CH.4
"you know you love me"
JUSTIN'S P.O.V
i hugged him closer ,he was still crying on my shoulder. "Chaz ,i-I love you too" i whispered in his ear
"no Justin! i love you as in ,I'm in love with you!" he sobbed yelling
"i know Chaz ,and I'm in love with you.." i started playing with his hair with a hand and rubbing his back with the other. he stopped crying ,but i could still feel his rapid breath. "yo-you do? i though you loved Christian?" he asked still in my arms
"i don't know ,when i think about him ,i do love him ,but when i think about you ,i love you as well" he started pulling away slowly ,"it's kinda the same with me ,i still love Ryan"
my phone rang ,it was Christian ,he asked me what was taking us too long ,i told him that i had to stay 'til the washer stopped ,i think I'm becoming a professional liar.
after i hang up i looked at Chaz ,"so we both love each other" i said ,we were both just sitting there in front of each other talking
"and we both love two other different guys as well ,guys that we can't have" he said switching his eyes from me to the floor
"but we can have each other" i gave him a warm smile ,he smiled back ,we both leaned in and kissed.
I've never loved Chaz this much ,but since I woke up this morning and it's like every second i'd love him more and more. but the same was happening about Christian. right now ,i just really wish i could be in Japan or Saudi Arabia or something. away from all the drama. plus i heard they have heated toilets in Japan! and i could just spend a day in the bathroom!
Chaz and I pulled away a bit ,we both chuckled and kissed again ,why? I don't know..
we both just sat there kissing for a while. not those horny sloppy kisses ,just some sweet and loving ones . he pulled me on his lap but never breaking the kiss. i wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist.
"i hate how cute you are" i whispered smiling before kissing him again.
"you know you love me" he smirked and and winked at me. that line gave me an idea of a song. yeah ,i write songs ,but i don't think I'm a good singer anyways ,i mean ,i never even sang in front of anybody before! anyways ,i'll save that line 'til later.
"whatever" i chuckled. "don't you think we should go now?" i asked and then of course ,we kissed again.
"ugh ,fine! let's go." he said ,kissed me one last time and i got off of him.
We both walked downstairs ,i was about to open the front door and walk out but he grabbed my arm ,"come'n ,i won't be able to kiss you 'til god knows when ,just a few more?" he pouted ,i chuckled at him and kissed him again. and suddenly ,i thought of it..
"Chaz ,will you go steady with me?" i asked him whispering after a few kisses ,he smiled from ear to ear ,"go steady? who are ,grandpa?" ,he said jokingly
"Chaz! stop quoting Wizards Of Waverly Place!" i said ,my eyes closed and giving him the 'angry' face. of course i wasn't really angry ,but hey! can't i joke around with my future boyfriend?
"yes Justin ,i'll go "steady" with you" he said giggling with air quotes with the word 'steady'
ok i take what i said a few seconds ago back! he isn't my future boyfriend ,HE'S MY BOYFRIEND! I FINALLY HAVE A BOYFRIEND! CHAZ IS MY FIRST BOYFRIEND! EVER! yes i had sex but i never had a boyfriend before ,what's your problem?
i smiled and kissed him again for about 2 or 3 minutes
"let's go!' i said smiling and opening the door before walking out
just a few steps on the sidewalk and we see Caitlin walking toward us with Shawty..ooh great! my girlfriend and my secret boyfriend along with me and a dog. but a really cute one may I add!
"heeyyy babe!" i said nervously
"Justyyy! i missed you so much! it's like ,you're spending every night at our house but i never even get to see you!" she said pouting with a sad voice
"aww baby I'm really sorry ,it's just ,you know ,I'm kinda..busy.." i said ,even i didn't believe myself
"fine ,whatever" she said disbelieving and obviously suspecting something. i knew i cant keep on doing this forever ,but i can't break up with her. Christian would never forgive me for breaking his sister's heart..
She walked away and to her house ,we stayed still where we were and let her almost reach her house first so she wouldn't hear us
"do you think she suspected something?" Chaz asked me after she walked away
"i know she did ,but she would never guess that it involves you.." i said still looking at Caitlin who has just entered the house and then we started walking to her house as well
CHRISTIAN'S P.O.V
we were still kissing..my second kiss ever..
"you know ,you just stole my first and my second kiss!" i said after breaking the kiss
"i didn't steal it! you gave it to me!" he yelled back defensively smiling
"you stole it. period." i said coldly still sitting on his lap
"no! you leaned in and kissed me! i kissed you back. period!" he said giggling
i pouted as though saying 'you're telling me I'm wrong?'
"yeah! that's what you're good at! don't you know how to use your lips in something more useful?" he smirked and winked at me ,i chuckled and leaned in to kiss him.
his arms were still wrapped around my waist but my hands were on his chest feeling his abs while kissing him over and over again. he licked my lips asking for an entrance ,i opened my mouth for him and at the exactly same second his tongue was in my mouth and had finished exploring every little part of it. the kisses started to get more sloppier every second. but i loved it.
we heard the front door getting slammed ,it was either Justin and Chaz ,or Caitlin. either way we had to stop and I had to get off Ryan's lap.
"ugh! i hate this! why is my Justin keeping things away from me? am I the only one who's trying to put some effort in this relationship!" Caitlin screamed from downstairs. I'm guessing they met and talked..
She bursted through my door ,crossed her arms with a pouting face ,"why doesn't Justin love me anymore?" she looked at me as if i knew the answer..i have no idea about my own feelings ,not mentioning Justin's!
"uum ,i-" i was about to say something ,anything! but we heard the front door getting shut again ,followed by Justin yelling "we're here!"
Caitlin rolled her eyes and walked out ,we heard her room door getting slammed forcefully. i bet it's her 'time of the month' ,or maybe she's just suspecting that her boyfriend is cheating on her..hmmm..i wonder ,i wonder..!
"so ,what do you wanna do now?" Ryan smirked and winked at me
"i'd kiss you! ,but I'm not feeling like it" i said smirking teasingly at him. cause I'm stupid! i knew Caitlin ,Justin and Chaz were in house ,the door is wide open and i still said it. what happened? nothing ,except that Justin and Chaz walked in on me saying that!
Both of their eyes widened and they were staring at me ,occasionally switching their eyes to Ryan ,who was just sitting there with the 'ooh no!' face. oops?
"uum ,why are we still sitting here? we're already late! LET'S GO LET'S GO LET'S GO!" i yelled motioning for everybody to get out ,phew! that was CLOSE!
we all got into Justin's car that was parked in front of my house. Of course ,Justin was driving ,Chaz ran to the passenger seat and Ryan and I got in the back.
"so ,where do you guys wanna go?" Justin asked turning on the engine and looking at us using the rear view mirror
"Starbucks? McDonald's?" i suggested
"Mc" ryan and Chaz said at the same time ,"McDonald's it is then" Justin said as he started driving to the nearest Mc.
JUSTIN'S P.O.V
a few minutes later we reached McDonald's and walked in ,Chaz and Christian ordered 2 hotcakes with bacon while me and Ryan ordered 2 big breakfasts (a/n yeah i know the whole McDonald's menu :P)
we sat in a booth me and Chaz beside each other ,and Ryan and Christian in front of us. A few minutes later we got the food and started eating ,"damn! I'm full! who wants the rest?" Chaz said sitting back and pushing the plate away from himself
"all what you left is bacon!" i told him
"yeah well you know i don't eat any kind of pork or pigs! i mean ,they eat shit! they're disgusting!"
Christian was about to eat a piece from the the bacon in his own plate ,but dropped it. "dude! each time I eat bacon i try to keep that off my mind ,and you're not helping!" Chris yelled at Chaz
"come'n! it's just bacon! at least try it Chaz!" i told him
"no!' he refused
"ooh you will!" i 'threatened' him
i took a piece of his bacon in my mouth not chewing it or swallowing ,and then I yelled pointing to the window behind our booth "oh my god! is that Britney Spears?" Ryan ,Christian ,and Chaz looked outside searching for Britney ,I turned Chaz's face to me and french kissed him ,moving the piece of bacon to his mouth before pulling back. he quickly chew it and swallowed and looked at me ,"you're disgusting!" he whispered to me ,"you know you love me" i smirked and winked at him before the guys looked back at us.