Ch 4

EPOV

My fathers words had finally gotten through to me. When I looked up all I could see was pain for my pain, something I never wanted. As I stood I thought I felt Bella's fingers clutch my hand. When I brushed my mouth along her eyes I thought I felt them twitch. When I brushed my lips along hers I thought they pulled up into a smile, but as all the times before my imagination was at work, tormenting my soul. When I gently pulled my hand from hers and began to walk away the most beautiful sound in the world filled my ears; the sound of my Bella's broken but bell like voice floating up to my ears. I thought I had finally gone crazy until I turned around and there she was with her eyes trying to stay open and her hand reaching for my retreating form.

I quickly turned around and grabbed her hand, sitting back in the chair that had become my home these past couple of days.

"Ed…Edward?"

"I'm here Bella, shh, it's ok I'm here."

"How long have I been here?"

"It's been almost a week honey. Do you remember what happened?"

"I had gotten off the bull when the eight second bell rung. Everything was going right. I was making my way to the fence to exit when I heard someone yelling at me to get out of the way. I turned around and saw the bull racing toward me with the rodeo clowns trying to distract it. I remember the feel of the bulls horns and after that not much. It all goes black with little glimpses like hearing voices yelling medical things over me. For the longest time it was black. It felt like I was floating. At some point I felt ground underneath me. That was when I heard your voice. You were crying but everything you said was clear to me."

With that she turned her head and gave me a questioning look.

"You told me you loved me. After that I just kept trying to wake up so that I could respond. There was so much I wanted to tell you but I couldn't wake up. It wasn't till I felt cold that I was jerked awake. I knew when it was warm that you were with me but when it got cold…I thought you left me."

At that I broke down even more. I've never cried so much in my life.

"Bella, I would never leave you, not like that. I'll always be there for you."

"Thank you Edward. Do you know when I'll be able to leave? I know you think it's early but I don't feel comfortable here. I think I will heal better at the ranch."

"They don't even know you are awake yet Bella, I'll go let them know."

"Thank you dad." Carlisle just smiled and left. Not long after her doctor came rushing in along with everyone else. I knew it was getting crowded around Bella's bed but there was no way I was moving or letting go of her hand. I needed the reassurance that she was there.

"Ok, everyone needs to leave so I can check on Bella."

Everyone started to leave but I was very reluctant to leave. I had promised I wouldn't leave and here I was getting kicked out. I felt Bella squeeze my hand and I looked down to see a tormented look on her face. I was opening my mouth to tell her I would be right back but she just shook her head and looked up at the doctor.

"Hey doc, is it ok if Edward stays? I really can't be with out him right now."

"Uh, sure as long as you're ok with him staying while I check everything?"
"Well, it's not like it's anything he hasn't seen before."

The doctor just chuckled but I was highly embarresed. She was right. I hadn't left her side since she came out of surgery even when they did all the check ups and everything else they had to do.

BPOV

I felt the warmth moving away from me and knew that Edward was finally leaving my side. I couldn't stand that thought and with that I was finally able to locate my eyes, something I had been trying to do since he told me he loved me. Seeing him walk away broke my heart and made me wish I was back in my coma, but as soon as he turned around and grabbed my hand…my heart flew through my chest and landed in the heavens.

Having to retell my story and seeing the pain in his eyes made me wish I had never ridden that bull. Before I got on Edward and I had been texting. One of the last things we had talked about was whether I would ever give up bull riding. We had gotten into a heated argument about it, my answer to him was always no. No, I would never give up bull riding, it was my life and passion, but I have quickly come to realize I would give up anything and everything for this bronze haired man sitting beside me.

When the doctor came in and asked everyone to leave I could tell that neither of, Edward and I, wanted to be separated so I quickly spoke up for the both of us. After the doctor got through with his inspection I was told that my injuries were healed but they wanted to keep me a few more days to see how I did since I had just woken up. By the end of the week I should be back on my ranch. Edward was coming with me, along with his family and Jacob.