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Miley walked on the sidewalk arms wrapped around her body, she ditched her smoothie, only drinking half of it. Her stomach felt bad enough, she didn't think something sweet would help. "Miley!" Miley lifted her head after hearing her name out in the distance. She turned around to see a wave a blonde hair, and instantly new it was Lilly. She smiled on the inside. Okay, Lilly does care for her as much as she does no reason to think otherwise. But why did she come back?
Miley turned around completely and waited for the blonde, putting her hand in her pockets. Every time she would see Lilly and Oliver together she just felt better when she was alone, course she loves Lilly, but sometimes it's nice for her to clear her mind. When the blonde finally caught up to her she put on a real smile. "Lils? What are you doing here?"
Lilly leaned forward on her knees trying to catch her breath. "I came…to see…if…you…were all right?" Air finally filling the blonde's lungs she stood up straighter. Miley smiled.
"Of course I'm okay, you didn't have to come back, leave Oliver, to check on me." Lilly looked down her cheeks flushing again. If possible Miley's smile grew bigger. She walked forward and took Lilly's hand giving it a light squeeze. "But I'm glad you did." Lilly looked up and smiled in return at the brunette. Miley let her hand slip out of Lilly's and Lilly took notice to how soft her hands were, especially for a guitar player. Miley kept walking forward and turned around to notice Lilly was not right next to her. Miley laughed. "Aren't you comin?" Lilly blinked out of her trance and giggled herself, sprinting up towards Miley.
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The two made their way silently to the front of Miley's driveway. "Well, thanks for the walk home Lils."
Lilly's head perked up. To her it sounded like Miley was clearly making a good bye. Why? She would always go inside, even if she was thousands of feet away, Miley would always welcome her into her home. Lilly did not like the feeling that Miley was turning her away, again. "Miley is everything alright?"
Miley rolled her eyes and smiled. "Yes Lil, I told you everything is fine, I just like to be alone sometimes. Is that okay?"
Lilly looked down and kicked at rock that was in the driveway. "Well, yeah I guess, there's nothing wrong with that. I just-I don't know."
Lilly silently cursed herself. She started to have all different kinds of feelings around Miley, since they kissed. Miley folded her arms and figure she give Lilly what she wanted. "What is it that you want to ask me Lil?"
Lilly swayed her hands behind her back and hooked her fingers together. "Just, why did you not accept that guy's offer, y'know the one who asked you out?" Miley blinked. What was she to tell Lilly? 'I'm still hung up on you?' That would not be good. 'If feels like I'm cheating on you if I do.' That would sound weird, considering they were never together. Miley bit on her lower lip as she tired to think of a good excuse. "Miley?"
"Uh…well Lils, to be honest he was like Jake Ryan, but with dark brown hair. Y'know, the egotistical, cocky, I'm better than everyone else, I'm the hottest person around, attitude."
That was the best excuse she could think. And making a comparison to Jake Ryan would be perfect, knowing that both girls now hated him. "Oh." Lilly said it flat and quietly, while turning her attention back down to the ground.
To Miley, her answer did not sound good enough. Lilly sounded…disappointed? What did Lilly have to feel disappointed about? "W-why?" Miley tilted her head and raised an eyebrow.
Lilly lifted her head, quickly this time. 'Why?' She never thought Miley would ask that. "Uh," Lilly looked around nervously. 'Why?' well she didn't know herself. "I don't know I guess I just thought that…um….may-maybe it had to do with…me?"
Lilly raised her right hand and brought it to the back of her head, pretending to scratch it. "You?"
Miley did not like where this conversation was going. "Yeah, well I thought that, you turned down him and so many other guys' was because you were still hung up on me, silly though right." Lilly laughed, trying to ease the awkwardness.
"Ye-yeah, silly." Miley now looked down as Lilly stared at her, mustering up a weak laugh. Had she given Lilly the wrong idea? Did she want Lilly to have to wrong idea? Did she want Lilly to pretend that she did not like her anymore? That she did actually move on.
Lilly took notice in Miley's change in behavior. "Miles? Y-you don't-I mean you don't still have feelings for me do you?" Lilly did not know why but for some reason she wished Miley was still hung up on her.
"I uh…" Miley looked down and felt tears forming in her eyes. Her throat constricted, making her voice hoarse and small. "I'm trying Lilly, I really am."
Miley looked up and knew her eyes were red and glassy. Lilly's eyebrows knitted together and her eyes should sorrow in them. What was she to do? Her and Miley could never be, that is why they aren't together, and she is with Oliver. That is how it should be. But what if she herself wanted to be with Miley? "Oh Miles."
Before Miley knew what hit her she saw the blonde of Lilly's hair and her arms wrapped around her neck. Miley instinctively wrapped her arms around the blonde's waist and buried her head into the crook of Lilly's neck. "I'm sorry Lils. I'll do better, promise."
Lilly took one hand and stroked Miley's chestnut hair. "It's okay Miles, I'm sorry too. Especially the way Oliver has been acting." Miley shut her eyes and a few tears slipped passed. Miley came to the conclusion that Oliver liked the fact that he could showcase Lilly right in front of her, it was a fun game to him, to mess and hurt Miley's feelings. "I know you are trying and you will, but it has to stop." Lilly froze. Her last words came out harsh. She panicked. Why did she say that? Was it out of fear? Fear of what? The fact that she might actually reciprocate Miley's feelings? Did that scare her?
Miley's heart stopped in her chest. The last five words rang in Miley's ears. Miley felt Lilly's forcefulness in her words and it struck her heart like a dagger. Miley slowly slide out of Lilly's grasp. Maybe she was wrong, maybe their friendship was one-sided, and Lilly was still her friend out of pity. "I don't think so. What if I can't huh? What if the fact that I can't move on and still like you means that we are truly meant to be together? What if we are soul mates Lil?" Tears fell freely from Miley's eyes now. She was taking a risk, a big one. "I don't think I will ever get over you Lilly, I-I love you Lils," Miley stared intensely into Lilly's soft blue eyes. "B-but I guess that is not enough is it? I'm sorry, I'll move on. I promised. I promised and I will do it. Just know that I will always love you."
Miley turned and walked away up into her house. And Lilly just stood there and watched her go.
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Miley entered her house with a sob and right after she closed the door bolted her way up to her room. She jumped onto her bed, grabbed her pillow, and cried into to, muffling out her cries. There was a knock on her door, and she prayed it was not Lilly. "Darlin'?" Robbie Ray made his way over to his daughter. He could no longer stand, her pain and distance, and decided to but in. "Silly question but, are you alright Bud?"
Miley was grateful it was her Father. He was her safety net, her rock, someone she could always count on. She loved her Father more than anything. He let her be Hannah Montana, let her do anything her heart desired, and followed her one hundred percent. But would he still care if she told him how she felt? "… Daddy." Miley lifted herself from her pillow and lunged into her Dad's arms. Gripping his shirt and crying into his chest.
"Shhhh its okay baby girl, take your time I'm here, I'm right here for you darlin'. Its okay, it's okay." Robbie Ray hugged his daughter and stroked her hair. Whatever was wrong with his daughter it was something major. He wanted to help, do whatever he could to take the pain away. Help her anyway possible.
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Miley finally finished her crying. She sniffed and pulled away from her Father wiping her eyes and her nose. "Now tell me what is troubling you Bud?"
Miley licked her lips and looked away. How could she tell her Father that she was in love with a girl? It's not something you do everyday. Everyone is always used to the same old ending. Prince Charming and his Damsel in Distress get happily married. Why couldn't fairytales mimic reality? Never once was there a child's story about someone liking the same sex. Why couldn't there be one? Why did the world and society have to decide everything for you? It makes you feel miserable, in a way they are belittling you. Making you feel different, wrong, that you are a sin. That it was and should never be right. What kind of message is that to kids?
"Now darlin' you are going to have to tell me sooner or later. Everybody is worried about you. And I can no longer take. Just spill your guts out darlin' you'll feel better." Robbie Ray rubbed his daughter's back to calm, and reassure her.
Miley took in a deep breath before letting it out slowly. "Okay. But do you promise that after what I say you won't change how you feel about me? That you will see me as I am now and still like me?"
Robbie Ray actually felt hurt and disappointed. In all his years as a Father he hoped he gave the message to his kids that they could come to him for anything and no matter what still love them. "Miley Ray Stewart, you know very well with whatever decisions you make I'll always support and love you. Nothing you say or do could change that."
"I know Daddy, but so many people say that, but it ends up not being true. Es-especially with this issue that I have." Miley looked down. She felt ashamed that she would have to ask her Father that.
"Okay darlin', if you feel that way, just remember I'm not many people, I'm your Father. A Father should always support and love their kids. I promise." Miley felt better almost reassured. She smile lightly and began to tell her story. At the end Miley avoided her Father's gaze and tears where falling from her eyes. "Miley." Miley looked up, hesitantly, at her Father. "Did you honestly believe I would desert you?"
Miley hiccuped slightly before shrugging. "I don't know, it's just that it's such a big deal, with everyone and after people confess what they feel a lot of people turn them away and do not accept them, I was worried, scared Dad. You are important to me, and I love you so much, you gave me so much I just didn't want to let you down, and I thought that if I told you, you would be so mad and-"
"Miley, Miley, calm down." Miley was starting to talk faster with every passing word and it was getting to be trouble for him to understand his daughter. "I will never be mad or upset. You are my baby girl and I love you. Sweetheart I taught you to follow your heart, follow your dreams, and that is exactly what you are doing. I could never turn you away."
Miley sniffed again and leaned into her Father's embrace. "Thanks Daddy, you have know idea how much better I feel."
"I'm always here for ya darlin' always." Robbie Ray squeezed his daughter tightly for a moment before relaxing.
"I know Daddy, but what do I do about Lilly?" Miley turned her head and looked up at her Father, hoping for an answer.
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Okay, well that was that. What do you think? What does Miley do about Lilly? What is Lilly feeling? Till then. :)