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(Sebastian's Wrighting)
After handing Ceil his tea Sebatian left the room and stood out side of the door.
Ciel picked up the diary, gasping at the pice of paper that fell out. Opening it up he read it.
Dear Ceil,
I know you have bin reading my diary. I am both disapointed and happy at the same time.
You let you'r curiosity get the better of you. That is why I am disaponted. I am happy, because you did not force me to tell you any more then what I wrote. You cept readind because it was interesting.
Or did you ceep reading because you cared?
Thank you for stoping me, when I burnt my finger. It was intenional and I think you knew that. I had a bad day.
Ploto's sneze was also my fault. But I did it to comferm my sispitions, about you and my diary. Only someone who read it deaply, would have woryed about a burn on my cheak. Expetioaly with a demon hound as a pet.
But I am still qurius as to how far you went and why, so we will do it this way. You anser a question I rean a entery and anser any questions you have about that entery.
Is that a deal yong master? If not return my diary at once. I don't kneed you to wory about me and have something against me, now do I?
I know how long it takes you to read so I am going to come in soon.
Please anser the question as if I asked you in person,
Sebastian Michaeils.
Right as Ceil finished reading the letter Sebastian walked in. He looked a tad distresed.
"It's a deal Sebastion. But first, did you really try to kill youself?" Ceil asked looking at his feat.
"Yes young master. I was depresed and all. I am truly sorry if I woryed you." Sebatian said sitting beside Ceil, diciding on the first question.
"Where did you get it?" Sebastian asked holding his diary.
"You droped it, Mey- Rin triped over it. Is it made of steal by the way, it was steped on by Rin, up my shirt and under covers and is not even slighly rincled." Ceil admited smiling at his joke, Sebastian did to.
"Alright I will read you the next entry." Sebastian said opening the diary with forgen enery.
Diary,
I beleve I have gon mad. I am tempted to kill my peints. Maybe I have cone sane?
No, you do not go sane. I just hate those two. They care so much about there 'preshious god' I want to die, more! I alredy tried to kill myself, and I have killed in the past. I am good with perscribed medican.
Oh, I did not tell you did I. Mother found my scars, and took me to the doctor. He put it down to lack of sleap. So I was perscribed some neadle thing, that mother gives me. It is not like I could overdose. The dosage is set.
Yes, I will kill then for Satan. Okay, I see now why I was worying myself. To bad, demonic sacrifice for them, death sentince for me.
Yes diary, this should be the last time I ever right to you. I am going to die! I will be burnt at the stake, and laugh.
good by my freind,
Sebastian Michaeils.
It was clear that the two were at a stand still, laugh or cry. After a bit Sebastian disided on cry. His shoulders shoulk as he sobbed quietly. Ceil did what he knew help humas, he rubed his back. Once Sebasian stoped crying Ceil looked at him.
"Were you stll drinking? There were neadles? What hapened to you?" Ceil floded the demon with questins.
"Yes, I was still drinking. Neadles are anchent. What compelled you to read my diary in the first place?" Sebastian was smart, and added his second question as a anser.
"I thoght it would help me understand you more, and honistly I just expected a few storys about cats you had or something. Not your full on history." Ceil ansered looking Sebastian in the eye, he smiled and higed Ceil.
"Alright, fair point young master."
"Good job on the drawing by the way."
Diary,
I am a demon now. Aperintly my sacrifices did not go un-noteced.
Okay, I am ahed of my self. Let's start at the interupted ritual.
I had alredy sacrificed my father, and was just finishing with mother when a kid came arount the courner, to my ritual.
"Satanic Sacrificing! Mommy!"
Yes, I was busted by a three year old.
Anyways I was not even given a trial, just on a woden stake in a burning feild. The grass was set on fire, and vilagers chanted. A simbal apeared on my hand as I started to laugh. I openly laughed at there religen, at there god.
"Welcome to hell. You alowed your human body menny sols. You were eating them like it was nothing too." Satan said with a develish grin.
Alright, so I was eating the sols. Who cares really, they were good.
So that takes me hear. To being a demon, and dead in the human world. I was told I had to go thrue inistiation, that was basicaly proving what I did was not done as a joke. Aperintaly alot of people had done that, and had bin acepted into heven after admiting to there sins. Barf, right?
As for my suiside atemps, Satan did not care to much, as I was now dead and could die all I wanted and still come back. As long as I was not dying during a contract. I was given extream duibility, because of all my atempts.
He explaned the symbal on my hand and I liked it. I can not wait to have a contract with someone.
I should go just in case there is one and I miss it with you.
Your coming with me though,
Sebastian Michaeils.
Ceil blinked lightly and looked over at Sebastian who was grinning even larger then the Undertker, wich woryed Ceil.
"How did you eat the sols as a human? Is it realy posible for you to die under contract? In hell did you kill yourself often? Have you bin harming youself oftin? Can I see them?" Ceil was fast with questions, and Sebation was fast with ansers.
"I still do not intirly know. Yes, but it is hard, I would asume. It was my pass time acticity and I had no work. I think you can put two and two together on your own. Yes and no. I do not cut, or burn of even freze like I used to, but I still do those often." Sebastian said turnng to his master, face a bit stirn.
"Do you really wish to see them all. There are a few that would require me to take off my top, an couset." Sebatian asked looking Ceil in the eye, as he nodded.
Sebastian took a deeap breath and took of his couset, sute shirt and gloves. Then he stood up. Ceil's eyes scaned his arms, hands and torso. His hands had several burns from being 'carless', however his chest had burns as well, almost as it he used a candel or something elce like that. There was also sighs of recent frost bite, that was still healing and a ton of scars. On his arms there were old and new cut wounds and burns. With those frost bitten skin the shape of ice cubes. His fingers were so dameged that Ceil was surprised they functioned half the time, eather sliced, burnt or frost bitten. His right hand held far les bamage then his left, wrighting had presumably. His right had sighs of multipul mulations, and scars from sirius burns.
"I'm getting some ointment for the burns." Ceil said opening his dressed drawr. Opening the cap he got some ointment and gently rubed the fresher burns first then the older ones. Then he put some on the frost bites as test.
"It dose not help the frost bite, I tryed Young master. Now one more for today alright? Did you really start to cry when you read the therd entery?" Sebastian asked surprised when Ceil helped him with his shirt, tie and couset.
"Who herd me?"
"May-Rin. She ran into me. She said that she herd you 'bawlin his eyes out you'd think.'" Sebation quoted pausing his buttoning to remember the quote.
Dirary,
I have my first contract. He is so young. Maybe sevin. He said he was ten, but he is so small. He is adorable too. His name is Ceil Phantomhive. He was very brave with the positioning of the seal. His right eye.
Oh, I feal so new to this human thing. I have bin a demon for onaly one tousand years, so the ruels part is still unclear to me. I gess that explanes the lack of human underdtanding too.
I am what you would call a butler. That is ironic. In life I wanted to be a butler and now that I am a demon I am one. Two birds with one stone and all that.
It is hard to atempt a partial suiside. Hanging would be afective at nocking me ut, but 'no cigar' as humanans would say.
My master needs me,
Sebastian Michaeils, one hell of a butler.
Ciel's eyes widened. He had taken of his eye patch.
"Were not buisy today Sebastian are we? Can we continue? "
"No, your right young master. How would you reast to seing any of that?" Sebastian looked at his young master, never bothering to but his gloves back on
"I would have to take care of you." Ceil said sitting on Sebatian's lap.
Diary,
I have found pain, that lasts. But young master can never find out. He would probaly not be able to give me the acistance I kneed.
Now to my pin, my dilitius pain.
I burn my hands as often as I can. The pain dose not last as long as it used to, but it is still dilitius. I even stuck a gloved hand right into the stove. The dilitius tast lasted three months. I blamed Baldroy, and left it at that.
I also took icecubes to my skin, such a chiled rush as my skin froze. I went so far with that.
I cut still, but that is because I love the tast of my own blood. Atctualy blood in general. It is delitius. I bit myself once, it was one of the best sensations ever. I dicided to lick my wounds.
Master somons,
Sebastian Michaeils, one hell of a butler.
"Sebastion! Auto canibalisum?"
"I'm sorry young master. How do you prepose thatyou take care of me?" Right after he said that, Ceil's lips were on his own. Aperintly Ceil had bit his lip, because Sebastion could tast his blood.
"Lunch first ok young master, let me hurt a little." Sebastian said bringng Ceil out of his chambers.
"What cho doin in there?" Baldroy asked, not pauing atention ro Sebation. Sebation grabed the hot dish full on with both hand and held it for a bit befor, "Sebatian! Stop, your hurting yourself! Do not make order you!" Ceil yelled seing Sebatian both smiling a lightly crying at the same time.
"What's gotten into him sir?"
"Nothing that you should concern yourself with. Get me the burn oitment."
Once Baldroy got back Ceil had Sebastian on the couch, without his goves were snugled together, wispering about something.
"I got it Sir." Baldroy said startling the young master.
"Your dismised Baldroy!" Ceil said grabbing the bottle. Opening the cap he put the cream on Sebatian's hands. Baldroy walked of confused.
"So we can go past the contract, but only when I turn twenty years old? " Ceil asked looking at Sebastian.
" Yes it seems I want to came you. I love you young master." Sebastian admitted blushing deaply, before adding "Eat your lunch young master. "
" Yes my love. "