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Always Remember

Always remember to forget
The things that made you sad
But never forget to remember
The things that made you glad.

Always remember to forget
The friends that proved untrue.
But don't forget to remember
Those that have stuck by you.

Always remember to forget
The troubles that have passed away.
But never forget to remember
The blessings that come each day.

- Author Unknown

Chapter 4- Always Remember… I'm here

EPov

I do not have erectile dysfunction!

I am a man who is under a lot of stress and the lighting was off in the room which caused Victoria to look 'Rolly'. My eyes told my dick not to work; it's not that my dick just didn't work.

I did invite Victoria over Friday night and she wasted no time getting to it. She only had on a sundress that she took off as she walked into the door. She wore absolutely nothing underneath. Any other day I would've been all over her. She was gorgeous and she wanted me. That's usually all I need.

After Maggie I went into a little red head kick. She was different than Maggie; Maggie has a duller shade of red, something that would not stand out too much in a crowd. Victoria's hair was flaming red and she always wore these green contacts that drove me wild.Usually….

After a half an hour of heavy making out she reached down and palmed my flaccid dick through my jeans. What the hell is wrong with me?

"What's wrong?" I don't know…

"Uhh, nothing, let's go upstairs" I said standing and pulling her up with me. Once in the bedroom I went to my closet and stripped down. When I turned around; I saw her, laid out for me. I had to give my dick a pep talk.

Alright Darth Dong; it's been too long, we need this. Look at her man you can do this! Sith Lords get Fucking Hard On's!

After our pep talk I just knew he wouldn't let me down. But once I was in bed on top of her, licking her pert nipples, he still did not comply.

I spent the next hour and a half with my head beneath the covers and between her thighs. She got hers over and over again, then I eventually let her go to sleep... I had to do something to get my manhood back.

I now laid on my back staring at my ceiling. What the hell was going on? I have NEVER EVER had this happened before. I could always perform; I mean I've had sex in crowed stadiums before. What can I say, Maggie is a wild girl.

My inner monologue was interrupted by my phone vibrating on my night stand. I quickly grabbed it and made my way to the bathroom in an effort not to wake Victoria. I checked the screen for the time and noticed it was almost 3:15 in the morning. My Immediate thought was of Masen but then I saw that it was a text message and my parents don't text; also I didn't recognize the number.

-Are you awake?- Unknown

-Depends on who this is?-

-It's someone who really just needs someone to talk to.-Unknown

Now this could be a multitude of people, but, my heart was telling me it was Bella. If it was and she wanted to come over here, even if it was just to talk, then Vic had to leave… like now!

-Bella?-

-Your'e good; I figured you would not guess who I was that fast. Were you asleep? If so, I am sorry and you can go back to sleep…If you were up; are you busy?- Bella

-Yeah I'm up… do you want to meet up or do you just want me to call?- Please say meet up. I just want to see your face.

-Whatever is good for you… my car is out of commission so, regardless, you'd be driving. –Bella-

- Okay give me a couple of minutes to get dressed-

I basically ran out of the bathroom after throughly bushing my teeth and threw on some sweats and a t-shirt. As I was putting on my tennis shoes I gently nudged Victoria. "I'm sorry Vic but I have to leave. I just got an emergency phone call."

She hopped up still naked and we walked downstairs to put on her sundress. I was standing by the door; I didn't want to seem rude, but, I was in a rush to get to the person I really wanted to be with.

"What's wrong? Is it Masen?" she asked out of concern as she took in my position. Sigh

Here's the kicker. I have never lied to any of my…."Friends." There has always been clear and open communication with the ladies because I didn't want to hurt any of them. And you want to start lying now?

I sighed and dropped my head. "Naw… it's actually a friend who just needs my help right now." Was that a nice enough way of saying someone more important called?

She huffed and stormed past me. I guess she got the point.

As I locked up I sent Bella a text asking for her address and what do you know? She lives not five minutes from me. Has she been hiding from me?

I pulled up to a country styled house where the porch wraps around the whole building. It was beautiful and I was surprise to see something like it so close to my modern rancher. When I cut the engine I saw Bella stand up out of the hanging swing.

I got out and began to walk towards the steps that led up to her as she waited at the top. For some reason I was nervous! The reason is because I love this beautiful stranger.

Once I was close enough to really see her I was taken back. My gorgeous girl's tear stained face looked so tired. She had bags under her eyes and her hair hung limply around her shoulders. I wanted nothing more than to grab her into my arms and take away all of her problems. But I held still; I didn't want to scare her off.

"Hey."

"Hey, thanks for coming over. I… I really don't know what I want…I … I … just," I couldn't stand her stammering and sniffling anymore. I basically leaped up the last couple of steps that kept me from her and took her into my arms. The world felt better, perfect, with her in my arms. Her body felt like it was made for mine.

I will try my hardest to never see this expression on her face ever again. I NEED to protect her from what? I don't know yet but when I find out I would. I will protect her.

"Shh, Shh; it's alright sweetheart there is nowhere in the world I would rather be." I said as I pulled her toward the swing. I sat her down next to me but made sure I kept her as close as possible as sobs rocked through her small frame.

I didn't say anything for a long while, I just let her get it all out. Her head lay on my chest and her tears stained my t-shirt. This was unbearable. I needed to try to fix this.

"Bella honey, what is going on?"

She released a heavy sigh. "Everything!" I frowned…. I can't kick 'everything's' ass. "Every single part of my life is fucked up somehow. I live with my baby sister," she pointed to the house behind us. "My boss hates me… I'm supposed to be the souse chef, but it seems as though everyday she gives more and more of my responsibilities away…." I looked down at her lap and I had a feeling this next thing was the part of her story that was the real cause of her break down.

"Jake… Jake is my ex-boyfriend and Carlie's dad. After almost_years of being together I learned that he'd been cheating on me. Not just cheating but like in a relationship for four months." She looked into my eyes and I felt sick. She looked so sad. And I was becoming very angry with 'Jake' . "I trusted him with every part of me; Edward. I have never been with anyone but him and he broke me. So when he came back begging and pleading I tried so hard to resist him but I couldn't. He was my everything." She said that last part in a whisper as I dropped my head and shook it at the same time.

I am fairly aware of the mind games a lot of men play. I on the other hand I feel as though I have no time for them. I have never cheated and I try not to lie, but, I see that 'Jake' had gotten in to her head with those games. He's a piece of shit.

I started to speak but she cut me off. "Immediately after the first time we had sex, after I found out, I felt so dirty… I showered for an hour. "My head popped up in shock, she went all the way back to him… he must really have the gift of gab. "I feel so shitty about that fact that I let him toy with me for so long. And now I have no idea how to get out. "

I took her head in my hands and wiped away her tears with my thumbs. "Bella, you have no reason to feel bad about yourself. He was the one who deceived you. He is the person who should feel like shit. Not you."

She closed her eyes and leaned into my grasp. "I am so sorry that this is the first real conversation we've had. I just needed to talk to someone not close to the situation." She said as she pulled away from me.

I smiled "It's fine. I was starting to think that you had lost my number. I don't care what you want to talk about as long as we're talking. Shoot, if you wanted to sit and talk about menstrual cramps I'd be all ears." Did I really just say that out loud? I felt the tops of my ears heat up as I looked away.

But she just giggled and I felt my cock twitch at the sound. Oh now you can work… You're a horrible Sith lord, Darth Dong…. Just horrible.

"No really thanks for coming. I need someone to hold me sometimes. I miss the feeling of security it gives me." I took that statement as she was still sleeping alone even though they were back together. Wait! Where is he now if they are back together?

I leaned up and looked down the drive but didn't see the Rabbit I knew was his. "Ahh Bella, where is he now?"

"I don't know… Oh he doesn't live here. I took Carlie and left him when I found out and moved here with my sister and her husband."

"So you guys aren't together, you just hook up once and awhile?" I felt like jerk asking that way but I had to know if I had a chance.

She nodded. "But I can't do it anymore." I took her hand in mine and held it in my lap. We both watched our hands intertwined for a while but said nothing. "Edward,"

I loved the way my name sounded on her lips. "hmm?"

"Would you mind staying here tonight? I'm sorry if I'm leading you on but I just need someone to hold me?"

I didn't hesitate a beat." I would hold you all night... I mean morning Bella." We both looked out to notice the sun was rising.

Without another word she stood up and led me into the house.