A/N: Sorry it has taken a while to update, I have been deciding whether or not to continue this story. But I will because like the idea. Anyway, hope you enjoy. R&R
I opened my eyes, tears washing down my cheeks relentlessly. Jacob. I thought despairingly, a tortured howl escaping from between my lips. I reached out to grab for his cold arms, my heart rate increasing as my fingers brushed only the sheets beneath me. I shot up in bed, a hiss escaping from my mouth.
"WHERE IS HE?" I screamed, knowing very well that my family would hear me. I leapt off the bed, sprinting down the hallway and down the stairs at inhuman speed. Esme came to me first, her eyes wary. I pushed her roughly aside, intent on finding Jacob and getting him away from these horrible bloodsuckers. I hurtled through the living room and into the kitchen where I could hear my family muttering quietly. "I said," my voice dangerously close to a growl, as I stepped into the kitchen, Where. Is. He?"
"Ness," my mother said, her eyes full of grief, stepped towards me. "You were asleep and Seth felt Jake's absence. We had to give him to Seth for the Quileute burial. He said if you want to go to the ceremony, they would wait until tomorrow, well I guess today." He gold eyes searched my face for any emotion. I kept my brown eyes neutral as I spun on my heel and sprinted out of the house.
I have to get to La Push, I thought desperately, pushing my legs as fast as I could go. I can't let this happen to my Jacob. He isn't dead. He can't be dead. I continued to run towards the reservation, not pausing as I crossed the treaty line. Come find me, wolves. Take me to Jake. I kept thinking, my breathing accelerating to hyperventilation as I noticed the absence of all wolves in the area.
I slowed to a walk, my heart aching with pain. I collapsed onto the ground, my copper hair spread around me. I sobbed into the dirt anger and sadness building up inside of me. I hated that vampire woman and her companions. I would find her and hunt her down. I would stay away from all vampires because none can be trusted. I don't think I can even trust my family. I thought bitterly, choking back another round of tears.
My sobs must have caught the attention of some locals because Seth soon found me, curled up on the wet grass. He sank down next to me, his eyes brimming with tears. Stroking my hair in a very natural way, he pulled me into his arms like a big brother. I pressed my face into his chest, trying to find some element of Jacob's scent. Finding none, I composed myself and looked up at Seth.
"I'll take you to him," Seth whispered, picking me up and slinging me over his shoulder. He sprinted into the forest, increasing speed as we went deeper into the forest. I closed my eyes as we shot out of the woods and onto first beach. Seth placed me down, taking my arm and leading me over to bonfire that was burning a few yards from the waters' edge.
"I'm glad that you could make it." Billy Black managed, his voice hoarse from the pain of a lost child. I ran up to him, throwing my arms around his neck. "You will always be like my daughter, Renesmee. He would have wanted it this way." He whispered. The surrounding pack around shifted around me, whispering in agreement.
"I killed him Billy," I cried out, realization sinking in as I spoke. "I killed him." I stepped away from him, my eyes searching to see where Jacob's body was.
"You didn't kill him," a female voice spoke, voice cutting through me like a knife. I turned towards Leah, my eyes challenging. I walked towards her, placing a hand on her arm. How do you figure? I asked her, watching as fear flitted across her face just like it always did when I used my power on her. "I was shifting when he was fighting those other bloodsuckers. All he could think was to protect you. He knew he would die and I tried to find you but by time I got there neither of you were within a hundred miles of me."
I turned to Billy, "Can I stay with you for a while, because I need to be away from vampires." He nodded. I turned away, "Lets please start this ceremony; I don't see Jake. I thought this was his funeral."
"He isn't part of the funeral, we buried him last night, it isn't a pleasant task so we were glad you could come to the celebration of his life." Sam answered, his body doubled over in loss. "I never thought I would be separated from him so soon. We are all brothers…and sisters here, and losing one is the loss of family." He stepped back towards his wife Emily, pulling her close to him.
I envied their love, knowing that I had lost that feeling forever. I wanted my Jacob, and he was already buried in the ground. Fury boiled inside me, and I sat down next to Seth fuming, as the ceremony began with an ancient chant from Billy and a few other council elders. I would find the vampires who had done this to me, and I would start a new life. I would do it all for the one I had lost.