AT LAST I'M ALIVE... gomen (1000x) for being so late on updating this fic. I actually have this chapter typed up a few months ago but alas got distracted again and add to that we got excited about goung to Anime North. My sister saw this fanfic contest... at first I was undecided on submitting a fic or not but she had this good idea though I ended up writing most of it TT... the due date finished about a month ago, and mine just got in, just in the nick of time... err I mean entries (since they limited it to either first 50 entries or the due date and guess what, on the due date, it reached over 50 entries. Mine got in as the 45th story)
For anybody curious, that story is AnimeZing Race. I just posted the first 4 chapters. Please chk it out and (as usual) review are mostly apreciated. Thx to those you reviewed me, esp Ri-kun. I finally see what your saying about the tenses (somehow), I was very critical with the AnimeZing Race fic that it took me more than 2 months to finish it and I was always checking for any gramatical errors... though I apologize in advance since this chapter is still not that proofread though, I'll be working on improving my tenses on the next chapters...
Disclaimer: none of the characters are mine... except Yukinari and Yukina... so far (I guess)
Edit I just edited the first 4 chapters and made some minor changes or added some minor thing. I noticed the mistakes that I made and made the changes. I would also like to apologize for it has been a while sine I updated this fanfic. I have chapter 5 planned out and on the works to be typed up and chapter 6 is partially planned. Thx for the readers of this fanfic (smile)
CONFUSED HEART, UNDECIDED HEART
Track 4: Family
"Are you serious?" asked the surprised singer. "How could that happen? I don't remember – " Shuichi gasped, looking back at Yuki. Yuki already thought of it, moments after they were told the reason they can't marry.
"Excuse us." Yuki escorted Shuichi out the building and back to the car. "You said your mom asked you to come today when you asked her about your name. They may be able to answer this. What time are you supposed to meet them?" Yuki said, calm outside but a total wreck inside. He can't give in to his panic for someone needs to be in control, he had always been the thinker in their relationship, Shuichi was more of a doer.
"Lunch, its 10 am now, I can call and see if I can make it earlier." Shuichi flipped his phone open and dialed his parent's home number. "Mom, it's kind of an emergency. Can we come and talk? I just found something out and I need an explanation. I have a feeling both you and dad can answer it, even Maiko," a bit of silence, "I'm at the registry… okay meet you in 10 minutes."
"Let's go. The sooner we talked to them the sooner we can clear this whole mess up." Yuki just nodded and drove to Shuichi's parent's house.
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"Where are you?" She sighed, hating what she's doing to her son. "You can come here now; we're actually just waiting for you. We need to talk about a lot of things."
After the call, she came back to the living room. "He'll be here earlier than expected. I don't know if we, I, can do this. He just found his happiness…" She sat beside her husband and started crying on his shoulder.
"I know, but we've talked about this since Yuki came here to ask for our blessing."
"I know, but – "
"Shhh, we've had years to get ready for this. I think it's harder for her." He said nodding toward another person in the room. She's sitting with Maiko apparently nervous. "I just hope this will not turn into another disaster." Everybody agreed but can't help feeling that it has always been a disaster since that fateful night.
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"You ready?" Shuichi asked, anxious to get it, whatever it is, over with. He hesitated pressing the doorbell. Yuki being strong for Shuichi pressed it for him.
Maiko answered the door. "Shuichi we've been wait–" She stopped upon seeing Yuki by her brother's side. "Yuki, I didn't expect you'd be with him…"
"I wasn't going to be here but imagine my surprise when we went to the registry this morning. I know you know something about what's happening and I need to learn what it is."
"Yes, we won't deny it; we've been trying to get the good opportunity to try opening part of his forgotten – unwanted – past." Shuichi's parents said, they are behind Maiko waiting for them to come in. "Please come in, we can talk better in the living room."
There was huge uncomfortable silence once everyone is seated. Shuichi and Yuki are sitting together on a loveseat, sitting so close together that another person can sit with them, holding each other's hand. Shuichi's parents and Maiko are sitting across them on the couch, waiting who will break the silence.
Yuki let them gather their thoughts for a few minutes, knowing that they hold the answer to his and Shuichi's future. When he can no longer stand the silence, Yuki broke the silence with a question. "Is Shuichi really married?"
The three looked at each other and with nod from her father Maiko answered for them. "Yes. He was," she saw Shuichi's eyes fill with hope and hated herself when she continued, "and still married." She saw Shuichi's face fell with the gravity of what she confirmed. Shuichi and Yuki can't get married.
Yuki slammed his fist against the coffee table between them, making everybody in the room jump including Shuichi. "Then why? Why did all of you give your blessing knowing that I can't marry him?"
The three across him just looked at each other, wanting the other to spill it out. But another voice answered for them. "Because I said so," said a young woman from the doorway. "Pardon me for butting in dad but I can no longer stand it. You said I should just wait but all three of you are making it harder for everybody." Shuichi's dad nodded.
"Excuse me, I think I've met you before but who are you?" Shuichi asked.
The young woman sighed, "You still don't remember. I was expecting that. I'm Shinichi Yukinari; your wife."
Shuichi gasped and held Yuki's hand tighter. Yuki squeezed his hand back in reassurance. "Yukinari… you had a dream about that person."
"When?"
"Same night I proposed. Remember, I shook you awake and asked you about a Yukinari."
"Yeah, I remember about you waking me up and asking me about it but I can't remember about a dream." Shuichi tried hard to remember, feeling that it is urgent for him to remember, suddenly a piercing pain sliced through his head. He groaned and doubled over, hands on his head.
"What's happening?" Yuki asked as he held Shuichi against his side, worried about him.
"Shuichi, stop it…. " Maiko said but Shuichi continued squirming in pain, "SHUICHI STOP IT! I SAID STOP IT! Stop trying to remember anything. We'll tell you everything we know." Maiko pleaded to her brother.
Shuichi tried it; somehow the pain receded but was so exhausted that he needed to lie on Yuki's lap. His mom brought him a glass of water.
Caressing Shuichi's hair, calming Shuichi and himself, Yuki decided that he waited too long and will settle for nothing but everything about this situation being cleared out, NOW. "Explain from the very beginning, I want the truth now." Yuki said in his coldest voice.
Yukinari took over. She told them everything she knows from the start, on the tight friendship they had with Hiro, their junior and high school years. They got married as soon as Shuichi got his college degree when asked, she told them it was when both of them graduated high school. When asked to explain further, she explained what a genius Shuichi was, that he had an uncanny ability to be successful at anything he set his mind to. His parents knew about him being a genius, a prodigy, but also found out that it would be most advisable to let him go through normal school stages.
His parents watched a show where the child was 'the world's smartest boy' but later study found him wanting on some areas because he skipped too much in school. So what his parent's did is to have him attend high school but also take online courses for a college degree in a well-known university. That is why when he graduated high school he also graduated college at the top of his class for both. After that he took over managing both of their families' company. They had good marriage during the first year but started getting rocky after that. Then one day something happened that he had an episode and ended up forgetting anything that is connected to Yukinari.
"You must have done something wrong then." Yuki said.
"Yuki don't say that" Shuichi said, surprised at what Yuki was saying. He is still having a hard time digesting all the things Yukinari told them.
"No, Shuichi its okay." She turned to Yuki, "I did something wrong to him that I can never forgive myself. That's why when Shuichi woke up in the hospital after his episode; I swore that I will do everything I can to make him happy.
We were advised not to force him to remember me, that is the reason why I decided to remove myself from him. Mom and Dad, your parents, were against it but they can see it was hard for everybody. We swore that once we can see you're ready for the truth or you somehow found out something about then it we will tell you about your missing memory, or at least what we know of it, hence the meeting today.
As for the blessing thing, I've heard from his parents and Maiko what you did that day asking for their blessing. I also follow your story on the news, so I know what's going on. So I told them that it's okay to give them their blessing, they wanted to give their blessing but they just wanted to check with me first. When the time comes I will gladly sign divorce papers or whatever to make it work for both of you."
"You'll do that for me?" Shuichi asked. At Yukinari's nod, "Since we were, are," Shuichi corrected himself, "married that means we cared or loved each other, why would you do such a thing as divorcing me. Don't you love me anymore? Is that why I had that episode?"
"I did love you, I still care about you. That is why I'm doing this, don't you see. I did something wrong, extremely wrong, to you and I want to make everything right by you. If it means divorcing you so that you can marry the one you love then I will do that."
"Thank you… I guess." Shuichi said
"If you don't mind me asking, what is this 'extreme wrong' that you made to Shuichi?" Yuki asked.
Before Yukinari can answer Yuki's question, a small voice from the door caught their attention. "Does that mean he is my father, Mama?" Yukina asked while staring curiously at Shuichi, excitement clearly mirrored in her eyes.
"We have a daughter?" Shuichi asked, equally curious and surprised, while staring at the young girl he talked to a couple of days ago. Yukinari nodded. It was too much for one day and he felt himself falling before everything blacked out.
TBC
review is very much appreciated. Chapter 5 will be coming up in 1-2 weeks; I just need to type it from a rough draft.