Lincoln was blinking at his sister. "Are you sure about this?"
"Lincoln, please. You know better than everyone else, that I am the best when it comes to emotions."
"Yeah, sorry for doubting you."
"No need to apologize. But this has to be celebrated, my own brother becoming one of us."
"Well, I'm sure that you are euphoric about this. But I'm not so sure about this, yet. Maybe I need to sleep over this first, to let it sink in."
"Of course. Take your time and when you are ready, you can come to me and I help you to bring your inner goth to the outside."
"Ok. I'll come back to you when I'm more sure about this. But thank you Luce, I really appreciate your help."
"As I said last night. Anytime, Lincoln."
Lincoln was leaving Lucy's room, wandering back in his own. Thinking about all of this. Well, he can't deny that the rejection from his friend Ronnie has hit him hard and his thinking was more different than before. But this has started even sooner than there. This doesn't mean that Lucy was wrong, just that there was something else that had started change his look at the world.
On his bed, he was looking at the clock. Seeing that most of the day was already over, but he doesn't care because he wasn't feeling to do something anyway.
As it knocked on his door, the youngest Loud was asking for permission to enter Lincoln's room. "Hey Linc, do you, eh ... do you want to play a video game with me?" She stands in the door frame, both hands holding together in front of her. Wearing her typical outfit, a black t-shirt, above that a cute top in her favorite color lavender and on her lower half a nice little skirt in the same color. She looks so shy there, what was a bit strange, considering she was just talking to her big brother Lincoln.
"I like to play a game with you Lily." Lincoln stood up and going with her down to the living room. He was tired from the entire day, but no one could say no to sweet little Lily, the little angel of the family. The only other sister that was called an angel was Leni and because of her height, she was called the big angel of the family.
Both sitting on the couch, playing Super Smash Sisters Ultimate and having a lot of fun. No matter how bad you feel, Lily always could bring the sun back in your heart. Lincoln, truly was thankful to have such a sweet sister. "Lincoln?" It came after a wile from her.
"Yeah Lily?"
"Will you be ok again?"
"He? What do you mean?"
"I have heard from Luan that you haven't laughed about any of her best jokes. I'm maybe not old enough to completely understand how bad this with you and Ronnie is. But when even Luan don't manage it to let you laugh, then it must be really bad."
Lincoln was surprised about that. He knew that Lily was relatively smart for her young age, maybe because she shared a room with Lisa. But seeing how worried she was, it hurts him.
"Don't worry Lilybug, maybe I don't feel great for now, but I have all of you guys who try to cheer me up again. Sooner or later I'm the old Lincoln you know and love." Would he really be the old one? When Lucy is right, he would change. But that doesn't mean he would distance himself from his sisters.
"Ok, I don't like to see you feeling bad. I want all of us to be happy."
"You know, for your young age, you already are an awesome sister and person."
"Aw, thanks Linky. You know what I'm also?"
Before Lincoln could ask what, he heard a smash and a voice shouting "GAME". "A great Smash gamer." She said with big confidence.
"Wow, that was cheap from you Lily." He said to her with a small smirk.
"You know what they say. All's fair in love and games."
"Actually it's …"
Before he can correct his little sister Rita interrupted him. "Dinner is ready!" She shouted through the entire house so everyone would hear her.
"You know what? Your right. Thanks for the great time my little sunshine" Both hugged each other and was going to the diner room, taking their seats.
After such a day, Lincoln truly was hungry and has eaten everything on his plate. With a full stomach, he was back in his room. With half of his sisters trying to cheer him up and Lucy's interpretation of Lincoln's feelings changing him he was thinking again. As a goth he should wear more black than his so loved orange shirts. Looking at his shirts, hanging from the closet's clothes rack, he only had orange shirts. Because Leni had said that it looks great on him and so it become his favorite color. But now he feels, that it was a bit too bright. Maybe some black clothes aren't that bad.
Lincoln was sitting in school, looking at a TV. Seeing some of his most embarrassing moments, one in particular. Him with the Lucy's bust, a photo of his first crush Cristina on it, pretending that they were a couple and kissing it. As he looks at her, her face shows pure disgust about this. "Wait, I can this explain." He tried to defuse the situation, but she was leaving, telling him she want that he never should come near her again.
Then melted the classroom away and Lincoln finds himself in the school's gym, in front of him four girls. All of them looked angry at him. "How could you go with all four of us on the Sadie Hawkins dance at the same time?!" It came in unison from them. But before he could respond to them a hole under him opens up and he falls.
The next place was the arcade, a girl was playing DDR. As soon as he was seeing her, she stopped and turning to face him. "Sorry, but you aren't my type after all. You simply not interesting enough." Then she turned and start playing again.
"What's happening here? Why I have to face all of this?"
A force was pulling him back and right in his own home. "Oh goodness. It's finally over."
"Hey dude, the party was fun and you're a nice kid. But I need a real man. Someone who is handsome and can more to impress a girl like me than just simple juggling and removing your underwear without using your hands."
"Becky? What? Wait, I can be a real man. I can more than just that."
"Sorry kiddo, but it is how it is."
The scene faded away and he was back in school. This time in the hallway, together with an Asian girl. "Even you Stella?" This all was getting to Lincoln. His eyes, fighting back any tear, his voice cracking at this point.
"Lincoln, I never was interested in you. You're a nice boy and a good friend, but you couldn't be any more than that."
"Why? Why am I not good enough? Why must I be so useless?" He couldn't stand anymore. Falling on hes knees, burying his face in his palms. So he don't noticed it when the scene changing again.
"Lincoln? Is everything ok with you?"
Oh no. No, no, no, no, no, no. Anything, but not this, not her. I can't bare it anymore. Please, please make it stop. The white haired boy pleaded in his head. This was all too much for him, he was close to collapse.
"Lincoln, please look at me." A pair of hands was laying on his, dragging them down, so he has to face her. Ronnie Anne stands before him. They were in the park. He knows what this means and he would have given anything to not have to face what comes now.
"Lincoln, I know that you like me a lot and even I like you a lot." Could it be? Would this end well this time? "But we can't be a thing. There is no chance this would hold for long. We're too different. You're weak, scared and don't take anything seriously. Just face it, no one wants to be together with you. Be happy that we're friends after all. Stop wanting things you never will get in your life."
She turned around and was going, half the way she stopped and looked back at him. "Just face it and your life will be better." Then she goes on, until she vanished and then the whole park.
Lincoln, now surrounded by darkness, cried every single tear he had in him. No reason to hold back anymore. Screaming from his lungs. And with this finally he awakes from his slumber. "Note to myself, no sleep for me, ever again." Then he noticed it. His pillow and his face are completely wet. He hadn't not only cried in his dream, but in his sleep as well. "Great, just great."
Well, again, I have to split it. That sucked in my opinion. So I ask you, my dear readers. Is it ok to split longer chapters or should I post the complete chapter? That means it would take longer to post it, but then there is no cliffhanger in it. Give me your opinion on this in the comments or as a pm. Thank you all for reading.