"So, what are we?" I tried to ask it casually, but I couldn't help the nervousness is my voice. I had been dying to ask this question, but I couldn't find the confidence. Now, while we were making sandwiches to snack on while having another movie marathon, I finally built up the confidence and let the words slip. It wasn't the question I was so nervous about, it was her answer that was scaring me. "What do you mean?" She was looking down and pretending to concentrate on her sandwich, but I knew what she was really doing, she was avoiding looking at me. "You know what I mean Ali, what are we? Are we a couple?" "I don't know," she said quietly, still looking down. "What do you mean you don't know? Are we dating or not?" "Look," she said walking over to me, and taking my hands, "you just got out of a relationship with Paige, and-" I interrupted her, "Ali, my relationship with Paige is over, I want to be with you!" She pushed hair out of my face and I blinked back tears. "Em, I just came back. I think everyone is having a hard enough time dealing with the fact that I'm alive. And it's hard for me too, being back. I just don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship with you, or anyone, right now," she said it slowly and quietly like I wouldn't understand. "Okay," I said as casually as I could, trying to hide the disappointment in my voice. "Em," she started, still holding me hand, I turned away and pulled my hand from hers. "No, it's okay, I get it Ali. I should go, my mom is waiting for me." I grabbed my bag and walked out the door, and as much as I hoped she would try to stop me, she didn't.