become of my friends in the time I've been gone. Is Ravens leg better and how is everyone dealing with the fallout of the mountain. Is my mom still the chancellor or did Kane step up and take the job. So many questions circle in my head and I know I will bet getting those answer soon. But the one question that takes up majority of my thoughts is what will they think of being a part of Azgeda. I'm sure Lincoln has filled everyone in on the different clans so they will know how brutal and hatred Azgeda is so what will they think that I left them only to join the ice nation. Not that I had a choice but I'm sure the Queen won't want me telling them about how I was tortured until I fell I line. My mom might react badly and start a war. I can't let that happen. My people can't start fighting each other. I guess I'll have to work as a peace keeper.

Quickly I gather up the stuff I will be travelling with then join Ontari in bed for the rest of the night. We have a few hours to rest before dawn and then we're off to face my demons. Lexa invited me to the Capital Polis before the mountain and since I was captured I could never visit. Even through it's where Lexa lives I had wanted to visit it to see what the last city looked like. This is the only part of the trip I'm looking forward to. I highly doubt Nia will let me explore but I can see a lot from the tower. According to Nia the tower is huge and overlooks the whole city and the nearby woods. I packed some charcoal and paper to sketch out the sensory when I'm stuck in my room to pass time. The paper and charcoal was a gift from Ontari during the start of our private courtship. When our official one began we didn't like each other but our private one is the real relationship between the two of us.

"We'll be ok." Ontari whispers as she pulls me close resting my head on her chest. "We can deal with a trip to the Captial and then when we come back we can focus on Killing Nia and taking control of Azgeda. Then we can make this nation great again getting through this is just the start."

"I love you." I tell her sleepily with as much love as I could muster making her chuckle at my sleepiness causing her body to vibrate a little.

"I love you to Clarke." she says before laying a gentle kiss on my forehead just before I fall asleep.