Moving on chapter 4

Spending my life in the library

When I walked in to the great hall and sat down with James and Rose, I know people was going to stair but I didn't think it would annoy me as much as it did. The only reason it annoyed me as much as it did was because it was Scorpius who was the one staring at me, this pissed me off, I did get an odd look here and there but they instantly look away when I looked at them but the hole way through the well come back speech he wouldn't take his eyes off me, I know instantly this year was going to be harder than I had thought. When the fest started I still didn't feel like eating so I just sat there in silence.

"What's up lily don't you like what you see" said Rose trying to get me to eat. When we left for the train she promised my mum to look out for me and now she was trying to keep that promise. but she was right, I don't like what I see, all I can see is him in my head when I close my eyes, in my dreams, everywhere was him and those three words that fallow close behind 'you look cheap'. Why did I do this? Uncle Ron was right I was being weak but how do I get over him, I could still feel his eyes burning a hole into the back off my head.

"He staring at me" I whispered Rose was the only one who heard, she looked past me and looked right at the Slytherin table.

"Yes he is but it because you look amazing, he is only doing it because he is gutted he can't have you" said Rose trying to cheer me up, I know this was a lie he was right.

"No I don't, I look cheap" when Dumbledore dismissed everyone I got up and walked away as fast as I could out of the great hall, I know that I could go to my dorm but I need some time to think. So I went straight to the library as I walked it the strong smell of fresh books hit me and I smiled, I loved this smell, it always makes my mood a bit lighter. I took after my mum and my Auntie a lot they loved reading. I walked over to the muggle section they had and grabbed a book and sat down at the table and began to read.

"Come on lily let's get you back to the common room" it was Rose she really was trying to look after me. Even though she is two years older than me she still treats me like her best friend not her little annoying cousin. I got up and she took my arm and led me to the common room she then sat with me in my dorm in till I feel asleep.

Two weeks had past and I had found myself in the library almost every night. I haven't spoken to any off my friends, I just kept to myself. I write to mum and dad telling them I am fine and happy but I know they know I was not telling them the truth. Rose was telling Untie Hermione that I wasn't fine. Albus had his first quitted match yesterday and was extremely pissed when he found out I didn't turn up to it. I promised I would I have only seen Scorpius twice since the train journey and that was only because I chose to not face the Slytherin table when I go to meals and always leave about 10 mints earlier then everyone else.

Rose talks to me once a day and is really happy with me at the moment because I have handed my home work in on time or before time and keep getting house points for being hard working. Rose say that this Friday she is taking me hogsmead and treating me to a meal so that's a bouncer, but yet I am still having dreams about him and yes I know it's nearly been a month but I can't help it I loved him (still loves him).

As I sat in the library for another night running, I heard footsteps probable Rose on her normal daily check-ups. So I just kept my head down and pretended to read my book as I sat there and waited I wondered what to say today yesterday she was pissed with me for not turn up to Albus game. Why should I? He plays for slytherin and I am in Gryffindor then the footsteps got louder. Shit what to say I normally speak first ok got it don't speak wait for her for once that might help.

"Miss potter, I see that you are once again in the library" I was shocked it was prefacer Marginable she smiled at me warmly and waited for me patiently to answer her, I looked up at the old but wise witch and smiled.

"Prefacer" was all I could say I was in so much shock.

"Miss Potter would you like to come with me to my office" oh no I was in trouble but I didn't do anything.

"But prefacer I haven't done anything, I swear" I said collecting my books and putting them into my bag.

"Just come with me Miss Potter" I did as she said but I had a bad feeling about it, I couldn't believe even though I had kept my head down and stayed out of people's way I was still getting sent to the head teacher's office.

As I walked into prefacer marginable office I was still trying to think off what I had done and I know mum was going to kill me. She would probable send me a howler tomorrow when she finds out, she will flip. As I sat down I couldn't help but think of what mum would say, 'LILY LUNA POTTER HOW DEAR YOU DO THIS TO OUR FAMILY, YOU DAD WILL HEAR ABOUT THIS' and it would go on and on about how Rose and al are so good behaved and she don't know how I went wrong.

"Miss potter, why do you looked so worried?" asked a older voice, I looked up to see Uncle Ron standing before me. I couldn't help but jump up and hug him, I then let go and looked puzzled at my amazing Uncle.

"Why are you here?" I asked with a confused expression on my face.

"I sent a letter to your mum saying I was worried about you, i think that you need to spend the next couple of weekends at home with your family because you're not very happy here. I think you need some time away from school" said prefacer marginable with a worm concerned smile, that's women know everything. I wonder sometimes if she could read minds. "As you know Friday Is tomorrow and I think after dinner you should come straight to my office, your Uncle will be here to floo you home"

"Lily is this ok with you? You don't have too" asked Uncle Ron, I wanted to go home and spend some time with mum, dad and Uncle Ron. It was just I promised to go to hogsmead with Rose but I am sure she would be fine with me going home.

"Of course I'm fine about it, this will do me some good" I replied giving both adults a small smile feeling silly for coursing so much trouble.

"Ok I will see you tomorrow then at six o'clock" said Uncle Ron giving me a small kiss on the head and big hug before walking to the fire place and leaving me standing there with my Prefacer.

"You free to go, goodbye Miss Potter" I smiled at Prefacer marginable.

"Thank you Prefacer Marginable" I said before turning on the heels of my feet and walking out of her office. I suddenly got pulled into a embrace, I looked to see Roses ginger hair and a light smile hit my face as I put my arms around her.

"Thank god you're not in too much trouble I went to the library to find you. You know like I have been doing when I get there you was not there, I then started to panic when I got told by a Ravenclaw that Prefacer Marginable took you to her office, I was so worried" said Rose realising me from her embrace .As we started to walk to the Gryffindor tower I looked at rose and decided to tell rose about the conversation I had with prefacer marginable and Uncle Ron i.e. Roses dad so that she would know that she could relax on the weekends about worrying about me.

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