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As the days continued to pass on by, she felt alone. She didn't feel lonely, she actually felt lost. You know… when you get sad for no actual reason? Well, Raven didn't think she had a reason to be sad, or alone. He was gone, and he wasn't going to come back. Her heart felt numb, and she wanted her feelings gone.
Maybe if she ignored them from the begging this wouldn't have happened. But now she can't avoid how much he hurt her. Its not like she stand a chance, she was worthless to him. Well to everyone actually because, Robin still continued to aggravate her. He treated her like she had no value, as if she was some dog, and she had to obey his orders.
Four long months had passed, of all her suffering. She would be lying if she said, she didn't wonder if he thought of her. Or at least the team… After realizing how she just wasted her time crying and thinking of the guy who hurt her during those months. She just didn't care anymore; she believed that stage had passed. She knew what she was going to do. She was going to move on, but in order for her to accomplish that she had to leave. She can't be in a place were everything reminds her of him. Especially in a place that no longer feels like home.
After thinking over her decision, she decided to go to the living room; surely Robin would be there. As she walked her way over there, she had nothing in mind. She had her mind at ease. It was best to have a blank mind then a clouded one. It was just the best way to deal with her life.
As the living door opened, her team was revealed to her. Robin was talking to Starfire over the couch while Cyborg was in the kitchen, probably making something to eat. She walked over to Robin, and handed him a paper. Robin gave her a glare, for interrupting his conversation with the alien princess. After snatching the paper off her hands, he took a quick glance.
His expression quickly changed, "You're quitting the team?" he asked un-amused
"Yes" the dark empathy quickly stated.
Cyborg had over heard, and came over to them we was a shock as everyone in the living room.
"Friend why must you quit?" Asked a confuse princess
"Star, whatever we are referred to as, I'm not. I'm not meant to be a hero… I don't want to be one, not anymore." Raven responded with no emotion whatsoever, as she tried to avoid the aliens gaze.
"Let her Star, she was always selfish." Robin commented before he was thrown into a wall, by dark force.
"You know what boy blonder? I've had it with your and your smart comments. You're always insulting me, and trying to make me feel useless. I don't need your pathetic ass, bossing me around. Because, if anyone is weak…it's you. I be careful if I was you, I can simply end you if I wish to." She said in a dark voice obviously mad beyond reason.
Robin began to get back up on his feet. He tried to ignore her comment, even though it sent chills to his spine. As he walked towards her, he looked straight towards his eyes; he stood over her so she had to look up. He narrowed his eyes at her, so she would know he was also mad.
"Leave now Raven, by this day forth you are no longer welcomed." He stated sounding as serious as he could have sounded.
Raven kept making eyes contact for a few more seconds, she then chuckled. As she stood back she took out her communicator, and tossed it to him. As he quick reflexes caught it, she said, "Keep your shit."
The sudden scenes that were developing in front of them overwhelmed Starfire and Cyborg. They had no idea what was going on, they didn't know what to do, so they just stood there.
Raven had decided it was best for her to leave now. She was tired by how her suppose leader treated her. She couldn't even acknowledge the reason why he acted so cruel towards her.
She was sure it had something to do with the changeling, but he didn't want to find out. Not anymore, she was done with him. As Raven teleported to the city, she began to fly above the ground.
Leaving the Tower for good, sounded way better in her mind. Because now that she left, she had nowhere to crash. Sure, she could call one of her many hormonal fans, to let her sleep in. But she rather not get involve with them. As she found a high enough roof, she decided to land there. It was best if she meditated for a while, she was still kind of angry towards what had jus occur. Sure she was going to quit, but she didn't expect him to kick her out.
-Tower-
"What an ungrateful…" Robin mumbled as he fixed his traffic light suit. Starfire was still rather confused on what she had seen. She wondered why her boyfriend and her friend Raven were fighting about. But she didn't dare to ask him; she feared that he would be mad at her if she even brought it up.
She did try to talk about it with Cyborg, but he was in the same boat as her. They both didn't know what was going on. The only thing that they knew was that she was no longer on the team with them. But why? Have they been such bad friends, they paid no attention to what was going on between the team?
Robin began to pace around the living room, while he fussed at himself. He finally came to a stop. He looked around the room, and found Cyborg cleaning the kitchen, from the mess he had made.
"Cyborg, I want you to disable any credit card that would be in Ravens possession."
At that moment Cyborg was shocked to hear his leaders orders. He knew that he was beyond mad but yet again he was taking it to far.
"Robin… I know that you are angry with her. But disabling her credit cards? She work hard for them, and yet she never really uses them."
"Don't lecture me about, what I can and can not do. That's great if she does not use them, because I am taking them away. I gave you all money, but only if you deserved it. She doesn't deserve anything. Not anymore. She has done nothing but make everyone frustrated by her actions."
"That's low even for you." Cyborg said as he looked at him in disappointment.
"Are you disobeying my orders?" Robin question annoyed.
Before Cyborg could argue back, Starfire interrupted their conversation.
"Please friend, do as Robin says. I can not to the witnessing of you two getting angry."
There were seconds of silence, Cyborg could detect that Starfire was at the edge of crying. He suppressed a growl, and did as he was told. He deactivated all her credit cards, he turn to look at Robin. "I hope you're happy, but you will regret this." With that the half metal man walked away.
Ravens P.O.V
Raven could feel the winds breezing her as she meditated on top of a building. There was no more tranquility in her mind, but hatred. How could she stand being with them? With her worthless leader that treated her like trash. She was half demon forsakes! Shouldn't they must have bowed down to her.
But the part that really hurt the most, was that no one even stood up for her, knowing well that her leader was obviously abusing the power of a leader. Weren't they her friends? Or did they also blamed the Changelings dismissal on her?
Whatever, it's not like she needed friends…at the end they all betrayed her. The part that she hated of being half human was that the feelings of hurt and betrayal which affected her. It damaged her, because she felt like she wanted to cry. She wanted to let her feelings be known, but she couldn't, she didn't want to be seen weak. Years of her life were spent with people she had considered friends, but who know are nothing but strangers.
"I will not cry, crying is for pathetic people." She told herself in a harsh voice
"Or for humans…" a voice contradicted behind her.
Raven quickly turned to face her opposite opponent. As she saw that it was no other then the pity thieve, she didn't even bother to shield herself as she turn back.
"What do you want?" she hissed as she looked unto the city.
"You know Raven, crying is not for the pathetic. But for humans…" he said as he walked towards the dark empathy and sat down.
"That's the point I'm not human" she half whispered
"You and I both know that's a lie."
"Yeah whatever, why are you here anyways?" she asked trying to avoid the subject.
"I could ask you the same thing…" he quickly retorted
Raven quickly gave him a death glare, which meant she did not want to play any games. Red X gave a nervous laugh before speaking.
"I thought you needed a friend" He said sincerely
"A hero and a villain friends? Well that's unexpected." She joked
"Well I fucked a hero before, crazy right?" he tried to joke, making Raven blush.
Seconds of awkward silence, Raven stood up and used her powers to throw him unto another building. With that she flew away from him. She was highly astonished on what he had just said.
By then Red X had acknowledged that he had definitely crossed the line, of whatever they had. He quickly ran for her, trying to catch up and apologize for running his mouth.
Building after building he had to jump, he knew she wasn't going to stop. Not after what he had done.
"Raven wait up… look I'm sorry for what I said. I was just playing around."
Raven stopped and waited for him to catch up. She looked straight at him, with tears on her eyes. "Don't you see I'm tired of playing games?" she questioned him
He saw the tears slip of her eyes, he watched them fall. All of a sudden his stomach twisted. He didn't want her to cry any longer. He couldn't bare to see her like this… so broken and sad. So before she was about to fly away, he took her arm, making her turn around and he hugged her.
"Can't you see I want to help you?" he said as he inhaled her scent.
Raven could feel him saying the truth. But was he? Why would he suddenly care? Red X wasn't the type of person who would care for anyone. As they both departed from the unexpected hug he had given her. She looked at him confused and a hit of frustration.
"Why?" she questioned. She was rather confuse in this situation with him. Wasn't he a flirt? Why be with her when he could have… who knows how many women wrapped around his arms?
"I care for you Raven, extremely actually… and I don't want to see you hurt… ever." He tried to explain as he looked directly at her with his Red X mask.
She looked deep into his mask, she couldn't believe him. I mean how? He was wearing a mask and telling her how all of a sudden he liked her.
"How can I even trust you?" she said bluntly
He knew she was going to get to that point. As he also acknowledge that telling her how he felt with his crime mask on wasn't going to help win her over. As he took of his mask, reveling the same guy she fooled around about four months ago. It brought so many memories to Raven. Him… her…the letter… Beast boy and her fighting. Just many things that Raven couldn't handle at the moment.
She broke down and started to cry, she covered her face with her hands. He knew it affected her, but he wanted her to understand that he wanted to help her not hurt her. He hugged her then she took a hold unto his shirt.
"Jason… I don't like to feel alone." She spoke to him as she wetted his suit.
As he tightened the hug he whispered to her, "You won't have to be alone anymore bluebird."
At moment it made Raven feel safe. Well not exactly the part where she had teleported into his bedroom. But the broken promise that he had promised her. Raven didn't believe him, when he had told her that he would be there for her. Because, Beast boy did the same. Now where is he now? Wrapped around the enemies arms. Maybe Beast boy affected her so much, she could never look upon loving someone else. Since he had betrayed her trust and her love. But maybe one day in the future, she could look at Jason as she looked at Beast boy. With true love, but in the end was never really there.
Perhaps things could be different with Jason.
As Jason had come back from changing into his civilian cloth. He had on a white shirt with some gray sweatpants.
He looked at Raven who still had a gloomy face expression, he offered her something to drink. Which she decline as he sat next to her and studied her face. He found out many beautiful features. He didn't think it was weird at all, she was just so magnificent.
"So… do you want to talk about why you were alone today?" he asked her she shifted her eyes to him, and when they made yes contacted she quickly looked at the ground.
"I'm not a Titan anymore." She simply said.
Jason's eyes widened in shock, he couldn't believe what she was telling him.
"What?! You mean Robin…" before Jason could go any further with his words.
"No… I quit." Raven said as she looked at her hands finding interest in them.
"But I thought you liked being qualified as a hero?" he asked confused
"They're are things in the world you do, because you believe that they might just change what you truly are." The dark empathy spoke with such truth in her words.
"Yeah, I understand what you mean, but why?" he asked her as he stared at her wanting to her every answer and full detail on what had happened.
"It wasn't for Robin. I could have easily transferred, I'm just not cut out to be a hero. I'm half demon, a hero is the last thing I'm qualified to be." She explained to him.
"Oh okay." He simply said not wanting to make her think that he was suspicious or anything. With an awkward silence, he took out his cellphone he had put in his sweats.
Raven flinched and looked at his way, as she saw the device he had just pulled out.
"What are you doing?" she suspiciously questioned as she saw him dial a number.
"Calm down, I'm just ordering us some pizza. I'm hungry and I bet you're too."
Raven rolled her eyes, and asked to borrow some cloths, since she felt very weird that she had her hero clothing still on. As Jason retrieved with a shirt, Raven slipped it on after unclipping her cloak. It was long enough she didn't need any pants.
During the whole time of her changing, she could feel Jason's eyes on her.
"Can you stop staring?" she half asked harshly getting irritated.
"Oh sorry." He apologize giving a nervous laugh.
After a long while of waiting and silence, the pizza had arrived.
They ate and drank soda, despite of Ravens argument of her not wanting to drink any. She drank it anyways, gaining a few burps making her embarrass and Jason laugh at her. Which only caused her to slap him with her dark magic. Which only caused him to complained making her giggle.
He thought that her giggle was truly one of the most wonderful things about her. It was just so adorable. As their stomachs got full, they grew tired and decided it was time to sleep.
Jason was going to sleep in the couch at the living room, and let Raven sleep in her bed. But she preferred if he slept with her. He decided not to make any smart comment that would mess up his night with her.
After a while Raven had drifted to sleep, which only made Jason think about the dark beauty who laid beside him, snuggling closer to him. Something in his heart warmed up. Though he knew falling for her would only lead into more trouble. But at that precise moment he didn't seem to care. He also drifted to sleep with her in his arms.
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