Wow guys SOOO sorry for the longest wait in history ever! I will never make you guys wait this long AGAIN! Ugh! Authors Oath!
Many things were going on.
boyfriend issues (grrr)
Writers block like mad!
Busy Busy Busy! Working and Babysitting three girls is kinda tougher than I thought! And getting into college now whoa gives me a headache thinking about it!
Anyway, much more stuff happened but man! I finally finished this chapter and the next one just needs touch ups unless I plan to change it AGAIN.
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Starlight – Wild Koneko- It kinda is intense, but I hope it isn't too intense to make you uncomfortable? And you can be the judge of how bad the thing is muhahaha.
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A/N: Hey guys before you read, the story gets a little more darker and a little more angst, so if Sesshomaru might act out of character…love does that to you right?
Btw, if you're wondering why I changed it to M…it's because there's a lemon in here. I did it to be safe. I cant stand when authors get their story removed because it was too "explicit" or something. Grrr. but yeah this is my very first lemon AHHH! I cant say too much but if there is any reader who does NOT want to read it I will warn you don't worry.
Disclaimer: Inuyasha aint mine. Not one thing! But I love my Inuyasha blankie! It keeps me warm from my evil AC!
Previously,
"Kagome…please…"
I receded and looked back. His eyes were watery…and his hand reached out to me…how I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him how much I love him…
"Goodbye Inuyasha…"
As I ran his cries echoed through the night.
"Kagome what are you doing?!"
I ran faster.
"Kagome I love you! Don't do this to me!"
I closed my eyes and ran even faster trying to drain him out.
"KAGOME!!"
End Flashback
Chapter 3
Joining of Souls
That had been so long ago…
Sure he changed a bit, now that he was in control of it more…but the power had gotten to him-and changed him into something even worse…That was not the Inuyasha I had fallen in love with. He is long gone-along with my love for him…forever.
Reality had come back again as I heard him call out my name.
"Kagome…you escaped me last time…but never again!"
I forced myself to get up from his hold on me, but he was so powerful. "Inuyasha get off of me!" I screamed. "no." he boldly alleged. If there was one thing about Inuyasha he always had-it was his stubbornness. He never gave up.
There was only one thing to do. "Inuyasha you give me no choice-"His eyes widened. "Kagome don't do it-"
"Sit boy!"
He crashed to the ground instantly while I escaped from his terrifying grasp.
"Kagome…"
The sweet tone in his voice made me stop. I turned to look and déjà vu hit me…hard.
"Don't do this…not like this…"
"Inuyasha…I-…" I had no idea what to say. What could I say?
His bangs fell over his eyes…and there loomed a dark aura around me.
"Please Kagome…could we at least just talk about this?" This was something new. Inuyasha was never good with words-at all. I was hesitant of course.
"I don't know Inuyasha…I will think about it." It didn't take me long for me to come up with my answer. I would talk to him-only because I wanted to hear what he had to say.
I cursed myself and him…no matter what he did, I would always forgive him, and I would always give him a chance to redeem himself. What was I thinking?
"Tomorrow…we will talk, and no one is to know about it." He nodded in agreement as I bolted home.
I burst open the doors to my home and immediately ran upstairs to wash his scent off of me when…
Smack
I felt like I ran into a brick wall…but I should've known it was Sesshomaru-sama.
His eyebrow rose up in curiosity. "What are you doing?"
I smiled sheepishly but kept running. "Longstory! GottotakeshowerBYE!"
I washed myself profusely and scrubbed until my skin was red. I didn't want Sesshomaru thinking that something happened and set him off to kill Inuyasha. That was definitely not what I needed…
But would I tell him that I agreed to meet Inuyasha tomorrow? Would I tell him the truth or would I hide it from him?
I instantly regretted giving a chance to Inuyasha in the first place. He would probably hurt me, or worse, hurt Sesshomaru. He had an idea about us…technically there was no "us" in the first place, but he had an idea that I had feelings for his brother.
When I was finished, I dried myself hurriedly and stumbled into my clothes.
I was beyond nervous…I didn't want to lie to Sesshomaru. What if he asked? What if…Oh no…Sangos curse is rubbing off on me!
After my bath, Sesshomaru accompanied me the entire day. I was so ashamed at how good of a liar and pretender I was. It was sad. Sesshomaru didn't ask any questions or didn't even have any suspicion at all.
Maybe he was just as mind boggled as I was about our kiss or maybe he was too busy thinking about his hands surrounding his half brothers throat. Yeah…that was probably it.
When the stars came out we went back home and when I entered my room he growled at me.
"You may be able to fool others with your façade, but not me. I gave you the chance to tell me all day and before this night is over you will tell me what Inuyasha's scent was doing all over you."
So he did know…but he chose to wait for me to tell him myself. I felt even more horrible than when I didn't tell him. It just showed how untrustworthy I was.
My back was towards him. I couldn't face him now…after he just figured it out for himself that I was keeping a secret from him. I didn't lie really-I just hid the truth…ok well that's practically the same but-the reason why I didn't tell him was because I was scared of what he was going to say or do. Now was the moment of truth.
"Sesshomaru-sama…forgive me." I murmured, still hesitant.
"Stop hesitating." He knew me like a book.
"Soldiers had escorted me to the palace. I met Inuyasha there waiting for me in his chambers and-"
The next thing I knew I was being pinned against the wall. His hands crushing my wrists against the wall which was excruciating.
"Kagome if you desire my brother tell me right now." His tone was menacing and bitter, but I knew he was just paranoid of what I was doing with his brother.
I admit he knew me like a book, but I didn't even have to read the book like he did. I merely need a glance to know.
I smiled.
"My Lord…I no longer desire him." He stared long and hard into my eyes, before letting out a sigh and allowing me to continue.
"When I had met Inuyasha in his room, he confessed his love for me, but I told him that I didn't love him anymore in that way. Yes I love him, but I'm not in love with him."
He was just as stunned as I was to say the least at what I had said.
"When I wanted to leave he tried to stop me but he couldn't. He asked if I could speak with him and I told him tomorrow I would just to hear him out-nothing else."
He said nothing and looked out my window.
"He has an idea that I…have feelings for you-but he doesn't know you live with me so that's good."
"Now is the time to rest."
I was confused at his sudden randomness to sleep. Maybe he just didn't want to be awake right now or maybe he just did it to shut me up…?
I awoke, feeling absolutely refreshed.
Opening my eyes I saw Lord Sesshomaru awake, but with his eyes closed.
I knew he was awake this time!
I began to leave the bed when I was pulled right back into his hold.
"My Lord! I need to get up and be dressed!"
"I require your warmth a little longer."
My heart jumped in excitement. I truly cherished him more than anyone-anything.
He squeezed me closer to him and I returned it, taking his scent in. He always smelled so good!
He was being so…loving today. What was the catch? Usually he is never like this at all. Now he wanted to hold me more and cuddle, and just be Sesshomaru who is the cutest thing in the world…
Ok maybe I was a little obsessive plus possessive which equaled scary stalker but at least his feelings were returned…and it wasn't unrequited love.
Our bodies entwined with one another, and his tight embrace made me feel so loved. He was being so affectionate. Kissing my forehead and brushing my hair out of my face and playing with it. His fingertips grazing my cheeks which sent blood streaming to my face. How adorable could he be?!
This was a new side I had never seen. My Lord, Sesshomaru, affectionate? This had been what I wanted but why did I feel like there was something behind it?
I then sighed, realizing that he was distracting me from meeting Inuyasha.
I attempted once more to leave the bed when he pulled me back in.
"Sesshomaru-sama…please don't worry."
I tried my hardest to soothe him but something so different was etched on his soft features.
"I don't want you to go."
The words flowed right out as simple as he could say it. It wasn't a demand for once; it was more of me acknowledging what he thought about it. He was always straight and to the point which I loved.
I frowned inside, but I smiled on the outside as to not worry him.
"My Lord…I will be fine, and besides, it will only be for a short while. I will be back before you know it."
I hurriedly dressed as he eyed me the entire time. "It won't take long, I promise. I will be back my Lord. To make you feel better, if you hear my whistle, that means I need you ok?" he agreed, I was glad to see him relaxed a bit.
With that said I left leaving him with those puppy eyes. Kami, how I wanted to run back in there and tell him how much I loved him but it would only take a short while. I just wanted to get this over and done with.
When I had entered the palace and into Inuyashas chambers, he was nowhere to be found. This was odd…
I didn't want to go snooping around but I just wanted to see if he was here.
I walked quietly in his room looking for him when-
"Looking for me?"
I nearly jumped out of my skin as I turned to see Inuyasha and his menacing glare. "I am not pleased Kagome…you disappoint me."
"What are you talking about?"
His eyes glowed. "I can smell his scent on you-it's everywhere, but I can still smell your innocence. How is this?" My nails dug into my skin with fury. I was getting fed up with everyone about that now.
"Inuyasha you-" but I was cut off abruptly with my head meeting the wall behind me with great force. My skull was ringing and cried out in pain. I opened my eyes to see the red rubies I had always feared.
He trapped me between his arms like steel bars. He breathed heavily just staring at me.
His breathing pace slowed down a bit and his eyes became their usual gold. "Kagome…I don't like when people touch my things…especially you. I'm not a jealous person…It's just…" merely thinking of the thought made his blood boil. His power encircled me.
So many memories came back to me. I felt myself shaking horrifically.
He held me in his arms.
"Don't be frightened…I'm here."
That's exactly why I was terrified to begin with. What should I do? I knew I would regret this. Why does hope deceive me time and time again? I'm such an idiot to believe him…
He smiled at me. "Kagome…it will be just like old times now."
I could feel my insides curl and my skin twinge at his words. How could this happen?
"Inuyasha…-"
"I will inform your family that you will not be coming back to visit them for awhile." I hung my head, drowning in my own sorrow. I wanted to get the hell out of here-and as far away from Inuyasha as possible no matter what the costs.
But I would lay low and be "loyal" for now until I came up with a legit plan.
"and tell Sesshomaru that you never want to see him again-that you choose to be my mate now." My eyes widened. How could I tell him such a thing when it wasn't true? Even if it was true how could I? That had to be the worst punishment anyone could give me.
"Do so, and I will dethrone myself. Sesshomaru could have these lands for all I care. On the contrary, if you don't tell him, I will kill him without any hesitation-do you understand?"
I couldn't contain the tears cascading down my cheeks. My mind was racing with so many thoughts. Inuyasha would be watching our conversation…
"But Inuyasha…he can most likely sense that I would be lying-""He would believe you. You're a good liar."
If I told Sesshomaru-sama what I was ordered to say…surely he would be hurt, but if I didn't, he would die. Not that I didn't have faith in Lord Sesshomarus skills, but he nearly lost his arm-the next time he could lose his life…
Isn't this what Sesshomaru-sama wanted all along anyways, to become the Lord of these lands? If he gets what he wants, then he should be fine right? That's what my Lord had wanted, the throne. He doesn't need me…
My heart screamed at the reality of my life. He doesn't need me…I was just his information gatherer.
I unfortunately agreed to my despair, but to Inuyashas delight.
I arranged a meeting with Sesshomaru-sama as Inuyasha hid himself, unsensible.
I twiddled my fingers. I was nervous, frantic, and miserable. What was I going to say? I felt like throwing up. My breathing pace was off and beads of sweat formed above my brow.
I felt like I was having a heart attack.
My heart was beating so loud I thought everyone in the kingdom could hear it.
"What's wrong?"
I didn't even notice he showed up. I couldn't even look at him. I was so ashamed and I didn't want to see the look on his face when I told him…
"My Lord…I-…I have splendid news."
He was silent which meant for me to continue.
"Inuyasha is surrendering his throne. He no longer desires to be the Lord of the West."
He looked up at the sky. "Are you sure?"
I nodded for confirmation.
"Then why are you forlorn?"
I sighed.
"He is moving away from the Kingdom-and I am accompanying him."
His eyes sparkled and gleamed like fire. His eyebrows furrowed and his stare became unpleasant now. He wanted answers…now-but the answers I would give him would not be right.
"What is the meaning of this?"
"I…"
I didn't want to say it but I…I had to…for Sesshomaru-samas protection.
"I want to be his mate. I still love him, I was mistaken to think I could love another, I only love Inuyasha."
Kami, how my heart shrieked in agony from the lies spilling from my lips.
Sesshomaru turned away from me. I felt as if I was less than nothing. I now felt what Rin had felt-despised by the one you love.
"You got what you wanted my Lord. You are now the Lord of the West-""I should've known."
The tone of his voice made it sound as if he regretted meeting me…trusting me. "Either he is blackmailing you or you really are serious." I held my breath.
I had to think of something fast…to convince him.
"I only used you to tell him of your motives. I was alongside Inuyasha the entire time. I will always love him, and do whatever it takes to please him."
I couldn't see his expression, but I knew I had hit something that I shouldn't have.
"But of course. A whore is only fit for such a half breed."
I wanted to fall to my knees and beg for his forgiveness and tell him that what I said was all lies! That I was doing this only for him!
"Either you get out of my sight, or I will demolish you where you stand."
I did as told with my heart heavier than ever.
When I had traveled far enough that Sesshomaru-sama couldn't detect me, Inuyasha embraced me, spinning me in circles. "I can't believe he fell for it! I knew you could do it! I knew he would believe only you!" The happiness on his face was the exact opposite of what I felt. I wanted to die right then and there.
I thought my Lord would be happy this way but he just seemed angrier than ever. It had to be because of my betrayal, but he would get over it right? I was just someone who assisted him in attaining valuable knowledge right?
A few weeks had passed since I last saw my Lord. I constantly wondered what he was doing and how well he was. I hadn't tried any escape attempts because where would I go? Now I was miles away from anywhere life resided. I whistled so many times…but he never came…who would want to see someone after what I said anyways?
I had gotten caught by Inuyasha and he beat me for days-just random outbursts of his anger. He screamed at me for trying to contact him and told me that he would never come. Day after day I whistled, and time after time I was beat for it until I truly believed that Sesshomaru would not come.
Inuyasha was beginning to lose his mind. I couldn't help feeling depressed and heartbroken without Sesshomaru and so I ate very little or not at all, I simple stared into space, and never spoke.
Many times Inuyasha wanted to kill me, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He would always complain that I was torturing him when I did absolutely nothing-literally.
He wanted to bed me many times, but he wouldn't do it unless I told him I loved him-when I would obey his every command. Inuyasha was losing his patience with me though, and his advances became more and more forceful. We…did things but it wasn't sex. Afterwards I would scrub myself until I was red all over.
I was slowly slipping into insanity myself. I just couldn't stop thinking of the last words and the last meeting I had with Sesshomaru-sama. The guilt was tearing at my heart.
"Kagome…I am being as patient as I can-but you are giving me no choice!" his voice echoed through the house as I sat there feeling lifeless as usual.
He sharpened his claws and they stopped only an eyelash away from my left eye, but I did not stagger, nor did I flinch. I didn't care what happened to me anymore.
He growled loudly withdrawing his hand and knocking me down to the floor.
"Why won't you look at me?!" he shouted.
I lay on the floor and huddled up in a tiny ball.
"It's my brother isn't it?! Isn't it?!" he was becoming paranoid and demented. He was frequently becoming a demon more and more often. He never went near his sword because he had nothing to fear around here…
The last time I sat him, the necklace almost came off. I only have one more time to use the command to my advantage and I would use it wisely. I would escape eventually…
As Inuyasha slept with his arms possessively around me, I wiggled my way out of his grasp and looked out the window, gazing at the moon.
Lord Sesshomaru was under the same sky I was.
My heart told me to whistle, in hopes he would come, but my mind new better.
'Call to him!'
My mentality screamed.
'Call to him Kagome!'
I closed my eyes trying to drain out the hopeful thought.
'I can't…' I told myself.
'Don't be foolish! He will come this time!'
I couldn't believe what I was doing, but I made my way out the house and when I was far enough so that Inuyasha was too deep in his slumber to hear, I whistled.
I whistled and whistled but he did not show up. I started to feel numb.
Tears raced down my face as I continued to whistle.
He wasn't coming.
I mean...maybe it wasn't such a good idea to call to him anyways. What if Inuyasha would find him?
I fell to the ground in complete anguish. Of course he wouldn't come. He didn't come all those other times, why would he come now? After all that has happened?
I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I didn't want to be with Inuyasha! I didn't love him anymore! I did this to protect Sesshomaru-sama, but now he hates me more than anything! I would rather die than live with that knowledge.
I wanted to see his charming face, I wanted to be in his presence, I wanted to tell him how sorry I am and how much I loved him and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
I gripped the grass in my hands full with grief.
I took out my small cutting knife, I didn't want to feel like my insides were burning everyday and especially Inuyashas lustful touch.
I held the pointed blade to my wrist..
I looked up at the stars feeling insignificant.
"I'm sorry…Mama, Souta, Father,…Sesshomaru…I can't take the pain anymore..." I felt the sting of the blade rip into my flesh, but only for a slight moment until a quick flash had removed the blade from further injury.
I was shaking to see Inuyasha with an angry expression holding the blade from me in his hand. How bad would this beating be now?
When he stepped into the moonlight I was even more frightened to learn that it wasn't Inuyasha-it was him….it was my Lord…he had come back. All the blood drained out of my face. I probably looked like a ghost. He simply stared at me and I couldn't find myself to look into his eyes.
After Kagome had said what she was planning with Inuyasha, everything crumbled. What the hell was she thinking? Knowing Kagome she would do something like that to protect someone else, but she would tell me first wouldn't she?
For the past weeks I had heard Kagome whistle almost every single day. When she would miss a day panic overwhelmed my heart, but I would never show it. I wanted to go and hold her in my arms, but that damn oracle told me not to go. No matter what the cost.
No one told me what to do, no one-but she was right about the tragedy…Kagome was gone from me. If I went to her, Inuyasha would rape her. The oracle told me this many times when I had tried to save her, but then I stopped myself.
At times I felt like I was making up the whistle in my head randomly during the day-or was it that I couldn't stop hearing that whistle echo through my mind in the night when she would call to me?
After she had stopped for awhile, I presumed she was dead, but I felt somehow she was still alive-barely hanging on.
At least with the whistle I knew she was alive, but now I had no knowledge of that. If she whistled one more time I would go to her despite what the oracle said. I will make it that I stop him from raping her-even though the oracle warned me that it was beyond my power, I would make it in my power.
I waited and waited, and still she no longer whistled. I began thinking Inuyasha had killed her in a fit of his rage, but I tried to dismiss those thoughts. Kagome was strong. She would not die by the likes of him. He didn't have it in him to kill her anyways. He "loved" her too much.
The nights were restless, I wanted to rest, to have the only sanctuary I had left, but Kagome kept coming to my mind, and I found it hard to sleep without her warmth. We shared a bed for so long, it was hard to be alone in one.
I allowed Rin to stay in the palace, and many times she had tried to tempt me.
She had entered my bedroom naked one time, foolishly thinking I was asleep. When she tried to enter my bed, I grabbed her hand and growled, "Leave now if you don't want to live in the streets."
That was the last time she attempted such a thing which satisfied me greatly. The only woman I wanted in my bed was Kagome.
Now I could feel myself sinking into a state where I was no longer myself. I had the throne, I owned the lands, I could have any female I wanted-
Then it dawned on me. That was it.
I couldn't. The only one I wanted was someone I couldn't have-or maybe I could.
I waited for that whistle night after night but nothing. Not even crickets. The silence of the night was tranquil, but eerie. Maybe I should just go anyways. I heard the whistle so many times before that I knew where she was.
I entered my bed, forcing myself to go to sleep. Finally I would catch some shut eye. Maybe this would relax me a little.
I awoke to my dismay later during the night. I was probably only asleep for a few hours until I heard the whistle! I bolted out of the window when the oracle threw her hands in front of me trying to stop me.
"Do not go to her my Lord! You will lose everything if you do!"
"Silence!" my voice boomed.
She sighed defeated. I ran past her rushing to get there.
I got there only in a matter of seconds and saw a little house. It reeked of Inuaysha.
They were here.
As I drew closer to the house, the scent of Kagome and Inuyasha mixed and made me ill. I looked through the window to see them mating…I hastily turned my head away from them.
I felt weird…lighter…my body was becoming weaker.
I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was met with a fist in my face which sent me flying. I wiped the blood from my mouth seeing Inuyasha half naked which reminded me of what they were doing. My rage increased tenfold.
"You're too late brother." He smiled.
He came at me again with speed unlike I have ever seen. How was he beating me?
I could smell his blood, he was full demon.
We had clashed gripping each others arms in a struggle. He was overpowering me…this couldn't be happening.
"Did you come to save her Sesshomaru? She doesn't want to be saved! She enjoys every single moment with me!"
His laugh haunted me. 'Was this true…?'
I awoke sweating profusely.
'A damn nightmare…'
My only sanctuary was gone now. I couldn't even sleep right. I got out of the bed to take a bath. I was trying anything to refresh myself when…
whistle
My eyes widened. This was not a dream.
I dressed in my armor ready for a battle with Inuyasha if one was to happen. When I was ready to leave, I could hear the oracle speaking into my mind.
"Don't go my Lord. Horrible things will happen if you do-""Why do you even care?!" I shouted. She sighed. "I cannot say…but it is my job to look after you-""I can take care of myself foolish woman!"
With that said I did as I pleased.
'Kagome I'm coming.'
When I got there I hid among the trees-my eyes fixed on her. It felt like I hadn't seen her in years.
When she took out the blade to hurt herself, I snatched the blade out of her hands and hid among the shadows. I always said I would keep her from harm, even from herself if it were that.
She looked terrified as if she was going to be punished or something.
I stepped into the light and her pulse raced. Was she scared of me now?
I could see the scars and bruises more vividly now that I was closer to her and the radiance of the moon was shining on her skin.
He had beaten her…but-
I sniffed relieved inside that she still had her innocence.
I looked at her for some time until she couldn't hold my gaze. She trembled and the scent of tears filled the air.
"Sesshomaru-sama…" she began, sobbing but trying to speak.
"I thought you would never come…" I felt a sting in my chest at her words. Maybe it was guilt that I hadn't come all those times before.
I examined her carefully.
"Why have you called to me?"
She shrank back, looking fragile and small. "I…wanted to see you."
I scoffed.
"Now that you have seen me I will take my leave-""No please! Sesshomaru-sama I…"
Tears poured from her eyes…those unforgettable azure eyes. They sparkled like the ocean, but her spirit was tarnished. My idiotic half brother was slowly breaking her.
"I wanted to say that I'm sorry…I'm sorry that I lied to you about wanting to be with Inuyasha and everything else I said that day to hurt you. I only did that to protect you-""I do not require anyone to protect me."
"I didn't want you getting hurt Sesshomaru! You almost lost your arm before-it could've been you're life the next time!"
She sobbed some more until I held back no longer.
I embraced her in my arms, feeling her arms wrap around me made me squeeze her closer to me. Honestly, I didn't care that she lied, I was just glad that she was away from Inuyasha at the moment and with me now.
After she was done sobbing we enjoyed the feel of each other for awhile until she looked up at me. "Sesshomaru…"
I looked at her as she whispered, "I love you." She leaned in to kiss me and I felt our lips come into contact. How I missed the sensation she gave me. No one had even come close to the fire she made that surged in me. My hunger for her grew and I kissed her back roughly, not being able to control my actions. Her kisses were exquisite.
She moaned softly, and I took the opportunity to explore what I had missed for so long. My tongue was stronger than hers, and so I dominated her mouth until she relinquished everything to me, allowing me to do whatever I desired.
I accomplished my goal quickly, as she desperately yearned for my touch, moaning into my mouth. Her nails scratched into my neck, giving me a rush. I smiled on the inside. I liked being in control, why shouldn't I be?
My hands snaked around her hips and her arms crossed behind my neck deepening our kiss. I was slowly losing my sanity. I knew what I was doing, I knew what I was touching, and I definitely knew where this was going, but what I didn't know was the feeling…it was new to me and sort of confusing.
I had been with other females before, female demons in fact, and I never felt anything, only the relief of my hormones returning to normal again.
So what was happening to me? I thought about it and the feeling was…as if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.
I wanted to mate her.
That was the feeling! I wanted her to mate with me.
"Sesshomaru-sama, I love you so much." She murmured in between our exchange of kisses.
I paused for a moment, opened my mouth slightly but nothing came out.
'Tell her. Tell her you love her.'
I opened my mouth again only to catch my breath. The words were not coming out.
'Tell her that you want her back in your life, that you are sincerely miserable without her! How you stayed awake for nights thinking about her! Tell her how you feel!'
My heart would not shut up. I was never the talkative type or an open person. I was not good with situations like these. I had only been in love twice. My first love…well-I didn't even get the chance to tell her before certain events happened, and Kagome…
I don't know how to "express" my feelings to her. I never had to do such things in the first place. I always thought love was for the weak, but now look at me…
I wanted to do it. I wanted to tell her, and for once, I decided to just…take a chance.
"Kagome…"
I placed my right hand on her shoulder and my left hand cupped her face.
'This was it…'
…
…
…
"I love you."
Her mesmerizing orbs grew at least a few inches wider, and her breathing became ragged. She said nothing, but her appearance said what she was thinking.
She was completely stunned at my words.
"I love you more than anything. When you're not by my side, my thoughts always come back to you. I can't stand being apart even for a little Kagome. These past weeks have been torturous to me. I want you to come back with me, and share our lives together."
Her breathing was more rapid now and I could feel her trembling beneath my fingertips in anxiety, disbelief and some other emotions that were mixed in there.
I was in just as much disbelief as she was in though. My feelings were speaking for me now, my feelings were bottled up but the bottle had shattered the instant I felt the need to mate her. I tried to shut myself up but it managed to open again.
"I want to mate with you Kagome."
"Um." She mumbled still in shock by hearing what I had to say. She was dumbfounded. It was actually quite cute. Her face turned bright pink, which meant it had to be crimson red if I could see it at night.
I brought my forehead to hers wanting her answer badly, I could feel my body changing, and readying itself to make love to her. "Mate with me Kagome."
She looked away and shivered dramatically. I gently raised her chin to look up at me and déjà vu hit me. Last time she was naked, hopefully if she agreed I would remedy that problem.
At first I thought she was crying, but she was laughing and crying.
I kissed Sesshomaru with a passion I never had. I was so happy to be with him that I forgot about all the bad things that had happened. The contact of our hands and lips sent chills down my spine.
When I told him how I felt, he stopped.
It kind of worried me, I thought I angered him, but after a few short moments of confusion as to why he had that look on his face, he simply said the words. Those words caused me to feel like I was dancing on air, but extremely surprised and scared. Sesshomaru-sama never said the words to anyone, and he wouldn't lie about it, so what did this mean?
When he continued, I started to feel weak. I thought I was going to collapse any second. He took that phrase more serious than any other person I knew, even more than me-and I would never say it unless I truly felt that way which only meant…that he really did feel that way.
To make even more thoughts race through my head he wanted to mate with me!
So many people thought we were, but now this would be the real thing. What would I do when we started? At this moment I wish I had experience but he threw me off my thoughts again when he came closer to me.
"Mate with me Kagome."
I don't know what caused me to look down at his pants, but I could definitely see a bulge and that frightened me to no end, but I wanted to do it because I love him, not because I was horny or anything like that. I wanted this to be special.
What if I never saw him again? This was my chance to really show him how much I loved him. This is the strongest bond anyone could ever do.
I began to cry, but I laughed as well. I cried because I was so thrilled that he chose me of all people to do this with.
"I want to be your mate Sesshomaru."
LEMON WARNING!
A smile was carved on his face and I stood still, savoring the expression. 'He smiled. I made him smile.'
He kissed me lightly this time…his lips were sooo soft.
Without my knowledge, he swiped a single claw down my back and I felt the chill of the night breeze on my now revealing flesh. My shirt had fell to the ground leaving me topless.
Even though he had seen me before, it was still a little embarrassing.
He still kept his lips in contact with mine, maybe he did it so I wouldn't feel awkward taking off my clothes…maybe I should give up trying to understand him for once?
He broke away to take off his armor and shirt leaving his chest bare.
How I missed sleeping next to him at night…he wasn't even flexing and it looked like he was. He was so perfect I couldn't even describe it. He was really something to look at.
My hands scrambled to touch his chest, I hadn't felt it in so long.
He stood there while my fingertips brushed up his torso. I immediately wanted more of him. I wanted to discover all of him and everything.
With one claw, he scratched straight down my shorts gently, as the material ripped in half and fell to both sides, it revealed my bottom half.
I was completely naked, and felt self-conscious that he grazed me down there in the process.
I wanted to cover up but he grabbed my hands swiftly and placed them on his hips.
He was the expert around here, so I did as I was told, but then my mind took a blank.
I felt his hands over mine, as he pushed my hands down lightly, to slide his pants off looking straight into my eyes. I only had to push them over his hips until they plopped to the ground.
Like any other person in my situation, I couldn't help but look and I gaped at it. I didn't mean to, but I did and for some reason I couldn't turn away. All my mind had to say was, 'I…I have to get ON that thing?!'
He smirked, letting me take him in, but I knew he was scanning my body too, but if this is what it took to gaze upon his bare body, then I would be more than happy to be naked everyday.
He approached me and I shrank back like a frightened child, but stood my ground. It was just too much to take in. He confessed his love for me, asked to mate with me, and now were both naked while he's towering over me along with his "friend".
He pulled me in closer and held me soothingly.
He played with my hair and I instantly relaxed. My hands reacted on their own accord, caressing his back warmly on his strong muscles. His silky hair cascaded down his back and I ran my fingers through it.
Little did I know that his "friend" was growing which I thought couldn't be possible and I felt it touching my stomach. I looked up at him and backed away surprised, but he caught me, snatching me into his embrace and crashing his lips onto mine.
The way he kissed me, the way he touched me, made me feel so loved. He licked at my lips to enter and I obeyed while he plunged in to taste me.
I pulled him in deepening the kiss to his surprise which gave me the opportunity to taste him back, and he was…so…sweet. Our hands were all over the place, grasping each other tightly. I was eager to explore his body.
I felt him lift me up and softly place me on top of his clothes. They felt like blankets.
She was extremely self conscious and nervous. By the time both of us were naked, my inner beast was starting to lose control. Seeing her naked again was…completely exhilarating. I couldn't help searching every crevice and curve on her voluptuous figure. Her perfect shape was incomprehensible.
It was obvious that she was overwhelmed, and so I pulled her closer to me to try and relax her. I succeeded in doing so until her hands roamed my back. The simple interaction aroused me immensely.
I missed her more than I possibly imagined.
She was stunned that I was touching her there and so she tried to escape me, but I was not allowing her to. I seized her wrist and our lips collided.
She deepened our kiss taking me off guard.
'Take her!' My body ordered.
Now was the time.
I laid her lightly on my clothes. Her heart rate increased, she knew what was coming.
I positioned myself over her and she let out a deep breath.
Her fingers grazed my cheek. I gave her my full attention, her eyes revealing how scared she was. I had to ask her.
"Do you want me?"
She paused only slightly.
"I want you more than anything."
I carefully entered her, as she let out a soft gasp. She closed her eyes tightly, and let out a whimper quietly. She bit her lower lip to hush herself.
I halted.
She looked at me again teary-eyed. "I'm ok."
I slowly entered her fully, her walls tensed on me. I felt constricted, but it was the way I liked it.
I didn't move until I was sure of her confirmation. She grabbed my shoulders, and moved in a rhythm.
She made the first move, and I followed along with her…
But I wasn't a follower. That would change soon she got comfortable.
She would wince in pain at first, but then her muscles began to relax. Her breathing pace intensified. I could tell how much she wanted me, and I was going to show her how much I wanted her, needed her.
I started to move faster and now she was following me.
I grinned deep down.
Her nails dug into my shoulder blades, and I growled from the sensation it gave me.
The demon in me made me go faster and faster, I just couldn't get enough of her. I felt our souls combining, connecting to each other. The feeling was unreal.
She grabbed me closer to her and held onto me firmly, gasping for air as both of us sped up.
"I love you." She panted, scratching my back in the process.
"How much do you love me?" I groaned, wanting to know exactly how she felt about me.
"I love you so much." "How much?" I asked, as her moans grew louder and louder.
"More than anything."
Her cries were erotic, and sent my energy flaring. I couldn't hold back anymore.
Feeling him inside was quite painful, considering demons are naturally larger than humans, but I forced myself to deal with it.
For my first time, I felt proud of myself.
When he began to speed up the pace, I felt him hitting something that made me feel something I never felt. I gasped for air, trying not to scream, but it was harder to contain that I thought! I had never been more in love with him than this moment. Our bodies bare, in front of each other, our feelings; everything was out in the open now.
I latched onto his shoulders and scratched. He groaned so I guess my Lord was into that sort of thing. I dug my nails into him and he growled as I brought his body closer to me, feeling his skin on mine. It made me feel so safe.
"I love you." I whispered and he questioned me, "How much do you love me?"
"I love you so much." "How much?" he inquired again.
He was really loving this.
"More than anything." I confessed.
He began to go faster and I was no longer in control of the sounds that I made, both from pain and pleasure. My body was quivering from such emotion; I wondered how he was so great at everything.
He sat upright and grabbed my hips, continuing where we left off and not missing a beat. I could see the animosity in his eyes.
"Kagome…" he murmured and I cried out, seeing only him. He was my world.
"I love you." He said softly, lovingly. I almost didn't hear him.
"I love you too." I moaned, arching my back feeling and feeling something overcome me.
I grabbed his hands and he squeezed me hands, returning the gesture.
With one final cry and his last thrust, we came together as one. My mate and I.
His chest rose quickly, but he seemed fine-only a little out of breath. I probably looked like a mess, but now that we had stopped…the pain was kicking in…badly. I was throbbing from the experience.
LEMON OVER!
It's safe to read now lol.
When we had given all we could to each other, I looked at her, and immediately felt remorse. I realized I was too rough on her. The scent of her blood became strong. I cursed myself for hurting her.
I wanted it to be an experience she would love to look back on, not one that was unpleasant. I tried to go as easy as I could, but my hunger for her got the best of me.
I looked down to see blood dripping and on her thighs. I looked at myself and my own part was covered in it. I had cleaned her first and when she had tried to clean me, I clutched her hands in mine to stop her.
If she would touch me there again, I would probably lay her back down and hurt her more than I already have.
"What's wrong?" she asked, her head tilted to the side adorably in confusion.
Could she ever stop being so innocent?
"Kagome, just…don't touch me there."
"That's not fair. You cleaned me-"
"I know."
"So then I should be able to return the favor."
"Kagome you don't understand. If you touch me there you could "spring" it back to life."
Her face burned red and she withdrew slowly.
"Oh…sorry."
I shook my head amused at her purity in not knowing.
When I had finished I stood up and grabbed her hand to bring her up to stand with me. I grabbed my pants and tied the sash around them, and I gave Kagome my kimono seeing as I "unclothed" her.
She tied it around her and smiled at me.
We were bound to one another now. Nothing could separate us. She belonged to me, as I did to her. She was my mate, and I would never leave her. Our souls are entwined for life, and I would always love her no matter.
"Sesshomaru-sama…"
I sensed the worry in her instantly. It flared around her greatly, but I knew what she was to ask me.
"I'm not going anywhere."
Her eyes widened.
"I am taking you back to the palace."
She wrapped her arms around me tightly in thanks, resting her head on my chest.
I placed my arm around her back and looked at the sky.
'Why did I ever let you leave me?'
A few days passed, and not one scent of Inuyasha, or rumor. There was…nothing. I was perplexed by this, but still alert and aware, always prepared just incase he would try to do anything to take her away from me.
Now that Kagome has returned to me, I was determined more than ever to keep her safe.
She was out in the gardens helping to water the plants. No matter how many times I told her that we had servants for such a task and how it made her look like a peasant, she simply chose to ignore my orders and do what she felt like.
I watched her as she clumsily knocked into other servants, falling in the flowerbeds, and spilling water everywhere.
It was most amusing. She made the servants jobs ten times harder than it had to be.
But that was Kagome. She did as she pleased and not even I, Sesshomaru, Lord of the West could order her to do one thing. As much as I tried, she would not listen and so I would try another motive to get her to obey me…
But not anytime soon…
A/N-
Anyways I hope you guys liked this chapter-I know it's shorter than my others but it's not over yet.
I promise I won't ever let you guys wait that long AGAIN too! That was probably torturous to some people! Thousands of apologies! :Kowtows immensely: I really hope you guys R&R! I feel so bad for making you guys wait so long and I hope it wasn't too explicit for some ppl. (I'm a paranoid person. I think I might even have paranoia?) Enough about me, please tell me what you guys think?
Thank you so much for reading my story! The next chapter will be longer and won't take as long I promise!
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