Declan felt the moment Kate's body had tensed up, lifting his head, he looked towards the direction she was staring at, but saw nothing.
"What is it, love?"
"Nothing." She replied bitterly, still staring ahead. That what he had become to her.
Shaking her head, Kate lifted it and gave Declan a small smile, her right hand coming up to massage his forehead with her thumb; smoothing out the crease there.
"I'm okay."
Declan frowned at her for a few more seconds, studying her face. Deciding to simply let it go, he turned his head, kissing her wrist, his own hand raising to grasp hers.
"If you say so…"
"I do."
"Very well the, what saw we join the others and Magnus in the dinning room? I've personally missed the Big Guy's cooking very much."
Kate grinned, letting him pull her towards the side exit. She looked one last time towards the spot where Henry had been, before walking out of the room with Declan.
Henry didn't know how much time he had stayed in the same position, eventually he gave into his protesting muscles and dragged himself over to his bed, collapsing on it and passing out. The day's exhaustion finally catching up to him.
More time passed, until Henry awoke to someone's finger in his hair, caressing it softly, soothingly. He stirred softly, turning into the hand's heat.
"Kate?" He mumbled, half asleep and eyes still closed.
"Sorry to disappoint…" Magnus whispered back, her fingers never-stopping.
He woke up to the sound of Magnus's voice, opening one bleary eye to stare up at her. It had been years since she had done this to him and while a part of him was reminding himself that he was more then old enough for this type of treatment, the other – bigger – part was grateful for the comfort.
"Hey doc…" He mumbled, blinking sleepy eyes up at her.
"I've brought you something to eat." Magnus replied, as Henry saw the there was a tray on his bedside table.
"Thanks, but I'm not really hungry…"
"You haven't eaten all day Henry." She answered back, always the doctor.
"I know, I just…" He trailed off, eyes staring off into the distance.
Magnus nodded, the hand on his head pulling back to rest on her lap as she stared at him for a while.
"You saw."
It wasn't a question, it was a statement and the onl answer Henry gave her was to stare back at her, the pain clearly written in his eyes. Magnus said nothing in return, the hands on her lap reaching out to grasp his as she looked back at him.
"I'm so sorry my boy."
"I deserve it…" he says, voice barely a whisper.
"Henry, you don't really believe that, do you?" Magnus asked, frowning.
He doesn't answer her, instead turning his head, avoiding her eyes. Magnus stares back at him, biting her lower lip in thought. Clearly he does.
"Henry, look at me." She waits for him to turn towards her again and when he does, he voice is firm, but gentle. "Whatever it is you think you deserve or don't, nobody deserves to feel pain. No matter how much they screwed up."
At his look of surprise she almost smiles.
"Yes, I am saying that you screwed up. Everyone does at one point or another in life." She did smile then. "But as long as there's a chance to fix it, then you mustn't stop trying."
Henry bowed his head again at her words. "How could I possibly try and fix this? I've lost her, it's over."
"It's over?" Magnus asked, eyebrow raising in surprise. "Where did you pick up that attitude, I certainly taught you better then that."
"Doc, I-"
"You need to talk to her Henry." Magnus replied, interrupting him in a gentle voice. "You owe Kate and yourself at least that much."
"She doesn't wanna talk to me…" He mumbled.
"She might surprise you Henry, Kate changed quite a while why you were gone. And I'm not saying this to make you feel worse." Henry nodded as Magnus continued talking.
"Besides, neither of you can avoid this for much longer. If you're indeed back for good then you and her are going to be working together, you're going to have to talk eventually."
Henry gave her another pained looked and closed his eyes, a hand coming up to massage his temple.
"Go look for her Henry, talk to her."
"But she hates me Doc! And she's with…" His argued again, his voice trailing off.
"That's never stopped you before." She reminded him, God knew she had lost track of the yelling matches between the two of them. They had the same temper, you couldn't deny that. But they always made up after, it was just the way things were. Henry couldn't help but nod, knowing that eventually he would have to do what Magnus was asking him.
"It'll be okay…" She tried to reassure him. "You're to good of friends for this to come between you two."
"Right, friends…" Henry scoffed.
"You're better then this Henry, I suggest you start acting like it, before you lose Kate's friendship as well…Now do try to eat something."
And with those parting words Magnus gave his hand one more squeeze before getting up and leaving the room. Henry stayed in the same position for a while after Magnus had left, their conversation playing in his mind. He really should talk to Kate, he knew that, but he was scared.
Scared to find out what she really thought of him, scared to see the disgust that could be in her eyes. He wouldn't be able to bear seeing that in her eyes. The again, he didn't think he could bear keeping his distance – no matter how much it might hurt. And maybe Magnus was right, maybe having her friendship was as important – if not more – then having her love.
Henry tried not to cringe at the thought, but he knew that it was something we would simply have to deal with. Things had changed, they had changed. He had lost her, that was a fact.
This time it didn't hurt so much to think about Kate like that. Because this time, he actually had something to fight for. And he damn sure as hell was going to fight for it. Maybe he had lost her as a lover and mate – but he would be damned if he was going to lose her as a friend too.
Henry needed Kate in his life.
