Alice's POV
Jasper and the rest of the family had returned from their hunting trip now and he came up to our room, where I was laying on the bed staring , blankly at nothing. I was haunted by the fact that I was feeling jealousy, it was something I'd never in my entire exienstance encountered before, pehaps once in my human life I had but I can't remember that anyway so it's not worth spending time trying to remember.
Jasper smiled as he came in, kissing me on the cheek and then laying next to me on the bed, he didn't seem to sense my feelings right away which was weird for him, being an empaith and all. It didn't matter empaith powers working or not he knew me too well to not notice my chance in additude and it only took him a minute to relieze that something had happened while he was gone.
I can't tell him what happened beweteen me and Jacob because he would just freak out and that was the last thing I needed right now.
I broke my staring contest with nothing and sat up, Jasper looked me in the eyes
" what's wrong Alice, what happened while I was gone?" he questioned in a concered voice, with a slight edge of sispicion to it.
" nothing" I lied quickly, but knew I'd have to do better than just that " my shopping day today with Renesmee was cancled." It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth either.
I looked away quickly and sighed, Jasper sat up now
" acautlly, your right something is bothering me" I said not sure how to word it quite but I figured it had to come out sometime so why not now,
" I- I, feel like Jealous of Jacob, or something" I spoke quickly slurrng my words together in a rush.
"It's almost like I feel possisive of Renesmee or something, like she's mine to be possisive of or ... or something." I finished then stared at the bed ashamed of myself and unable to meet Jasper's most likey, ashtonished and discouraged eyes.
" It's like I WANT her to be mine to be possisive of." I finished again my voice begininng to quiver.
Jasper hadn't said a word and that made it even worse, I was sure he would be embarresed by my revelation, as if I wasn't embarassed enough for both of us.
" and I know it's not right because oviosuly Nessie isn't mine, and she never will be and it's so stupid to think that she ever could be or to hold out hope that I could ever have someone like her in my life, and I'm a bad person because Jacob is her imprinter and I shouldn't come inbeweteen that and Bella and Edwar-" He cut off my hysterrics with a short but pasisionate kiss.
" Alice it's ok to feel that way." he spoke in a calming way, with a sense of reasurrance in his voice so I couldn't not believe him.
" Renesmee is a wonderful child, but I don't think your feeling possisve of her, or obessed with her," He contiued and I looked up at him for the first time. he put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me onto his lap.
" I think you want a child of your own."
A/N OK EVERYONE WHAT DID YOU THINK? SEND ME A REVIEW AND TELL ME AND ALSO DON'T BE AFRIAD TO TELL ME MY SPELLING SUCKS AND SO DOES MY GRAMMAR, I'M A BIG GIRL I CAN TAKE IT. ANYWAY DID YOU LIKE JAPSER'S REACTION OR NOT, PLEASE TELL ME, I WAS JUST WINGING THIS CHAPTER, THE NEXT ONE WILL BE BETTER I PROMISE AND DON'T WORRY ALL THE ANGST OF PREGNANCY AND AL THAT GOOD STUFF IS COMING VERY SOON, JUST NEED TO GET THESE CHAPTERS OUT OF THE WAY FIRST TO SET THE STORY. SORRY ABOUT THE EXCESSIVLY LONGGG AUTHOR NOTE AND THANK YOU ALL FOR READING!
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