I couldn't take my eyes off her. I should have known that she would be an Intern here, I mean her mother is the one who put this hospital on the map! I shouldn't have even requested her! Gosh I'm such an idiot! I mean she gonna know why I asked! When she heard Shepard she probably was freaking out, I'm just horrible. She probably doesn't even want to see me. Oh gosh here she come! Think of something to say!
"Dr. Grey! Long time since I've seen you!" Oh well that wasn't to bad, did she hear me? Maybe I should say it again, I start to open my mouth again, thank God nothing came out. She turned around her green eyes popped with her light blue scrubs. Her hair was in a loose ponytail, just like she always used to wear it. She looked just as stunning as the last time I saw her.
"Dr. Shepard! I thought you were still practice in New York, what brought you all the way here to Seattle?" Oh so she been thinking about me! Wait no she wasn't! Her husband just died, gosh Shepard, just answer the question!
"Well I just needed something different, and what would be better then the number one trauma center in the world? And now I get to see you every day! How have you been by the way. I think the last time we spoke was the funeral." Shit. Why did I even bring that up! God Shepard way to go! Let make this even more awkward!
"I'm actually doing okay. You know the internship is helping take this off my mind." She said as she looked down at her feet. I really mess up. Gosh I'm such an idiot. "How about you?" She said after a hard swallow, "Last I heard you were getting married to" she snapped her finger as her mind searched for her name "The OB lady...Addison!" Oh gosh, now it's my turn to be uncomfortable. Addie and I had called it quits. Well I did, she didn't seem to grasp the fact that cheating, with my best friend, would end our marriage. To top off matters her and Mer were quite close. Mer and Jake wanted to have a baby before he passed, Meredith was the one who introduced us.
"Yeah, we've been married now for almost two years. It's been really great." I could see it in her smile, she was trying not to laugh. She could always tell when I was lying, she just had a gift for it. "Well anyway I requested you for a reason, and not just to catch up. I know that you probably don't want everyone knowing that your Ellis' daughter, but I know that your are probably more gifted then her. And I want to take you under my service and held make you into another one of the legends, and I want to keep an eyes on you and your recovery. It's only been seven months, and your still going full speed." She held up her petite little hand as to signal me to stop. I was rambling just as bad as she used to do.
"Okay well I don't want people to think your favoring me because I know Cristina already thinks your are. I do appreciate you wanting to help me, but the best thing you can do for me is help me forget. Not bring Jake up, go Drinking with me, and not act like me being here is such a big deal. People die, you have to move on, or you will get left behind. Thanks though, for trying to help." Her hand in closed mine with a tight little squeeze, a little tingle ran up on my arm causing little goose bumps. Her touch has always done that to me, I just never realized how much I missed it. "I really have miss you." A smile flashed upon my face as well as hers. "How about we go for drinks at joes tonight with Christina an the rest of the interns?" I nodded with excitement, I'm sure I could talk her away from the interns, I looked down at my buzzing pager.
"Shit. Nine-one-one on the roof. Lets go." we ran up the stairs to the roof. A young girl was flown in from the outskirts of town. The air medics ran off the copper with her in a stretcher.
"Massive head trauma, extended lower abdomen, possible internal bleeding, stats are norm, parents are on there way up." We nodded and started to wheel her in the elevator with the rest of the interns and residents and headed to the trauma center.
"Okay so this is your first trauma, we are going to have to be fast, follow what your resident and attendings do, and don't get in there way." I spoke to all of the first timers there. The ding signified the we were had arrived. We pushed the gurney off an straight to trauma room one. The young girl laid up on the table in a trance like state, "Yang, go get in line for CT! Grey, go get the code Cart ready! Push 3 grams of benzodiazepines! Grey where's that crash cart! Get ready she's about to code or seize!" They interns took a step closer, as Bailey told all but three of them to step back. They all got prepared for what would come In the next two seconds.
"She's codeing!" Said one of the interns called out. Her heart went in to tackycardia, the paddles we handed to me as Mer put the gel on the them. "Charge to two hundred!" The body jumped off the the table, "Charge to three hundred!" The body jumped once more, the room was silent excepted for the heart beat that had flat lined I prepared for one more charge, then her heart returned to normal. I looked over to Mer her face was white, her eyes were wide. She had seen it before, she had seen her husband die just like that. I assigned the resident and her interns to follow out with the rest of the case for now. I took Mer out of the room.
"I can't do that. I can't see that again." Was all she said. She walked off before I could say anything. I knew how she felt, but she wasn't going to let me help. I called her back but she walked to her resident and continued about her own business. I felt at blame, if she wasn't on my service she would not have seen that, and she would not be in the state she is in now. I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned to see who it was.
"She will be okay, she just has to get numb first. It's exactly what I had to do." I looked down at Christina, her face looking forward towards Meredith, her features we're all pointing downwards. She was feeling Meredith pain just as bad as she felt it. "You are just going to have to give her time. This is the first time she has been around death since Jake and she is just a little spooked. She will come around and be the same twisty and dark Mer she always was." Christina and Mer were always a package deal, I really don't know how Jake put up with it. I mean it was twenty-four/seven, and they never fought, they were like Siamese twins.
"I really hope your right, Christina. She can't be like that during codes, and we have them all the time." I looked to Mer. Her hair still had the same shine her skin flawless as ever, but her eyes had no life and her smile was gone. The girl I fell for we buried deep in pain and sadness.
"Don't doubt her McDreamy. She never doubted you and you let her husband die." She began to walk off as the sing if her words hit me like sharpened dagger. She turned on her heals to face me again, "and don't bring up the funeral or Jake ever. I just got her halfway back to normal and she doesn't need reminders of him or your kiss. Got it?" I nodded as I stared at Mer. This was going to be harder than I thought.