I love you all, thank you for all the nice reviews and I get this is ooc im sorry, but I really want to get this out and had the idea before I really got into homestuck so please forgive me on both karkat and Nepeta being out of character

Yukida

You are Nepeta Leijon, and you just lost your hat, though it appears to be scaring the shit out of him so you will let that be for now…

You just had a brilliant idea to haunt him as a supposed ghost; all you have to do is stay hidden and talk to him in a more hollow voice. You crawl to the bathblock in the vents and wait for him to stop his sob fest.

Karkat's pov

You hold your romcoms, no your babies close as you sob over this cruel turn of events. You have a feeling that this is the universes way of punishing you for hurting Nepeta… now that you think about it equius said she had been missing for about a month now and finding her hat has to be a bad sign she couldn't be dead could she? No she might be not all there mentally but she was one of the strongest trolls you know a close second to equius, maybe you were wrong to be that rude to her but she knows that you act like that to everyone maybe you were angrier than normal, or just plain unaccepting it not like Nepeta is really that bad, just annoying really.

You get up and dispose of the now useless romcoms and the broken troll will smith movie you must look like a mess you think to yourself as you head to the bathblock to clean up you hear a soft "karkitty", you look around to see where it was coming from but saw nothing. You must be imagining it you tell yourself and wipe your face.

You now hear soft sobbing and "karkitty why", you have no idea where it's coming from but you know it sound just like Nepeta just not her normal bubbly self. You think that this is what she sounded like after you rejected her she sounds so broken, lost, and lonely. It hurts to think you caused that and you hope that you are wrong and it's a figment of your think pans workings, yet you have a really bad feeling its real meaning. You sulk into your recopacoon maybe you just need sleep.

"Karkitty why did you have to mean so much to me" you heard and looked out seeing a blurry out line of Nepeta there for a second but disappear. "Why couldn't I be the one" you heard is this what she felt. "Why did terezi have to be mewr one" how did she know that "why couldn't I just get over my stupid feelings for you" you heard that better almost like a yell but so weak it couldn't be Nepeta she wouldn't hurt this bad do to you, would she?

"it hurts every purrdagry knowing you flush for one of my best friends" you hear that soft whisper like it was said right next to you, you are shaking in your recopacoon as you look to see where it was coming from seeing nothing you go in the sopor hoping that will block out the voice it works.

It took awhile for you to get to sleep but you did, getting out and getting dressed you hope that the voice was gone. 'is this what sollux goes through' you think to yourself as you get on trollian you had 11 messages jegus fuck don't they know how to handle themselves.

grimAuxiliatrix started trolling carcinoGeneticist

GA: It Seems Equius Is Going On A Rampage Any Idea Why?

apocalypseArisen started trolling carcinoGeneticist

AA: karkat have y0u seen nepeta? I need her help

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AT: uM,,,kaRKat hAVE yOU seen nePETA ,,,

AT:,,,i guESS yOUR noT ON

gallowsCalibrator started trolling carcinoGeneticist

GC: H3Y K4RKL3S

GC: N3P3T4 1S M1SS1NG

GC: K4RKL3S?

terminallyCapricious started trolling carcinoGeneticist

TC: HeY BeStFrIeNd

TC: BeStFrIend

TC: I gEuSs YoUr MoThErFuCkInG bUsY

TC: :o)

CG: WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT YOU NOOK SUCKER

TC: To SeE hOw YoU aRe

CG: IM FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC

TC: ThAtS mIrAcUiSlAcUlUs :O)

terminallyCapricious cist trolling carcinoGeneticist

You are now hitting your head against the wall, why is it now that everyone is worried about Nepeta! Is she really more important than you thought? No she couldn't be, you're the leader after all she has to be just… fuck she helps everyone but eridan and vriska she even has helped you at some points and you repaid her by fucking with her heart and basically making her runaway or die.

"GOG DANMIT" you never meant to hurt anyone this bad why is it everything you do you seem to find a way to mess it up in the worst way possible. Was she really that in love with you that she ran away because you called her weak … damn now that you think about it you were wrong she was more useful than you thought but now shes gone… equius would cull you if he found out what you said and you deserve it for how you were towered Nepeta maybe you should help look for her and apologies to her, but would she accept it?

She …damn you really don't know from all this you now know she is emotional support not really thought of but extremely needed and you made her leave… here you though kanaya was the only one here for emotional problems.

"I fucking hate you" you know you heard that and that didn't sound like Nepeta more like an angry and pissed off troll with nepeta's voice you still don't see her. Could she be haunting you is she dead!? Did you make her basically die 'oh fuck, oh fuck' you think as it gets colder in the block, looking around you see an angry nepeta staring at you.

"N-NEPETA" you say your voice cracking as you do, she walks to you not saying a word and you step back and fall on your rump looking up at her you can see anger and hate radiating off of her.

She kneeled down looking you straight in the eye "do mew understand now how much you made me suffer, karkitty" she says in a tone you have never heard before the look in her eye is honestly scaring you. "no you purrbably don't you could never understand what it's like to finally get up the courage to tell the troll you have flushed for how you f33l… only to have him hurt mew so bad that it felt like you were broken in two" she said glaring at you she then looked down as a soft sob came out "even now I can't bring myself to hate you it hurts so much karkitty, why do you affect me this way" she let out and you are completely shocked.

"Y-YOU DID ALL THAT" your eyes were wide and you didn't know whether to feel angry or relieved. It was a complete shock to see her alive but it is even more so of a shock to find out she was the one tormenting you. "WHY"

"to show you how it f33ls to have what you love most ripped away from you" she let out as you gasp she really felt that's what you loved most your romcoms and sanity… "to inflect the pain I suffered for sw33ps on you" she said looking at you small tear in her eyes "to show mew im not weak or useless" she said as her voice cracked and the tears flowed out "but the more I hurt mew the more I hurt" she sobbed out softly "I hate mew for making me love you…" she said as she wiped her eyes.

Sorry for taking forever to update but I wanted to get this chapter just right