Author's Note: I'm trying to update as soon as I can. I just added a new theme to my site, static(dash)romance(dot)org. So if you want to see my graphics sides of life you can go check that out. I have a small anime gallery there and such. I'm working on the anime side of my site. Lol. But yes the inspiration to this chapter is Katharine McPhee's "Home" from her new self-titled debut album. I just got it and I'm in love with all of the songs on it. I recommend it to everyone lol. & to my reviewers:

rogueishLeia - haha yes Usa/Mamo must suffer a lil. Makes you fall in love with them even more. Lol. Evil little Seiya haha. We shall see where it goes.

jasmineflower001 - gasp lol I can't say if she does or if she doesn't. you shall have to read and find out. Lol hope I can have you jumping in your seat again lol.

Gaialy - shock Seya?! Lol. Hmm, I don't know what Haruka was speaking about haha. We shall see what develops.

skye668 - I'm glad you're enjoying the story so far. Hopefully it'll get better each chapter.

artstarcarolaina – lol Usa/Mamo is soo classic. You can play with the story line a thousand times and always fall in love with them.

Cecilia13 – Continuation for you? Yes

Disclaimer: Still no ownership in any of the Sailor Moon series. How depressing.

Leave Me Breathless

Chapter 4

Mamoru sat in his bed wide awake. His clock read 4:30 AM. He had been awake all night for the past three days. No one had heard from Usagi. No one knew where she was. He felt her near but so far. He felt like maybe she was blocking his ability to feel her. His heart ached with everyday that went by. He was losing her faster than he had ever thought he would, all because he didn't want to face the truth. He was selfish. He and the others had been selfish. They depended so much on her and didn't realize the pressure she was under. She was the world's savior. The world would be in pieces without her. She sacrificed her life to save them and she didn't get anything worthwhile in return. Maybe a few hugs and kisses but a lot of grief about her everyday activities. She gave them exactly what they wanted, a perfect girl. Now she was so perfect she wasn't anywhere near them. How could he get her back before she was gone forever? She was in danger he was sure of it, from the way Hakura and Michiru spoke the other night. He rolled over and looked at the picture of them both in the park nearly 2 years ago. He remembered that day like it was yesterday.

"Mamo-chan! Look there's ice cream!" Usagi said pulling on Mamoru's hoodie sleeve. It was fall and the temperatures were dropping. Usagi found herself wearing a pink bunny zip up hoodie, with a white tee underneath. She had a denim miniskirt and pink UGG boots to match. She was snuggled against Mamoru's side and he smiled looking down at the 15 year-old. She was so bright and bubbly. She had talked most of their date that day about how Ms. Haruna was completely unfair to her in English and how she had to make up her failing examination from the week before. She complained about the way Luna scolded her everyday and how Rei always made jokes about her being clumsy. She told him that she would laugh it all off but sometimes it made her think if she had to change. He told her to never change and she agreed.

"I'm guessing you want a scoop or three, eh Usa-ko?" Mamoru joked. Usagi giggled at his joke and shook her head "no."

"I want a milkshake to share with you. What kind do you want Mamo-Chan?" Usagi asked. Mamoru looked down at his girlfriend.

"You're such a generous girl eh?" He asked her. She blushed and looked down at the ground. "Usa-ko." She looked up at him and he greeted her with a kiss. "You're fine the way you are."

Usagi looked out the window of the apartment onto the city. She had been very quiet for the past 3 days. Seiya would go out in disguise and get her things. He wondered who this girl was. Since the day he had felt the evil presence coming for his Usagi His Usagi. He mentally slapped himself for having the thought. She was far from his now. She was Mamoru's. That was more than obvious, but Usagi's behavior lately had said something elsewhere. Seiya remembered how the Princess told him that he would always love Usagi and it would pain him that his fate wasn't to be hers. He couldn't help but to notice the smallest things about her. The first thing he notices was the pain and fear in her eyes. He wondered how long it had been there. He wondered if Mamoru cared that it was there. She deserved better than what she had been getting that was for sure.

Usagi jumped as she felt hands on her shoulder. She was more paranoid than ever these days. She turned around to see a smiling Seiya. "So, Odango, it's been three days." He stated. "Are you going to tell me what you've been running from?" Usagi turned her eyes down to the ground, afraid to show Seiya the tears that were already forming in her eyes. "Usagi-chan." He stated simply. Usagi looked up at him, blinking away tears. "Please tell me what's wrong."

"It's nothing Seiya." She said pulling away from him. Why was she so afraid to get close? She was longing to be cared about. She was longing to tell him everything.

"Usa, don't lie to me." Seiya said grabbing her hand. His eyes were so full of concern, even Usagi noticed that. She knew she couldn't run away from things forever. "I know you've been having dreams. Please, just tell me. I want to help you. I would never hurt you, Usa, never."

"I can't do this, Seiya. I can't stay here and wait for things to be bad again. I can't handle them. I'm only a kid. I was only a kid. Why did she choose me? Why am I her? I'm not her. I'm not Sailor Moon. I'm not a princess. I am a clumsy kid. I'm a nobody. I'm a nothing. Nothing without any of you. Why am I still here Seiya?! Why wasn't it me?!" She cried, finally letting out a year of frustration and tears. She was in so much pain, so much she kept to herself.

"Usagi-chan, you are here because we all love you. We all love you too much to let you go." He said holding her close as she cried into his shoulder. "Mina-chan, Ami-chan, Rei-chan, Mako-chan, Mamoru-san, and even crazy Haruka-san. She may not love me, but she loves you. We all do. Usa, I love you." Seiya found himself holding her shoulders and looking deep into her eyes. He didn't mean for the last statement to sound the way it did. He wanted to protect her from the pain. He was supposed to be here for her, not for his love. Usagi blushed at Seiya's last statement. He was in love with her. More than just friendly love but the way Mamo-chan loved her. She couldn't love him the same way. She cared for him strongly but never as much as she loved Mamoru. Seiya wiped the tears from her eyes. "You'll never be alone, Usagi-chan. You always have me." Usagi found herself speechless, not knowing what to say. Seiya only held her close and let her feel his love for her. He may have been in a one-sided relationship but that moment with her meant the world to him.

Minako sat in the arcade with Motoki. She was sitting at the counter looking down at her melting brownie fudge sundae. She would take the spoon and swirl it around the melted ice cream, and then chop up her brownie bits. Then she would attempt to take a bite but every time she did, she thought about the day Usagi choked on her first brownie fudge sundae.

Usagi, Minako, Ami, and Makoto were bouncing around the Arcade happily singing a Crystal Kay song that was playing on the radio. Minako was pretending to be the idol herself while Usagil, Makoto, and even Ami were her background singers/dancers. Motoki found himself filled with laughter, watching the girls' performance. After the song was over, they all sat at the counter. "I decided to try something new today. A brownie fudge sundae. Who wants to try it out for me?" Motoki asked returning to the counter with a bowl with a chocolate mountain on the inside.

"Oooh, me, Motoki-san! Pick MEEE!" Usagi squealed in her seat. Motoki couldn't help but to smile.

"Eh, sorry ladies, Usagi-chan wins this time." He said handing Usagi the bowl. Usagi smiled.

"Gosh, Motoki-san, you're always inventing something new. I would love the recipe. You know I wouldn't tell." Makoto stated.

"Sure, Mako-chan. I'll go get it from the back." Motoki stated walking back into the kitchen. Usagi drooled over her sundae.

"It's too pretty to eat." She stated.

"Well, Usagi-chan, if you don't eat it, it's going to melt eventually." Ami stated, looking up from her Physics book.

"Well we can't have that happening, Usagi-chan. Tell me how it tastes." Minako said, cheering Usagi on as she finally dug in, going through the sundae like a bulldozer. The girls couldn't all help but to laugh at their friend until she started coughing.

"Usagi-chan, how many times am I going to have to tell you not to eat so fast? You always start to choke." Makoto stated standing behind her friend as she gave her the Heimlich maneuver. Motoki came out of the kitchen with the recipe in his hand, only to get brownie fudge sundae spit on his face.

"OH MY GOSH! Motoki-san, I am sooo sorry. I will clean this place up for a month and not ask for free milkshakes. Ah, don't be mad at me." Usagi said, finding a towel as she started to wipe Motoki's face. Motoki couldn't help but to burst into laughter.

"I miss her, Motoki-san." Minako stated.

"I do too, Mina-chan. She'll be home soon. Usagi can't stay away from a good sundae." Motoki smiled. Minako managed to smile a bit. If only things were that simple.

That night, Usagi was up while Seiya was in his bedroom sleeping away. She found herself turning in her missing class assignments online, writing her teachers telling them that she had a bad cold. She hated to lie but she didn't know what else to do. She couldn't show up to school feeling the way she did. She kept thinking about how Seiya held her last night. The more she thought about it, the more it pained her to be away from Mamoru. She wanted to sleep next to him and tell him how much she was sorry for being so stupid. She wanted to kiss him and have him next to her. Sometimes her mind wondered off to kissing Seiya. She wondered if she would feel bad. She wondered if she should just go away with him and not worry about the past at all. She mentally slapped herself for thinking things shortly after. It was selfish. She could never be that selfish. It would eventually kill her. She sighed as she closed her laptop and walked over to the window. The city lights were so beautiful.

You are the world within the world that I exist
You are the touch that just won't fade
You are the end and beginning of each and every day
You are the reason I stay sane

She put her hands on the window and looked down at the city. Where did she belong? Who would she be now if she went home? What would people say? What would they think? She wondered if she really cared. She leaned against the window and sighed. Home was so far away but only so close. She closed her eyes and tried to clear her mind. Life was so complicated.

Does anybody know what it's like
To feel larger than life
To look deep in your soul
And know you're not alone

Usagi felt her hands get cold. What was this pressure? Where was it coming from? She slowly felt her whole body get cold. She looked down to see her body melting into the glass. It was quickly reaching up her legs. She screamed. This couldn't be happening, not now. Her mind raced and her heart was pounding. What could she do? She had to escape. She couldn't feel her body. She was numb, cold and numb. She saw Seiya run out before her. She saw the terror in his eyes. Her heart was beating slower and slower by the millisecond. She felt so cold. She couldn't move. She felt so tired. Everything was so slow. Where was she going? What about school? What would Luna say? She had to tell Mamoru she loved him. She wanted to see him. She wanted to kiss him. The last thing she saw was Seiya's eyes full of tears, desperately trying to rescue her. "Mamo-chan." She whispered and it all went black.

Does anybody know how it feels
To find something that's real
And make it your own
That's when you know that you found home
Home


Mamoru was sitting on his couch watching the news. The night was so cold and silent. He had been having a bad feeling the whole night and it irked him. He heard his phone ringing and he hurried to answer it. "Moshi, Moshi."

"Mamoru-san, it's Rei." The voice stated on the other end.

"Yes, Rei-chan?" He asked.

"Come to the temple immediately. We have a situation." Rei said. Mamoru heard somebody talking in the background, a male voice. He heard Usagi's name being spoken.

"I'm on my way." Mamoru said. He hurried off to get his keys and ran out of the apartment.

Mamoru parked his car outside of the temple and ran up the stairs. He wondered when temples would get elevators but he brushed the thought off and made his way to the study room. He found himself being stared at by the concerned faces of all of the girls. He managed to look around to see a face he didn't want to see. "Seiya-san?"

"Mamoru-san, please sit down." Rei started.

"What the fuck is he doing here? You know where she is don't you?" Mamoru asked rushing up to Seiya.

"She's gone." Seiya stated.

"What the fuck do you mean she's gone? She was with you the whole time? I will beat the shit out of you if you don't start talking." Mamoru said getting into Seiya's face.

"Look, Mamoru-san, she was with me and she's not. Don't you think you should be worried about other things than trying to beat my ass? We don't even know where the fuck she is!" Seiya yelled.

"As far as I'm concerned, it's your fault." Mamour stated simply with fire in his eyes.

I know, I know, I should be put out for my drama addiction. I couldn't help it. Lol. Gosh. Next chapter coming soon!

Angie