Authors note: I do not own Beyblade or any of Starsets songs that are the basis of this fic.
I couldn't stop writing, so I finished this pretty quickly. It was just a one time thing, so I figured I'd get it out before it left me.
I do recommend looking up the songs on youtube and listen to the songs while reading the fic, as it will give a new meaning behind the story. The song name is the title of the chapters. Please do not think I own any of these songs, they are not mine and i am only doing this for entertainment purposes.
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Ray's POV
"I saw it in your eyes
I saw the creature deep inside
You opened up your cage
Pathetic insect
Drawn to flame
I'm falling apart
Inside your holographic heart
Lost souls dancing
And now the lie's collapsing"
I cried myself to sleep every night, with every sob my heart broke and shattered to pieces. Why was I so stupid to believe that he was still good, that he hadn't betrayed us? The smack of reality was becoming too much to bear, three months of solitude and complete silence is getting to me, and I want to scream but I have no voice.
"There's something inside you that isn't right
There's something that haunts your dreams at night
There's something that you have lost
And you're bringing it down
You're bringing it down
On top of us"
My true friends had been seized up and brought back to this dungeon, Max was weaker than ever before and Mariah's condition wasn't going to get any better. Lee begged for help and medical attention for his sister and I wanted to share my pleas; unable to every time I saw one of his lackeys. They reminded me too much of him, I couldn't bear the sight of them. They keep us fed, but it's not enough to keep our spirits up.
"I see the crimson thief
Hanging on heartstrings
Dripping bleach
Victim with hands in sleeves
Your lying swan sings
As I reach
I'm falling apart
Inside your holographic heart
Lost souls dancing
And now the lie's collapsing"
I didn't tell them where I had run off too, they questioned me for days after they got here but I couldn't bring myself to tell them. Tell them that I was in love with our captor, our new ruler of the world. We started to see less and less of Tala, I don't even know if I care all that much though. He betrayed us too and I can't forgive him, or myself.
"There's something inside you that isn't right
There's something that haunts your dreams at night
There's something that you have lost
And you're bringing it down
You're bringing it down
On top of us"
My door opens as they've come for me, but I don't move. I know what's going to happen to me tonight, every night it's the same. He calls for me and I go. He's not the same and as much as I protest, he takes me and makes me his; I hate myself for loving him.
All I wanted was to love you and be loved by you, why must you do this to me; to us? I close my eyes as he takes over my body and senses. I claw his back for the hundredth time and I can feel the old scars from the other times, I don't think he cares. I want him to stop, but I have no voice, only moans of pleasure; I hate myself even more. I won't lie, I want this, even if it's not real. Maybe I can reach out to him, make him come back to us; to me.
He's done and I mentally slap myself, he's strong and beautiful. Even with that far off look, as if now I don't exist. What we did meant nothing and I don't feel any different than him anymore. This is my normal now, he is my normal. What we may have had, before the world went to shit; it's gone. He is my master and I his ever loyal servant, but I still have to try.
"Kai." He stops cleaning himself off and turns to me, his mouth a frown as I've broke his only rule; no talking.
"Max and Mariah need medical attention before they die." I grab my clothes, standing in front of him. He's gotten taller, leaner and looks tired.
"Alright." He nods as he pulls on his clothes.
I can't help but smile, there he is I can see it now. I just need to reach further, pull him back.
"Can you tell me what's going to happen to them?" I tried, I did.
"What's it matter to you?" His voice is harsh, but I don't flinch.
"They're our friends, why doesn't it matter to you?" I take a threatening step towards him, knowing it may very well be my last.
"I have no friends." I've heard that line so many times, it makes me sick.
"I don't understand why you're still doing all of this, Voltaire is dead!" I knew, he told me once he started calling me to his bed; but I never told the others.
"If I could, I would have!" He shouts at me, he raises a hand but doesn't strike.
"I can still help you!"
"No! You can't help me, no one can help me now." He lowers his hand to his side, I see pain in his eyes; a kind I've never seen before.
"Tell me, tell me what's going on. I love you, why can't you see that?" I bite back the tears and resist grabbing him.
"If I knew how to get them out of my head… I would have."
"What?" My mind is going a mile a minute at his words, I have no idea what he's talking about but it doesn't sound good.
"The beasts… They're in me" He sits on his bed, folding his hands in his lap as he stares at the floor; and I have no words.
"They control what I do, they were manipulated by Voltaire and Boris to rule. I can't stop them, you can't stop them." He's shaking now, and I want to hold him.
"I'm sorry Ray." He whispers my name and it makes my knees buckle, why must I love him?
"We can find a way." I rest my hand on his knee and he shoves it away.
"No! Now get out." His voice is cold again, the look of anger washes away the pain in his eyes. I've lost him again.
"Silly me
I thought I had it
I came so close this time
I knew your heart was plastic
I still thought I could make it mine
Surrender you my mind
Your creature is inside...
Devouring me alive"
I'm escorted back to the room he gave me, I feel dirty for having it while my friends suffer. They don't know what's happened to me over the last two months they've been here, and I don't dare ask how they are. All I knew was Max and Mariah needed medical attention and at least I was able to give them that, but it doesn't help the guilt I feel.
As I lay on my bed there's an uncomfortable silence in my room, it's unsettling and I hate it; I hate myself. A knock comes at my door and I sit up as he steps inside, he never comes to my room.
Arms are crossed over his chest and for a minute he looks like his old self again, I refuse to smile at the thought. I know he's not the same and neither am I.
"Ray…" He starts, the pain is back in his eyes. "Max didn't make it." He leaves before he can hear me scream, the door clicking behind him.
"There's something inside you that isn't right
There's something that haunts your dreams at night
There's something that you have lost
And you're bringing it down
You're bringing it down
On top of us"