Chapter 4

Right Now All I Want From You Is…

Most of the time for the next couple weeks Rin and I just played in her room, the gardens, or in the pond. It was almost everyday Sesshomaru and I repeated his game. He hardly spoke to me at all. It was like I was his toy, his thing to use. I didn't mind it that much, but I was afraid of getting pregnant. I was supposed to be avoiding him, but it was so difficult to avoid that man. When I began making friends things got quite complicated.

I had been talking to a few servants around the castle. There was Raine- a medic, Kain- a guard that kept an eye on Rin, Shiro- a guy around my age that was one of the cooks, Alice- a maid, and Yukito- Sesshomaru's' right-hand. Only Yukito and Jaken knew what was going on between Sesshomaru and I, but it was bound to come out into the open. Yukito only knew because he was a dog demon and it was very difficult to hide that kind of thing from him. I was still holding onto hope that this world was a dream, but it was dangling by a worn thread. Right now, Rin was taking her nap and I was talking to Shiro. He'd just made me lunch and I was eating in the kitchen.

"Oh kami! It's so good!" I exclaimed.

"It's just a turkey sandwich, Alexandria." Shiro laughed. "There's no need to get so excited over it." He was slightly taller than me with aqua blue hair and eyes. He was in an apron cleaning dishes. Shiro was toned and so adorable with his cheeky grin. He had an affinity for water.

I smiled. "But seriously this is good. What sauce did you use?"

He bent down and whispered in my ear, "It's a secret."

I smacked him on his head. "Of course it is cookie." I had a habit of calling him cookie 'cause he made really good desserts.

"Sure sure, babysitter." He was washing dishes. "I know it's none of my business, but how come you get more privileges then us?"

I froze. "What do you mean?"

He sighed. "I mean the last babysitter couldn't get away with Rin napping let alone hanging out in the kitchen talking."

"Maybe I'm just that good at my job." I smirked.

"Alexandria." Shiro was serious, which didn't happen very often. Actually it never happened, ever. Well, since I knew him. "I've seen the way he looks at you. It's like he wants to eat you or something. I don't know. I just don't like it."

"Why?" I didn't understand why he cared.

He dried his hands. "Because Ria. I like you and I get jealous when I see that." He placed his hands over mine across the table.

"What do you mean? We're just friends." I really did not want to deal with this now. I was highly likely to sleep with Sesshomaru later, since it hadn't happened today…yet… and now Shiro was saying that he was jealous. Great.

"You know what I mean." He stroked my hand.

I pulled my hands away. "I can't. I'm sorry." I went back to eating my sandwich.

He sighed and was washing dishes again. "Is there something going on between you two?"

I bit my tongue and stuttered, "No N-Nothing is going on."

He smirked. "Then you won't mind if I did this." He sprayed water at me with his hand.

I was utterly soaked. "I am so going to get you."

Soon Rin came downstairs and the three of us were wrestling over the water, his hand, and laughing loudly. All of us were soaked. Rin laughed, "I don't think Sesshomaru-sama wants to play Ria-san."

The atmosphere around the demon lord paralyzed me. I felt his fury. He walked slowly toward Shiro and me.

"Rin. Go to your room," Sesshomaru stated.

She looked at me, worried. "Yes, Sesshomaru-sama," she said and left the kitchen.

Fear stuck me and I couldn't move or talk. I trembled because there was nothing I could do. He was too strong and I knew it from trying to stop him from taking me. It was useless.

He stopped in front of Shiro, who bowed his head, "My Lord?"

In a blink of an eye Shiro was across the room on the kitchen floor. He groaned and spit up blood. He couldn't get up. Sesshomaru walked up to him and kicked him, without a word. I ran to Sesshomaru and stood in between them.

"My Lord. I don't know why you are doing this," I said and could feel his fury. If I didn't stop him, he'd kill Shiro.

"Move," he ordered.

"It's my fault. Please. Punish me instead." I bowed my head.

Shiro whispered, "Ria. I started it. I knew there would be consequences. I'll take them. It's alright." He tried to soothe me, but I wasn't having it.

The demon lord was considering it, but I needed it in my favor. Shiro was right; he did treat me differently, so maybe he'd go easier on me. Maybe.

I knew what would piss him off, since I accidently called him with out his title a few times. He told me if I 'spaced' the next time, I would be punished. "Sesshomaru?" I said.

His eyes shot to mine. He knew I did it on purpose. "My room. Now." he growled.

I followed him to his room. It was just as before- the crimson silk sheets and fireplace- so exotic and beautiful. This was only the second time in his room. We usually were in my room. Maybe this would be the last time I'd seen his room or any room ever.

He locked the door and grabbed the back of my wet hair. I met the ground. I looked up to him and saw the emotions run through his eyes. There was barely a difference between moods, but it was there- need. I didn't want to do this by any means, but I hardly had a choice. If I gave him what he needed, maybe he wouldn't hurt me. It was worth a shot and we were defiantly going to do it anyway, so there really wasn't anything to lose.

I slowly stood and walked closer to him. I made sure to put a swing in my hips and my eyes on his. He didn't move, just stared. I stood on my toes and whispered in his ear, "My lord can I get you something?"

"All I want from you right now, Alexandria, is..." He pulled me close and seized my lips with his own in one fluid motion. His tongue began the dance of dominance.

My body had grown used to his touch and abandoned me. He tore my kimono off and his hands were over my wet bare back. I felt the flames of lust rising. His hand trailed down to my thigh and his kisses ran down my jaw and found my neck. His free hand removed my underwear. There was no way to stop his flames of dominance, not that I tried to this time. He placed two fingers inside, distracting me as he carried me to the bed. The deeper he went, the more I craved his touch and I moaned. It fueled his lust until he could wait no longer.

"Alexandria," he whispered. It was the first time he said my name in sex, which I saw as improvement. He sucked on my neck, smirking at my moans and removed his pants. "If anyone touches you, I swear I'll kill them." With a single hard thrust, he filled me. He waited a moment for adjustment and settled into a rough rhythm.

I was caught into a tide, not understanding his words. My breath became pants as he became even rougher than before. I could hear his own breathlessness in my ear and his hot breath stimulating the nape of my neck.

Sesshomaru growled as he surged in deeper and grabbed my waist. He knew I wasn't going to try to stop him this time. My moans became frequent until I tightened causing his release without warning.

"Sesshomaru," I cried and fell against him. He groaned, blinded by the intensity. He rolled off me. I panted and curled to his side. He didn't bother to move me. I drifted off to sleep next to a man I was beginning to have feelings for.