Chapter 4

Standing in the doorway, the sight before him is devastating. He is frozen in place. He's afraid to go to her, afraid of what he will find. She is lying face down with her hair covering her face. She looks lifeless. He needs to go to her. She has to be alive.

He walks into the small dimly lit room. He can't take his eyes off of her, looking for any signs of life. His heart is telling him to hurry and go to her. He mind is saying it's too late.

With tears falling down his face, he takes a few steps toward her. His mind is so focused on her; he fails to check out the room for Ivy. He doesn't care at this point. If she is gone, then his life doesn't matter anymore. His whole life is in this room right now. She has to be alive.

When he gets to her, he drops to his knees. He reaches out and touches her hair that's matted and bloody. He is choking on a sob. Pushing her hair away from her face, he sees the side view of her. She is extremely pale and her lips are cracking and dry. There is blood stain on her the side of her mouth. Her cheek is bloody. He still sees no signs of life in her. His heart drops and he sits back on his heels. His shoulders shake as he puts his head in his hands. He cries for her. He cries for being too late. He cries for them and the life they could have had together.

He looks up to see her face once again. With blurry eyes, he leans down and kisses the side of her head and says, "I'm so sorry, Liv. Please forgive me."

When he looks down her body, he notices her hands are under her. He continues looking at her and sees her right foot move. Oh my God. He rushes gently to roll her over and begins checking her vitals. Touching her neck he feels a weak pulse. He leans down to her ear and talks to her.

He frantically says, "Liv, baby can you hear me. Liv it's me El. I'm here Liv I'm here. It's going to be okay." He then grabs the cell and calls 911.

He tries to untie her hands, which are now dark purple from being tied tightly for so long. He looks for any signs of... of assault or rape. She's still wearing the clothes from the last time he saw her, 7 days ago. Her shirt is mostly covered in vomit and blood. He then begins to panic even more. She has been vomiting up blood. His mind is spinning, how long has she been like this? Why is she vomiting blood? He looks around the room looking for evidence that would answer that question. He sees blood on the mattress. There is a plate of food on the table next to them. God, what if she was poisoned.

He finally unties her hands and gently rubs them trying to regain some circulation back in them. When he does, he notices her eyes flinch a little. He reaches for her cheek and soothing her.

"Liv, wake up for me. Please Liv can you open you eyes for me? It's me baby, it's El," he cries.

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In the darkness, she hears a soothing voice, a familiar voice. She tries to open her eyes, but something is pulling her. It's a calm place she thinks. This dark place is quiet and serene. But the voice keeps saying her name. She knows this voice. It's soothing her and telling her things she needs to hear. She tries to listen to every word, but she is getting pulled away. She doesn't want to go, but it's stronger than she is. She finally succumbs to the darkness; because she doesn't have the strength to fight it.

The last thing she hears is the voice saying, "It's me, El."

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He hears the sirens outside; but he doesn't let go of her. He just sits beside her, holding her, and praying she will survive. He feels her pulse once again and it's so faint he can barely feel it. She has got to hold on.

He keeps whispering to her, "Liv, hold on just hold on a little longer. I love you so much."

Within seconds, there is commotion all around him. Several men rush in and begin pushing him aside. As they work on her, they are asking him questions. He doesn't answer because he doesn't know. He hasn't been with her. He doesn't know what she has taken, what she has eaten. They just keep asking and he just stares at her, waiting for her to sit up and tell them all to leave her alone.

He hears Cragen's voice in the back ground. Has it been that long he thinks? It takes 3 hours to get here, has he been sitting here with her dying for 3 hours? Cragen is grabbing at him by the shoulders, saying something to him. He doesn't care. All he cares about is her lying on the floor dying. He lets out a sob and turns to look at Cragen and quietly says she has been vomiting blood. Cragen turns then to look at her and he sees all the vomit and blood all over her shirt and hair. Then looks over at the small bed and it also has blood on it.

Cragen whispers, "Good Lord, how long has she been like this?"

Then one of the paramedics say, "She coding." Everyone in the room stops and stares as they begin CPR on her. As they work on her, Elliot just stumbles back into the wall, and slides down to the floor. Cragen moves over to him. The scene before them is fanatic. They just stare and pray that she pulls through this.

They finally get her in the ambulance, after working on her for some time, and head to the local hospital. Cragen leads Elliot out of the building. He is not sure what to say to him at this point. He needs some answers about Ivy and what Elliot found when he got here. He knows he won't get any answers; not until they find out about Olivia. He walks Elliot to the car and they take off to the hospital.

The whole time all Elliot can think about is her. As he looks out the side window of the car, with tears streaming down his face. He whispers, "I love you, Liv. You have to make it."

TBC

Will she survive? What happened to Ivy?