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DREAM PHASE: KAGOME'S POV

"Kikyou" I heard someone whisper the miko's name. Then I heard another voice, which I assume came from the said miko, but I couldn't understand the name that she mumbled, one things for sure it wasn't Inuyasha. Then out of the blue:

"I love you"


NORMAL POV

"NO SHIT!" Kagome yelled loosing her balance and she fell off the tree, when she realized she was falling she awaited the coming impact, but it never came, instead she felt warm, muscular arms that clumsily caught her, as if the person didn't know he was gonna catch someone.

Kagome looked up only to be welcomed by beautiful blue eyes, that at first was warm and curious with a hint of, what was that, was that just a flash of sorry in his eyes?, then they turned into dark, angry, disgusted pools of azure.

'eh? Bankotsu? Well at least he didn't catch me one purpose, yay for me! Aw who am I kidding, I soo wanted him to do that. Kagome grinned hopelessly when she saw the oh-so-famous-purple-star on her hero's forehead.

"eh? Good morning?" Kagome said embarrassed.

THUD. He dropped her and went on walking ' so much for the apology, damn I'm such a nut.' Bankotsu thought as he walked away.

Kagome stood up and pointed her finger at the braided boy.

"Y-you, you, YOU JERK!" Kagome spat, although she was usually a morning person, when the events last night came rushing back in, she just couldn't help being a scrooge.

'guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt' was all that ran through Bankotsu's thick skull at the moment. He then recalled what Jakotsu had said to him last night.

FLASH BACK

"oi aniki,... aniki?....aniki?!.....ANIKI!" Jakotsu asked, over and over again, as he watched his leader in all his spaced-out-glory.

"hah? Uh? What is it Jakotsu?" the said leader replied as if he didn't notice that Jakotsu was fuming on the spot.

"I said, your making her regret bringing you- I mean us back from the dead,.."

"what? As if there's a price or anything. Uh,.. right?" Bankotsu asked his brother.

"how could you say that aniki? Did you ask her if there are any? Jakotsu said plainly.

"no"

"what was that?" Jakotsu asked again, he was honestly trying to piss his brother off.

"NO" Bankotsu yelled, noticing that his brother was just messing with him.

"My point exactly"

"but, from what I've seen, she only rolls over and screams,.. in pain..." Bankotsu stated, feeling guiltier and guiltier every second.

"oh, you'll be surprised" Jakotsu said, his voice serious.

"huh? Do you know something I don't?"

"in time aniki, in time"

"oi did you get her that kimono?" Bankotsu asked, trying to change the subject.

"yeah why?"

"i like it, it makes us look like a couple already," Jakotsu gave him a questioning look. "uh,.. cuz, it matches?"

Jakotsu then burst out in laughter.

"That's what I told her to get her to put it on! Uh, wait a sec, do you like her aniki?" Jakotsu asked now very interested in the topic.

"uh, it's just a sexual attraction, thats all,.. and a little more.." He added the last part quietly.

Too bad for him, the gay man heard that. And gave him a stern look, then he looked down and starred at the fire in front of him.

"then, why do you hurt her so badly?" Jakotsu said, now serious than ever.

"sigh, remember the day when you took Hikari away?" Jakotsu just nodded and urged him to go on.

"when she brought me back, the whole scene replayed, as if it were real, I think, she might have seen it. Bankotsu exclaimed.

"so, thats not reason enough" the gay man said.

"i just- uh – I don't want her opinion towards me become all mushy, you know, because of all the save lives crap."

"why would that matter,?" Jakotsu replied with a smirk across his face.

" I told you already right!? I like her! I want to impress her" Bankotsu said, now in panic mode.

"impress her with your uncanny ability to kill without even a small drop of mercy?"

"..."

"and I thought it was only sexual?" Jakotsu said, trying not to dive into fits of laughter at his brother's stupidity.

"..."

"oi aniki.... spaced out again huh?"

"..." Bankotsu said nothing while eying the goddess who slept on a tree,. ' just like that hanyou' his fists clenched when he thought of the possibility of that dog rubbing of the tree napping habit on Kagome.

"fuck" was all he said.

"whatever aniki, just apologize tomorrow, and don't do anything that will make her feel worse" Jakotsu said before he succumbed into a deep sleep.

' I can't concentrate when she's around,

I get a warm feeling when I see her smile,

I want to destroy anyone who can make her laugh,

I feel that I need to look good for her,

I want her to go away because she makes me feel like this,

but I wonder what will it actually feel if she is really gone.

What's wrong with me?'

these were Bankotsu's last thoughts before he fell asleep.

END FLASH BACK

Kagome glared at Bankotsu's retreating form, 'god he's so annoying, ungrateful, pushy, dominant, ugly, tanned, clear skinned, sexy, strong, handsome, bastard.' and so she ended up praising him instead of criticizing him.

' is there anything that is physically wrong with him? Okay, the most perfect person in my mind is Inuyasha, let's compare.

What does Inuyasha have that Bankotsu doesn't?

Long hair... check

spotless skin... check

strong... check

big ass sword.. check

what does Bankotsu have that Inuyasha doesn't?

Tanned skin... X

loyalty....X

nice body built... X

hair management... X

humanity.. X

leadership....X

' looks like we have a winner..., damn him, damn them both'

Kagome felt tears threatening to fall, but she fought them back, one thing was for sure, staying with Bankotsu somehow made her emotionally stronger, if only she could learn how to fight with real weapons other than a bow, she didn't want to be like Kikyou, besides, archery wasn't really her strong point. Kikyou was always better.

"Kags?" Jakotsu called her, knocking her out of her thoughts.

"you've been staring at the direction Bankotsu went for thirty minutes now. Whats wrong" Jakotsu asked her as he started tugging on her hair.

"..." nothing

Kagome was having a serious flash back flashes.

'Since I really don't give a damn if Jakotsuso cuts you up or not'

'Big brother will like it, it matches his outfit'

'We don't need you anymore after you revive Suikotsu!'

'We have no use for a weak, defenseless girl!'

"weak,.." Kagome mumbled.

"hm?" Jakotsu asked her hearing what she had said.

"that's my problem, that is why Bankotsu hates me, he thinks I'm useless, that I'm a nuisance, that I just slow you guys down, I'm JUST THE LIFE SUPPORT SYSTEM!" Kagome spat out, letting all her anger out.

" I'm nothing to him..." Kagome said finally calming down.

"sigh" 'if only she knew... Kagome, just give him some time'

"Ja... after Suikotsu is revived, I'm leaving, but don't tell him okay?" Kagome said with a pleading look.

"fine, but I ain't helping you"

"thank you, he just doesn't need me anymore after that, besides, twenty years has already been, or will be taken away from me, I can't just give and give right?." Kagome said looking down, thinking if she will ever get to see her brother marry, or get married herself, for all she knows her life span could only last for forty years, heck she could die on her next birthday!

Jakotsu froze, he sensed his brother was here, eavesdropping, and now suffering from a guilt-fit.

Jakotsu just nodded and stood up, and headed for the bushes. When he reached his destination, he looked down to see his brother leaning against a tree, his palm covering his face, while his free hand clutched the innocent grass, he was shaking, with anger, for himself, and for Jakotsu.

"WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!?" Bankotsu spat out.

"well, as if it would have made a difference if I told you after I was revived," Jakotsu responded calmly.

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME BEFORE THAT?!"

"because I was dead! Duh?!"

"ugh,... this can't be happening..." Bankotsu said, his voice full of regret.

Jakotsu looked beside him to see their brother's bones in a sack.

"will you go through with this" Jakotsu asked referring to the bag of bones.

"hell no" was all that Bankotsu said as he looked up.

'what if we actually ended up together?

What about the children she will bear, how can I just tell them that their mother's expiration date shortened because of me,

will she get to see them grow up?

How could we grow old together?

Endless questions of the sort rushed in Bankotsu's head all together.

" I can't.... shit! I should have known- I"

" I'm sorry" Jakotsu said, making his brother look at him.

"I'm sorry that, you are going to lose her" Jakotsu said with a crestfallen face.

"yeah, I'm sorry too" Bankotsu said as he rested his face again into his palms and pondered on how can he fix the mess that he made.

WITH KAGOME

"my child," a familiar voice called out to her, and made her look up.

"what do you want?" Kagome asked the old lady once she spotted her.

"i just wanted to know if you had any, lets say, weird dreams lately."

"yeah, why?" Kagome said rather coldly.

"you have to bring who ever was in that dream back, it's one of the reasons you have that power"

"oh. Besides shortening my life to no end, yeah! Just great!" Kagome said like a crazy girl and turned around, just when she was about to throw another mean comment, the old lady was gone.

Just then another flash went through her,

"Suikotsu..." was all she said and she ran to where she thought Jakotsu was at.

When she spotted the bag of bones beside Bankotsu who looked as if he were asleep, which he probably was, Kagome snuck up on him and grabbed the bag.

"here goes, bye bye ten years" Kagome chanted over and over again while she assembled Suikotsu's

bones.

Bankotsu sensed that he wasn't alone and fluttered his eyes open, only to see his love putting her hands over his brother's body.

"NO! Kagome! STOP!" Bankotsu yelled as he dived to attempt to stop her. But to no avail. A familiar blue light surrounded her.

When his body finally made contact with something. He felt around it, noticing that it wasn't Kagome, it was a man.

"Suikotsu?" Bankotsu asked disbelievingly. When he finally snapped out of it he started to search for Kagome, expecting to see her crying out in pain, but no, he found her alright, there she was behind him, he didn't really see her, he just felt her there.

Then he felt, small fragile hands wrapped around his torso. Then he felt her rest her head on his back. He was stunned.

'my heart is warming up again'

'it feels like there are tiny creatures playing around in my stomach'

'she feels so soft and breakable'

I want to tell her now, how sorry I am.

The timing is perfect.

But as usual, I panicked.

"I didn't know you cared" Kagome said as she snuggled closer to the mercenary.

'come on Bankotsu! Say something nice!'

" I don't" 'what! Oh for the love of god! What is wrong with you'

and to make it worse, he jerked her off.

'why am I acting like this.?

Why do I keep on pushing her away?!

Damn it I know I have feelings for her,

why won't my body follow me!

Ugh!

Kagome backed up. He heard her sigh.

"I guess my work is done huh, you don't need me here anymore, nor want me here anymore, am I correct??" Kagome said smiling, but it was very obvious that it was fake, she waited for him to respond,hoping that he still wanted her with him, but there was nothing.

"see ya around" was all she said and she walked away, he saw her lift up her left arm and used the sleeve of her kimono to wipe something off her face.

'she's crying, I made her cry, go after her! Hug her! Hold her tight! Come on idiot! Move!' but Bankotsu's body won't allow it, again he just stood there, watching her leave.

Once she was out of sight was when his body finally started to work again, but it was too late. He knelt down and started to punch the ground.

"DAMN IT!" Bankotsu let it all out.

"aniki, I don't know what just happened, but, I felt her pain aniki, you hurt her bad" Suikotsu said in all his doctorness-glory.

" I know, I messed up big time"

WITH THE INUTACHI

Miroku sat down by a pond's side, 'oh where are you Sango?' he asked him self mentally.

"we lost another fighter because of you! Are you really trying to tear us all apart huh?! Inuyasha yelled at his love.

" I told you! For the hundredth time! Kagome is dead! Suck it up Inuyasha!"

"not Kagome! Sango! Look at Miroku! You've single handedly tore the whole inutachi apart"

"what did I do?!"

"you nagged me to hell to leave Sango behind because you needed souls, and now she isn't back and it's been a whole fucking month! And with that Miroku is acting like a zombie! "

"..."

"what?! Your just gonna stand there? Do something to help out! Be useful for once! You've lost your touch Kikyou, I see now that Kagome was a far more stronger priestess than you ever were."Inuyasha spat out.

"f-fine!" was all Kikyou could muster, she was shocked that her lap dog actually fought back.

Kikyou walked at the direction of the monk, with her bad intentions in mind.

"hey monk"

"what is it lady Kikyou" Miroku said coldly, although he put in a title, it still sounded cold.

" I'll only say this once, You know what I think? I think you need a good fuck, get over her already." after the miko said that, she handed him a coupon,

"what's this?" the monk said, looking as if he would really take what the miko suggested.

"it's a free coupon for the towns brothel, I think it would give you a virgin" then she left.

Miroku nodded and thought about it, his perverse mind clouded his judgment and went to this brothel.

WITH SANGO

"finally! I got rid of her" Sango said as she rode Kirara to some village.

"Kirara stay here, I'll just get some supplies and we'll be on or way to Kagome. Okay?"

"meow" with that Sango left her loyal pet and went down to the market place.

Sango felt that something was not right, a feeling in her guts that made her feel, somewhat,.... betrayed.

Just then she heard an all too familiar moan,

" Miroku?" Sango asked as she peeked into a hut's window. She gasped at the sight, there he was, Miroku, in all his god damned glory, fucking some whore.

' I was gone for just a few months and he starts fucking some whore?bastard I can't believe him! I gave him my heart, and all he did was, - was this! Damn him to hell!' was what raced into Sango's thoughts.

As if on cue, Miroku turned to the window, and as quick as hell slid out of the slut and said.

" Sango?! I-i can explain!"

"Hah! Over my dead body you can monk! It's over you lech!" Sango screamed violently and left.

Of course Miroku tried to go after her but to no avail, he couldn't fly.

He lost the only woman he loved. ' this is all Kikyou's doing, I gave in to her temptation!'


From two sides of japan, two completely different men lost their loves, one forever, and the other still might have a chance.

-TBC-

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