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Summary: He has loved her for years, but what would happen when he finds out she's dating someone else? KuramaxBotanxShishiwakamaru.

Not Him

Chapter 4

"Oh, my fucking god!" Shishi growled, not noticing Botan beside him who had a sweatdrop at the back of her head. He glared at the backs of the people lining up in front of them. It had been almost two hours since they started to wait in line, yet they were still at the same spot, and Shishi was losing his patience "Can't they just hurry up?" he started to complain, causing Botan to laugh.

"Shishi," she called his name, relieved when she finally gained his attention as he turned to look at her. "It's really not their fault."

The demon scowled for a moment, but a smile soon found its way to his lips as the ferry girl gave him a reassuring one. "Yeah," he agreed, nodding his head, "I guess you're right."

"You know, we don't have to do this," she said all of a sudden, and he quirked one eyebrow questioningly at her.

"What do you mean?"

"This," she pointed out, whilst tilting her head at the Ferris Wheel, "We don't have to ride it if you don't want to."

His brows formed a crease at her words. "But I thought you wanted to..."

A small laugh suddenly erupted from her throat. She punched Shishi playfully at the shoulder with her free hand, as the other one was being held too tightly for her to escape. "It's okay, really!" she told him reassuringly. "I can always go on it any day, anytime. But this is a special occasion, isn't it? And we wouldn't want to be wasting our time waiting in a line, now would we?"

Shishi's frown deepened slightly. "Yes, but..."

"Besides, there are other more fun things we could do."

He paused, before making to disagree, only to stop himself mid way when Botan sent him a warm smile that made his heart stop, beat faster, leap and all three all over again. A blush crept up his cheeks, and he quickly looked away.

"W-well, if you say so!" he said, all high and mighty to hide his nervousness. She laughed at the sight, he looked really cute when he blushed.

"Okay."

"What's going on? Why are they leaving the line?" Hiei asked, as his eyes watched the couple walked out from the line, going for an ice cream parlor nearby instead.

"I don't know, Hiei," Kurama's voice lacked any emotion as he spoke, "But, we have to follow them."

Hiei shifted his stare at his friend. "Aren't you going to do something?"

The redhead looked down at him with a weird look, to which he just responded by shooting him a death glare. "I mean, other than stalking them," Hiei said, and crossed his arms.

Kurama's face remained unreadable for awhile, and the fire demon couldn't help but wonder if he was actually thinking about a smart solution or if he was too focused on his own emotions to care.

After for what felt like forever, the fox demon finally answered, "Maybe," before dragging Hiei out of the line to continue his pursue and observation on Shishi's and Botan's date.

"They seem to be having a good time," Hiei said without meaning to, only to frown at himself when he saw Kurama flinch at his words, but he gave no response in return.

Hiei was right, Kurama couldn't help but think as he watched Botan laugh at something Shishi said, she was actually having fun. A pang of jealousy stabbed at his heart and a sense of possesiveness overcame his being, and before he knew it, he was already walking his way towards them, ignoring Hiei who was telling him to stop. He couldn't keep still anymore. He needed to tell her how he felt before he'd go insane.

But, as he was about only a few metres away from her, his hand reaching out to her, Kurama halted half way in his movements when a familiar voice reached his ears.

"Botan!"

Shit.

It was Keiko. And Yusuke.

Were they in the middle of a date too?

Kurama swiftly turned, and strolled off the other direction, just as Keiko tapped at Botan's right shoulder. He saw the ferry girl whip her head around, a huge grin brightening her features, and heard a fit of giggles escape her lips. He wanted her. He needed her. He loved her.

And he would not stand this anymore.

"We're leaving," he told Hiei simply, sliding his hands into the warm comforts of his pockets. His breathing was a little labored, and he was finding it harder and harder to keep his feelings in check.

Hiei frowned deeply, studying his friend as he made to stalk off. But, Hiei managed to stop him before he could.

"Are you backing out?" Hiei called, and Kurama's tracks came to a halt. He didn't turn around but Hiei could see him lightly tilt his head at him in regard. "You said you love her," the fire demon went on, "Are you going to just let her go?"

As the words left him, Hiei could see Kurama turn around, with a slightly offended look sported on his features. "I didn't know you were such a loser," he taunted, with a light yet mocking smirk curling at the corners of his lips, "Clearly, living in the human world for far too long has reduced you to a spineless wimp who runs at every problem he finds himself into."

As instantly as he said that, Hiei found his arm tugged harshly up in the air, the smirk on his face widening a little as he felt Kurama's claws tighten his hold around him, automatically digging into his skin. Good. He was irritated. At least, Hiei could finally read through him.

"Don't talk to me like you understand," Kurama growled, low and dangerous, as flecks of gold appeared in his usually bright emerald orbs, the demon half on him seeping through his skin and onto the surface.

Hiei tried to tug his arm out of Kurama's grasp, only to blink as his efforts were fruitless, the vice like hold Kurama had around him so tight that he couldn't break free. Unsure if he was supposed to be amused or surprised, Hiei gave the other demon a smirk. "Ha! I don't understand, you're correct in that," he snorted, and momentarily realized that it was true, for he had never fallen in love before, but he knew one thing; "At least, I don't have a habit of running away," Hiei could finally free himself out of Kurama's hold, supposing that his words finally struck something, "If you really love her, then why don't you just go after her instead of giving up just like that? Stop being such an angsty teenager or whatever, and just do something for once."

Kurama was quiet, and the dead silence that greeted Hiei unnerved him. But then, all of a sudden, he felt a small tap on his head, causing him to look up, startling him when he saw a smile on the redhead's face.

"I guess... you're right," Kurama said, slowly, smile widening as Hiei scoffed, and slapped his hand away. Hiei glared, but the effect clearly wore off as a light smile found its way fo his lips.

"Of course, I'm right."

"Just promise me something, Hiei," Kurama spoke, out of the blue, earning him a hum from the fire demon in response. "Promise me that if I succeed in making Botan mine, that you'll tell Yukina you're her brother."

He laughed as Hiei tripped on a rock and felled face first on the ground, taken off guard by his words. Crimson eyes glared up at him as the short male stood up, and dusted some dirt from his clothes. But, Kurama just smirked.

"I'm not the only one running away."

It had been hours since they accidentally crossed paths with Yusuke and Keiko, and now Botan and Shishi were sitting on a bench, taking some rest. Today was tiring. But it was lots of fun. The ferry girl couldn't help the grin that curved at the edge of her lips. Despite his words ("I'm not used to the human world, okay!") and in spite of the fact that he'd never been here as much, Shishi was actually doing quite alright. He was really an amusing guy, and very entertaining to be with. And he was charming, too, so that was a plus. But... Her smile faltered slightly... She couldn't seem to like him more than just a friend...

Why though? He had everything a girl could dream of. Good looks and a great personality. What ws so wrong with him? She didn't know for sure, but, for some reason, she just felt like he wasn't the right guy.

Suddenly, she felt a warm hand rest on hers, snapping her back into reality. Botan shifted her eyes to Shishi, surprised to see the heart stopping smile that touched his lips, and the love and care reflected in his eyes. And she couldn't help but blush beet red in embarrassment, and look away from the intensity of his gaze.

"I really had a good time, Botan," he whispered into her ear.

She paused. Wait, her ear?

Botan swiftly whipped her head, nearly falling off the bench as she realized how close his face was to hers, if he hadn't grabbed her by the waist first, preventing the fall.

"S-Shishi..." she stammered, as the handsome male chuckled at her.

"You should really be careful," he half teased and half adviced, as his fit of chuckles faded into thin air.

She looked down to her lap. "I-I know..."

A hand cupped her chin all of a sudden, pulling her head up and forcing her to look at him. Botan gulped audibly as Shishi's lips neared hers. "Shishi..."

"Botan..."

Just as she felt a light brush of his warm mouth against her upper lip, a sudden revelation hit Botan like a ton of bricks. She couldn't do this. She didn't want this. She quickly pushed him away, surprising Shishi who didn't expect some sort of rejection. She seemed to be enjoying herself, he didn't think she would...

He averted his gaze, focusing it on the ground to hide the hurt and disappointment he felt. "Sorry... I didn't mean to..."

"No, it's okay," she swiftly reassured him, as she realized that she'd hurt him. Oh, no. What did she do now? She got... scared and... it felt so wrong... but why? "I'm really sorry, Shishi. I-I really am, but I..."

"It's okay," she heard him say, but she knew it wasn't. Everything felt... weird... she felt like she shouldn't be doing this... But why was that? Everything was supposed to be perfect...

Simple. Because,

She didn't love him.

A flash of red hair.

Bright, soft, emerald eyes.

His heart stopping smile.

The sound of his sweet voice...

"Botan."

She shook her head to get rid of the images from her head. No. Why was she thinking about him?

Kurama...

Don't. Stop. Just go away.

But try as she might, Botan couldn't shake off the nagging feeling at the back of her head that told her that Kurama meant more than just a friend to her. Although, he was. He was her best friend. Nothing more, nothing less. She couldn't possibly have any feelings for him! Not when she was on a date with someone else...

...Right?

A/N: Ok, I realized I haven't been updating this story and my other one (which is, Fourteen Days, by the way), and I am so very sorry for that! It's just very difficult to do, when you have a writer's block... anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed this! Review when you have the time! I'd really appreciate it! Next chapter coming out... (soon, I hope).