Jamie Platt:Re-upload Chapter 4, a twilight fanfic

Jamie and Esme have been living in the west for eight months already. Charles has not found them which were good for them. Jamie was recovering from the abuse and the nightmare he has at nights thinking Charles is going to find them and kill them. Esme tries to comfort him and tell him Charles won't find them but Jamie still fears it. Esme fears it also since she is carrying his child. Jamie knows his mother is pregnant with his little brother or sister. That made him happy knowing he is going to have a sibling in his life. He is already saying he will protect him/her with his life. Jamie and Esme have been happier with their new life. Esme became a teacher at the school Jamie attends and she loves her job. Jamie wasn't big on her being a teacher in his new school but got over it after a while. He was being the eleven year old that he wanted to be. He has made new friends that he usually plays with outside of school and has become close with his cousin, Juliana. They talk to each other and are like brother and sister since Juliana is only 22 years old. Jamie looks up to her which is what Jamie needed, someone other than his mother in his life. Esme does wish that Jamie had his real father in his life, a male figure to look up to but his real father had no plans to stick around for him.

Jamie just turned eleven yesterday and celebrated it with his family and friends. It was the first birthday he actually felt safe and truly happy. His mother will be having his little brother/sister probably next month and he can't be anymore happier about it. Life was looking up for the mother and son which is what they needed.

A few weeks have pass and Jamie was walking home from school and noticed his mother left early which wasn't normal for her since she barley misses any days so Jamie was expecting to see at home but instead all she sees is Juliana's car but not his mother's car. Juliana sees Jamie and goes over to him, grabbing his hand and walking him to the car.

"What is going on Ana?"

"Your mother she is in labor, about to give birth to the baby. We have to get to the hospital, get in the car."

Jamie throws his bag in the back seat of the car and sits in the passenger seat in front since he was older now. They drive to the hospital and when they arrive Juliana and Jamie go to the room Esme is in. Jamie runs into the room when he sees her holding the new baby. He slows down and walks into the room. Esme looks up with tired eyes and a smile on her face when she sees Jamie.

"Say hello to your new brother, Oscar."

"My brother, I have a little brother?"

Jamie asks with a big smile on his face. Esme nods her head at him and hands Oscar to him. Jamie takes him slowly into his arms and with a big smile on his face, looks down at his new baby brother. His eyes were open and looking up at him, smiling a little bit.

"I'm Jamie, your older brother."

Esme was in awe at this precious sight with them two. She was glad that Jamie accepted a new brother in his life and was happy right now. She can tell just by seeing them that they will get along since Jamie vowed to protect him.

Jamie eyes well up with tears, happy tears. Jamie loves his baby brother and can't wait to teach him everything. Jamie didn't want to give him back to his mother but he knew he needed to. Jamie hands him back to Esme and sits next to his mother. Juliana comes inside the room and meets her new cousin and holds him. She was happy the baby was healthy and was in a safe place. She gives Oscar back to his mother.

A day has passed since she gave birth to Oscar. Jamie was holding him while Esme was washing up in the bathroom. Jamie is humming a lullaby to him that Esme used to hum to him when he was a baby. When he looks down at him Jamie notices something was wrong with Oscar. He puts his finger to his neck to feel his pulse and he can barely feel it. Jamie starts panicking and yelling for his mother. Esme runs out of the bathroom and sees Jamie with fear in his face and she takes Oscar from him.

"What is it Jamie? What is wrong?"

"I-It's Oscar, he is barely breathing, I-I felt his pulse."

"Go get a doctor Jamie. Go right now."

Jamie runs to the front desk down the hall and tells the nurse what is going on. The nurse gets the doctor and they run to Esme's room. They take Oscar from her and check him over. They check his lungs and his temp. They see that his temp is high and his lungs weren't working, he couldn't get air into them. The doctor goes over to Jamie and Esme and tells them that it is lung fever and that there isn't much they can do for him. Oscar won't make it through the night.

Esme cries in Jamie's arms and Jamie cries with her. Esme was breaking apart inside. She is losing her son and she didn't want this. This wasn't supposed to happen. Esme saved Jamie from almost being killed by Charles and now her new son is going to die before he got the chance to even live. This was a punishment to Esme for failing as Jamie's mother. She believes she deserves this but Jamie doesn't. She saw the light in his eyes that she hasn't seen in a while. When he held Oscar that light came back. Jamie was hurting inside right now. Oscar meant a lot to him as his brother and now he will be gone.

Jamie lets his mother go onto the bed. He gets up from the chair and walks over to Oscar's crib. Jamie picks him up with shaking hands and tears coming down his face. He places a kiss on his forehead and holds him to his chest. He was praying in his head right now that his life is spared and can live his life fully but Jamie knew no matter how much he prays he won't get better.

"I love you buddy. I'm so sorry you can't experience life like you deserve to. Just remember this buddy your mom and dad love you and this is hurting them like it is me. I love you so much."

Jamie puts him back in the crib and breaks down on the floor, crying. He can't control himself right now. Jamie is having hard time breathing and when Juliana comes into the room to visit Oscar and see Esme and Jamie she notices how upset Jamie and Esme are. She drops what she has on the ground when she sees Jamie's breathing was not normal. Esme gets up from her bed and runs over to them. She might be hurting also and upset but Jamie needed him right now.

"Jamie, Jamie breathe for mama, come on breathe. I can't lose the both of you Jamie."

Jamie looks up at his mother and his cousin and sees his mom coaching him to breathe. Jamie follows what she is doing and after a few seconds Jamie was able to breathe on his own again. Esme takes a hold of him and holds him tight.

"What has happened here Esme?"

"It's Oscar, he is d-dying. He has lung fever."

"No, Esme, I'm so sorry."

Juliana hugs the both of them and has tears coming down her face for Oscar and for the both of them.

"Jamie, are you feeling okay now?"

"Yeah mom I'm fine."

Jamie gets up from the floor away from his mom and cousin. He didn't want to talk right now. He didn't want to be around them right now. Esme sits on the bed and doesn't speak. She was hurting too much inside and was also hurting for her son. She is losing one and she almost lost Jamie just now. This wasn't the way life was supposed to be for them. Esme feels like it is her fault Oscar is dying and failed Jamie as his mother.

The next day Esme and Jamie say their final goodbyes to Oscar. Jamie grabs his bag off of the floor and without his mother he walks out of the room and out of the hospital. Juliana was down there to pick them up and Jamie gets in the back of the car without saying a word. Esme tries to talk to him on the way home but Jamie doesn't say more than one word.

When they arrive home Jamie slams the car door shut and runs into the house and into his room. He locks the door and lays on his bed, not really caring to talk to anyone. Esme doesn't try to talk to him because he probably will come to her when he felt like he wanted to talk. Esme goes to her room and lays on her bed also, waiting for the night to come.

During the night Jamie was still awake but Esme has decided on something that she knows will destroy her son inside but she feels like it needs to be done because she isn't a good mother and Jamie will be better off without her.

Jamie,

I'm so sorry for this life you have to live. I'm not the mother you deserve. I failed as your mother. You were the light of my world. Everything I did was for you. I tried to give us a better life. A life without the beatings, without the arguments at night but I failed you. You lost your little brother and there is no words I can say to make this better for you. I vowed before you were born I would be the best mother to you that I can possibly be. I vowed to protect you from the dangers in this world but I failed you. I love you Jamie. I always loved you. Nobody can make me as happy as you can be my son. I will be dead before you read this. You are better off without me in your life. Always remember I will always be in your heart now. I love you so much Jamie and I'm sorry.

I can feel your sorrow,you won't forgive me but I know you'll be all right. It tears me apart that you will never know but I have to let go.

You're Mother,

Esme

That is the last letter Esme writes on a piece of paper for her son. She takes it and puts it on her bed with Jamie's name on it. Esme opens the door to Jamie's room and sees that he is asleep. She takes one last look at him and with tears falling down her face closes his door and leaves the house.

The next day Jamie wakes up around 9am. He walks into the kitchen expecting to see his mother but he sees Juliana and a police officer that was a friend of Juliana's and his mother in the kitchen. Jamie was confused by this. He gets into the kitchen and notices that Juliana has been crying. Michael and Juliana have Jamie take a seat. Juliana takes Jamie's hand into hers and squeezes it. Michael, the police officer starts talking to Jamie since it was too hard for Juliana.

"Jamie, I have some news for you."

"What news? What is going on? Where is my mom?"

"Jamie I'm so sorry I have to tell you this. Your mother was found this morning and she was taken to the hospital but it was too late, she d-died Jamie."

Jamie couldn't believe this. He hits his chair backwards and starts crying and hitting Juliana while she tries to calm him down.

"No, no, no, you're lying to me! She is not dead! No, she is alive!"

"Jamie she isn't alive. Jamie please she died."

Jamie runs off into his mom's room expecting to see her and she wasn't in there. Jamie calls her name out but no answer. Jamie didn't want to believe this. He wanted to believe it was a joke but when he sees the letter on her bed with his name on it her being dead starts to sink in him.

"No, no mama, you were supposed to be here for me. You said you would never leave me. You told me you weren't leave me."

Jamie falls onto the ground holding his knees to his chest and crying it all out. Juliana picks him up and holds him in her arms. Jamie suffered so much and now this happens to him. Juliana felt so much pain for the eleven year old. She wasn't going to tell him how she died since it will upset him more. Jamie gets out of Juliana's arms and goes over to her bed where the letter was for him. Jamie picks it up and opens it.

I can feel your sorrow, you won't forgive me but I know you'll be all right. It tears me apart that you will never know but I have to let go.

You're Mother,

Esme

After Jamie is done reading it he lays on his mother's bed, not moving. Juliana sits on the bed and tries to touch his shoulder but Jamie moves away from her. Juliana looks over at Michael and they knew what was going on. Jamie was in shock about his mother's death. Juliana leaves Jamie but leaves the door open just in case. Juliana and Michael go into the kitchen and sit down. Juliana didn't know what to do to comfort him or how she was going to raise him. There was no way he is going back to Charles. Juliana is not going to let it happen. If Juliana knew what Esme was thinking, that she was going to kill herself, she would have stopped her. Jamie needed his mother in his life. It's bad enough he doesn't have his father.

"He won't get over this. Esme meant so much to him."

"This is hard on him; believe me I know it is. It will take time for him to recover. It might take years but he will get through this. He is a strong boy."

"I never saw him this heart broken. He just shut down. That isn't normal for him."

"He lost his baby brother just yesterday and now his mother. His mind shut down on him because he is in shock. He can't handle losing two important people in his life. We need to discuss where he is going to live."

"He will stay here with me. He has grandparents but they live where Charles does and Charles is not getting his hands on him. His grandparents won't be able to take care of him so his only option is staying here."

"You are going to be taking on a big responsibility. Are you ready for that?"

"Yes I am. I don't want him to go back to someone that doesn't care about him and will probably kill him before he is 15."

Michael smiles at this since he knew how much Jamie means to Juliana since he started living here. She seems to want to protect him at whatever cost. Juliana was nervous about taking on the role of his care taker but Jamie deserves to still have a good life, not a life full of abuse because of Charles. Juliana didn't know if Charles is looking for them still since he was before Oscar was born. Juliana knew if Charles found Jamie, something bad will happen.

"What about Charles? He was looking for them before Oscar was born what if he is still looking?"

"We can't arrest him Ana, I wish we can but we can't until something happens but I promise you he won't get any where's near Jamie."

Juliana wished he can do more but it won't happen. Michael leaves the house after he was done talking to her. He also wishes he can arrest Charles to keep Jamie safe but until he actually does something to him then he can't put him behind bars. Every day he will check on Jamie and Juliana and he will keep Jamie safe from that monster. Michael won't let any harm come to him. He can't handle anymore hurt in his life especially if Charles finds him and hurts him