Chapter 4 – Haunted

APOV

I wake up with tears running down my face my heart is pounding in my chest and I'm breathing fast. Its 04:30am I can't take this anymore remembering it is painful enough but I feel like I'm reliving it in my dreams and I can't do that. I'm still grieving for the baby I lost but I think I always will I just know how to deal with it now. I sit up and feel the sudden urge to pee as I try and get out of bed without disturbing Christian, "Ana? Are you okay" he says in a panic. Well I failed at that.

"Yes I'm fine I just need to pee your son is on my bladder" I joke. He crawls over to my severely protruding belly and holds it with two hand and kisses it. "Now son what have I told you your mother's bladder is not a toy". I can't help but laugh which doesn't help my situation. I kiss Christian and get up and walk to the bathroom. I look in the mirror my eyes have dark circles around then telling me what I already know, I need more sleep. My dreams are occurring more often now I think it's the worries of having 4 weeks until my due date it's brought it all back to me. I should already have a baby in my arms instead I'm carry my second one. The thought doesn't affect me as must as it used to but I know how to deal with It know and I know that my heart will always belong my baby that I'll never meet. As I finish my pee my baby kicks me, I cannot describe how amazing it feels to feel him move and grow inside me and I cannot wait to meet him. I need to see Dr Flynn I need to get as much rest as I can now so when my baby gets here I am as rested as can be. I walk back over to my bed and climb In Christian is still awake waiting for me to return.

"That was a long pee" he jokes and I laugh.

"Christian I was thinking could you call Flynn and ask him if he can see me in the morning"

He looks worried "Why? What's the matter?" he stops "You can tell me" he looks sad.

"It's nothing really, I've just been having nightmares that keep waking me I feel so tired all the time. I just want to see if Flynn can help stop them I really want to be rested for when the baby arrives"

He looks relived "Of course I will baby. Did you want to tell me about them as well?" I can tell he wants to know.

"I've just been dreaming of what happened with Hyde and then losing the baby and it makes me nervous" I say honestly.

"Baby everything is going to be alright" he says to reassure me

"I know" I say smiling.

"So let's get you rested then baby" he says pulling me close to his chest this is where I feel the safest, right here.

In the morning I wake up and react over to Christian he's not there, but there's a piece of paper.

Darling wife

I had to leave for work early so I can make it back in time to take you to see Flynn I booked you in for 11:00. I'll see you then baby.

I love you.

Christian xx

I smile reading it I miss him when he goes to work. I decide to go to the kitchen to get some food and feed my hungry little boy. As I waddle to the kitchen as apparently that's my only way of walking now, I see Gail unpacking the shopping

"Good morning darling how are you feeling today?" she's always so caring.

"I feel like a penguin more and more with all the waddling I'm doing" I laugh

"Ahh well it'll all be worth it when he's here" she says with a smile

"I can't wait" I say /excitedly.

"Are you hungry? Would you like some breakfast?"

"Yes please I'm starving as usual" I laugh again.

"What would you like?"

"Hmm I fancy a fruit salad with pancakes"

"Then that's what I'll make"

"Thank you Gail" I say genuinely. She's been a god send these past few months.

"Go sit down in the living room and rest your feet darling ill bring it in when it's ready"

"Thank you again Gail" as I walk out of the room I feel my baby boy kick again.

"You're an active one today aren't you" I say as I rub my belly.

I sit down and put some telly on. Before I know it Gail's waking me up

"Ana darling I've got your breakfast"

"Ooh thank you Gail. I must have dozed off I've been so tired lately and sleeping isn't easy with this little one". I take the plate that Gail is passing "This looks lovely". As I take my first bite "mmmmm, that's good" I love food so much more now I'm pregnant Christian is loving it.

After I finish my breakfast I go to have a shower, people have been commenting on my Pregnancy glow but really it's just sweat there's no way of putting it. When I get out the shower I go to my wardrobe and pick something to wear I decide on a long sleeve grey top with leggings. Oh my god legging are a life saver in pregnancy I couldn't think of anything worse than trying to cram all this into a pair of jeans. I put on some dolly shoes as well heels are a big no no. I go back to the bathroom to put on my make I am blessed that I have had bad skin in my pregnancy I've read the common. Once I've done my face I dry my hair into light curls. "Ah Hem" I hear from the door.

"How long have you been there" I ask Christian, he's standing leaning on the door way.

"Long enough to see my gorgeous wife look amazing" I blush.

"Are you ready baby?" he ask holding out his hand.

I reach out to "Yep it was a long battle but I'm ready" I laugh.

"You look beautiful" he says kissing my cheek.

We make our way out to the car where Taylors standing "Good afternoon Taylor" I say smiling.

"Good after noon Mrs Grey" he say nodding with a slight smile. He opened the door as Christian help cram all of me in.

Were on our way to see Flynn were about 2 minutes away. "Did you want to go out for lunch after we see Flynn?" he asks looking at me. As soon as I hear the word lunch my stomach growls.

"That baby of yours is always hungry" I say laughing.

"What my son wants my son gets" he says kissing my bump.

As we pull up outside Christian comes round to open the door for me and I slide out,

"There we go" I say amused "Who knew getting out of a car could be so much fun" I say smiling

"Quite the comedian today aren't we Mrs Grey" he says smirking.

As we walk/waddle into his office we are greeted by Flynn. "Good After noon Ana, Christian"

"Good afternoon" I say back politely.

"How are you feeling Ana you look lovely"

"Thank you Dr Flynn" I say smiling.

"So Christian says you've been having nightmares frequently"

Nodding "Yeah they wake me up regularly, I usually wake u crying, breathing heavily and my heart is pounding".

"Okay what are these dreams about specifically?" he asks getting straight to the point.

"Well they are usually like memories of the attack I wake up just as I pass out, and then in hospital after waking up then I using wake up after I've been told I've lost my baby"

"Okay do they feel real or just like memories?

"They feel real like I'm living it again. When I wake up my hearts racing and im crying"

"How often do you talk about your ordeal?".

It takes a while for me to answer because I'm trying to think when we last spoke about it, "we haven't really spoken about it, were so busy if we're not talking about our day were talking about our baby." I stop.

"Ana? What are you thinking right now?" he say curiously

"I think I feel guilty" I say sad.

"Why do you feel guilty?"

"We are so excited about our baby boy that we've put all of that behind us, including our baby" I say realizing it's been the guilt of forgetting to talk about my baby only a year after we lost him.

"Christian? Do you feel guilty?" I look at Christian as he asks. He's face just frowns.

"I do, I think about what he would look like what he would be like all the time when I'm alone. But when I see Ana I miss her so much working and I get so excited about meeting my son we do forget to talk" I look at him amazed he thinks of all that.

"too be honest Ana I think that's what your dreams are triggered by, your heavily pregnant you have all that extra stress on your body your naturally exhausted and subconsciously you still need that reminder".

"I think your right I feel so much better talking already, I can't wait to sleep tonight now" I say happily.

"So how long do you have until you drop" he asks amused.

"About 4 ½ weeks" I say excitedly

"And do you have a name yet?" I look at Christian when he asks that, he smiles and nods.

"Were calling him Theodore Raymond Grey" I say smiling ear to ear.

"What a wonderful name I'm so happy for you both honestly I am" he says smiling.

Just then my stomach lets out an almighty grumbling. "I think we better go our baby's hungry" Christian says laughing.

"Yes we best" I agree.

"Well thank you for coming in be sure to let me know when he makes an appearance" he says hugging me and shaking Christian's hand.

"Will do" Christian says happily. He trusts Flynn so much.

Walking out towards the car I notice a car not too far behind with a camera.

"Christian there's paparazzi over there" he looks over and nods to Taylor "don't worry baby they just want to see your beautiful face" as we get into the car I hear Taylor on the phone.

"Sawyer. Yes. Meet us at prezzos there's going to be paparazzi there" he puts the phone down. I don't know what makes a sweaty pregnant lady so exciting to paparazzi but since I've been showing they have been crazy, trying to get pictures at every moment. As we reach Prezzos Taylor was right to call Sawyer Paparazzi are everywhere. "Are you ready" Christian says holding my hand kissing it, I nod. "Let me get out first I'll walk round and come get you" just as he gets out the car I hear everyone screaming my name "ANASTASIA!" "ANA "MRS GREY!" wow that's crazy. Taylor opens my door and Christian helps me out and puts his arm around my waist Taylor closes the door and walks on the other side of me and sawyer is making a path. "ANA!" "OVER HERE!" "LOOK AT ME" "ANA YOUR FAT" "GOLD DIGGER OVER HERE" "ANA" I feel Christians grip tighten in anger at what they're saying I look at him "It's okay" I say quickly. "IS IT A BOY OR GIRL?" why is everyone so interested. As we make it to the door I can't see as I'm blinded by all the flashes of their cameras. We get a booth and sit down. "It angers me when they say shit like that to you" I says angry.

"Christian its okay they only want a reaction from us but they won't get it will they" I say asking to make sure I'm right,

"No they won't" he says like a child pouting.

We had a lovely lunch I am so full I think my baby will be full for a while too after that. We get up to leave through the chaos again as we walk out they start again "ANASTASIA!" "ANA "MRS GREY!" "OVER HERE!" "LOOK AT ME" "ANA" "IS IT A BOY OR GIRL?" were walking slowly when I fell someone pull on my hair to get my attention but they pull too hard and pull me back off my feet "Ahh!" I scream grabbing my hair. I try and get my footing but I can't I start to fall down when Christian and Taylor catch me "SAWYER!" Christian shouts as they pull me back to my feet before I touch the ground thank god. I look around and sawyer has the man who grabbed me in an arm lock. Christian looks angry he goes to walk over once I'm up "Sir Sawyer can handle this I think we better get Mrs Grey home" Taylor says knowing exactly what I'm thinking, a reaction. As we get into the car Christian is so angry I can see it in his eyes. He looks back out the window and goes for the handle. "Christian Stop!" I shout at him.

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