I continued my plan for a month or so after my initial attempt. Each time I'd call the radio stations, the list eventually expanded to all the radio stations in the United States. If he didn't come by now, either he couldn't hear it or he didn't want to come. I hoped for the earlier one. I began to run out of songs to play, the list had included What's Left of Me by Nick Lachey, I Wanna Hold You by Mcfly, Never Had a Dream Come True by S Club 7, and I Knew I Loved You by Savage Garden.
I only had one song left that I could think of. So that night I called all the radio stations to request a song and requested Back Here by BBMak, I knew it was an old song that some radio stations might not have, but it was how I felt and it needed to be played. It was a Thursday night, and like always the stations weren't getting a lot of calls so almost all of them went through.
I said the thing I'd always say, "Hi Edward its Bella, if you hear this I am sorry and meet me in our meadow anytime on Friday." All the radio stations by now knew I would be calling so most of them had already found the song and just waited my song. I couldn't believe that after tonight I might not ever find him again, I never crossed my mind, or maybe I wouldn't let it.
The first time I called every week I would turn on that station and listened as my heart was sent through the air for everyone to hear. I started crying almost instantly when the lead singer began and I just listened to the words as if it were me singing them.
Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you RAN away nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
So I told you lies even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cause here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cause I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life?
Cause here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
I turned off the radio and called all the other stations. The only stations I never bothered calling were the one's in Forks because if he could hear those and didn't come what was the point in calling anymore. I finished around 10:30 and started getting ready for the meadow. I had read Pride & Prejudice to many times to count, so I brought my portable CD player, and my burned CD of the songs I'd listened to in my head one to many times.
I started my truck and drove to the place I always would. I walked at a human pace, not wanting to get there too early. I sat in the meadow until dawn just looking at the stars, I wish I could watch them with Edward here, he'd probably know all the constellations and the stories behind them. I imagined him holding my hand and pointing it at several stars grouped together and saying something like, "that right there is Scorpio or some other constellation." I breathed in deeply and unnecessarily but it felt really relieving.
I was beginning to get hungry, so I chased down several deer as fast as I could, hoping that I didn't miss him. I ran back to the meadow and nothing was any different. I sat back down and started listening to my music.
I was about half way through the CD when I saw rustling in the bushes, I jumped out of the way as fast as I could and hid behind a large stump, as the figure moved out behind the bushes.
"Bella, don't pretend like you aren't there." Came a voice that I knew all to well.
"Alice? Is that you?"
"Yes, and what is with all this radio nonsense I hear?"
"Oh that," I looked down ashamed, "I wanted Edward to know that I still love him, and that I want him back."
"But why the radio? I'm sure there are other ways."
"He loves music and when I went to your house I saw that he left all his music there. So I figured he must have to listen to something."
"Wait… did you just say you went to our old house, and were inside?"
"Yeah, I didn't break in or anything, the door was open, and I only looked downstairs in the basement and in Edward's old room." She looked to gain a little bit of happiness as I said this, but it quickly faded.
"Oh okay."
"You have to tell me where he is, I can't go on like this any longer."
"Bella, I can't if he wants to come to you he will, you left him with nothing but a note on your pillow what do you expect? Do you really think he'll just jump at the chance?" I looked down, "Didn't think so."
"So what am I supposed to do, I don't know if he ever even heard all my requests."
"Well, I have an idea, call this number, it's a radio station, but I can't tell you where it's located. Call it, and don't turn on any radio, computer or TV and wait until I call you to let you know that it's okay to turn these things on. If he hasn't heard the past ones he will hear this. Now I have to go." With that Alice ran out of the meadow until I couldn't see her anymore. I guess I would try this plan out. What else was there to do anyway?