"Your mother and father aren't to know about this right?" Angela smiled as we ate yet more chocolate, like we had the day before.. like two human girls. "Not about the magic and not about the forbidden spells, we aren't even suppost to know about them" I nodded "It's not my secret to tell" I then paused realising what she had said. "How do you know about them then?" I asked.

"Do you actually think my mother is a-?" she laughed, "There is no where near enough people in forks with feet problems to own a foot surgery" She was right, forks was only small.

"What are they then?" I asked. She sighed, "They're Elders" she said shaking her head "But you don't know that either" she scowled. I was breaking into dangerous territory. "So they have the ingredients?" I asked, she shook her head, "Not going to happen" she said, reading into my words.

"They have them all locked away, the keys are disguised as objects using a spell and each Elder has a key in her household but It doesnt even matter, I couldn't help if I wanted to and I don't exactly want to." She rolled her eyes. "Why would you want animals to be left in control of your body anyway?"

"My stupid vampire-human body?" I asked sarcastically. "They can have it."

"What about your dad?" Angela raised an eyebrow.

"Oh yeah, cause he'de know which wolf I was." I laughed. "It doesn't matter though right? Its not going to happen." I put the chocolate down,I wasn't hungry anymore. Angela's blue eyes rested on mine as she saw the obvious heartache this was causing me, I could never be anything more than a halfbreed of two species that I don't want to belong to. A misfit.

She put her arm around me shoulders, "Jacob loves you the way you are." Angela told me. "I hear his thoughts from time to time, only when my mother is casting spells in the other room and one member of the pack is near, which is rare. But I hear enough to realise your always on his mind." She assured me.

"Yeah," I nodded, "I know he loves me, I love him. It's just I don't like the times when we are apart, when he is running with the pack and I'm sitting with the vampires."

She shrugged, "Maybe he needs time like that, just him and his friends. He doesn't have them forever." She pointed out, The other members of the pack had imprinted on human girls which meant they would have to stop changing as soon as they could so their bodies could age and their partners did. However Jake had no need to start aging, cause I wouldn't. He was immortal, the others would die.

I felt so selfish.

"Your right." I nodded. "please can you take me home." I asked, it was light but my parents would be waiting for me anyway. They didn't sleep.

The car drive home was spent talking about Ben and his birthday. How Angela was throwing him a suprise party and how I really had to go, because she was ordering a cake in the shape of a ninja and she had payed his favourite local band to play. I promised to go, but I wasn't exactly listening.

I didn't tell my parents. Mostly because I'm not dim. My father would of kicked off and my mother would of stopped me from going to angela's instead I went straight to my room where I found aunt alice sat on my bed.

"Nessie," she smiled hugging me tightly,

"Hey Alice, are you okay?" I raised an eyebrow as well as I could.

"Yeah, it's just.. I saw you in a vision" Alice didn't say anymore as my bedroom door burst open.

"Angela's a witch!?" My dad was closly followed my mum.

"You want to be a werewolf." She stated.

I sighed and sat on my canopy bed, holding my head in my hands. "Ergh." I said. How come I couldn't block my thoughts.

"It is rude to invade peoples personal thoughts." I tried to guide the convosation away pathetically, it failed.

My mom sat next to me, "I'm sorry" she said. "I'm not apoligising for your genes though, only for the way you feel. I see you would of made a different choice, and I shouldn't of been able to decide for you."

"Thats just stupid." I argued. "She is a witch, but I promised not to tell. And I didn't for the record." I pointed around to make sure everyone was perfectly clear. "I don't want to be a werewolf anymore, I don't think." I nodded.

My dad threw his hands up in the air, "Of course you do," he said "And I'm sorry Renesmee but you can't even deny that to yourself." He raved.

I held my hand out to his and he took it. I showed him everything that had I had wanted. The greenery, the trees passing by – hundreds of them, The crazy speed and the wind rushing through my golden fur. Freedom, Jake running just out of the corner of my eye and the whole pack, 30 of them, behind him. The moon in the sky and the world at my paws. I then showed him the scene at the caravan with Jake and Paul arguing over who gets the last hotdog, marshmallows on the fire and a pack – a whole family of them – sitting around happily.

My dad looked at me in a way I had never seen before as I took my hand away from his, it was as though he really understood.

The room was deadly silent and I sighed, "but it's alright? I don't need all that." I told them. "I need you lot, family. I need my aunts and my uncles and my grandparents. I can't be part of their family and part of yours in any way than the way I am now. I tie the two together, without me..." I paused,

"Your right," Carlisle said.