No date had ever made Yang as nervous as her sixth date with Blake. After Coco complaining for two solid weeks about not even knowing the girl Yang couldn't stop talking about she had finally given in and asked Blake if she was ready to meet her. She hadn't expected Blake to not only agree but also bring her own best friend in return. So now she was sitting in a diner next to Blake, Ilia sitting across the table and staring at her while Coco did the same with Blake. It felt like meeting the parents, only worse.

"Are you a cat person or a dog person?" Ilia asked.

"Dog person." Yang could see Ilia's gaze darken as soon as she had said it. "But I like cats too. We have some cats at home. That's why I'm bi after all."

Coco snorted like she always did when she neither approved nor disproved of Yang's puns, only Blake laughed a bit. Yang reached for her hand beneath the table. "Yang's gonna adopt five cats if Blake looks at her with puppy eyes," Coco said.

"Not bad." Yang smirked and dug her spoon into the cheesecake she was sharing with Blake. They both hadn't been able to pick between cheesecake and ice cream, so they were sharing both. "So you're a law student too?" Yang asked, looking at Ilia. She didn't know how to win her over, but that wouldn't keep her from trying.

"Yeah. Blake and I are the only sane ones out of all the law students. I'm not doing it to make a lot of money or because I come from a family of lawyers but because I want to use those skills to actually make a difference. You can't fight injustice without the right weapons, you know?"

"That's admirable," Yang said.

"We've bonded after a very heated discussion about the gender pay gap in class," Blake said.

"She's playing it down," Ilia said. "It was frightening. She was furious and I'm surprised that one guy ever dared to look her in the eyes again. She handed his ass to him, you should have seen it."

Blake blushed. "It wasn't actually that bad, but he had it coming. I don't regret anything I said that day. But anyway, that was the first time I really noticed Ilia. She was on my side during the whole discussion and afterwards she asked me if I wanted to go grab some coffee to calm down and vent about all the other idiots in our class."

"Yang and I don't have an exciting story to tell like you two," Coco said. "We went to High School together, sat next to each other in English class and just got along."

"I think it was history," Yang said.

"No, we sat together in history class a year later. Was it algebra?"

"We never had algebra together. I was in honours."

"I'll be right back," Blake said and got up.

Ilia looked at her for a moment before she got up as well. "Wait, I'll join you."

Yang looked after them for a moment. She sighed when they disappeared around the corner. When she looked at Coco she was smirking. "What do you think?" Yang asked.

"You guys are absolutely horrible. You can't sit there for one minute without touching each other, even while you're eating. You've moved so close together you could fit two more people on that bench."

Yang groaned and buried her face in her hands. "Okay, but do you like her? Please say you like her, because I think Ilia hates me."

"Of course I like her. She's absolutely adorable. And I don't think Ilia hates you."

"But she does."

"No. She's just cautious. I know people like her, she'll warm up to you."

Yang looked up. "This is honestly worse than anything I've ever done. I've never dated anyone who I just… I mean before I always knew them for a long time, I knew their friends, and I never had to seek anyone's approval. I didn't know it was that stressful."

"I mean she's hot."

"Blake?"

"No, Ilia." Coco shrugged and sipped on her milkshake. "I could get used to these double dates."

"It's not…" She shook her head. "Anyway. So you really like her?"

"Ilia?"

"No, Blake."

"I told you I do." She rolled her eyes like she always did when she actually wanted to smirk. "She's cute. I mean your ex set the bar really low, but you look happy when she's around."

Yang tried not to smile. "Yeah. Because I am."

"Have you told her about the… thing?"

"No." She looked down at her plate, shoving the last piece of cheesecake around so she didn't have to look at her. Around Blake the weird visions happened less often, but they kept happening, and if she thought about it the whole situation of meeting her like this was just weird. "I feel like… I mean if someone you had just met and started dating told you all this, wouldn't you think it's weird?"

"Yes, probably, I –" She stopped and when Yang looked up Blake and Ilia were coming back. Blake smiled at Yang when their eyes crossed, and she laid her hand on Yang's thigh beneath the table when she sat down next to her.

"I left you some cake," Yang said and took her hand in hers.

"You're the best." Blake squeezed her hand.

"I feel like I should have tried one of those milkshakes," Ilia said, eying Coco's glass.

Coco slid the glass towards her across the table. "Wanna try?"

"Yeah, sure."

Yang looked at Blake, but she only smirked, her thumb stroking the back of her hand. It was hard to worry about anything when she smiled like that.

The darkness is scary, but light is scarier. I feel her shake next to me while we try to control our breath and listen to his footsteps out there. She grips my hand so tightly that it hurts, but I don't ever want her to let go.

I hate hiding. It goes against everything I am, and I want to go out there and confront him, fight him, do something. But I also know that he has a gun and that it would be insanely stupid to get in his way. So we hide. Wait for the police to come. Hope they will make it in time.

The footsteps come closer. I don't even dare to breathe. Her grip is so tight my hands starts to feel numb.

The footsteps stop.

The door opens. Light is so much scarier than darkness. He can see us in the light.

"Yang?"

She didn't know where she was at first. It was dark and the fear still lingered deep inside of her chest, making it hard to breathe. She sat up and reached for the light switch, but she couldn't find it at first.

"Yang, are you alright?" Blake whispered next to her.

She was in her bed. It had only been one of those weird visions. Blake was lying next to her, Pyrrha in the bed across the room, and nothing bad would happen. She was safe.

"Just had a nightmare," Yang whispered and lied back down next to Blake. Blake wrapping her arms around her was comforting, and she finally felt like she could breathe again when she buried her face in Blake's shirt, breathing in her scent. She wrapped her arms around her waist and pulled her closer.

"Yeah, you suddenly… I don't know, flinched. I figured. What was it about?"

"I don't remember," Yang lied. "Just that it was bad."

"I can stay up if you want, distract you." Her hand soothingly ran up and down her back.

"No, it's fine. Let's just sleep, okay?"

She kissed Yang's forehead. "Okay."

Yang didn't even want to fall back to sleep, but she also didn't want to talk about it, and she didn't want to keep Blake up. She just wanted to stop being scared. She had pushed any second thought about the visions aside ever since starting to date Blake, but right now she wondered if she really should be worried. So far they had all been pleasant, but this one was something she never wanted to experience again, and she had no control over when, how often and if they happened.

Maybe she had to face the fact that something was wrong with her.

"There's nothing wrong with you," Doctor Goodwitch. "The scan looks totally fine."

"Are you sure?" Yang stared at the black and white image in front of her. It was weird to think that this was actually her brain. "I've heard you can have very small brain tumours that you can't see on scans."

"You don't have a brain tumour." She adjusted her glasses. "Try to drink more water. I'll give you a prescription for the headaches and recommend seeing a psychologist, a lot of college students are just too stressed."

"I guess I'll just try that drinking water thing," Yang said. "But thanks."

"Well, be glad your mother's insurance paid for this."

At least she didn't have a brain tumour. But all she could thing about on the bus ride home was that she still didn't know what the hell was wrong with her. It freaked her out, more than she even wanted to admit to herself, but telling the doctor about the visions straight away held the risk of being assigned to a psychiatric ward right away.

She was still early for her lecture. She sat down in the back row and checked her phone, but Blake was stuck in classes all day and hadn't found time to text her yet. She scrolled through her social media to distract herself, going through some of the latest outfits Coco had posted online.

"Hey, darling."

She looked up and wished she hadn't. "Adam."

"What are you doing?" He was standing in the row in front of her, leaning against the tables behind him.

"What are you doing here? You don't have this lecture."

He shrugged. "Just saw you through the open door. How are you?"

"Wonderful."

"Me too. Classes keep me busy, but not too busy, and I just quit my job because the boss was shitty. I feel like we haven't talked in ages. How about I take you out on coffee whenever you're free?"

Sometimes she asked herself how she had ever had any doubt about breaking up with him. "I'm actually really busy at the moment."

"Too busy for half an hour with me?" He smirked at her and she wished she didn't feel as uncomfortable around him anymore.

Her phone buzzed. She looked at the screen and Amber's name appeared. "I gotta answer this", she said and picked the phone up.

"Who is it?" he asked.

Yang answered the call instead. "Hey, mum", she said.

"Hey, sweetie," Amber said. Adam raised his eyebrows, but then he formed a silent I'll call you and turned around to leave. It felt more like a threat. "I just got a call from my insurance. Did you get a CT scan for your head?"

"Yeah," Yang said, watching Adam leave. "The doctor said the insurance will cover for it."

"Yeah, they do, I just wanted to ask if everything is alright."

"Yes. I just had some headaches and freaked out over it, but the doctor said I'm fine. It's probably just stress."

"Don't overdo it. I always told you to take it easy if you have to. Anyway, how is it going?"

"Great." She didn't know what else to say, because she hadn't told her parents about Blake yet. "How are you doing? Is mum anywhere around?"

"No, Vernal is at work. I'll tell her you said hello. We're good. Still really thinking about moving back to the city, I think the suburban lifestyle is great when you have kids, but not when you're two lesbians slowly about to become catladies who enjoy crocheting toilet paper covers."

"If you do that I will deny knowing you."

She laughed. "Yeah, I'll probably deny knowing myself. I mean there are nice little apartments in the city, we could either keep our house for the weekends or sell it, but right now we're just talking."

The thought of saying goodbye to the house she had grown up in scared her, but this was something to discuss in person. "What about the cats though?"

"Yeah, that's something to consider as well. Anyway, we'll keep you updated."

"I think my lecture starts soon. I'll call you this weekend, okay?"

"Yeah, please do. Have a good time and try not to stress yourself too much, okay?"

"I will. Love you, bye!"

The room slowly started to fill up. Yang tried to fight the feeling of unease that the visions, the nightmare, the doctor's appointment and Adam had left inside of her. She had always been bad at that. She sighed and opened the selfie she had taken with Blake a couple of days prior. It helped a bit.