It was storming when she found out. The strip turned pink- well, six strips to be exact- as the rain poured down right outside the window. When Lily looked up, it was to see two muggles running across the road, desperately trying to shield their shopping from the down pour. And when she collapsed into a chair in shock, the only thing that was in focus was the drops of rain.
How could this happen? They were always so careful! She always took her potion, she even insisted on protection when she wasn't distracted by James's hands or tongue. So how could this have come about? How could something this huge come about without them even realizing it?
And what the hell was she supposed to do now?
She could get rid of it. She wasn't sure how far along she was, but she'd had her period a little over a month ago, so she couldn't be more than a few weeks along. There was plenty of time to get rid of it. She could even do it without James knowing. After all, there was a war going on, and she wasn't about to sit out because of her 'delicate condition.' She wasn't about to let James risk his neck daily while she sat home and did nothing.
But it was a life. Even now, so early in the pregnancy, she couldn't do it. The very idea of walking into a clinic- or St. Mungo's- made her sick. She couldn't kill her baby. Unbidden, the image of a black haired baby, adorable and pudgy, with a smile just as crooked and wide as James's, sprung into her mind. And then he looked up into her eyes, and those eyes were just like James's, and she knew she could never get rid of it. Even if she did have to sit out, she would never kill her baby just so that she could fight. That was incredibly selfish. And James would hate her if she did it. She'd hate herself. She even felt a little nauseous knowing she'd considered throwing away what could possibly be the greatest thing to happen to her. She couldn't.
"Lils?" James's voice sounded from the doorway. She turned to see him standing on the threshold, clutching their dinner and looking thoroughly soaked but still incredibly handsome. It wasn't fair really, to be able to look that amazing after walking through the rain. But James always did have that gift; he looked good no matter what the case. Especially in the morning. James's sleepy face was the most adorable thing on this Earth.
The image of that little baby popped again into her mind, wearing James's sleepy face. She grinned at the image. Her arms were almost physically aching to hold him.
"Lils?" James repeated as he stepped into the house, looking worried now. Her eyes focused on his face. She stood up and went to him, rustling his wet hair and kissing him softly. He set the dinner down on the counter, preparing for a much longer greeting.
"Hello darling," she said cheerfully. He watched her warily.
"Not that I don't love to see you smile Lils, but is something going on?" He touched her cheek. Shocking James, she burst out laughing.
In fact, she doubled over laughing, taking James's hand for support. He watched her with slight alarm. "Lils, have you been drinking or something?"
"No its just- this is so insane James! It's just, insane!" She continued laughing, though she wasn't sure if she really wanted to laugh anymore or not. But it felt great to laugh, so she continued. James chuckled a few times at his wife looking ridiculous while uncontrollably laughing, but he still looked worried.
You do remember you have to go on assignment for the Order tomorrow right?" This made her stop laughing. Suddenly, she looked awkward. She stood up and studied James for a second. He could tell she was deciding whether or not to tell him something. "What? Did they contact you while I was getting us dinner? Lily, what? Why are you acting so nutty right now?"
She could tell he was worried and needed to be told, but still she hesitated. "Err…"
"Don't you dare lie to me Lily Potter. What is wrong?"
"Fine," Lily said, taking his hand. She led him to the couch. She sat down next to him, and he turned toward her, focusing all his attention on her face. She twitched self consciously under his gaze but continued. He needed to know after all. "I'm-I'm pregnant James."
James was silent for a moment, his eyebrows practically to his hairline and his mouth slightly open. Then a huge smile split across his face, slowly growing until it almost covered his entire face. "No," James said in a misty voice, staring at her in wonder.
"Yep," she replied awkwardly, not sure if she wanted him to look worried or be happy at this point.
"But- Oh my god!" He said, jumping up. She fell off the couch- her legs had been in his lap- and he immediately sat down, helping her back onto the couch. Timidly, he put a hand on her stomach. The smile crept back onto his face. "Lily Potter, are we about to be parents?"
"Well, not about. I don't even think I'm a month along. I'll go to a muggle doctor in a bit to see exactly how far along." She bit her lip, trying to compress a smile at the thought of seeing her baby on the screen.
"I can't believe this! Me, James Potter- and you, Lily Potter, parents! This is…incredible." It seemed as though that smile couldn't be wiped off his face. But then he stopped, peering at her through his glasses. "You're happy about this aren't you?"
She smiled, wondering why she hadn't before. "Yeah, I am James. I really am," she told him, and put her arms around his waist. He automatically wrapped his arms around her, and as she lay against his chest, listening to his still-raised heartbeat and hearing him say every few seconds, "a baby!" she knew that this was a good thing. A perfect thing. She and James might be young- really young- and it was a horrible time to bring a baby into this world, but well…the world would never be perfect, even though they're trying everyday to make it that way.
But this baby will be perfect. It'll have perfect messy black hair, and perfect James eyes, and a perfect little sleepy face to greet her at two in the morning when it decides to cry about nothing. Yes, it'd be absolutely perfect.
A/n: Okay, so I think there are going to be seven chapters total for this fic. It might be six, because one of the chapters is extremely difficult to write, but most likely seven. It's been fun, I hope you've enjoyed it :D. I decided to put this up early because I'm busy the next few days, so enjoy!
