Clarissa sat in Phil's room going over in her head what had just happened. She was so confused, she thought she loved Phil, but the kiss she had shared with Dan definitely meant something, he understood how she felt, what she had been through, she had felt something amazing, electric, powerful. A knock on the door made her snap out of her trance, she stood up and took a deep breath in, was she ready to face Dan after what had just happened? Would it be awkward between them? She sighed, she was going to have to talk to Dan sometime. Whether Phil was in hospital or not, she was still going to have to stay here for a week or two. He knocked again, this time harder, "Clarissa," he said softly, "we need to talk, let me in,"

Clarissa slowly opened the door and looked at Dan, he had just come out of the shower, his hair was dry but he had not straightened it yet, so it was still curly "hobbit hair" as Phil had once described it to her. He was wearing a red, long sleeved jumper and smelt like shower gel.

"Can I come in?" he asked. Clarissa nodded slowly and gestured for him to enter. He sat down on the bed and patted the space beside him and Clarissa sat down.

"Are you going to answer my question?" Clarissa asked, staring into his gorgeous brown eyes.

"Yes," He replied, fiddling with his hands, "I still do… sometimes,"

"Dan!" Clarissa gasped, turning around and grabbing his hands, "Why?"

"It's complicated," Dan sighed, pulling his hands away from hers, "I mean, I don't cut anymore,"

"That's not the point,"

"I know, I just…" Dan looked away from Clarissa and took a deep breath, "The last girlfriend I had… she committed suicide…"

"Oh my god!" Clarissa gasped

"That's why I started cutting… I blamed myself! After a year of counselling I managed to stop! But the pain never went away!" He burst into tears, but managed to continue his story, "But I still pick my skin!" he was sobbing uncontrollably now, Clarissa immediately embraced him in a hug, holding him tight, she hated it when people cried…

Amy ran up the stairs to Dan's apartment, tears pouring down her face, he would hate her for what she had just done, he would never forgive her, he would break up with her, their relationship would be over. All these thoughts were running through her head as she banged really hard on the door to Dan's apartment, his roommate, Phil, answered, "Is Dan home?" She asked, panicking.

"Amy, calm down, what happened?" Phil asked, placing his hand on her shoulder.

"I need to tell Dan first, where is he?" Amy wailed, pushing Phil's hand off of her shoulder. Suddenly Dan appeared at the doorway.

"What's wrong?" He asked, concerned.

"Dan I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to, it just kind of happened!" She sobbed

"What did? Amy what's happened?" Dan was worried

"I made out with your brother!"

Amy fell to the floor, sobbing uncontrollably, "Please forgive me Dan, please!" She cried.

Dan said nothing, he just slammed the door in her face.

Dan got worried after he hadn't heard from Amy in over a day, he thought that she was just giving him time to cool off about the situation, so he went round to her apartment to apologise. He knocked on the door; there was no answer, so he called her mobile, no answer, landline, no answer, all of a sudden he got a sick feeling in his stomach, had someone kidnapped her? He just kept phoning but he still got no answer.

Dan got worried and went to Amy's mum's house to see if she'd heard from her, he knocked on the door. And her mum answered.

"Hello, Dan," She smiled, "Is everything alright?"

"Well, not really," Dan replied. He explained everything that had happened, about Amy coming to the apartment, telling him what had happened and then him slamming the door in her face.

"Oh," She said, "well she's probably holding a grudge with you, you know what she's like," and then shut the door.

Dan came back to Amy's apartment with a spare key that she had given him a couple of months ago; he slowly opened the door and let himself inside.

"Hello?" He called, "Amy?" he checked every room in the house until he came to the bathroom… he tried opening the door but it was locked, he knocked it, "Amy!" he said, "Amy! I'm sorry, open the door!" there was no answer. He eventually managed to open the door by picking at the lock… but what he saw in there made him wish he hadn't. The first thing he noticed was blood, a lot of blood, pools of blood everywhere, in the sink, on the floor, on the shower curtain, the walls, everywhere. Then, he saw his sweet little green eyed brunette Amy, lying face down on the floor with a bloody razor and a note beside her, he screamed, tears started gushing from his eyes, "WHY!" he shouted, "WHY!" over and over until a neighbour heard him, came over, saw what had happened and called an ambulance.

Dan waited in the relatives' room of the hospital, with all of Amy's family, his hands were shaking uncontrollably, what he had just seen had scarred him for life. Suddenly the doctor came in and everyone stood up, "I've got bad news," He said, "she lost too much blood and while we were trying to save her, she slipped away, I'm so sorry," Everyone in the room started wailing, Dan ran to the bathroom and vomited, it was all his fault, if he had just forgiven her then and there then none of this would have happened, she would still be alive, he and Amy would still be walking along the park, holding hands, laughing at each other's funny stories, he sobbed loudly as he fell to the floor of the en suite bathroom, everything was spinning, he had practically killed his girlfriend.

Suddenly everyone in the relatives' room started calling Dan out of the bathroom, the doctor wanted to talk to him. Dan managed to pull himself up off of the floor and followed him out into the hall.

"Dan, you were her boyfriend, is that correct?" Dan nodded slowly, he felt so sick, "Did you know that she was pregnant?" The doctor asked, looking at Dan.

Dan felt dizzy, he had not only killed her, but he had killed their unborn child, just because she had kissed his brother, he was going to be sick, the world around him was spinning, the doctors words echoed around in his head, "Did you know she was pregnant?" eventually all he saw was blurs and everything turned black…

The note that Amy had left said:

Dan, I'm sorry about what happened, you are the only reason I live, without you there is no me, so because we're not together anymore, I've decided to leave, please don't blame yourself, it wasn't your fault, I had been depressed and contemplating suicide for years, until you showed up. But now that you're gone I have no reason to live, I'll always love you, hopefully I won't see you too soon but I will see you again, don't worry,

Yours, forever and always,

Amelia Stewart x