Well, my flower and I had a few happy years together after that. Really, what more needs to be said? She left me with you, and while no one can replace her, you surely come close. Sometimes, when I watch you sleep, I'm reminded of her, and I can't hold back the tears.
Tears I can freely show to others. I'm no longer afraid to show a lot of things to others, now. She gave me that much, before she left me. Left me, and the world, permanently. At least this time it wasn't by choice, and it wasn't because I didn't protect her.
I only wish I could protect you, daughter, when my time comes. Actually I'm laughing now, and crying at the same time, because if you're reading this, it means I'm already dead. However it was that I went, be it natural (I hope), or accidental, please know that I love you, that I've always loved you.
If there's any good at all that comes out of this, maybe it's that I'm probably where your mother is, now. I guess my final words to you are, when you're ready, when it's your time to follow me, don't be afraid. I'll be here, waiting to welcome you.
-Shinji
Stupid Shinji.
Stupid, stupid Shinji...
The small thirteen-year-old form sprawled in a beanbag tossed the papers aside, same as she always did after reading them. Her long pastel-green hair was offset by her vibrant blue eyes, which were rimmed from crying.
She always cried when reading the short 'autobiography' her father had left her. It was why she didn't do it much.
Only when the need grew too strong. When she wanted nothing more than to be held in her father's strong arms, or listen to her mother tell another of her stories. Her mother could have been an actor, she was so free with her movements and expressions.
It wasn't enough that I finally managed to come back. You just had to leave me alone again, didn't you?
But at least she could take comfort in the fact that, this time, she had been given parents who loved her. Parents who always looked at her.
At least this time you looked at me, Shinji.
End
A/N: Actually, just as Lilith's Gift is the extremely long version of Embrace of Infinite Dreaming, I'm considering making a long version of this, so perhaps all the questions in the reviews will be answered after all ;-p