Okay here is chapter4. I'm sorry for taking two days to type. One is b/c I need the laptop for spell/grammar check and two. I was trying to find a fanfiction again. It's about Allen and kanda's child but no one was pregnant. For some reason I can't find it any more T.T….

Anyways hope you enjoy.

Disclaimer: If this belong to me….well…I will be enjoying making Allen and Kanda's past more unpleasant. I will force them to met later in life and have Allen be rape by Kanda so many times. But of course this is an T fanfiction so maybe kept in a long dark cell and wait a long time before Kanda falls in love with him.

Chapter 4

Lost

Two weeks pasted without a hitch. Just until tomorrow for the long awaited trip. Nothing was out of place. Cloths packed neatly. Extra items in the same bag but separated. Kanda zip the back up and gave a sigh. The partners have been hanging out after school more. They just stayed at the park, even if the weather was 30 degrees or lower. They stayed even if it was raining. Just under the trees. Not much talking went through them. Just fighting mostly but it wasn't as much as before. More like a playful fight of teasing.

Kanda finish packing his cloths. His father kept on pestering to buy gifts for the family. Why should he? Money wasn't the problem. It was just the will to buy his father some gifts weren't in his plans. That wasn't on his mind either. Whenever Allen talked about the trip, a bad feeling about it came to him. What is this feeling? Misfortune? No, could it? Kanda thought.

Whenever Kanda tried to bring it up, Allen would stay quiet or change the subject. He tried it every day at the park but Allen wouldn't budge from keeping it a secret. Kanda tried harder each day and he knew he could talk on the airplane. Not only that but in the hotel room. Zipping his bag shut, Kanda frown. He was going to get the answer out of Allen sooner or later in the trip. It was better sooner than later. Closing his mid-night blue eyes, sleep took his mind away.

OOOOOOOO

Seven a.m. in the morning. Pass through the check in and securities and everything. With the ticket in his hand and ready to go, everything seems in place. But Allen stood out of the picture. He was coughing every other minute and the minute seems turn to seconds. Kanda didn't say anything still. Students began to file in as time passed. But Allen's coughing didn't subside but worsen. Kanda frown slightly more and got up. He wheeled Allen to a place where no one could see them easily. And just within those seconds a coughing fit happen. So he was holding it in? He fumbles for the bottle of water and medicine in the young boy's bag.

"Are you going to tell anyone?" Allen ask.

"It's none of my business right?" Kanda ask back. Allen shrug. Kanda knew he should tell someone but if he did, Allen would have to be pull away from the trip.

"Thank you Kanda." Allen says before rolling out of the bathroom. Not soon after, they boarded the plane. Each minute fill between them became awkward and unpleasant. They didn't know what to talk about or say about the incident. Students were taking, teachers complaining for them to quiet down and other annoying things in Kanda's eyes. Kanda scan the plane quickly and his eyes landed on Allen again. Stupid Moyashi. His eyes were half lidded making it painfully obvious that Allen wanted to sleep. Pulling his eyes away, everyone had found their seat. The seat belt light lite up, blinking a few times before it began to stare at everyone. Soon after the plan left off, Kanda took notice that Lenalee and Lavi were behind them.

"Baka Usagi." Lavi turn to face Kanda when he heard his nickname.

"Yu-chan. Yesssss." He says.

"Tell me about the moyashi illness." Silence... "Baka Usagi." Kanda growled. He wanted answers.

"It isn't in my place to tell." Lavi explains. Before Kanda cold aruge back, he felt Allen's head on his shoulder. His head flick back to see Allen had fallen asleep and now leaning against Kanda. His breathing was even out and calm. "Awwww. Moyashi-chan felled asleep!"

"Don't……Call…..Me……That……" Allen mumbles. He sleeps talks? Kanda wanted to push Allen away but he couldn't. All he did was stare at Allen. He still sees the fragile look but he also had a strong look too. His pale skin made him look dead like that. Only his breathing told him he was alive. Kanda push the urge to pull Allen into his arms away. He couldn't. He knew Allen was strong and didn't need protecting. It wasn't in his place to do so. It could be Lenalee's or Lavi's, maybe Komui's but not his. He won't do anything unless he was asked.

ooooooooo

"Allen." Lavi tap Allen's shoulders while Kana got their bags out of the compartment. "Allen." Allen still didn't move. He kept on pulling away from Lavi. "Yu-chan. What did you do to Allen?" Kanda glare at Lavi but turn back to get the rest of the luggage. Now it was his fault that he won't wake up?

"Maybe he didn't get enough sleep. Carry him." Lenalee explain to Lavi, who was grabbing her bag and Lavi's book.

"Uhhh….Allen's Yu-chan's partner. So he should do that." Kanda glared at him again.

"Baka Usagi. If you want to carry these bags then-"

"Fine." Lavi gave in. He didn't want to carry Kanda's bag. If he dropped it, he would be dead. Picking Allen up, he pushed Lavi away. Finally, Lavi got him in a bridal style but Allen looked in pain and wanted to be place down. Kanda growl and grab Allen so he could carry him and the bags. Only then did Allen stop moving away. He unconsciously snuggle into Kanda's chest.

"It seems Allen prefers Kanda, Lavi." Lenalee chuckled at the sight. A sweet and innocent Allen that was asleep got Kanda carrying him. Lenalee just laughed at that thought. Many of his fan girls would envy him and want the sight of this now. She knew she was enjoying it as she walk out with the 'couple'. Komui stared at them.

"What's wrong with Allen?" Komui ask. He thought of Allen as his own son and welcome him like one. Allen was the only boy that Komui didn't kill when he hugged his sister other than Kanda. Now to mention it, she was friends with both Allen and Kanda for a long time now but this is the first year that all four friends hanged out.

"Moyashi's asleep. It seems he won't wake up. Give me his wheel chair." Kanda ask. He gently place their bag down and push Allen onto his back. His arm loops under Allen's legs as his arm hang over him. Picking their bags up again, he continue to walk. "Never mind. Where are we going now?" Komui just watch them go. Surprise that Kanda didn't dump Allen in the nearest chair on the bus. Allen was place in a chair next to him but he crawled onto Kanda's lap. "Oi. Moyashi." He growl. He didn't like clingy people and Allen was starting to be like one. "Oi. Baka Usagi. Get Moyashi off me. Now!" A growl came.

"Kanda. I think Allen likes you. He used to do that to Mana a lot." Kanda frown and stare at Allen's child-like face. Children seek for comfort. Even without trying he was doing something for the boy.

"What am I? A mother or father figure?" Kanda knew his choice of words was harsh but he didn't care. He peeled Allen off and walked up to the front and sat down. Allen whimpers and curled up oddly on the small chair. Lenalee looked at Lavi then Kanda and Allen last. It seems Kanda was beginning to be more confused.

Kanda sat down in the front. His mind in jumble, growling in frustration, he sigh. Why was Allen clinging to him, he didn't want to know why. He just wanted him to stop. He didn't want to get close to someone again. Not after what happen with Alma.

"Kanda." Lenalee says. She sat down next to him. "Do you not like Allen? There isn't a reason to distance yourself if you don't. Don't you find it dumb that you hold back so you won't get hurt again? Alma isn't here anymore." Lenalee explain. She wasn't there with Kanda, neither was Lavi, when Alma died. Allen probably doesn't have a clue about Alma. It was unfair for not getting a chance either way.

"It's none of your business." Kanda snap. Hearing a cough, his eyes turn to Allen. Allen was coughing again. "I don't care about the moyashi." Lenalee didn't know what to do with Kanda anymore. Reaching her hand over to Kanda she patted his shoulder. "che."

"Looks who's protecting and who's being protected." That was what Lenalee said before going back to Allen and Lavi. Kanda growl again. He didn't understand anything. What can he do? Allen was dying. He didn't want to see anyone die anymore. Hearing some rustling sound, his eyes narrow and turn around again. Allen was behind him leaning against his chair. His cheeks were flush and eyes were still sleepy. Why is he up if he can't walk far? His arm reach out just in case of Allen's legs will give up on him.

"Allen." Komui scold making the two look at him. "Why are you up?" Allen shrugged and sat down next to Kanda. In the seat that Lenalee sat in. "Allen." Komui wanted Allen to answer that question.

"I wanted to talk to Kanda but he wouldn't come to me." Allen explain. Simple and short. "Is that fine with you?"

Komui sigh and walked away. For the next twenty minutes neither spoke. Only Allen's breathing was heard to Kanda. Allen was looking outside while Kanda had his eyes closed. The two pair made everyone sit away from them. Their cold non-talk able aura effected everyone around them, afraid to break the ice. The teachers were just glad that they got some quietness in the rowdy teens. Allen sigh making everyone flinch. Kanda's eyes twitch. Why was everyone so tense? They could talk to his annoyance.

Pulling into the hotel, everyone had a silent relief wash over them. The boys were not looking forward to tonight. They didn't want a tense atmosphere to sleep too. Meaning they have to resolve this themselves. Mainly Lavi. He was friends with both, right? What better way to get a friend to resolve everything?

"Allen." Lavi called, making Allen react. Getting up, he walked slowly to Lavi. Kanda could see Allen wasn't use to walking anymore. His muscles down there were weak. "Wait. Just climb on my back Allen." Allen sighed and did what he was told. Only mumbling I'm sorry to Lavi. Kanda follow Lavi and Allen soon after with Lenalee. She only chuckle at Kanda again. She knew he was jealous of Lavi now.

Once everyone made it to the rooms, they meet once again n the front lobby. The old style hotel has a nice warm feeling to it. Only the down side was that, it was a cold drift of the weather. The teachers whistle to get the student attentions. They try a few times before it worked.

"Okay. Everyone is here. We have four days. Two days if for traveling. The rest of day is a free day. Be back by seven. Tomorrow is the museum. The day after that is team building and the rest of the day is free again. Everyone can leave at eight in the morning and be back by seven. Got it?" The kids nodded. Not many would probably remember that.

"Allen." Lavi ran up to Allen who was in the front. "Where do you want to go?" Allen shrug. "Do you want to eat something? It's twelve and you didn't have any snacks Allen. You're going to stay as my moyashi-chan right?" Allen looked at Lavi, wide eye. "Of course Allen will stay as my little brother." Lavi just laughed. Allen remained quiet.

"I don't know." Allen say. His voice was quieter than normal. "I never been this far from home in a long time. I just want to look around."

"It's fine. Do you mind that Lenalee and I got shopping?" Allen shook his head. "Just be careful okay?" Turning around, he faced Kanda. "Yu-chan go with Allen. I don't know what's wrong with you guys but you have to hang out more." Kanda growl. How many times he growl already of annoyance.

"It's none of your business if moyashi and I are fighting. Stop acting like a brother and mind your own business."

"Awwww…Yu-chan being mean. Just go with moyashi-chan. If you leave hi, he will have to stay here since he has to have someone with him all times." Lavi explain.

"It's not true. My name's Allen, Lavi." Allen sighed. "I can go by myself. It's not like Kanda has to be with me. I'm fine by myself."

"Absolutely not. The last time you were alone you fainted. Remember?" Allen remained quiet. Of course he remembers. It was one of the first attacks. It was the first big one too. That attack was the reason he couldn't talk loudly anymore. He was coughing all till it got worse and the fainted. Only a few minutes later, Lavi found Allen and rush him to the hospital.

"I can go with you. It doesn't matter." Lavi says.

"It does!" Lavi and Lenalee always place him first.

"Baka Usagi. Just go. I can go with him." Kanda snap. Lavi looked at Kanda again with a questionable look. "I can look after the baka moyashi." Lavi nodded. Running to Lenalee, they left t town. Only Kanda and Allen remain. "Where do you want to start?"

"You don't have to do this." Kanda shrug. "No. Seriously you don't." Kanda walk up to Allen and push the wheel chair. Entering the back of the hotel, there was a large empty space. "I want a walk." Stopping, Kanda narrow his eyes. He didn't understand why Allen wanted to walk. Seeing Allen push himself up, his legs stiffly moved. Kanda just slowly followed him.

"Don't push yourself." Kanda said after five minutes. Allen seems to breathing in shallowly. "Moyashi." Kanda quickly pull Allen back into his arms. Allen let out a small laugh.

"I'm pathetic. I couldn't even walk for ten minutes. More or less eight. Do you know why? My legs are weak now that I can't do anything to move them. And they are growing weaker. I wasn't like this three years ago. I use to play a lot of sports. And I walk everywhere I could. Even after a game. Even with how I look, everyone talk to me but after that, everything changed.

"Stupid moyashi. Why do you care about the past. At least you are still breathing." Not for long. Allen let out a bittersweet smile.

They just stayed there. Just like the park. Watching the sunset, the air slight cooled. No one walked to talk. Somehow they had a mutual understanding again. Everything that happen today was long forgotten. Kanda got up and looked at Allen.

"Let's go back before Komui gets mad at me for going out for so long." Pushing Allen back the way they walked. Allen just remained silent still. His breathing was shallow. If his eyes weren't open, Kanda would had thought he had fallen asleep again. The half moon barely lite the way back to the hotel. Only the small flash light that Allen remember, led the way. "Oi. Moyashi. Why are you quiet?"

"Are you mad at me?" Allen asks quietly. Mad? Why would he be mad? Hearing Allen cough a few times, he looks down on Allen.

"I'm not mad." Kanda stated. "Don't force yourself for tomorrow." Allen thought he heard wrong if it wasn't for Kanda looking away. Allen laughed. Kanda just remained indifferent and continue to push Allen, who was still laughing. When the laughter died down, the smile remains.

"Don't worry. I won't over push myself. I know Lavi, Lenalee and you will catch me if I know."

"Che. What are you talking about?" Kanda ask. Allen shrugged. "Don't count on me if you fall ill and have to be sent home." Allen chuckled.

"Don't act tough now." Allen says. Kanda didn't respond to him. Lifting the front of the wheel chair up so they can get up, Allen leaned back. "Do you think we can use the hot springs?" Kanda shrug. He didn't really care. Men in the same tub didn't really appeal to him. But for some reason he didn't want Allen to go either if they did. "Kanda. Why are you quiet now?" Finally opening the door, he stepped into the lobby. "Kanda….."

"Do you like me?" Allen shyly ask. Kanda sigh. Why is he asking another question like that. The question lingers in the air as they walk down the hall.

"Moyashi is moyashi. If I don't like you I wouldn't be here. Your rank is higher than the baka usage and that's saying something." Kanda explain shortly. The words didn't explain much but Allen took it even thought that wasn't what he meant. Letting Kanda pick up him, he sat down on the floor. "Do you want to go before everyone? I 'm sure they're eating dinner.

"Allen! Yu-chan! That's where you are. Dinner is served. Come on." Lavi doesn't wait for Allen to get up before he drags him up and out of the room.

"Baka Usagi. Stop. We just want to go the hot spring first." Allen explains quickly.

"Hot springs can't be used. That's in the other building. We can use it tomorrow I think. "Lavi explain.

"I just want to talk a bath then. I don't feel like having dinner." He softly pull himself away and walk to Kanda. "Let's go. Lavi tell them we back in thirty minutes."

Walking into the bathroom, Allen sat down quickly. His legs were weak again. He walked more today than in three months. Looking over to Kanda, he smiled. Kanda was already washing his hair. Why am I so slow today?

Stripping his shirt, he took off his pants soon after. Pushing himself up slowly, he walked over to the showers. His legs wobble as he continues to walk with the wall as support.

Kanda sigh as he sunk lower in the water. Allen was still washing him hair. He didn't want Kanda to see him when he was showering. Pulling his hair back, some of his bangs linger in the front. Kanda was staring at the boy. Allen was super skinny for a boy his age. You couldn't see his ribs but any farther you would. Moyashi needs to eat more. Looking away, Allen got up and sat a good distant from Kanda. His breaths were abnormal.

"Oi. Moyashi. Are you okay?" A small cough made Kanda move closer to him. "Moyashi." He repeated with the same calm voice. Allen sway back and forth a little and let a yawn before slipping into the water. "Allen!" Kanda quickly caught Allen's arm and pull him up.

"Sleepy." Allen mumbles. Pushing Kanda away, he tried to sleep again but sleeping in the water means drowning yourself. Kanda pull him up again and out of the water. Tears began to form in his eyes when he couldn't sleep. "Why aren't you letting me sleep?" His voice reverts to a three year old. It is childish and whiny. Picking Allen up, he took notice of his burnt arm.

"Stop thrashing." Kanda orders. Trying to get a robe or his shirt on, Allen didn't help much with all the movements. It was a little too big on him and hung past his thighs. His boxers were barely visible. 'Baka Moyashi."

"My…name…….isss…….Allen….." Allen's head bobble back and forth till it level foreword. Grumping, Kanda picked him up like a child. Allen unconsciously curl against Kanda again. His face was hidden n the cock of Kanda's neck. The shallow breathing told Kanda he was asleep again. When he got to the room it was still empty. Kanda quickly place the futon down with letting Allen go. Even if he wanted too, Allen clung onto him.

Laying down on the heavy blankets, Kanda undid his hair. He let if fall behind him gracefully. Then tie it in the back in a low ponytail. Getting up quickly he turned off the lights and peel Allen off so they slept in a different futon. Why does he cling onto me? Kanda thought. His mind went blank when he felt the familiar warm body hug him from behind.

Ooooooooooo

"Yu-chan!" The familiar annoying voice came into Kanda's ears. He wanted to trip the rabbit's lips off but the bookman wouldn't like it. Maybe he will earn some peace and quiet if he did. Two birds can get a benefit.

"Shut up baka usagi." Kanda groan. Getting up he remember Allen was next to him. "Oi. Moyashi." Shaking the young boy awake, Allen rolls over to the other side, to get more sleep. "Moyashi." Kanda growl again. Giving a sigh, he sat up and pulls himself onto his legs. "Usagi. You have the moyashi for the next hour. I need to change and breakfast. But it seems moyashi wants to stay here."

"I'm up." Allen groans. He isn't a morning person. His soft tenor voice was softer. Pushing himself up, his white hair was messy from moving around. Getting up, he lazily fold his futon away. His movements were sluggish. He only moved faster when Lavi force him to change quickly because time for breakfast was being lost.

"Moyashi-chan. Come on. There's only a half hour left before we have to go the bus." Lavi explain. His eyes caught Kanda walking into another room and begun eating. Coughing a little, Kanda look up to see it was Allen coughing. "Allen are you okay? Don't push yourself." Patting him on the back a little, Allen's coughing subsided.

"I'm not hungry Lavi."

"Coming from an empty less pit stomach makes me believe you are lying. You always eat a lot."

"I don' know. I'm not hungry. I guess my stomach is still getting use too of the air plane ride still." Allen says. It was a lie. Both knew it was but Lavi dropped it.

"fine but you need a big lunch later okay?" Allen nodded with a smile.

Loading onto the bus, everyone got in the same seats as yesterday. Only their atmosphere change. From tense to happy to a still waking up in the morning. Even with breakfast, everyone wanted to go back to sleep. The boys were thankful for last night too. Both Kanda and Allen were asleep so peacefully, they got some sleep too. They didn't want the same tension was yesterday. But Allen's coughing was heard every now and then.

"Allen-kun. Are you okay? You've been coughing a lot today."

"It's nothing." A cough interrupted him. "My lungs aren't use to the air here yet. I think it' clear and they are clearing it by coughing."

"I think you shouldn't be coming today. If you don't rest-"

"Lenalee, I'm fine." Allen reassures. Lenalee frown when Allen did that.

"Allen."

"I'm fine. The coughing is nothing. I didn't have a coughing fit for almost two weeks." He lied.

"That's what I'm worry about. The coughing fits. That it might a major attack this time. Just like that time. None of those medicines you have will help you if it is. I'm worry." Lenalee explain to Allen. One of these days, the medicine won't work anymore. She didn't want Allen to suffer anymore.

"Moyashi. Just be careful is all she saying." Kanda spoke. Allen turns to face Kanda.

"You have nothing to say. You only know the outside information. Nothing more, nothing less." Allen snaps. Lavi and Lenalee looked at each other. Allen rarely snaps at anymore. "I know I should be careful too Bakanda." Allen mumbles. "Unlike you, I can take care of myself." Kanda shrug knowing it's a lie. He could take care of himself but he isn't going to fight back in this useless fight.

The rest of the ride became louder within the bus. Kanda remain silent as Lenalee ramble on. The topic of the coughing was dropped. Kanda knew Allen wanted to cough a lot now but held back. The constant drinking of water proved it. His throat was probably dry now. Kanda didn't want to point it out now. Allen would be mad at him if he did. Allen wanted to go on this trip and Kanda will allow that. But why did he care if Allen was in good shape or not?

Arriving at the Kyoto museum entrance, Komui got up. Pulling everyone tickets out, he counted the students off by pairs. When he counted everyone, he nodded and picked up everything he has.

"Okay. We will be going in together. Lunch is at twelve p.m. No one can go off by themselves or in pairs before then. We will be leaving toward town at four thirty p.m. Everyone got that?" Groans were heard as they begun to get off the bus. The cold air smacks them in the face as they took the first step off. "Everyone follow the rules or you will get a weeks' worth of detention." Komui explain. Everyone just groan again and gather into their groups. Only Kanda and Allen stood off a few feet away.

"Moyashi. Are you still holding it back?" Allen remain quiet but pain was seen inside his eyes. "Oi. Moyashi." He rolls after the tour guide. Kanda follow along too. He didn't want Allen to overdo something. Allen continues to ignore the Asian. Allen didn't have anything to say, same goes with Kanda. After a hour without talking to each other, Allen turn to face Kanda.

"Kanda. Can we hang out by ourselves the rest of the day?" Allen asks in a whisper. His voice was horse compare to this morning.

"Do you want-" Allen didn't listen to him but dragged him away when Komui turn a corner. Kanda narrow his eyes as Allen acted out of character. He didn't pay attention to where they were going till Kanda stopped.

"What do you want Moyashi? For the past hour you wouldn't talk to me, now this." Kanda snap by accident making Allen flinch.

"I'm confused." Was all Allen says. "I don't know anything anymore." Coughing he pulled another water bottle out. Allen looked at Kanda soon after. "Since I got off the plane, I'm having this feeling of confusion. Even in my sleep."

"What are you talking about?" Kanda was getting confused too. Allen never acted like when he saw him. "Moyashi are you taking any new medication I don't know?" Allen let out a half-hearted laugh.

Allen got up and hugged Kanda. His forehead was against Kanda's chest. His legs limp as Kanda felt tears. Why is he turning into an emotional train wreck now? Kanda thought. Placing his hand on Allen's check, he felt fire and quickly pulled away. Damn it. He cursed. Picking up the boy, Kanda knew he was half conscious now.

"wait. Nooo…." Was all he says before he his coughing attack hit him. Kanda bit his lip. Fuck. I shouldn't have let him go.

"Where's your medicine?"

"Back……with…..Komui-..sen…sai.." Allen said inbetween coughs. His hand covered his mouth. When he pulled it away, blood was seen. Kanda's eyes widen.

"Moyashi. Fuck. Why are you here if you are in pain?" Pushing Allen up so he could run, he ran back to the front desk, which seems like the other side of where they were. They were out of place and the loudest. The quiet museum was shaken by Kanda's growling and Allen's coughing. Kanda didn't care if his shirt was cover in blood now but if they could get the hospital. NOW.

"Call 119." Allen pull on Kanda's jacket and gave him a phone number on a sheet of paper. 075-xxx-xxxx. Eyeing Allen, he gave the lady the paper. She quickly call the number when she notice the situation.

"Allen. Kanda. There you are. The clas-" Komui stop when he saw the scene. "Allen-kun. This why shouldn't have came. Kanda did the doctor?" The lady nodded and gave him the phone.

"He's on right now." Komui nodded his thanks and grab the phone.

"yes we need an ambulance…….No…..I understand……….We come to you." Hanging up, the teacher drag the two students out for a cab. "kyoto's man hospital. Now." Komui order. Pulling the medicine out, Allen shook his head. "Eat it." Allen frown but he kept on coughing.

"The coughing should stop if you do. Stop struggling and making your fever got up moyashi." Kanda explain sternly. Allen didn't listen when Kanda try to force the medicine in his mouth. The blood was getting messier and breathing was shallower. Why didn't he show it till now? I should have seen it when I woke up this morning.

Arriving to the hospital, Kanda rush him in. But Allen didn't let go. He adamantly stay awake and held on. HE didn't want to leave Kanda for some reason and Kanda could see that. Placing his hand on the right check, he creased it.

"I'll be here. Just let them do their work." Allen nodded slowly and lay back down. Placing an oxygen mask on him, his coughing didn't subside till the place him to sleep. Even then the coughing was rough. Komui and Kanda were soon rushed out and place into the waiting room. They had begun to do more complex work.

In the waiting room, both Komui and Kanda calmed down. The two Asians rested on the cheers nearest to the room. Komui pull out a cell phone to dial Cross's number. Cross needed to know too. Looking back up, Kanda was pacing again. Back and forth. Uneasy and impatient.

"Kanda. Sit down. Nothing of that sort will bring Allen-kun out of that state."

"He has a fucking high fever and an attack." People stared at him for his cursing. "Damn it. I shouldn't had let him off and held it as a secret."

"Slip up?" Komui was confused. What slip up?

"The coughing fit in the bathroom in the airport. But I let it slip sine his coughing subsided after the medicine-"

"That's what the medicine is suppose to do. It helps clear the lungs and throat so it will be easier to breath. That's it. Allen needs it on regular bases now. He haven't taken one for two, now almost three weeks, without counting yesterday. He probably hid it from us." Komui explain. "Oh, good." Kanda could hear the gruff voice of Cross in the phone. "Good morning Cross." Komui answer. "yes its Allen……..I know…….I don't know….Maybe later but right now….." the rest of the conversation went as Komui explain the situation to Cross.

Kanda finally sat down when the clock turn eleven. His jaw is tight. It's been forty minutes. If this is nothing why is it taking forty minutes? Everything crashed into a wall when he saw blood. No. He can't die. Not like Alma. He was sitting in the living room but ran sll the way to the hospital when he heard Alma was shot. He barely made it when Alma was pull into the E.R. He didn't want the past to repeat what happen. No, that wasn't it. He didn't want Allen to die. Alma was dead already and Allen was alive. That was the major difference. But what was the insecure feeling.

"you can go see him now." The doctor says, cutting Komui from the phone call and Kanda from his thoughts. They didn't hear him walking up. Getting up, the boy have a weary look on them.

damn almost 6000 words....urg..my hands are falling apart....this chapter had alot of editing to it. over nine pages written(but nine pages typed) probably two pages full of revisions(front and back). man....wow...this is probably the longest chapter of this story.

also it's really funny that no one recongize what the titles connect too.

Breath into me
shadow
Lost

it's from a band.....guess..

Plz review. you have to have something to say with all of this fluff and action and misfortunt falling upon allen and kanda.

PLZ REVIEW....or Allen will just have one fate. DIE(mwhahahahaha) jk..i won't do that to my plz review.