Holly J's face went paler then it already is. All color, flushed.
"NO. Way. "Fiona exclaimed, still happy about it.
Holly J gave her a look with her mouth wide open.
"What! I can't help but be happy right now! I told you there are more chances of twins. Hello?"
"Well, I don't see why you would want to abort? Aren't lesbian couples usually happy about this?" The doctor asked
Holly J shaked her head around. This can't be happening…
"Excuse me? Last time I checked, doctors are supposed to ask, not speculate anything about their patients. She had sex with my brother dumbass. My twin. ". Fiona yelled at Doctor Ng. Seriously now.
Doctor Ng was a little taken back at a teenager yelling at him but he let it fly.
"Look, I just really want to know what I can do. Why wouldn't you recommend abortion?" Holly J asked
"The thing with twins and abortion is. Well, let's admit it, it is painful times two and while the corpse is perfect for research, it may damage your uterus and your chances on getting pregnant again. Also including the whole emotional dilemma with that. ". Doctor Ng explained
Corpse...?
Fiona was sitting back down texting people on her phone yet listening to everything. Holly J gave her a desperate look.
"Do what you want, I told you. It's your children. I'm going back in the car". She said without looking up from her cell.
Holly J sighed and thought about it for a moment. I still haven't told my mom and I'm not planning on it. Declan's better off never knowing about this... She thought about teen moms for a bit. She never really thought about keeping it especially now knowing its twins. I'd rather just go ahead and... Abort. It really doesn't matter anyway.
"I'm going for it. If that's the worst that can happen, so be it. "
The doctor nodded at her decision and took a look at the ultra sound screen for a second.
" Well, miss Holly. I understand your choices concerning this situation and I can direct you to someone who'll. Take care of that. Tell Rose I said thank you And good luck Holly "Dr. Ng smiled at her
Holly J gathered her stuff and headed towards the car. It was still early in the morning. 10:30 to be exact. Friday, she had skipped school another day. Ugh.
"So, what's the place we have to go now? I'm pretty sure you can't eat before you kill right?".
"Fiona, don't give me a hard time for this. The doctor said she opens at 11. So, we'll have time just as we get there, it's out of Toronto. Now do you want to eat?" Holly J asked as she got in the passenger seat of her car.
Fiona had been driving this whole time because she was concerned about Holly J. Which made no sense to Holly J; she didn't have a gigantic bump.
On the long drive there, Holly J still talked about her pregnancy like it wasn't even hers, like the twins didn't belong to her. She was disgusted and mad and didn't want to think of them as hers. She called it her situation instead and "the twins" not by specific names or anything. They didn't deserve such a bitchy mother. But that's just what they're going to get.
The girls got out of the car and stepped out into the parking lot of an average looking house located an hour away from Toronto.
"Are you sure this is the place?" Holly J asked Fiona.
"That's what he wrote on the paper HJ, don't ask me. I just drive". Fiona answer slamming the door a little annoyed at Holly J.
The house was blue, located in a small, suburban neighborhood. That was strange? Was abortion even legal around here? (I really don't know, I'm following this from stuff I've read about abortion places)
Fiona checked the front door which had the right number, house 41 but no sign of a doctor.
"Look over here ". Holly J said from a distance.
The whole place felt all weird to Fiona. She walked over to see what Holly J was fussing about and walked along to find a back door that read. "For doctor, knock loudly". Holly J was knocking as hard as she could till her knuckles turned red. All the sudden, a middle aged woman peered her head through the door.
"Please come in. "She said in a gentle voice.
Fiona and Holly J stepped in the house like it was nothing weird. There was a waiting area, just like at a normal doctor's office. But the hall down to the doctor was more like a house's hallways. With rooms.
"May I ask who has sent your here today miss?" The lady with the soft voice asked directed to Fiona.
"My friend here and I were directed here from Dr. Ng in Toronto. She needs and abortion and, well its twins". Fiona told her in a quite gentle voice too.
This is getting a little too. Contagious.
"Oh right, he talked to us about you honey. You'll be all right. Just take a seat in this waiting area. Doctor Neil will be right with you"
The girls sat around a big, fake wood table in the waiting area. Holly J examined the place which was obviously a house. The table she was sitting at had a stack of nickelodeon magazines for kids and some Time. Not too shabby for an illegal place. How could I be doing this? It's illegal ". The word ran through her mind like a racecar. I will get through this she thought again.
Suddenly, they heard a scream come from down the hall. Not a scary one but one of excruciating pain. Holly J and Fiona stared at each other in disbelief. Fiona shrugged it off in an "I told you. You shouldn't do this" sort of way she had all day and picked up a magazine.
The screams got a little bit louder for the second and third time they heard it. But then, complete silence. This is creepy... Holly J was suddenly scared when she heard footsteps come down the hall.
" Ms. Sinclair. Come right this way with me". Said Dr. Neil A tall, thirty year old looking, black man. Very handsome for his age. Why would he work as this?.
As Holly J and Fiona walked down the hall, Dr. Neil closed each door before they passed them like he was trying to hide a secret of some sort. They got to the last room on the left and he gave Holly J some weird looking dirty night gown
"I'll be right with you " and he left.
Holly J went into the room's bathroom to change into the bloody, dirty nightgown the doctor had given her. Fiona stayed in the main room. It was pretty small. Just one bed, a desk and a couple of chairs. No windows. The room was also covered with posters informing stuff about abortions. And pictures. Pictures that made Fiona feel sick.
".I'm good. How do I look?" Said Holly J coming out of the bathroom.
Fiona looked at her top to bottom in disgust.
"Just so you know, when the screaming starts, I'm out".
Holly J ignored her and sat on the bed.
" You nervous?".
Holly J sighed." Heck yea I am" she felt like saying. But she had to be strong. She was THE Holly J after all. I will get through this. She though again.
"Do you know how he's gonna do it? Like, is it the weird suction thingy or, is he, like, pulling it?" Fiona asked.
"I don't know Fiona. I've never done this before!" Holly J exclaimed.
Suddenly the doctor came in with a plastic water cup and some pills
Holly J cringed and hugged her stomach tight
"Just drink these and in about, 10, 20 minutes, you'll be dilated. I'll be back "doctor Neil explained leaving again
Holly J contemplated with the pills in her hand just take it Holly Jeannette. It will be all over soon. But she couldn't. Thoughts raced through her mind like a wild car both good and bad. Like the devil was playing a joke with her brain. She panicked
Its gonna hurt. You might die. Your gonna die. it's illegal. Fionas mad. Your parents. You career. Yourself. Declan will never forgive you...
"Are you all set?" The doctors asked coming back in
Holly J shook her head at the pills in confusion trying to change her mind.
"I-I can't. I can't take this. This is, its, it's just too much".
She dropped the pills on the floor and set the cup down on the desk. Right back into the bathroom she went to change and left the office without another word.
Fiona was in shock. Holly J just did that? Wow.
As Fiona followed her back in the car she notice Holly J wasn't crying. She instead just wanted to get away from it all. To undo it.
"What happened back there?" Fiona asked her now sitting in the driver's seat.
"I, I just panicked. Let's get out of here" Holly J replied not wanting to look at her.
"Ok then "Fiona rolled her eyes. Starting up the car
for the rest of the ride, Holly J just stared out the window and ate olives out of her jar. She didn't wanna talk, she didn't wanna say anything.
read!review! Ive got BIG plans for here on :p && um, soory but no declan for a whilee :(. Matbe 3 or 4 chapters from noww. Depends on how long I'll make them cause i start school tomorow :((keep reading and well, I';d appriciated if you write your own!
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