Ponyboy and I never got along. Not that well at all. I would always be crying in my room, waiting for Sodapop to come in and protect me from him. I would be scared to talk to Ponyboy. But why would I feel that way? Not only he was my brother, but he was my twin! I sat there, thinking like this was all of my fault. I didn't deserve this, nobody does.
I couldn't believe that those dumb socs jumped him, coming to think of it. That jerk Sherri, Cherry whatever. I bet she was in on all of this, I bet she tricked Ponyboy to come to school, just so they can jump him. What a jerk! I couldn't hold in my anger towards her, I've known Cherry as a soc. Not a friend, not a cheerleader, a soc. And you know what? I trusted her.
And you know what she did? She took my trust, and she threw it away like it was a piece of junk! I couldn't believe it, not only I was feeling sad that Ponyboy was hurt, but I was angry and sad that she would betray me like that. I sigh and pet Ponyboy's head. I can hear as he tries to talk, it reminds me of when Johnny died. It started bringing back bad memories. Johnny was one of my best friends.
He was Ponyboy's best friend as well, more of a brother. I remember sitting in the hospital room, looking at Johnny, I saw that he was suffering. I saw Dally, I saw how broken and how much in pain he was in. Johnny passed on, to a better place, his family gave him a hard time. So he would always hang out at my place. I went home after Johnny died, and soon got the news that we had to hide Dally. I can't tell you how much I ran, it felt like my legs were about to fall off my body. I got there, but it was too late, he was dead.
I've lost lots of loved people. My parents, Johnny, Dally, so on. And I don't want to lose Ponyboy, not now, not at this age, I'm too young. I was too young to loose my parents, to loose my loved ones. Why does this happen? I couldn't handle life, not really, never did. I never got the concept of what life was about. Is it about falling in love? Is it about being in pain and grief for a long time.
I sit there and look down at Ponyboy's head, I kiss him on the head. I look up, and it was pitch black. I was getting freezing, my body was freezing to death. I suddenly see something, it looked like a towel. I lay Ponyboy down, he curled up in a ball and started shivering. I ran over towards the towel, and it was a towel. I picked it up and brung it over. I sat down and wrapped it around me.
I couldn't help but shiver, I see Ponyboy, I see how much he was shivering. Although I was shivering much more, it hurt me to see him like this. I take the towel off, quickly feeling the breeze coming over me, I place it on top of Ponyboy and he embraces it, like he used to embrace his little teddy bear when we were younger. I chuckle at my thoughts, I suddenly see a light, it was a car light. I look over, I covered my eyes, it hurt.
''Sodapop? Is that you?'' I thought to myself.
They stopped, and it made a big screeching sound. My vision started coming back, it wasn't a truck, it was a mustang.