Sorry for the late update, but I wrote a longer chapter to make up for it :) I don't own ONCE or any of it's characters and sorry for any mistakes that are made :*

~RS

Regina awoke to the sound of nothingness, she assumed it was later in the day so her son must have left. Henry probably hated her for not getting up, but everything that happened last night exhausted her. She knew it was wrong she told herself that everyday and the fact that she was still doing this made it that much worse. She was addicted and it was going to kill her but she didn't care, it made her feel good. She got up and headed for the en suite to take a shower. Once clean and hair smelling like apples and cinnamon she went to the closet grab her wardrobe for the day. She decided on a blue dress that stopped mid thigh and a black blazer jacket and a pair of black stilettos, she came to the conclusion that she would go by the office because she needed to get out of the house and eventually go back to work.

30 minutes later she was walking to the office, she could have taken her car it would have been so much easier but she needed the fresh air to clear her head. She made it to the building with only a few odd looks and a couple "I'm sorry's" she felt as if no one actually cared at all they just cared about Robin, most of it was true she still had a lot of enemies in the town but still they only cared for Robin and most barely knew him. She cautiously climbed the steps to the entrance, and then up the stairs to her office. Slowly she opened the door the room where her true love's death took place she stepped inside and looked around making sure to avoid eyeing the exact spot of the unfortunate event.

Since she hasn't gone back to work that meant there wasn't any work for her secretary or anyone else who worked in the building so she was alone. She knew she had lots to do but she didn't know if she could do it now. She walked towards her desk and sat down staring down at a stack of papers. She looked through most of it until her eyes needed a break so she looked around the room once again. Until she saw it all happen again in front of her.

Hades pointing the lightning bolt towards her and Robin jumping in front of her to save her life. Then Zelena killing Hades with the same bolt and both of them crying for hours after that.

Regina didn't realize the tears that were making there way down her face and landing on one of the papers she was about to sign. She couldn't do it, she couldn't be in this room any longer or she would loose it! She grabbed all the work and shoved it in her bag aggressively and ran out of there.

Regina made it to the entrance of the office and collapsed on the steps she burst out with unshed tears, crying what she had been holding it in for too long. She cried for what felt like hours but was only minutes in reality.

Emma was out for her morning break on her way to Granny's to get herself a coffee, she knew something was up with Regina she had a feeling in her gut and Henry knew something was up too. She couldn't let the brunette struggle through her pain all by herself, Emma had barely managed to escape that pain with the help of Regina and her family. It's hard and you make stupid decisions she just hopes that Regina doesn't make a worse decision.

As Emma is thinking about this she's walking by the mayor's office and she see's Regina on the steps, crying. She runs to her faster than she's ever ran before, she can't believe Regina would be out here she thought Regina would be at home in bed like she always was.

Before Regina gets the chance to look up to see who has miraculously come to her aid she was enveloped in a huge tight hug, she tenses because of not knowing who it is but once she smells that warm vanilla scent she knows that the blonde is her rescuer.

"What are you doing out here?" Emma asks in a concerned tone.

"I d-don't know, I-I just wanted t-to come back but i-it's too much." Regina manages between sobs.

"Hey, hey it's okay I'm here, what happened?" Emma questions, now sounding less concerned and more sympathetic.

"I don't know I started working for a bit and then I stopped and looked at the room and everything came back to me, Robin and Hades and everything!" Regina says, now calming down a bit in the comforting embrace the blonde was providing.

"It's okay it's normal, you haven't been back to work since you needed to go through this eventually Regina." Emma tries, not sounding convinced herself that that was the right thing to say.

"No I am never going back there, ever!" Regina says between sniffs.

"Ok, no one asked you too, how about I take you home and we can talk about it?" Emma suggests.

"Um… If it's okay I'll jus go alone I'm pretty tired anyway so I'm just gonna go to sleep, but thank you for offering Emma."

"No problem just stay safe okay, you don't seem like yourself."

"I will dear, don't worry about me" And with that Regina was enveloped in a cloud of purple smoke and landed in her entrance way where she proceeded to remove her shoes. Once done she dropped her bag of work in the study and ran up the stairs to her bedroom. She threw her blazer somewhere on the floor and went to her bathroom to grab that beloved razor blade.

She sat herself down on a closed toilet seat and began to cut from the top of her wrist to her mid forearm. She took her time knowing that each cut brought a wave of relief and freedom, by the time she reached her other arm she didn't feel anything as she cut no pain, no feelings just an easy free life, no worries in the world, nothing to cry over or be in pain about. It was an amazing pain reliever and once she was done she just sat there for a while. She starred at the blood trickling down her forearms, watching intriguingly as the blood made paths down the cuts. After about 45 or so minutes she cleaned herself up but she left the cuts there this time, she wasn't expecting guests anyway and she had nowhere to go so she was in the clear.

Regina knew Emma was getting suspicious as to why they have barely talked in almost two months except for today, and that she barely wants to see Henry. Less than a year ago she would do almost anything to get Henry to stay with her for just an extra night. But she couldn't face people right now, she needed to deal with this loss on her own, Regina was never really someone who relied on other people often the only 2 people she ever trusted were her father and Emma. And one of those people were dead which left Emma the only person she trusts throughout all the realms. It made Regina upset that she couldn't talk to Henry about what was going on, he deserved to know why his mother wasn't spending time with him but he just wouldn't get it.

As Emma was walking back towards the sheriff's station she decided to just go home, she couldn't wrap her mind around what just happened with Regina. She called her dad, David who ran the station with her and told him that she was gonna go straight home.

Once she got home she was expecting Henry to be there reading or writing stuff he always does when he's at home alone but she forgot that he was at school today. So she had a couple of hours to herself, in which she made herself some coffee and sat on the couch in the living room of the loft.

All she did was think and go back on memories of her and Regina and even Henry, she couldn't believe what that beautiful brunette was going through alone. She knew it was tough which is why she was scared, scared that Regina was in fact in danger. She had to ask Henry if he knew anything, she knew he loved to keep secrets for what he thinks is the protection of everyone else but in reality is a mistake and results in double the amount of problems.

It was Henry's thing he never knew what the right thing to do was always trying to help others by respecting their wishes of keeping secrets, a trait he unfortunately got from Emma. As she was finishing her thoughts Henry walked through the door and went straight upstairs to his room with a distracted look in his eyes, she hadn't noticed it before but she realized now that he has had that look on his face ever since he returned from Regina's house a few days ago.

Emma followed upstairs with a curios look, seeing her son didn't even realize she was sitting on the couch 2 feet away from him. She walked straight into his room and saw he was at his desk writing still not noticing she was standing in front of him.

"Hey kid" Emma said after a good 2 minutes of staring at Henry expecting him to look up at her.

"Jesus Christ ma what the hell!?" Henry said with jumping out of his seat.

"Jesus Relax Hen, you just seem really distracted and I wanted to see what you were so determined to get done up here" Emma said laughing a bit from her son's sudden startle.

"I thought you would be at work right now and I'm just working on stuff" Henry replied with a slight stutter.

"I was at work but I ran into your mom and decided to come home early, and yeah ok what's really going on with you?" Emma replied easily.

"You ran into mom! Is she okay?" Henry looked up with a terrified look on her face.

"Yeah she's fine."

"Oh ok good!" Henry sighed in relief.

"Henry do you know something I don't about Regina? Because I swear if you're hiding something I'll figure it out and you don't want to know what happens next!" Emma says while glaring holes through Henry.

"I- um… t-there's nothing w-wrong." Henry says struggling to answer his ma's sudden change of tone.

"Henry Daniel Mills, don't lie to me, you know I have a superpower so why don't you tell me the truth." Emma says raising her voice slightly to get the message across.

"I uhh, okay well when I slept at moms the other night, it was probably 2 in the morning or so and I heard mom come up the stairs and to her room I knew something was wrong so I hid in her closet and looked at what she did and I didn't know what to do after I saw what she did…" Henry managed to speak with only a few tears springing free from his eyes. Emma watched in horror because she barely see's her son cry, he was raised strong and he has always been protective of other people so this must have been really bad if he was crying the way he was. She was officially terrified for Regina!

"Okay, and what did you see, Henry don't be afraid I'm only asking because I want to make sure she's okay, I'm scared too."

"She's cutting ma!" Henry cries out covering his face with his hands.

"What do you mean Henry?" Emma said the actual thought not crossing her mind, her body full of adrenaline and ready to bolt out of the house not even caring about what happened to Regina just wanting to help her.

"She is cutting herself! When I was there all I could see was the blood trickling down her arms it was so scary ma! I can't see her do that again, it was so scary and I couldn't do anything because she didn't know I was there and she doesn't know I know and I'm sure she wanted to keep it a secret." Henry said while sobbing into his ma's shoulder while she hugged him close and whispered soothing words and "It's gonna be okay" continuously.

"Shh, Henry it will be okay, we will figure something out, okay?" Emma tries.

"Okay, promise me ma, I know how dangerous this is and I don't want to lose her!" Henry says finally calming down.

"I promise Henry, I don't want to lose her either." Emma says after kissing his forehead and hugging him closer and tighter.