This time we were meeting Remus up at the shack Madam Pomfrey having escorted him this time. I was the first to change and by the time I circled over rocking place I heard growling meaning he had already changed. When I landed on the sill I saw that he was already hurting himself and wanted to cry.
"Moony," I called out and he jerked his head to the side emitting a loud growl that ripped through the place. "Its Addie," I spoke into his mind along with sending out a loud screech into the night warning the others to be cautious. Suddenly it lunged forward and into the magically reinforced window but the impact sent me off the edge and I hovered in the air. "Remus!" I screamed out and it seemed to jolt him into the fact that he was a person. Backing off he shook his head and I saw the others slowly going up the stairs, "Are you there?"
"A-Addie," He closed and opened his eyes and there was more human than animal in the look.
"Yes," I smiled on the inside, "and there's James, Sirius, and Peter."
"Sorry," he backed away into a corner and suddenly the animalistic look reappeared and he growled at the boys.
"Moony!" James yelled and Remus flicked back
"I think it's a bad day guys," he whimpered out cowering away from them.
"Bad day?" Peter questioned.
"Madam Pomfrey says that some days when she comes and gets me it seems as though I have a lot more wounds than normal. We've discussed it with Dumbledore and it happens when I'm under stress of some kind." Quickly James flicked his head to me and I turned mine to his.
"Addie you should go patrol," His voice echoed in my head and I just accepted it and flew off circling the grounds.
Some days I feel like one of them so much and others I couldn't be more of an outsider.
I was informed that he had flicked back and forth throughout the night as we walked back up to the castle; Remus having stay and wait for Pomfrey.
Now on Friday night I was scared out of my wits, Remus hadn't talked to me for the past two days since the full moon which only made this night worse. Silently I pulled my wavy long black hair to the side into a side pony tail and added golden dangle earrings. Slipping on my gold flats I picked up the ornate mask and tied it around my head.
Looking in the mirror I thought I looked beautiful but it wasn't for the right person, the right person wasn't even talking to me. At 7:50 I started walking down the stairs most of the castle being empty since the dance had started at 7:30. As I rounded the corner there he was in just black robes and black mask. His dark eyes looked over my costume and a strangled sigh released. As I reached the bottom he held out his hand and I took it stepping down. I noticed that he took note of the ring still on my finger and a satisfied smile appeared
"Thank you for coming," I whispered a little meekly going with Sirius' advice to play the part.
"You are my fiancée," he stated no emotion showing on his face and we linked arms stepping through the doors. Almost immediately we were surrounded by Slytherin's who were part of pure-blood society, as they recognized Rabastan.
Plastering on the smile I had learned to use since I was 6 years old I played the good daughter something those around here rarely saw and nodded replying when spoken to, never above the males.
Sirius' POV
My eyes stayed on her because I was going to make sure nothing happened that would lead to something worse.
"Why is she smiling," James spoke with slight disgust in his voice.
"She has to," I spoke as a person blocked my view, so I moved over to another spot. I also noticed Remus doing this too, keeping a close eye on my sister. She glanced over at us and Lestrange noticed bending down whispering into her ear. She moved her eyes away, back to the group around them.
"She looks…happy," Peter muttered and I glared over at him immediately regretting it. It the truth we had been brought up that way.
"I've always told her to play the part. When we were little and I would act out I never let her. Her room is still blank compared to mine full of Gryffindor things because when she attempted to put stuff up I took it down. Girls in pure-blood society are held to both a higher and lower standard in ways. She would get it a lot worse if she where to act out." I spoke and felt a hand lay over my shoulder and turned seeing James standing there in his stupid Gladiator costume. "You guys can go enjoy yourselves."
"Never," Remus growled as Addie touched Rabastan's arm in what most would consider an affectionate way. Looking over him I saw a slightly animalistic look in his eyes and couldn't help but smile. I hoped that he would tell her sometime soon, in fact I had made him wear a medieval costume hoping it would happen.
"I'm with Moony here," James nodded remaining by my side and I'm not sure if Peter nodded but he just remained where he was. Soon we were joined by Lily who surprisingly sat beside James and just watched with us for the rest of the night.
Addie's POV
"Don't embarrass me," Rabastan whispered in my ear when I had glanced over at the boys and I immediately turned away from them.
"So when are you guys planning on getting married?" asked Belvina Nott a seventh year Slytherin with a snotty smile on her face.
"We are planning for right after Adhara graduates," Rabastan commented looking down at me and I politely agreed.
"How wonderful, you're a lucky girl Adhara," She smiled but a tiny sneer peeked out.
"I know," I reached up touching the arm that was hooked into my other arm letting a slightly larger smile through.
"Would you like to dance Adhara?" He asked as the music started.
"I would love to," I curtsied slightly and he took my hand leading me onto the floor. Throughout the song we were to change partners finally ending up with our original ones. By about the third partner change I had learned to breathe again.
"Having a fun night?" My partner asked and my eyes immediately locked onto Remus light blue ones.
"I shouldn't be seen talking to you," I whispered fear going into my eyes as I looked across the room seeing Rabastan staring.
"I understand…then let me do the talking," He smirked softly. "Firstly I'm sorry I've been avoiding you these past days, it just I hate that you see me at my worse. Secondly I want to say that you look absolutely beautiful." My eye widened as I felt a blush go to my cheeks.
To quickly the music signaled for us to change partners and I was handed off to another boy. When the song finally ended Rabastan had an even tighter hold on my arm for the rest of the night
"Adhara I know that I can't keep you away from them when you're here but realize when you graduate you will be mine." He looked down at me when he was preparing to leave, "You will be mine and I expect you to act like a proper woman of pure-blood society. Understand?"
"Yes," I whispered averting my eyes like I was taught to do as a sign of submission and imagined a scared dog doing the same thing.
"Good, now I will see you at Christmas." He leaned down glancing over my shoulder and I expected him to kiss me on the cheek but he shifted at the last second kissing my lips, hard. After he pulled away he walked off and I turned around seeing all the guys staring at me more specifically Remus. Shaking my head I just headed out the door not caring that the ball still had a good hour or so left.
Sitting on the common room couch I tore off the mask and pulled up my legs so I was in a ball covering my face trying to hold in the tears that threatened to fall.
I heard the common room door open and footsteps come in but didn't look up not even when the person sat down on the couch and took my hand. "Let's get rid of this for awhile," Remus whispered and slipped the ring off my finger and I glanced up seeing him tuck it in his pocket.
"I don't know what to do?" I felt a tear roll down my cheek and he reached up wiping it away. "And it's pathetic what I'm thinking about considering the fact that I might end up being the wife of a Death Eater one day."
"What are you thinking about?" he asked turning to face me.
"That was my first kiss," I let out a humorless laugh looking down and playing with the sleeve of my dress. Expecting him to laugh or something I was surprised when he just tipped up my head and pressed his lips to mine and a soft sweet kiss. When he pulled away I looked up at him seeing a small smirk on his lips, "What was that?"
"I don't want you to remember something like what he gave as a first kiss."
"Thank you," I whispered and he nodded slightly.
"I better go tell the other guys and Lily that I've found you. They were all kind of freaking out," he got up stepping back from the couch.
"Alright," I looked up at him and he quickly retreated out the door. Lifting my fingers up I ran them over my lips thinking that he only did it out of kindness, but I'd always remember that as my first kiss.
Smiling I rested my head back in the couch and closed my eyes deciding to wait for everyone to come back before I headed up to sleep but the next thing I knew I was being shaken awake by my brother.
"Add, Lily's going to take you up for bed," he commented and I just nodded walking up the stairs with Lily's hand pushing me gently. I barely registered when she unbuckled the overcoat and took my hair out of the pony tail. I slid back the covers and settled into bed as she headed to the bathroom.
"Thanks," I whispered just before she shut the curtain though I'm not certain if she said anything back because I was fast asleep.