Hi guys, Sorry this took so long i couldn't figure out how to write this chapter and it took me a little while to realize how i wanted to do it.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters all rights go to Casandra Claire

Clary's P.O.V

"Jace are you saying what i think you're saying?" I ask sheepishly. "Clary I'm saying Sebastian is right. I am completely in love with you"

It's Been 2 days since Jace told me he loved me and i ran after he told me I fucking ran from him. I don't even know why i ran, i've wanted to tell him i loved him since i was 16, I've wanted to hear him say he loved me for just as long but what do i
/do when i finally get what i want? I grabbed my daughter and ran. I came to my friend Maia's house, when she opened the door she didn't seem that shocked that i just showed up. She brung me inside, wrapped me in a hug and didn't as any questions which
/i was thankful for. I just couldn't face Isabelle, Alec, or Jace right now, I couldn't even talk to Seb i was basically using Maia's place as a safe house away from everyone. I just needed a break. But now its sunday and i'm going over to my parents'
/house. Every sunday we get together and have a family dinner with everyone by everyone i mean the Lightwoods, the Herondales, the Verlacs, and of course my family. Every week we would switch whose house it would be at and this week its my parents'
/turn and i had to be there by 5 to help my mother. I didn't really have any clothes appropriate for the family dinner at Maias house so that meant i have to go back to my appartment and face everyone so i got into my car with Gianna and drove off
/to my personal hell at the moment. Okay maybe im over exagerating but still i really don't want to face anyone at the moment but it seemed like life was against me at the moment because all too soon i was arriving at the oh so familiar building.

I quickly grabbed gianna and walked up to my apartment. Just as i was about to unlock the door and walk in i heard my name from inside the apartment. So i put my ear closer to the door to listen to the muffled voices. "-Your fault Jace whatever you said
/to her obviously bothered her. Why else would she be ignoring all of us including her own brother? What the hell did you say to her anyways?" I heard someone say. I couldn't really tell who it was because of the door between me and everyone in the
/apartment so i continued to listen. "I don't see how thats any of your business. Besides i didn't say anything bad to her so i don't understand why she ran off." I heard Jace say. "Well fix it and fast because if you don't by the angel you'll wish
/you never came back to New York." I figured i should make my presence known as i probably look like a crazy person with a baby in my hands just leaning against a door so i unlocked it and walked in. I felt all eyes go on me as soon as the door opened
/and immediately regretted coming back home. I quickly shut the door and muttered a hi to everyone and tried to walk to my room. Tried being the key word as i soon felt a hand on my shoulder trying to keep me from walking any further. I sighed and
/turned around to see it was Alec. Thank the angel it wasn't Jace, I still don't think i have the guts to face him right now. "Clary where have you been? We've been trying to get a hold of you since you left?" Alec told me. I could tell he was trying
/to keep his cool but it wasn't working very well. "I've been with Maia but right now i need to go get ready. You guys can lecture me about how reckless i've been later." He looked conflicted as if he didn't want to let me go. "Please" I added. "Fine
/go ahead but this doesnt mean you're off the hook." He told me. I nodded and quickly ran into Gianna's room and put her in her crib for a nap and went to go shower. After i was showered, shaved, and moisturized i opened the door slightly to make sure
/no one was in the hall way as i forgot to grab clothes before i went into the shower. after i realized no one was there i quickly walked to my room, locked the door behind me, and went to my closet to pick out an outfit.

I chose a sleeveless black top a white wrap skirt with a long sleeve black draped cardigan and a pair of open toe black wedges with bows on the front. I went to my jewlry box deciding to put on a pair of diamond earing in the shape of a bow and the matching
/necklace to go with it. After i finished with my outfit i went to the vanity in the bathroom and decided to start on my hair. I dried it and decided to leave it down and straighten in. I kept my makeup simple just doing some brown eyeshadow a winged
/liner mascara light blush and a nude lip. I went to Gigi's room to grab her and give her a bath and dress her. After i was finished I walked into the front wish Gianna in my hands to see everyone else was ready. Izzy was wearing a sweatheart neck
/ombre mini dress that was blue and faded to white near the bottom of it with a white denim jacket a pair of white heels a baby blue clutch and some diamond earings. Jon and Alec outfits were almost identical, they were both wearing a long sleeve sweater
/(Alecs is black And Jon's Is navy blue) And a pair of dark jeans. And finally Jace was wearing a plain white T shirt with a leather jacket and a pair of jean. I felt my face heat up as i realised Jace and Alec were pretty much gawking at me. I mean
/i know they haven't really seen me clean myself up like this before but after living with Izzy i picked up a few tricks, Mostly just to get out of her constant makeovers everytime we went some where. I seen Iz and Jon smirking at me in the corner
/of my eyes before i heard Alec. "Baby doll you look amazing." He came up to me and hugged me almost smushing Gianna. "Be careful i'm with child" I told him jokingly. He smiled at me and let go. "Okay I'll drive with Alec and Jon and you can take Jace
/and Gianna, Good? Okay Lets Go guys." Izzy said and walked out before i could even try to object. "Guess you're stuck with me shorty" Jace said as he put his arm over my shoulder and smirked at me. "Ugh, Damn you Izzy." I muttered "Fine lets go. But
/you're sitting in the back with Gianna, She gets cranky during long car rides." I told him. Okay so maybe i was lying but he doesn't know that. He took Gianna from my hands Before i walked to my room to get my keys. After walking to the car I got
/in and waited for Jace to get in. I got out to see what was taking Jace so long and i realised he was struggling with Gigi's car seat before giving up and looking at me sadly. I felt guilty, I kept jace from Gianna, I kept jace from learning how to
/do things like this. I was wrong to do that but i felt if i told him about her sooner i would have ruined his future and his chance of getting what he wanted in life. "Let me show you how to fix it." I told him giving him a sad smile. i quickly told
/him what to do and let him do it.

i called his name just as he was about to get into the back seat with her. I heard him mutter a what and seen him look up at me. "Just go into the trunk of the car grab the Pooh Bear and give it to Gigi and sit in the front with me, She should be fine."
/i told him. He did as i said and got into the passenger side. I got in turned on the car and made my way to my parents. We lived about an hour away, I looked at the clock and it was 3:38 right now so we shoulf make it there with some time to spare
/as long as we don't hit any traffic. I drove with niether of us talking just listening to the radio for about half an hour before i heard jace start to sing along with the song that was playing at the moment, All Of Me by John Legend was playing
/at the moment. "I missed hearing you sing" I told him. The words were out of my mouth before i could stop them. "I didn't know you missed me at all" He said quietly. I could tell something was bothering him, probably me I thought to myself.
/"Clary why did you keep Gianna from me? You never really told me why you did it, We never really talked about it at all after i found out." He told me. I could tell he was agitated but trying to keep it under control. "Honestly? I knew if i told you
/that i was pregnant you would come back to new york, and i didn't want that for you. You went to california to follow your dream Jace, I didn't want you to come back and resent me 10 years down the line because i ruined your chance of that. I wanted
/you to be able to do what you wanted without worrying about me and a baby. I had my parents, your parents, hell even the lightwoods help with Gianna when i need it. I knew you would find out eventually but i always figured that would be after you
/were where you wanted to be in life, You know its hard to be a musician going on tours barely being home while worrying about a child. I was worried you would grow up resenting Gianna because she ruined that for you." I told him telling him everything
/i've been holding in for the past year and a half. It felt good to finally let it out and not have it hanging over my head. It felt good to know that Jace finally had a part in Gigi's life and she wouldn't grow up without a father, I never wanted
/that for her. No matter who i dated or married in the future i know they would never take Gianna as their own and i wouldn't expect that of anyone. I was brought out of my thoughts by Jace speaking to me. "How long after that party did you find out
/you were pregnant?" He asked. I really didn't want to answer this question because i knew it would probably just piss jace off, but i did anyway. "The day before you left" I practically whispered it. He looked at me exasperatedly "You knew while i
/was here and you still didn't tell me?" Before i could reply I heard my phone ringing on the bluetooth of my car so i answered it silently thanking the angel for who ever it was calling me right now. "Hello" I said "Clarrissa Morgenstern where the
/hell are you, you were supposed to be here 30 minutes ago." I heard my mother say, More like scream Into the phone. "I looked at the clock and noticed it was only 4:30. "Mom what are you tallking about you told me to be there at 5?" I asked.
/i heard her mutter something along the lines of Idiot of a son and i giggled before i heard her sigh. "I told Jonathan to tell you i needed you here earlier to help with the dinner. Oh also Sebastian and his aunt won't be able to make it, He
/called earlier to tell me to let you know he said he couldn't get a hold of you." She told me. I felt bad to admit it even if it was only to myself but i was a bit relieved to hear he wasn't going to be there. "Okay mom. I'll be at the house in abour
/5 minutes im just a few blocks away." She muttered a goodbye and hung up. Jace looked at me and opened his mouth as if he were about to say something but i cut him off "I know I know we'll finish this conversation later when we get home." I told him.
/he just nodded and we pulled up to my parents' house. He took Gianna and we started walking up to the door while we waited for someone to answer the door i looked around and realized Izzy Alec and Jon were still not here. Strange considering Iz drives
/like a maniac. Unless Alec drove which would make sense why they aren't here because he drives like a slug.

After a moment of waiting at the door my dad answered and immidiately grabbed Gigi from jace and walked away not even looking at my or jace. we walked into the house and my mother gave Jace and I a hug before hauling me off to the kitchen to help her.
/"Okay what would you like me to do?" I asked my mom "Start making your famous fried chicken while i do the fries and salad." She told me. I nodded and started getting everything ready to start cooking. I've always loved to cook ever since i was 16
/and my mother allowed it, I wasn't the best but i was pretty good if i do say so myself. i stated to cook when i heard a knock at the front door. My mother told me she'll get it and a few minutes later my mother and izzy walked into the kitchen. "What
/can i help with?" Izzy asked. "Nothing!" I told her quickly. Iz glared at me before shrugging and walking away. I heard my mother mutter something that sound alot like Thank god and started cooking. I chuckled a small bit and got back to cooking.
/about 20 minutes later i heard another knock at the door and soon Simon walked into the kitchen carrying a box of some cakes from a little bakery down the road that we loved. "Where can i put these ma?" Simon asked my mom. Since simon was my best
/friend he practically lived with us so it wasn't all that odd that he called her mom, Jace Iz Jon Alec and I all would with eachothers Parents. She took the box from him and he was at my side helping me with whatever i needed, Any time i cooked simon
/always helped. It use to be Jace but after he left Si took his spot. Some time later Stephen, Celine, Maryse, Robert, and Max arrived and soon enough we were all sitting at our huge dinner table eating. Everyone was making conversation talking about
/whatever came to mind when i heard Jace talk to my mother. "Ma this chicken is amazing, you have to show me how to cook it sometime." He told my mom. "Actually this was Clary's recipe." she told him grinning like the cheshire cat. Why was she smiling
/like she knew something no one else did? "Well I guess tiger will have to show me sometime because this is amazing." He said looking at me. I felt my face heat up at the mention of the old nick name. Damn him and his ability to still make me blush.
/"Just say when" I told him sheepishly. After that dinner went smoothly and everyone continued to make conversation until everyone finished eating. My mother got up to start clearing the table but before she could i heard Jace speak again. "Ma go sit
/down Iz, Alec, Jon,Si, Clare, And I will clean up." He told her getting glares from everyone but Jon and I. She opened her mouth probably to try and decline but everyone knew jace wouldn't have it so before she could even speak my dad was grabbing
/her hand and leading her into the living room. "Lets go get the board games ready Dear." He told her smiling at her like she was his most prized posession. She just nodded and walked away with him. I smiled to myself seeing how in love my parents
/were after over 20 years of marrige. I could only hope to have a marrige even close to what they have. I sighed and started to help everyone clean up.

"Clary darling Sebastion is at the door for you." I heard my father say. Wasn't he not able to make it? I thought to myself before walking to the door. I could tell by the look on Sebs face that whatever he came here for wasn't good. "Wanna come inside?
/We're just about to start playing board games." I told him hopefully. He shook his head and looked down so i walked outside closing the door behind me. I crossed my arms across my chest and began to speak. "Seb is everything okay? You look like you're
/about to puke." I told him worriedly. He looked up at me and began speaking. "Clare what im about to say you have to promise not to interupt just let me finish okay?" I just nodded already forming an idea of what he was going to say. "I swear it's
/nothing you've done and i hope that there are no hard feelings but i just can't do this anymore. I am and always will be jealous of Jace and you. I always have been and always will be no matter what and if i don't do this now it will happen eventually
/and most likely on bad terms and i don't want that clare we promised when we first started dating that no matter what happened we would always be friends and i don't want something to happen in the future that could mess that up. I love you Clare
/bear i always will and i'll be there for you no matter what happens. Whether you end up with Jace or not You'll always have a connection because of GC and i hate to say it but i'm just not able to handle that." I stood there not knowing what to say.
/I mean i kind of expected this but actually hearing him say it still hurt, but not as much as it should have. I realized he was right. I didn't want us to end up hating eachother because of Jace or any reason at all for that matter. "You're right.
/at the end of the day we have a daughter together, no matter what happens between Jace and I. I really wish it hadn't come between us but if you're uncomfortable with it i completely understand. I love you to Seb, Always and if you ever need anything
/at all you can always come to me. You're one of my best friends and i can't imagine my life without you Seb. Thank you for actually being able to do this without losing your temper and fighting because to be completely honest i don't think i would
/have been able to do the same thing if the roles were reversed." I'll always have a place for seb in my heart honestly. I went up to him and wrapped my arms around his waist, He wrapped his arms around me and we just sat there for a moment before
/i realised a few tears were rolling down my cheeks. We let go of each other and i quickly wiped away the stray tears that fell before he could notice. He put his hand on my chin and lifted my head up so i was facing him, He kissed my cheek and walked
/away.

I sat there for a moment not wanting to walk back in and face everyone but i knew i had to, So i turned around and started to make my way back inside. I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder and i jumped out of their grasp and turned around shocked to see
/the black haired blue eyed male known as Will Herondale. I practically jumped into his arms after realizing who it was. "Will What in gods name are you doing back here? I though you and Jem were in London still?" I asked as i unwrapped my arms from
/around him. "Well Doll I just missed you so much and i knew you couldn't live with out someone as handsome as me in your life so i came back for you." I laughed a little and slapped his arm. "Seriously Will when did you get back?" I asked him "We
/just got back today." I smiled and nodded at him before realising what he said. "Wait did you just say we? Does that mean Jem is back too?" I asked Excitedly. Before he could even answer i noticed Jem walking up to us behind Will. I ran up to him
/jumping into his arms, he swung me around for a moment before putting me down. "Well i missed you too Clarissa Darling." Jem told me before kissing my cheek. I blushed a small bit before i heard Will's voice. "Careful Jem you know how protective Jace
/is over that one." I felt my face heat up a bit more and pushed Will. "Come on idiots lets go inside. We were just about to play some board games." I told them. They both nodded and we started to walk towards the house. As soon as we walked in all
/eyes turned to us. I heard Jace groan but everyone else practically ran up to the boys smiling and asking basically all the same questions i did. I heard Izzy ask where they were staying to which Jem answered a hotel room till they found an apartment.
/"No way, Izzy and i have an apartment with just enough room for you 2 to stay at. I'm not taking no for an answer and thats final. I've already made up my mind." I told them. They looked as if they were about to decline but we all heard another groan
/come from jace so we all looked up towards him. "Can't he just stay in a park near some blood sucking ducks or something." Jace said causing me to glare at him. "It's my apartment and they're staying there and thats final" I told him. Jace didn't
/say anything after that. I seen Will go up to him and start to bother him , Jace and Will loved eachother of course but they just loved to annoy each other even more. I smiled, shook my head and went to sit down next to Jem and Alec. We all played
/Board games for a few hours and now it was just Jace Stephen and Will Playing Monopoly."Well it's getting late and max has school in the morning so i should probably get going" I heard Maryse say. My mom nodded. Her and I both got up to hug Maryse
/and walk her and Robert to the door. After saying good bye we walked back into the front to see the boys still playing monopoly not looking like they were going to give up anytime soon. "Jace Will I swear if you don't end this game soon i will leave
/you both here and lock you out of the apartment tonight." I told them. they just sighed nodded and started cleaning up the game. "We'll finish this another time." I heard Will tell stephen. He just nodded and smiled. I went to pick up Gianna and go
/start putting her into the car when i heard Stephen and Celine call my name. I turned around to see what they wanted. "We'll take Gianna darling I need sometime with my grandaughter." Stephen told me. I just smiled and handed Gianna to Celine. I felt
/so lucky to have people like this in my life. Without my parents and Jaces I honestly dont think I could have gotten through any of this.

Everyone started to walk out the door until it was just will and i walking out last. "Thank you for everything Mr. and Mrs. Morgenstern" He told my parents. "William how many times have i told you please call me Jocelyn" She told him smiling at him. "And
/call me Valentine Please You're Practically family Will." My parents told him He nodded and told them a quick goodbye leaving just me and my parents. I gave them both a hug told them i loved them and walked out. As i was walking towards my car i noticed
/Jace and Will were both arguing about who was going to sit in the front seat while Jem was just standing next to the car waiting to get in. I smiled at him and quickly told him to get into the front seat before Jace or Will could realize. I unlocked
/my car and Jem did as i said. We waited a few moments before Either of the boys realised they weren't going to get what they wanted. They just huffed and got into the car. I started the car and made my way home. It was a surprisingly quick car ride
/home. Jem and Will grabbed their bags and we made our way up to my apartment. when we got inside Alec Iz Si and Jon were already up there along with magnus and they were all drinking. Boy i could sure use one right about now. The boys talked to Magnus
/for a moment before i showed them where they would be sleeping and they put their stuff in the room and we walked back into the living room and as soon as we did magnus handed me a drink whispering something along the lines of 'You're gonna need it'
/I sighed and told him fine but i was going to change first. he nodded and i walked away into my bedroom to put on some pajamas. i chose a pair of black shorts and a black tank top. I made my way to the bathroom and washed off my makeup and when i
/was done i walked back into the front grabbing my drink and realised everyone was sitting on the floor in a circle so i went and sat between Will and Jem Before i heard Izzy. "We're playing truth or dare!" Izzy said excitedly. Everyone groaned but
/didn't object. God this is gonna be a long night.

Okay so i was going to right in a flash back of what happened at the party and last 2 weeks but i figured that would make this chapter too long so its either going to be in the next chapter or chapter after that but i promise it will happen. As always if you have any questions feel free to Pm Polyvore Is Linked on My profile if you would like to see the girls' outfits. AnywaysDon't forget to review. Till next time lovelys.