A/N: Sorry for not updating for long, but I had exams and they were pretty stressful and then obviously I had to have the 'End of Exams' party which lasted for three days, so I was pretty tired.
So hopefully it was worth the wait. This chapter has a lot of truth to it and you may find it not so humorous.
Have fun!
Chapter 4
Karma and Insecurities
Lily
Two days.
Two bloody days, since I have been 'going out' with Sirius Black, and yeah I must tell you that it is no trip to Spain, it is in fact a nightmare.
Okay so I might be exaggerating a little there, still, going out with him is not a walk in the park on a sunny day with the occasional breeze and delicious ice cream.
Firstly, shouts of 'WAKE UP MY LILY FLOWER' from the staircase of your dormitory wake you up.
Secondly, you have to handle the glares from the Sirius Black fan club.
Thirdly, you have to pretend you can actually stand him, which I don't, even though he has kind of grown on me.
Fourthly, you get the disapproving nods from professors who think I am way too good for him.
Fifthly, you have to handle the surprised looks you get from people when they hear I am going out with Sirius Black, after turning down his best friend, who is apparently much more nicer and good looking than him.
Not much luck from James either, too be honest he doesn't say anything to me, because unfortunately and here I blame my bad karma, I don't get put in pairs with him anymore.
Of course for the whole of last year when I protested I didn't want to work with him, I was forced to.
Now when I do, they wont put me with him, they put me with Remus, and yeah I like Remus, but I WANT JAMES!
Like I said, baaaaad karma.
Seriously, I'm sure everyone who's in on this 'plan' is enjoying watching us, I mean yeah I play along when Sirius calls me Lily Flower, but I do glare at him other wise, I'm sure I saw Fiona and Remus sniggering while me and Sirius worked together in DADA.
So right now I am currently lying in bed with my eyes open, not that it would matter even if I were naked in here, because no one else bloody lives in here!
Seriously, I had no idea I would miss my roommates/best mates so much at this time, who the fuck am I meant to talk to?
To be honest I wouldn't have spoken to either one of my delusional mates who find this situation very funny… evil gets.
I need to speak to Remus (yes! I know that's kind of weird, but my mates have left me in my time of need).
I wonder if he'll actually mind if I go see him right now… he probably will, but I'll go anyway.
Two minutes laterOkay, I have worn my slippers and dressing gown, now if only I can make it to the Gryffindor tower without getting caught, which would be great.
I crept into the common room, which was terrifyingly quiet except for the slight crackle of the fire.
Hmm… I wonder what James is doing now, oh silly me, probably sleeping. But I wonder what position he sleeps in……… I bet he looks cute when he's asleep.
I REALLY WANT TO SEE HIM RIGHT NOW!
No, focus Evans, you are going to see Remus-
'Where you goin' Evans?' interrupted a sleepy voice.
Uh bloody oh.
Trust me to find myself in a situation where I'm in my dressing gown with fluffy bunny slippers, trying to sneak out of the common room, and get confronted by the person who's haunting my dreams.
Bad karma.
'Sneaking off to see Padfoot?' he asked.
I never understand these silly nicknames, maybe once I start seeing James, he'll tell me.
Which one was Padfoot now? Oh yeah! Sirius!
Wait, why would he think I'm going to see Sirius?
Because you silly girl, you're 'going out' with him, now answer James, he's giving you strange looks.
Sorry.
Oh yeah, he is giving me strange looks, it's weird that he still looks so gorgeous. He's just one of those guys you know, who manages to look fit no matter what-
'Hel-lo? Lily? You there?' asked James waving his hand in front of my face. AARGH!! When did he get so close to me? WHAT IF MY BREATH SMELLS?
ANSWER HIM YOU SILLY GIRL!
Oh yeah, sorry.
'Oh yeah, sorry, I was just talking to the voices in my head,' I said.
…
…
Oh poopie.
'You were talking to the voices in your head? Wow… usually people don't admit things like that,' he said grinning that gorgeous grin of his.
'I mean, I wasn't- I was just erm… admiring the- fireplace! Yeah! That's what I was doing, that fireplace is brilliant, have you seen the way it crackles? Like pop, and bam! Very interesting indeed Potter, have you ever just stood there and taken a moment to admire the little things in life? The crackle of a fire, the colour of the sky, the chirping of the birds, the dirt under your nails, it's all very fascinating stuff,' I said.
I never think before I say anything do I? And when I do I end up forgetting to answer the person.
I have a very deluded brain indeed.
James is giving me strange looks again.
'Uh, right, that makes sense,' he said, then he scratched his head and added, 'I think.'
The nerve of that boy.
'Hmph! Of course it makes sense, why wouldn't it?' I said.
'Well-' he started.
'It was a rhetorical question!' I exclaimed.
'What's a rhetorical question?' he asked.
Oh bloody hell.
'Ugh, it's a question-' I started off.
'That was a rhetorical question!' said James, rudely interrupting me.
He grinned, 'I was just joking Evans, keep your hair on, anyway why may I ask are you in your dressing gown with fluffy bunny slippers which are very cute by the way, trying to sneak out of the common room?' he asked.
Oh I was hoping he wouldn't notice that.
Bugger.
'Erm… I told you! I was admiring the fireplace!' I made up.
Damn I'm good at telling lies.
Hah!
You shut your mouth!
'So you're in the middle of the common room at one in the morning, when almost all of Hogwarts is bloody sleeping, to admire the fireplace? Don't you have one in your room?' he asked.
Oh bugger.
Hah! Oh yeah Evans, you're so good at telling lies!
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO SHUT YOUR MOUTH!
'Erm… yeah?' I answered uneasily.
'Are you sure you weren't just sneaking off to see Padfoot?' he teased.
No, I was going to see Remus, so hah!
Oh crap, I think I said that out loud.
'Whoa! Wait a minute Evans, don't tell me you're two-timing Padfoot, because seriously he will be crushed-' he said.
'No of course I'm not you buffoon!' I said.
How dare he think I'm cheating on Pad-Sirius??
'Well then why the hell are you going to see Remus of all people at this time?' he demanded.
Because I can't stop thinking about you and I have a really bad feeling that going out with Sirius to make you jealous is not working.
Don't worry; I didn't say it out loud this time.
'Because Potter, he is my friend! Are you saying I'm not allowed to go see my friends whenever I want?' I said.
'Of course you are-' he started.
'Well exactly! So if you don't mind, I'm off to seek help from my friend, you see unlike you I don't cheat on people, out of my way Potter,' I snarled, and pushed him out of my way.
Outside the Head's towerOh just perfect Evans, he already hates you, make him hate you even more by insulting him.
Oh man my life sucks.
The sooner I get to Remus now the sooner I'll feel better, I mean he's Remus, he'll know what to do, right?
In the boys dormitory
'Wrong Lily! Why does everyone always come to me with their problems, what am I some agony aunt or something?' said a very frustrated Remus.
He wasn't too pleased when I just sneaked into his dormitory at half one and dragged the duvet off him, when he was only in his boxers.
'I'm sorry Remi,' I said sitting down on his bed, he was lying down on it with his duvet protectively covering him till his chin. 'I just needed to talk to someone, I couldn't sleep, and trust me this plan is so not working!'
'Well its only been two days! Give it time!' he said.
'But it should be working by now, it hasn't even started, and yet I still seem to manage to embarrass myself and look like queen bitch at the same time in front of James,' I said.
He looked at me questioningly, I told him about my encounter with James in the head's common room.
And to my not so very great surprise, Remus burst out laughing!
'Admiring the fireplace?' he choked between sniggers.
'SHUT UP MOONY!' shouted Sirius from his bed.
He lowered his voice down, 'Seriously Lily, admiring the fireplace? I think it's safe to say that you are officially off you rocker.'
I glared at him, 'Gee thanks Moony, for your help, whatever would I do without you?' I said sarcastically.
He rolled his eyes, 'Well for one you wouldn't have to make up stories about admiring the fireplace, anyway, why exactly did you come here in the middle of the night to meet me?' he said.
'I told you! Because I needed to talk to someone, and I couldn't go to Fiona or Anisha because they would find this situation very funny, as are you right now so maybe coming here was a waste of time…' I said.
'Bingo! Now if you don't mind, I would like to go back to sleep, off you go and if you bump into James don't say you were admiring the portraits or something, yeah?' he said.
The nerve of this boy, and to think I thought he would help.
Haha, 'to think I thought' that's a funny phrase!
To think I thought, to think I thought, to think I thought!
Anyhoo…
'Fine Remi, G'night' I said.
Back in the Head's Tower
'Admiring the fireplace again Evans?' asked Potter, I swear he just appears out of thin air.
'Potter,' I acknowledged. 'Why aren't you asleep yet?' I snapped.
'I could ask you the same thing,' he said.
Bugger.
'Well incase you didn't notice you moron, I was out, so unless people these days walk and sleep at the same time-' I started.
'Yeah they do, its called sleepwalking,' he pointed out.
Bugger.
'Oh shut up, you know I was out talking to Remus which is why I am not asleep yet,' I stated. 'What's your excuse eh?'
He shrugged, 'Couldn't sleep,' he said.
'Well why not? I'm sure boys love sleeping, I mean I know Sirius does because he goes skits when he gets woken up' I said.
'Oh yeah, you'd know wouldn't you, I mean Sirius does it after all,' he snapped.
What the fuck?
'What you trying to say?' I asked.
'Nothing!' he snapped, again.
Confused here…
Why's he going all stressy?
……
…
Wait one bloody minute… is he… jealous?
Yes! Yes he is! It's working!
That's it Evans talk more about Sirius.
'Whatever, it's true though, Sirius is like that, he hates getting up, I mean he eats and he sleeps, how does he manage to look so fit?' I wondered aloud.
'Whatever Evans, just go to bed, I'm out of here,' he said and with that he turned around to head to his room, he stopped in his tracks before entering and said, 'Oh, by the way, we have head rounds tomorrow, thought I'd let you know.'
Ooooooh! The plan is working! It's great, and I have rounds with him, it's going to be wicked!
Just me and him… alone.
Next morning, 9.30 am, in the Great Hall
'Ugh, my bum hurts,' announced Anisha as she entered the hall followed by Fiona, they took seats next to me and I smiled.
It hadn't been just us three for a while now; we always had at least one marauder around.
'Too much information Nish,' I said grinning.
Fiona giggled, 'Has the owl post come yet?' she asked.
'Nope, you expecting something?' I said.
'Mum said she's send me some home made fudge, apparently I'm under fed and may be close to anorexia,' she said.
I smirked and tapped her belly, 'She obviously hasn't seen you lately,' I joked.
Fiona fake gasped, 'How dare you woman? Anyway how are things going with the plan? Any signs Jamesie poo is jealous yet?' she asked.
I nodded and told them about what had happened last night, 'Lily you idiot! Why the hell did you go to Remus instead of us?' demanded Anisha.
'Because you know what you lot are like, you would have just laughed in my face,' I said.
'Well yeah, but it's not that we wouldn't have listened, well I would have anyway,' said Anisha.
'I would have as well! Lily, don't worry about it, from what Remus has told me it's a bit obvious James still likes you, it's just that he is well… stubborn,' said Fiona.
'I just hope you're right, it's just I cant stop thinking about him and I just feel really guilty about going out with Sirius and seriously, Sirius is a pain in the butt, I don't see why people swoon over him so much,' I said.
'Well he's good looking, and he's funny, and he's okay once you get to know him,' said Fiona matter-of-factly.
'Do I sense a crush on him?' said Anisha raising her eyebrows suggestively.
'No way! I'm just saying he's not that bad, and he is being really cool about all this Lily, so just stay okay with him yeah? I know how bad he wants you and James to be together,' said Fiona.
'It's just my luck though, when James stops liking me, I start liking him,' I said.
'Ah don't fret too much dahling, you'll live, and hopefully you and James will be together by this year,' said Anisha.
'Speaking of Marauders, where are they?' asked Fiona.
I pointed towards the end of the table where the four boys were sitting; they all seemed to be having a laugh as Sirius was demonstrating something.
'It's weird not having them around,' said Fiona. 'I'm so used to having at least one Marauder around us at all times.'
'True, but don't call them over here, it's been a while since it's been just us three girls,' said Anisha, and I nodded in agreement.
Suddenly, loads of owls entered the hall, dropping letters to recipients; I was surprised when I saw two owls come my way, had I gotten a letter?
Mum or Dad never owled me except on special occasions, and it sure has hell couldn't be Petunia.
I raised my eyebrows in wonderment.
The owl dropped the letter near my cereal bowl; I picked it up and opened it.
It had no address on it or a name. It said:
You give beauty a meaning.
Before I met you I never knew what it was like to look at someone and just smile for no reason…
I smiled; I looked around to see who could have given it to me.
I looked at James; he was sitting with his head on the table, what was wrong with him? Then he lifted his head up and I noticed that he was laughing really hard.
Could it be him?
'Lily, who's the letter from?' asked Anisha as she helped herself to some of Fiona's fudge.
Should I tell my friends?
'I don't know,' I said. I handed her the letter, 'It had no name on it.'
She read it and looked up in delight, 'Who do you think it's from?' she said.
'What? I want to know!' demanded Fiona, Anisha showed her the letter.
'Oh wow, that's really sweet, who's it from?' asked Fiona after reading it.
'I don't know,' I replied. 'It has no name on it.'
'Do you think it could be from… James?' said Anisha lowering her voice.
'It's a possibility,' said Fiona.
I looked at the time, 'Guys! Lesson starts in ten minutes, come on,' I said desperate to change the topic. I wish I had never showed it them, because for some reason I felt that I had just showed them my diary, something very private.
We got up and headed down to Potions.
In PotionsI wonder who the note was from, it was so sweet.
I was sitting next to Sirius, the whole 'plan' still going and everything. Remus sat next to Anisha, I think he likes her, I always see him talking to her.
Note to self: Ask Remus if he likes Anisha.
'Okay class, pair up with you were with on Monday please, we will be working on how to make Felix Felicis, I'm sure I have mentioned it in your sixth year, however this year, you will be learning how to make it,' said Professor Slughorn.
I got up and went next to James, I felt so awkward, because for some unknown reason, I had this feeling James had sent me the note.
'Hey,' I said to him.
He grinned, 'Hello, you all right?' he asked.
I nodded, 'Ha, I thought you'd be in a mood after our encounter last night,' I said cheekily.
'Why would I be in a mood?' he asked.
'Well you kind of left with this look on your face as if you were annoyed by something,' I answered.
'Erm… no, I was just tired, it was two o' clock you know' he said. 'I thought you would be in a mood after I said that you were two-timing Sirius.'
'Oh, well there's no harm in it, I guess it was kind of weird that I was going to see Remus in the middle of the night,' I said.
'Yeah it was, why did you go anyway?' he questioned.
'Just wanted to talk to him I guess, my girlfriends have been extremely hyper for my liking lately.'
'Anything to do with you going out with Sirius?'
'No, they're usually like that-'
'I meant the reason you went to see Remus.'
'Not really, that's the good thing with going out with Sirius, he's laid-back so we don't need to worry over anything if you get what I mean?'
'Sure, it's a care free relationship, you snog a little, have a laugh, that sort of stuff?'
'You could say that.'
'Lily, can I ask you something?'
'Yeah go on.'
'Why Sirius?'
'What do you mean?'
'Well, just, why Sirius? Out of all the people, why him?'
'Well why not? What's wrong with him?'
'Nothing, come on, he's my best mate, just why him?'
'I don't know,' I said.
I'm having a proper conversation with James, and I have this great feeling that he's trying to hint that I should break up with Sirius.
We stayed silent after that, occasionally looking up at each other and nodding, or asking the random 'can you pass me the knife?' sort of thing.
How do you cut the bowtruckles?
Let's find out… I rummaged around in my bag for my book, my eyes still on James who seemed to be concentrating very hard on the potion.
I opened my book and turned to the page, and on it I found was:
And love isn't always on time…Oh.
My.
God.
Was it James?
I mean he is the closest to me, but I had my eye on him the whole time, how could he have put the note there?
Oh no, I really wanted it to be him.
Maybe it's just some practical joke from the Slytherins, how did it get there?
James musts have noticed the worried look on my face as he said, 'Lily, you okay? You've gone all red.'
I have?
Oh fuck.
'Erm… yeah I'm fine,' I said.
Maybe I should just confront him, just find out if he gave it me or not?
Maybe not…
At lunch'You got another one in Potions? Maybe James put it there?' suggested Fiona.
'No it couldn't be him, unless he put it before class which I don't see how he could have done seeing as we left for Potions before him, and I had my eye on him the whole time during lesson as well,' I said.
'I think we have a secret admirer on our hands,' said Fiona.
'Or maybe it is James and Lily just refuses to believe so because she is extremely insecure?' suggested Anisha.
WHAT THE HELL?
ME? INSECURE?
Yeah probably…
Fiona tried to suppress a laugh, I leaned over and smacked her over the head, 'I am not insecure!'
'Sorry Lily darling, I hate to break it to you but you most definitely are,' said Fiona.
'Why am I?' I demanded.
'Oh my god. Lily you so are! I mean you have like everything! For starters you are absolutely gorgeous looking, I mean you walk into a room and all eyes turn on you. You're so smart, you come top in every class. You eat like a pig and you still manage to look stunning, without doing any exercise. You're good at almost everything besides flying which you don't think matters anyway. So you know how you're insecure? You think you're ugly, and don't say you don't, because you told me you think you are! You think you're stupid which would be the reason you study so much and actually are smart. You refused to listen to us when for six bloody years we tried to convince you that one of the most popular guys in the school fancied you! You seriously do my head in so much sometimes with your lack of self-confidence, stop thinking life is so miserable because you haven't even seen half of it yet! And you have no bloody idea what it's like to feel real pain!' said Anisha.
Whoa…
'Anisha calm down,' said Fiona, people were looking over at Anisha now who had stood up whilst talking to me.
'Whatever Fi, I'm out of here,' said Anisha, and without looking at me she walked out of the Great Hall without a word.
I stared at my half-empty plate; Anisha's words had pulled some kind of trigger in me.
Was I really that insecure?
And seriously what was up with her?
I could feel my neck burn up because people were staring at me, I got up and without one word to Fiona I turned to walk out of the hall, everyone watched.
I stopped for a moment and glanced back at the Gryffindor table, my eyes met James who was looking at me with concern, I nodded for a second, not sure what I was trying to represent and just left.
Later on
I sat there with my arms around my knees in bed, lessons had finished and I had skipped dinner I was glad to be back in my room away from everyone. Fiona, Remus and Sirius attempted to talk to me but I just blanked them, and I don't even know why. Anisha never turned up to any other lessons. I have no idea what's going on with her, I mean come on, if I'm insecure that's my problem, it's got nothing to do with her. Why is she getting so emotional about everything?
Even so, her words kind of made sense. I looked in the mirror and realised that I had never actually realised how pretty I am, and excuse my big headedness here, but I always felt like the ugly one out of all my friends. Anisha's words made me realise that I'm not so bad looking after all, and I cant believe how unconfident I am.
It's true, James had always liked me. I just refused to accept that anyone in the right mind would actually fall for me.
I spent a whole day weeping with self-pity, when I am actually quite a lucky person.
I just need to figure out some stuff. Number one on the list, why Anisha acted that way.
I heard a knock on the door, 'Lily, it's James. We need to set off for our head rounds, but if you're not feeling well I'll just do them on my own' said James.
I got up and answered the door, 'No that's okay, I'm coming,' I said.
During Head Rounds
'So how are you feeling?' asked James, we had just started to patrol, and had barely met anyone on the way. It was just he and I.
'Not so good, but I'll live,' I said.
He smiled warmly, 'That's good to know,' he said nodding. 'So if you don't mind me asking, what was all that about? With you and Anisha?'
'Erm no I don't actually, is it safe to consider you a friend?' I said, mentally crossing my fingers in hope that I wasn't pushing my luck.
'Of course,' he said.
'Well, Anisha thinks I'm insecure,' I said. 'She was saying how I take everything in life for granted and pretend life is so miserable when I haven't even seen half of it yet and that I haven't felt any real pain.'
'Harsh,' commented James.
'Not really. I mean in a way she's right, one bad thing happens and I feel like my whole world has turned upside down, when it hasn't. I mean there's people who have seen worse than me, much much worse than me, seeing as I haven seen a lot yet and I'm pretty sure they handle it. And to be honest I'm a really self-pitying kind of person and I never realised that till now,' I said.
'Lily, so you have a fault in you, big deal. What matters is that you actually realised that in time, and now you can actually do something about it, right?' said James.
'Yeah, yeah, thanks James, that sort of helped,' I said appreciatively.
'Well people do say I am quite the agony uncle,' joked James.
I laughed, talking to James was making me feel much better, and who knew a boy could be so easy to talk to?
'Anyway how's things going with you and Sirius?' asked James.
Oh let's not talk about him please!
'Erm… good,' I said.
Suddenly I didn't want to make James jealous, I just wanted to have a good conversation with him, something I don't thing I have ever done before.
We walked on, in silence.
'James, do you think Anisha was right? About me being insecure?' I asked him.
'Well, having known you for six years now, I would sadly have to agree with Anisha,' said James.
Not the reply I was looking for!
'But really Lily, you would only know that. Do you think you are?' he said.
'Well maybe, I guess so,' I said.
Again we walked on in silence, awkward silence this time. I opened my mouth to speak but the words wouldn't come out.
'Do you love him?' asked James out of the blue.
WHAT THE FUCK?
'Love who?' I asked my eyes widening.
'Padfoot, Sirius' he said.
Okay, okay… what to do?
If I say yes I probably will make James jealous but then he'll also think that I'm totally unavailable with all the being best friends crap and all.
'No, James come on, I have only gone out with him for what? Three days?' I said.
'That's a record,' muttered James.
'What is?' I asked him.
'Padfoot having a girlfriend for three days,' he said.
'Why?' I asked.
'Well Padfoot's never exactly had girlfriends,' explained James.
'Elaborate,' I said.
'Well, Padfoot always has a different girl each day you know? He never actually goes out with them, and even if he does it doesn't last for long, a day or two to the max. I guess you must be special,' said James.
You have no idea…
'Oh,' I said, the only thing I could think of saying.
'Sorry, I didn't mean to alarm you or anything,' said James.
I have a feeling James is trying to make me break up with Sirius.
I shook my head, 'No, you didn't,' I said. 'I was just thinking about your nicknames for each other actually. What are they again? Oh yeah, Moony for Remus… Padfoot for Sirius… Wormtail for Peter, and you're Prongs right? I just don't get them.'
'Aha, and you never will. Marauder secret I'm afraid,' said James grinning smugly.
I laughed, 'Exactly! What is with that? Marauders? Where did you come up with a weird name like that?' I asked.
'You can ask and ask, but I shall never say,' said James in a fake posh accent.
I giggled and shoved him lightly, 'James, do you believe in karma?' I asked.
Oh no, not that again.
Oh shut up.
'Karma? You mean that good things happen to good people, bad things happen to bad people sort of thing?' he said.
'Yeah, kind of,' I said.
'I do sort of yeah, but not that. More of a, what goes around comes around thing,' said James.
'That's interesting, explain,' I said.
'Well, eventually the bad that people have done backfires on them-' started James.
'Tell me about it,' I interrupted.
He grinned, 'Ha, had an encounter with that have you?' he asked.
'Not really, but you are right about the backfiring bit, lies always backfire on you, one way or the other, I just hate lying,' I said.
What a hypocrite I am indeed.
'Why so strongly though?' asked James.
'Well… it's just, you tell a lie and to explain the lie you probably tell another one and then you just tell more and more just for the sake of one lie, you end up telling loads of lies, and the worst bit is when someone actually finds out,' I explained.
James smiled, 'Never thought of it that way you know, but seriously, it is horrible when someone finds out you've lied, they usually lose their trust in you and it just gets messed up,' he said.
'That ever happened to you?' I asked.
'Kind of, it wasn't big things I lied about, but they did lose trust in me when they found out, all I did was lie about where I was going to my parents, I always sneaked out, went drinking and such, I'm not proud of it, it was before our sixth year, in the summer holidays. Went out every night without my parents knowing, had some booze, it got really messed up when they found out. I got grounded for the rest of the summer, and they always watch out for me now,' he said.
'Wow, I knew you were the bad boy type but just didn't know how bad,' I commented.
'Oi! Why did you think I was the bad boy type?' he said.
'Weeeell, you prank people constantly, I know that you don't exactly give a crap about rules, and you date a lot of girls,' I said. 'That usually comes underneath the 'bad boy type'.'
'Hmm… you're right about the first two, but I don't date a lot of girls,' he said.
Yeah right.
'Yeah right! You have a different girl in your arm like every other week,' I said.
'Yeah so what? I don't date them!' he said.
'How is that any better?' I asked.
'Well because I don't do anything with them, you know how long it's been since I have had a proper girlfriend?' he said.
I shrugged in response.
'Counting today would be… two years and five days,' he said.
WHAT THE HELL?
Really?
'Oh my god, really?' I asked raising my eyebrows. 'The great James Potter hasn't had a girl friend for two years?'
'No,' he said. 'Why is that such a big deal?'
'Well because even people like Pettigrew and no offence to your friend here, have had girlfriends, you're James Potter it's kind of surprising you haven't,' I said.
'No its not, I may come across like a player, but that's more Padfoot's field,' he said, and then he clapped his hand to his mouth. 'Sorry, I totally forgot you're going out with him.'
'That's fine,' I said.
'Anyway like I was saying, I don't do that, just go out with people for the sake of it and then dump then when I'm over and done with, I might have done that before, but not anymore,' he said.
Oh. My. God.
He is so perfect!
'That's sweet,' I commented.
He smiled, 'You know how I do,' he said and pretended to dust his shoulder. I laughed, this is what I loved about him, he could be so serious one minute and he'd make me laugh the other.
He stared at me intently, 'What?' I asked. 'Something on my face?'
He shook his head, 'No, no,' he said. 'You're perfect.'
I stared back at him, he just called me perfect!
HE LIKES ME!!
'Erm… I mean your face… it's got nothing in it I mean on it,' he stammered.
That's okay James; I know what you really meant.
And I know what I have to do now.
That's it folks for now, I'll be updating pretty soon!
For now…
R-E-V-I-E-W…
Please?