Dear Diary, Signed Logan.
Summary: An entry from the diary of Logan-yeah, he has one too! The fourth entry of my Dear Diary series.
Disclaimer: I don't own the X-Men Marvel comics does. And the movie is the property of Fox studios and Marvel. If you sue me the only thing of value you will get is autographed celebrity. pictures including one of James Marsden! I also do not own the Wizard of Oz or Disney's Mulan.
Note: If these characterizations seem "off" remember that these are their "true" selves talking. A journal/diary is where the person behind the facade gets to express themselves. So these are the Men and Women behind the X (so to speak). LOL.
Dear Diary,
I am a freakin' fairy who writes in a diary! Chuck thought it would help "clear my head" yeah, and One Eye doesn't need to be oiled everyday 'Oil can! Oil can!' His theme song is probably "If I only had a personality." Ok, if I have to watch the Wizard of Oz with Marie one more time I'm gonna try with all my might to kill myself! I have a sinking feeling that she is gonna show up on Halloween dressed like Dorothy with a Cowardly lion costume in her hand that just happens to be my size. What's even scarier is that if she did show up with the costume I would probably grit my teeth and wear it. I would do anything for that kid. She is the closest thing to family I imagine I have had in a long time. Marie and I get along so well because she is the only person in the mansion who, I know, accepts me for who and what I am. Chuck accepts me "as is" too but even he has certain expectations of me. No, Marie, she doesn't expect anything of me and she accepts me 100%. People like that are rare "The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all." Let me mention again how much tv I watch with Marie. Mulan is her favorite Disney movie, the whole-girl against the world overcoming outstanding odds and saving the day thing- appeals to her.
It's strange, Marie is the reason why I met these people and came to the mansion in the first place- and she is also the reason why I stay. Now, if you asked One Eye or 'Ro they would say Jean is the reason why I stay. I do feel... strongly for Jean but love, that I ain't too sure about. She's really kind, a good listener and beautiful but gettin' close to people isn't somethin' I like to do. I even keep Marie at bay. I almost killed her once before and I won't let that happen again.
Ro says the way I "antagonize" The Stump and "entice" Jean is "deplorable" ('Ro's words not mine). Everyone needs a freakin' hobby. Some guys fish, I act like an asshole. Both are equally fulfilling. It's all worth it to see that jaw clench and those fists ball up, or those cheeks blush and feel that body temperature rise. I know it's "mean" (Marie's word) to play with Jean's emotions but it's ain't like she seriously wants me or would leave Limp Dick. It's as much a game to me as it is to her. She ain't as innocent as she would have everyone think. If only Cyke could see the way she slowly unfastens her top button, the way she runs her hands over her body to smooth out invisible wrinkles, or the sinfully slow way she eats strawberries while staring you in the eye...when noone else is around of course. Yeah, that woman is as tempting at that damn apple in the Garden of Eden. Resisting it is just as much fun as giving in.
I do love the chase, it's the animal in me. The more they resist the more I want to make them surrender. The bigger challenge in the mansion is 'Ro. She makes me change my whole approach. 'Ro can't be tempted like Jean, I have no doubt that Jean will one day surrender to me or have a moment of weakness, no, with Ro I have to get on her "good side" and try an get her to see me as a "good guy." This is kinda hard cause no matter where 'Ro is Cyke is lurkin' nearby! He is like the self-appointed protector of all women from the Big Bad Logan. I go to the library-he is there "recommending" a book to her, I go to the kitchen-he's getting her a "snack," I go to the greenhouse-he's "moving" some bags of fertilizer for her! Noone is THAT much of a concerned "friend"! He's up to somethin,' I know it. But trying to keep 'Ro and Jean from me is fighting a war on two fronts. He's gonna have to eventually pick one side and stick with it. It'll be interestin' to see whose side he chooses.
That's another reason why I stay here-the game. This whole mansion is in on it. The rules are made up as we go along, the participants are unpredictable, the battlefields vary, the objective constantly changes, and it's all unspoken. That's the way I like to play! Chuck reminds me of the referee who knows what's going on but looks the other way. He sees all the foul plays, dirty tricks, and rule bendin' but is willing to let the "players" deal with it themselves.
Haha, Jean just came to me and asked me to help her "supervise the kids in the P.E. class." Swimming class, that is. She and I both know she could use her powers to save a kid without even getting wet! Just a wave of her hand would have them out of the water. I'm sure it ain't a coincidence that she walked in wearing a thigh high bathing suit with her towel around her neck instead of around her waist. But I will be goin' now...can't keep my red haired siren waiting.
Signed,
Logan