I will keep it really short this time, because I know I'm really late, but so many things are going on now I can't even remember some things.

Thanks foe the reviews and I hope you like this chapter.

I own nothing but a dollar.

If everyone cared
And nobody died
If everyone loved
And nobody lied
If everybody shared
And swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died.

- If Everyone Cared, Nickelback

The speed of my legs lowered as soon as my eyes were greeted by the cloudy La Push beach. I stopped a little, taking a deep breath of the frozen air and exhaled sharply at the sight of the olive-skinned man. He was patting his left foot and looked to the violent waves with concentrated eyes. His muscles were tensed and I could feel a little smile spread on my face. This is the way he behaves when he is impatient or nervous.

I looked down at my shoes as I walked next to him. His eyes instantly moved on me and I felt anxious from the silence that we both kept. Anger shadowed my fears and from nowhere, my voice raised a few octaves.

"That's how sadist you are, Jake? Does my misery amuse you? I didn't know you're this way." My voice seemed sharp as a razor.

He just shifted uncomfortably, rubbing his hands slightly as he forced himself to look in my eyes. Fortunately, I was tall enough to break his empty stares. A small quiver of my bottom lip made me realize a few tears escaped from my eyes. His right thumb wiped one of the hot tears rolling down my cheeks. In a swift moment, I slapped his hand away trying to use the energy left in my fueled body.

"Tell me, why in this world would you laugh at me this way? Kiss me an then run away with no reason? I thought you were better." My voice cracked towards the end. His fearless black eyes seemed warmer than the burning golden rays, the temperature of our souls contrasting boldly . He grabbed my wrists forcefully, a hint of hesitation and sadness in his body language and spoke, for the very first time since I've stepped on this beach.

"Renesmee, it's hard… I just can't explain it to you…Not yet…" He stuttered, trying to find another pathetic excuse to get away. Instead of letting him go, I pressed my finger tips against his cheek, showing him my opinion in flashes. My thoughts transferred in his mind faster than the speed of light, a sudden headache blurring me out of the image. He must have realized the incredibly fast change of emotions because his grip tightened .

"Ness! Are you okay?" My eyes closed for a moment, refreshing my vast thoughts and memories, putting them back in order. He must have noticed I flinched when I saw his arms, now wrapped around my waist, because he almost let go of me. My eyes were now glued to the ground, too embarrassed to even meet his glance.

"What can't you explain? And why?..." I whispered. " … If you want to throw me out of your life without no signs of existence, that's fine, but please, just try to explain me what in the rooting hell is happening!"

Lifting my head up just a little, the image of his dejected eyes persisted in my mind, giving me these cold shivers inside haunted me as his mouth hanged open just a little, as if he was getting ready to speak, but then he closed again and dropped his head. I was glad he did this, because I don' think I could take one of those emotive looks on his face without shedding a few tears. Unwillingly, I gave up to my stubbornness and put my hand under his chin, lifting his head up a little with my thumb. The sensation I felt while brushing my fingers against his slightly scratched skin was beyond words, my heart accelerated instantly. His nose scrunched a little and a shaky sigh left my lips.

"Renesmee… I don't want to hurt you. I love you. More than you may understand." He sounded so pained and suffering as he spoke.

For a second, I felt numb. I couldn't do anything, forever frozen in here, with no way of escaping. Melancholy hit me roughly, but it was a different kind. I felt love struck. And it felt good.

" Why was it so hard to say it?" I breathed, still attempting to process the idea into my mind. It wasn't easy at all.

"I thought that you wanted more freedom and I don't think your family agrees with you growing up so fast… I mean…" I interrupted him.

"Do you think I had a choice in growing up so fast? Do you think I don't want to be a fearless little child and enjoy my life as days pass slowly? And I don't care if they don't, I need you, they have no choice but accept the situation as it is. What you were about to do would hurt me more than anything could, Jake. I felt rejected. I thought you just didn't want me. Try not walking away from your feelings, especially from those that would give their own lives just to know that.." Stopping, I noticed that my bottom lip was quivering violently.

He sat in silence and dropped his face. Precious minutes were wasted, minutes in which I could have done much more helpful stuff rather than mentally begging for any kind of answer from him. Seeing that I wasn't going to get one very soon, I silently stepped aside from him and with slow, calm steps, I walked back to the woods. He, unfortunately, must have heard me moving and came after me much faster than I expected. I sighed. Why was I always the one breaking the silence?

His powerful arms made me face him, his black eyes piercing through my scared little heart. His fingers softly brushed against my right cheek and the wild side of him seemed to be tamed just like that. I couldn't hold it all inside and I turned my head to the other side, something warm blocking my vision. His thumb immediately wiped away the solitary tear that ran on my porcelain skin and his seething voice echoed in my head.

"Let me show you I'm not like that, Ness. Just… give me one more chance. I'm not the kind of man to mess with girls' feelings, trust me. One more chance and I'll prove you that I live to worship you." Before I could even open my chapped lips, his ended up on mine, in a passionate kiss.

Our lips synchronized and tongues danced gracefully in each other's mouth with this hopeless passion we both couldn't resist to. Continuous moans harmonized along with our accelerated heart beats. The pleasure I've felt was stunning, words couldn't explain the feelings that were rapidly running through my body. I was in the Ninth Sky, floating above the clouds in Nirvana, with no worries pressing on my shoulders. Everything was perfect.

We took a short break, his sweet flavor still stuck on my tongue. I deeply inhaled his ragged breath and I saw him smiling, a faded shade of pink finding its place on Jacob's cheeks. I sighed lightheaded and couldn't help but laugh at my reaction.

"What's so funny, babe?" he smirked, winking at me, but it was obvious that he was still struck by the kiss we just shared.

"I… You….We…" I stuttered, failing to express my thoughts correctly; or at all; through words and I touched his face.

Yesterday, this seemed impossible. I'm still not familiar with this love and happiness crushing inside of me.

"Me neither." He grinned and I couldn't help but chuckle.

"You're dumb as a rock. Did you know t-that?" I stuck my tongue out. His eyes widened. When I realized what I just said, my eyes were about to pop out.

"…Did you just say…What I thought you said?" he asked, eying me mysteriously. I shook my head fast and tried to hold in laughter. Of course, I failed once again. He was just so funny and entertaining, still so serious and loving. I am headfirst over him.

Since I couldn't deny my joke anymore, I decided to play along a little game and skipped farther, giggling. He didn't need to shape because in just a few jumps, he was just behind me. We were laughing as we were running to Emily's house.

When I saw Emily laughing with Leah, I stopped and narrowed my eyes. Just when, Jacob wrapped his arms around my waist, whispered in my ear "Gotcha.". A wide smile spread on my face once again and those amazing yet so strange tingles built up in my stomach once again. His lips pressed against my neck and I closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling of his teeth slightly biting my neck.

"Hey Ness!"

Following my instincts only, I immediately pushed Jacob away, opening my eyes wide, as if I committed a terrible crime. Turns out it was Seth , whose eyes were huge, giving us a questioning look. I nodded my head slightly embarrassed and ashamed. Jake just grinned.

"Glad to see you two are together now; I don't think I could take another night with Jake's melancholic howls. Dude, I mean seriously!" Embry's noisy voice made me shiver a little. He must have noticed because he massaged my shoulders and I was more than thankful.

"Oh Renesmee! You two make such a great couple!" Emily jumped into the discussion . I was starting to feel a little uncomfortable, but instead I just nodded and smiled. "Hey, do you want to come inside a little, so I can tell you about something? Please? It's really important."

"Sure, I guess." I looked at Jacob with a worried expression, but he assured me that nothing was wrong, so I walked inside, scrunching my nose at the unpleasant smell of the devil. As we entered through the slightly molding wooden door of Sam and Emily's bedroom, I no longer felt secure. I was in a room with a deadly shape-shifter and a powerless human, not that I ever had extraordinary strength. Or at least something special.

"Why the fuck is this bitch here?" she screamed, sending shivers down my spine.

"I'm not a bitch, I'm a vampire, thank you. " I hissed back, flashing a smile just to push the limits further. Leah started shaking a little, but Emily was right next to us, so a fight would be the least necessary thing to do right now.

"Stop this. Please. " Vulnerability and fear filled her eyes with tears. She blinked away a few of them and the room sank in silence once again. Embarrassed of the awkward situation, I looked away from her glance and thoughtfully examined the pictures of the lovely couple placed on the baby blue walls, giving the room a vintage aspect. The corners of my mouth lifted up a little.

"Okay, I want to forget about this conflict. " Emily finally spoke and both of us turned our head back at her. "You know me and Sam are engaged…" Leah winched a bit at this. "We have decided to finally get married!"

"That's great!" An unexpected, excited side of me revealed itself from the dark. Both women watched me with curious eyes , but for once, I decided to stay silent on this subject and move on. " When and where are you planning to get married? Maybe I can tell Alice you're getting married. She'll be more than enchanted to organize yet another wedding."

Leah rolled her eyes, as usual, while Emily nodded, her scarred cheeks were the shade of burned roses. A huge smile plastered on her face as she started counting something in her mind.

"I was thinking I could get married in one month…" I interrupted her, shocked.

"One month only ? Wow, that's fast!" Realizing the rude way I stopped her from developing her idea, I gave her an "I'm sorry" looks.

" We've been together for so long and I thought that it's the perfect time. Plus, I don't want my wedding to be extremely elegant, if you know what I mean…" She stuttered. I was jealous on her personality, the shy but friendly one, unlike mine. I was, in every way possible, disgusting and creepy. I tried my best keeping a sigh from escaping my sore throat and I forced a smile while speaking again.

"And where? It's intriguing me."

"Well, I've been thinking about New York…. We've never got the chance to visit this fantastic city, so I figured out, why not?" Her tongue made out the words the fastest way possible, probably not to hurt Leah.

The urge of gasping for a breath of air was immense, but I didn't want to give Emily the illusion of something unpleasant, so I giggled instead. My stomach rumbled once again and the dream, with all the adrenaline and misery, built up in my heart again. I didn't realize how hard I was gripping my pants, but when I did, I instantly let go of them, apparently a strange move.

"That's a great location you chose! Seriously, Alice will jump for joy as if she took some weed. " I opened my arms to hug her, but she continued speaking.

"The reason why I asked you to come here, to talk to you, is that I want you two to be my bridesmaids, if I'm not asking for too much…."

Leah just nodded and I faked my excitement this time. I couldn't get over the coincidence of the frustrating dream and reality. Was this dream predicting the stuff that just might happen in a matter of weeks? My soul was wrenched in fear and pain, but I was definitely not going to tell that to anybody. Not that I can ever keep a secret in my house…

"So you two accept this?" We nodded.

Noticing that Emily had a few tears in her eyes, I embraced her into a hug and soon, the devil joined. We stayed like that for a very few moments, because personally, I could hardly wait anymore to see Jake. As soon as I let go of the tiny woman, I rushed through the door. When I could feel the cold, fresh air of a normal day in La Push in my lungs, my eyes wandered around, searching for him.

"He's in the garage."

Seth's sudden appearance made me jump in surprise. He laughed a little at my ordinary reaction and I just gave him a glare. Still, I couldn't resist but put on a smile. He was an unbelievably great friend.

"Thanks."

While walking at a normal pace, just a bit faster than usual, I thought about speaking to him about this minor thing on my mind. Finally, when I arrived, I decided to not spill anything, words are harmful and God knows what could happen after this. He might even think that I'm mental.

"Hello, beautiful."

I turned to the left, the place from where the radiant voice came from. The thin, black material of his shirt accentuated his muscles and a crooked smile was lighting up his dark eyes. His perfection intimidated me for a while, but that wasn't going to stop me now from feeling like a person. As I got closer to him, he immediately pulled me into a tight hug, wrapping his arms around my waist. My hands instinctively moved to his neck and we both breathed each other's air before our lips melted together in a perfect kiss.

He suddenly lifted me up and put me on his car's hood and kissed me more intensely. We both got breathless in a matter of minutes, but before I could even manage to speak, his lips were on my neck, sucking and biting that sensitive spot again. Losing my self-control, I let out a loud moan and it must have urged him to go on. He rubbed my hips and another moan built its way inside again. I could feel the wetness in my underwear grow bigger. The smell of arousal floated in the already loaded atmosphere. When he lifted his head up, I felt a little disappointed, but still satisfied.

"You're aroused." Was the only thing he could say.

"You too."

It was a really odd conversation for us, the awkwardness in our words was evident. I grew tired again and involuntary, I let out a little yawn. He noticed, because he carried me in his arms all the way back to his house, although I refused to be treated this way. He was just so opponent and kind, the contrary of me.

As he opened the door, I saw Billy watching some movie at the new Plasma screen our family gave him as a gift. He was eating some leftovers of the pizza Jake ordered a while ago. His never aging eyes were shining bright at the sight of us, a smile spreading on his lips.

"I see you kids finally figured something out. Good luck, I guess." He grinned at us.

I couldn't help but laugh. He always was the person to loosen up things a little when something wasn't right. Sometimes I felt like he is the parent I need, someone who understands me, at least partially. I cannot imagine my life without his presence.

"Thanks dad. " Jacob laughed, his voice still a little breathless. I also smiled. "We're going to sleep."

"Okay, folks. Don't do anything you'll regret now!" He said as we walked to Jacob's bedroom.

I felt strange now that my relationship with Jake developed to another level and I was going to spend the night in bed with the man I loved the most. It sent shivers down my spine, but I couldn't be more excited. This was much better than having to cry all night long while my parents are fucking hysterically just a room away from me. This was much better than writing depressing poetry while eating sour chocolate and watching shows with filthy rich teenagers who spent their life in vain. It was better than anything.

He put me on his bed and, being my old lazy self, I pulled off my shoes, forgetting about the laces. He pulled his t-shirt and pants off, remaining only in a pair of gray boxers. As he searched for a pair of sweats in the little, but nice room , I couldn't help but stare at him. He finally realized my eyes were about to pop off, he grinned and walked towards me. I got up and, laughing, I tried running away. Of course he wouldn't let me get away this fast and chased me around.

"What were you staring at?" he laughed as he grabbed me.

"Ah, somebody help, I'm getting kidnapped!" I mocked horror as he pushed me on his bed. We once again kissed , but he got up and turned the lights on. When I could feel the warmth of his body pressed on me once again, my eyes could finally close. His ragged breath made me smile.

"I love you." He whispered in my ear.

"I love you too."

Although the love and joy that filled my heart made me float in Nirvana, the worry shamefully kept my mind restless almost the entire night. Still, I felt untouchable in his arms, the only place I felt like I really belonged in.