the shortest chapter so far. sorry about that. and no, we didn't jump the time yet. Maxie wanted to appear too. and I always let the story flow as it wants, so I let him. I hope no one gets annoyed by this.

and on another note. I was thinking yesterday. how many of you would get annoyed if in the end Kai and Rei wouldn't get together? I mean, the situation does not look good for them. and to be honest, I am a bit tired of the usual KaixRei, because in them Kai is usually the bad guy and rei is the poor little one who is so kind and wonderful and Kai is bastard who hurts him. this time it is definitely not like that. no one can say that Kai did wrong here. at least wrong to rei. and neither will this be one of those where Kai is breaking down, loosing himself and then it's heroic Rei who comes and saves the day and makes everything good and Kai is showed as some weak little kid who can't protect himself.

I may have unresolved issues with Rei. and I guess I am now resolving them. although in my stories, Kai is not bastard and Rei is not some freaking saint. never.

my god. I guess there is now some people hating me ''^.^ whups.

anyways. please tell me your opinion. and thank you all for liking this story, following it and most of all, thank you for the reviews! I am blessed!

Sally the Liones: thank you for joining the story! it's always nice when a new face appears n.n and thanks, I think I am more suited for emotions than action. or something... I hope I won't let you down with this chap! and Rei is a jerk because he is a jerk. we'll probably find out why later... thanks for bothering to review! it's nice of you

NothernShinigami: it's okay, whatever runs your engine ;D I meant it to be training though, but I do admit that it does sound a bit...suggestive :P whups... thanks for the review! it was good to hear from you again! I already thought I lost you...

Malice is my name: sorry, I doubt we'll see Tala this time around... but not all of his friends are jerks, just wait and see! thanks for the review, it's awesome that you care to comment on my little fic!

1: thanks for the review, I hope you won't be too disappointed with this story in case I drift away from KaixRei.. I don't know yet...I will keep going thought, thanks for the cheering! :D

deny: I am afraid you did something to my head with your request. I have never even thought about KaixMax before you asked for it! but I liked it, and maybe I will write something more about them, because I think Maxie might be my favorite pair with Kai. (I have issues with rei as seen above... and tala can be a handful..) my computer is dying so I am sorry if there is typos. not all of them are my fault...I am thining of getting a new one thought... anyways, I hope there is at least little drama, so you would like this chapter too. thank you for your continued support!I really really appreciate it!

now, finally, here is the chapter 4 of faW! I know you have been waiting a long time for it by now ;) hope you like this! got a nosebleed while writing so it might be a bit dizzily written. and not Kenny's laptop dizzily, btw.

aargh, enough rambling! here it is!

When he got home he sighed happily. He felt much better now, much more in control. He was grinning to himself when he tossed the sweaty clothes aside and turned the shower on. He was not surprised that there was already soap and shampoo there. He had pretty much guessed it once he had seen the kitchen but he hadn't cared to make sure.

He stepped out of the bathroom and dried his hair forcibly. And then his phone beeped. He stared at it a moment, hair still clinging to his face. With a huff he walked to the phone and picked it up.

Two new messages. The most resent one was from Rei. Eyebrow arching he opened it, curious to see what Rei had to say

You moved out?

That's all? He had been gone about a day, he had not contacted any of his team and yet the guy who supposedly was his boyfriend. He growled and gripped the phone hard enough that there was a crack. He didn't know if it came from his fingers or from the phone but he still forced his hand to unclench. He couldn't afford to break neither one.

Irritated he deleted the message without even thinking of replying it. If Rei didn't care more than that, why the hell should he?

Fingers tapping the buttons hard he looked out the second message. It was from Maxie. He blinked in surprise and run a hand through his moist hair, droplets flying around, some landing one the screen.

He had to read it again and a little smile crept to his lips.

Kai! You have to answer me, please! I was out there looking for you and in the meanwhile somebody had come and taken all your stuff away! And no one tried to stop him or ask him why, they had just let him do it! I can't believe things have gone wrong this badly. But you are not leaving for good, are you? I don't want to never see you again. Wait, did I got that right? Yeah. Okay. Anyways. We are still friends, right? So at least tell me if you are okay please?and if I can help, just ask.

Max the clueless.

He chuckled. That was just so Maxie. Being all worried and frantic. But the message made him feel bittersweet. The blond was worried about him, enough so to go looking for him. But the text also proved that the rest of his team didn't care about him in the least. They would let him walk away just like that.

Suddenly feeling too tired to stand he dragged himself to the chair and flopped down. He stared in the distance for a while. He had tried to hard to make his team better, hours he had spent planning their training to get the best results, trying to individualize it so that he could focus on each ones weak points.

He shook his head. Oh well, at least it had been a good practice for the job he would have. No reason to feel like he had been used. In his own way, he had cared for his team, even with Tyson in it. So not only had Rei let him down, nearly all of his team betrayed him too.

He shrugged and sat up straighter. Thank god he had not gone soft with them, otherwise he would feel embarrassed for showing them something that they could use against him. If they thought he was cold heartless bastard he could leave them to think so.

But he could also give Maxie what he deserved. So he typed

I'm fine. It was time I left the team. Don't worry about me. Take care of yourself and train hard. You need to train your speed some more.

Thanks.

Then he send it and went to kitchen to make a sandwich for himself. And when he was munching it, flipping the TV open to watch something stupid to relax his phone started ringing.

Rolling his eyes he fetched the phone. Max was calling. Frowning he answered

"What is it?" he asked, letting the annoyance he felt to be heard in his voice.

"Kai! I am so glad you answered! Why did you leave?"

he was quiet. And Max was quiet.

"Kai?" Maxie's voice sounded nervous. He sighed and laying the sandwich on his lap rubbed his eyes.

"Rei didn't say anything?"

he could practically see how Maxie shook his head so hard that his whole body shook with it.

"No! He hasn't said a word about it, no matter how much I ask"

despite himself he snorted. If he wasn't so pissed with Rei he would feel sorry for him, for being pestered by Max. the blond could be really determined and stubborn when he wanted something.

"Figures" he muttered under his breath. So Rei was indeed letting him get all the blame. What the hell was wrong with the Chinese one?

"What?" Max asked

"Nothing" he snapped, gritting his teeth. Of course what they had had, what he had thought to be the best thing in his life so far, ended up being just fake. And now everyone would think that he is some sort of molester because Tyson jumped into conclusion without giving him a word. He growled deep in his chest. If they both would be in front of him, he wasn't sure which one he would want to punch first. His bloodlust thoughts were interrupted

"I know you didn't do whatever Tyson thinks you did" the blond said quietly. His mouth snapped open but not a sound came out. And after a pause Max continued. "because I know you cared about Rei. And after all the years we have known, I don't think you could do something bad to him. Deliberately at least. You hardly do more than give Tyson a rap in the head, so I don't buy it. Do you want to tell me what happened?"

he was quiet. He bit his lips hard to stop it from shaking. It felt like he was released. Like a weight had been taken from his shoulders. To actually hear someone say that he was not blamed felt incredible.

"You really should make Rei answer that." he choked out, barely keeping his voice from cracking. He rubbed his eyes fiercely. And looked up at the ceiling. "Because I don't know what's going on anymore" he admitted.

"Are you okay?" Maxie asked, concerned

he smirked

"Of course." he said automatically "Besides, now I have my own home and Tyson won't be eating all my foods"

Maxie laughed

"That's not nice"

"I know" he said airily. "What did you expect?"

Max laughed again

"I will miss you"

he snorted

"Of course you are. Who is going to force to train til you drop now?"

he heard Max sigh.

"damn. I will totally miss that too!"

he chuckled

"Sure you are." he said sarcastically but he was smirking. It felt good to talk like this to someone. Back in Tyson's there was also Tyson around, it wasn't easy. Usually with Rei they would talk serious stuff and get to know each others. Or so he had thought. Apparently he didn't know Rei at all, he thought with a twinge of hurt.

He shook his head. He was not going to swing back to moody all the time.

"You sure you are not coming back?" Maxie asked. He could tell there was little hope in his voice, but only a little. He sighed

"Sorry Maxie." he answered. The blond sighed on the other end

"I knew that. Just had to try. Things really went awry, didn't they?"

"Yeah, they did"

hesitant silence

"Go ahead" he encouraged.

"Can I come see you sometimes?" Max asked, barely audible

he paused. Was he happy or was he hesitant?

"Why?" he asked, voice stern.

"Because you are my friend" Max said "and there can never be too much friends"

"I'm not sure if that is a good idea" he said. He really didn't think it was good idea. It's not like the two of them were close. They haven't talked much apart from training and blading. And what with had happened with Rei he didn't think it was good idea to get close to anyone. Heck, he liked Tala and Brian, but he wasn't seeing them either nor talking with them. Being with others was not an easy thing for him and it didn't come naturally. He had really tried his best with Rei, to open up to him.

"I have to go now" he said "I have a lot of things to do"

"Kai wait!" Max cut in hurriedly "I didn't mean to be pushy or anything. I just worry about you, okay?"

"Bye Max" he said coldly and hung up the phone. Trying to calm his beating heart he bent over, careful not to crush the sandwich still in his lap. Why couldn't the blond just stop sooner? Why did he have to shatter the illusion that they indeed were friends and were casual and relaxed with each others. He had liked that. He might have even needed that so that he could move forward easier.

Taking a very deep breath, enough so that his lungs felt like bursting he straightened up and only then did he let it out with a long hiss.

What the hell was he thinking again? Just earlier, wasn't he happy that he was finally able to be on his own, not having to look after his team and hear their complains? Wasn't he pleased that he was once again the master of his own life, able to do just what he wanted?

That's right. He was. He continued to eat the sandwich and watch the TV with zero focus. Of course things would be hard, after all, he had trusted his heart with Rei. And now he felt stupid and ridiculous for falling for that. Angry at Rei, angry at himself.

He hated doubting himself. He wanted to feel strong and independent again. And for that he couldn't keep lingering with the hope that Rei would speak up, to man up and admit what had been going on for real.

And if he wanted to suffocate the hope, he needed to cut Rei out completely. They couldn't have the same friends, he didn't want to be reminded about Rei all the time, recalling the pain and the shame the Chinese blader had caused.

He turned his phone off. And he wasn't going to turn it back on before Monday morning when Dickinson would come to pick him up.

SOoo? how was it? I really hope that you still like this and that you are not getting bored! *slight worry*

this computer is actually so slow that after typing I can stare how the text comes about a sentence later. slooow...

anyway. it's only a little pain. don't forget to review! they make one efficient writer and also can affect the story a lot! ask anyone! and yes, I really do requests, one has been asked from me, and it was fun writing it!

I so should stop drinking coffee or energy drinks... sorry about being hyper and rambling so much

once more, please review! I'll go run around a circle to get rid of the nervous energy! later fellows!?