Halloo! IM SOO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED IN LIKE, FOREVER. I WAS ON THIS TRIP TO CALI AND I COULDN'T GO ON THE COMPUTER THAT MUCH. ANYWAYS I KNOW MOST OF YOU AREN'T EVEN READING THIS SO ILL GET ON WITH THE STORY.
I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT. *TEAR*
PREVIOUSLY: EPOV
I ran up my to my room and locked it shut. I am so screwed. I took a cold shower and slept on my bed awaiting the big day.
BPOV
I reached the school, everyone looking at me with a smirk on their face and some people had a sympathetic face. News spreads fast around here I guess. There were lots of whispers around me as I passed people. Omg you would never believe what Edward did to her….she deserves it, Tanya's better for him anyway…she's a slut I heard she slept with so many guys…finally Edward left her, now I can go get him…. Everything I heard stung my heart and just made the hole bigger and bigger. I looked at my watch. 8:00. Still got some time. I went to the library hoping to find some peace and quiet.
I sat in the seat I usually sat in cautiously. Everyone looked at my every move. It's like I was an experiment or something. I got my Wuthering Heights book from my bag and started reading. I only read a few pages until I couldn't focus anymore and starting thinking about what happened yesterday. I can't believe Edward would do something like that. I know Tanya would. I can't put the blame all on Edward but then again why was he kissing her back? I was so lost in thought that I didn't hear the bell ring until I saw some people start getting up from their seats. Finally, something to occupy me so I don't have to think about that.
The whole morning passed by in a flash and before I knew it, it was my last block. Science. The one I've been dreading since that's the class I have with Edward. And him being my science partner doesn't help at all. I went in and took my seat silently. Mike was the first one to come up and talk to me. He's got guts.
"Hey Bella! Long time no see!" He said with so much enthusiasm.
"We saw each other last class." I know I must've sounded bitchy but right now I really didn't want to talk.
"Oh. Did we?! I didn't notice!" He laughed nervously and scratched the back of his head.
"Yeah…anyways. What did you want?" I said trying to boost up the conversation.
"I was just…ummm…listen. I know you and Edward broke up, so I'm here if you need me." He said winking. The nerve of that guy.
"Oh, I'm sorry. We're not broken up. I still love him with every fibre of my being. So no. I don't need you." I said trying to sound convincing of my lie.
"You guys aren't?! Wow…strangest things I hear these days…." He said trailing off walking away.
"You still love me…?" I heard the musical voice behind me which made my heart beat so fast but at the same time the voice I dreaded not wanting to hear.
I turned around, looking at the sight I saw before me. Edward was so…not good. He looked like he hasn't even eaten yet, his dark circles under his eyes, and his pale white skin that didn't look normal at all. But what hurt me the most was his eyes. They were so filled with regret, sadness, want, pain, love. So many emotions flooded my system. I didn't know what to say, think, or do for that matter. The tears were threatening to spill over but I pulled myself together in time.
"No. I don't. Lie. I just told him that so he would go after me. We can't be friends anymore. Lie. I hope you'll be happy with Tanya. Lie. You and her were made for each other. Lie. I don't think I could ever love you again. Complete and Total LIE. Please Edward. Don't believe me! Can't you see through this?! I'll always love you!
"Oh. I see." And that's all we said for the rest of the class.I swore I could see tears in his eyes. I put my hair between us as a wall and the tears streamed down my face freely. I didn't even care if anyone saw them right now.
EPOV
My whole world just died right in front of my own eyes. I didn't think it would be possible but it was. Once she said those words I just couldn't function. My whole world just stopped. I said the only thing I could. "I see" that's the lamest thing I could muster up. God, she must think I'm an idiot now. But I couldn't let her see that, I just turned the other way while some tears escaped. The bell rung and I got out as fast as I could. I had practice today but I didn't even care if coach yelled at me tomorrow, I just needed to get out of here.
I got as far as the parking lot until I saw Jasper and Emmett coming toward me. Crap. Not now.
"Edward hey. We have practice. You comin?" Emmett said to me still probably remembering what happened with Bella.
"Not today bro. Can you bail me out to the coach?" I said looking at the ground so I didn't have to tell them what happened in Science.
"Alright man. Just this once." Emmett smiled bumping fists with me.
"You okay? You don't look so good." Jasper said trying to look at me but I kept avoiding his gaze.
"Yeah I'm fine. I'll see you guys tomorrow." I said already walking away.
"Okay. See you. Take care of yourself bro!" They both yelled out. I couldn't help but chuckle at their last comment. Take care of myself. How can I do that now…? I made my way home slowly, still trying to process what just happened. I collapsed on the left side of my bed, rolling to the right picturing Bella right beside me. Her strawberry scented brown hair, beautiful shimmering chocolate brown eyes when she looks at me, her rose lips that I'd kiss everyday, and what I miss the most is being with her everyday knowing that she would always be mind. I fell asleep wondering if she still thought of me.
BPOV
Edward dashed out of the room once the bell rung. I don't blame him…I wouldn't want to see my face either. I had track practice and I couldn't miss this one. This was the last one until the trial meet. But I was scared to face Rose and Ali. I knew they were going to bombard me with questions that I know I can't answer since I don't know the answer myself.
I got to the girls' change room ad changed as fast as a I could so I wouldn't have to encounter them. I felt guilty trying to avoid my best friends, the people who were there to help and support me but right now I just needed time to myself. I walked out to the track and they were already starting some relays and stretches.
"Bella! Come over here!" Alice gestured me over. I jogged over with a plastered smile on my face.
"Hey guys! Beautiful day isn't it?" I said looking up at the sky so my tears wouldn't fall. Oh God, please don't do this now.
"Whoa. Since when does Bells talks about the weather? Are you okay?" Rose said placing the back of her hand on my forehead.
"Haha! I'm totally fine! Let's get warmed up hmm?" I said jogging away so they wouldn't ask anything.
"Alright…." Alice and Rosalie said uneasily.
Practice was finally over which I was relieved about. I changed as quick as I could and bolted out of the change before saying a quick bye to Alice and Rose. I sped my way home wishing that Edward saw through my lie and just held me in his arms. I parked my car in front of the house and bolted upstairs. Charlie asked me what was wrong but I just said I needed to be alone. I fell on the right side of my bed looking to my left picturing Edward there. I miss his unique coppery hair, his amazing emerald eyes when he stares back at me, his scent that I'd breathe in every time we hug, and I just miss him being here beside me every night in his arms just humming me to sleep. I fell asleep wondering if he still thinks about me.