Chapter 4
Hinamori closed her eyes then inhaled and exhaled deeply Toshiro was still dumbstruck from her words. She frowned "All right then I shall start but don't you dare interrupt me wait until I am done talking. Do you agree?" She asked Toshiro only nodded.
"Alright, where to begin …geez Shiro at least look at me when I'm talking." Momo said almost pleadingly.
Toshiro's head rose his blue eyes met her brown ones they could tell the other one was hurting but they also knew that their silence was only making it worse. Toshiro nodded to signal her to continue.
"Like I was saying I don't know what to say well honestly I do but I'm not sure to tell you or not. Before I knew I could tell you everything then with all the things that happened we kept drifting away from each other and now were completely strangers to one another. Shiro I know how you feel Rangiku told me but you shouldn't blame yourself I don't."
"Momo" he whispered looking down trying to avert hers.
Hinamori had enough she jumped off the couch got on her knees in front of him and with one hand grabbed his chin and pulled it towards her. Tears were flowing down her cheeks at this point
"Shut up and look at me damn it! To be honest at first I was scared of you alright I was because something always happens to us. But then I realized how much more scared I was when Aizen sliced you in half I was more scared of losing you! Shiro when I was in the coma I had a dream that we were together and everything was perfect. When I woke up I was sad but then I was happy because then I thought I could make that dream into reality. But you weren't there you wouldn't give me the time of day. Why!" She dropped her hand from his faced and pulled it towards her chest
"Why Shiro? I don't understand so please explain it to me because the only answer I think is that you hate me for making you feel guilty." She wiped her eyes and stared at him for what seemed an eternity before he spoke.
"Momo I could never hate you, you're my best friend. The reason I keep avoiding you is because every time I look at you I see you covered in blood and it's my entire fault I was scared. I was scared because things always happen to you when were close like you said but I want to get stronger to protect you but I still don't think it's enough. I think I will never be strong enough at least I'm not strong enough mentally to support seeing you get hurt like that again because of me. I don't know what I would do without you Momo." He said
A wave of relief swept through Hinamori she began to cry all over again not because she was sad but because she was happy she even began to laugh.
"Hinamori this is hardly comical for you to be laughing about. I'm serious." He glared at her
" oh Shiro I'm not laughing at you I'm laughing at myself I thought for sure you were going to say that you hated me or that you never wanted to see me again." She chuckled a little softer until she stopped and just smiled at him. They sat in silence for another minute
"Well there is only one way to solve this problem." She said
"And what would that be?" he asked her
"I need to start training more, but I cannot do it alone. Will you help me?" she asked him
"Momo that's not a very promising solution I'm still worried." He said
"Shiro I know your worried but I think we just have to get stronger together not just for each other but for ourselves as well." She tried to re assure him with a smile
"What if you get hurt again?" Toshiro answered
"I didn't want to do this but it looks like I have to" she answered back meanwhile she undid her robe from the top
"Momo what are you doing!" He was shocked he couldn't believe what she was doing
"Don't think wrong you perv" She lifted her under shirt just enough to expose her stomach there were two bad scars on her.
"Momo" he could feel his tears build up
"There is no guarantee that I will not get hurt again but as you can see I'm all healed, these scars don't bother me. I actually think they look kind of cool. Shiro I will always come back to you no matter what as long as you promise to always be there for me." She pulled her shirt back down and tied her robe back to its place.
He stood there with a gloomy expression she sounded so sure that they would be fine. But it still bothered him.
"Alright then I will promise to always be by your side but you also have to promise to be more careful." He answered
"Deal!" she shouted and shook his hand she got up and went for a glass of water
"Oh Momo may I inquire as to why you were sleeping on my floor last night?" he asked with a smirk
She squeaked dropping her glass on the floor. Toshiro snickered at her.
"Oh well I wanted to talk to you to clear things." She replied nervously
"I went to sleep at one in the morning what were you doing awake so late?" he continue to drill her
"Well geez I was worried about us! I was worried that me loving you was all for nothing!" she gasped realizing what she had said.
He froze in his seat
"You.. Love me?"