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CHAPTER 4

I smiled as I stared at my gorgeous baby boy! He was born April 30th 2:15 am. He weighed 6lbs and 9ounces. He was bright pink, with big light eyes and a mass of curly brown hair. He didn't get Dom's nose but you could tell he was his son. He looked just like a mini Dom, but with my pointy chin. I felt my stomach get butterflies when his hand wrapped around my finger. "You're so tiny papa…" I chuckled as I whispered to him and watched him watch me. I thought about my secret vow to never let another man get to my heart and grinned at the ironic fact that this new man in my life had completely melted it the minute I laid eyes on him. I named my son after his father Dominic Alexander Toretto, Jr.

Shadow was pleased with her nephew to say the least. She called everyone we knew! Bragged to all the nurses how gorgeous he was and the way she was hovering over me and Dom, everyone thought we were a lesbian couple and that was her son too. I swear no one can just be friends these days. After staying a week in the hospital, we were discharged with clean bills of health and sent home. Two weeks after being back at the house, I was struggling. Dom was up being fussy and it was 3 in the morning. Shadow had just left to New York the day before to visit her brother with my persistence that she go, 'get a break'. She had done more than enough and now for the first time it was just me and my son.

He wouldn't stop crying but he wouldn't eat either. I was rubbing my temples thinking…I can't do this! I had to literally slap myself to get it together and went to pick up Dom up when I heard a knock at the door. I peered through the peep hole cautiously and saw the old women, Rosa from downstairs. I swung the door open and she smiled and said hi. "Do you need some help?" I looked around and thought of the time. "I'm sorry if we woke you; he's just a little fussy."

She shook her head "Nonsense mija. Let me help you...can I see him?" I nodded and she came in and washed her hands and took him from me. I watched in amazement as she rocked him and talked to him and he just went right to sleep. "How did you do that?" she laughed. "8 children mija, that's how I did it. It'll come to you too…it's in our blood to be mamas."

I yawned and rubbed my eyes. "You should get some rest," she said. "I'll come back after I get a few things from downstairs if that's ok with you." I agreed tiredly and layed down on the bed with Jr. next to me and quickly dozed off. I woke up around noon and remembered Dom. "Oh shit!" I turned to see Rosa sitting in the rocking chair in the corner and she was feeding Jr. a bottle. I sighed and thanked her. "you don't need to do this. You don't even know me. If there's somewhere else you need to be…" Rosa cut me off, saying. "I am where I need to be right now mija. Just let someone help you." I smiled softly and she did too, giving me a wink.

2 Months ago-Mexico
Dom's POV

I gripped the steering wheel as I stared at the front door, debating whether to go in or turn around. ((oh fuck it)) I got out the car and went up the porch steps and knocked on the door. I heard Vince's voice and Mia swung the door open. I waited nervously to see what she would do and she smiled bright and pulled me into a hug. "Dom! Where have you been?" I wrapped my arms around her and inhaled her scent…I had missed my sister. I missed everybody, but mostly Letty. I couldn't wait to see her. I walked inside and hugged V and Leon; I turned around and saw Lilly. "Lilly? What are you doing here? How you been baby sis?" she shrugged and gave me a weak hug and said she'd been alright. We weren't particularly close, but I was determined to change that.

"Where's Letty?" I asked and Leon shook his head and replied gruffly. "she aint here dawg. She left about 5 months ago, but she left this..." he went over to a dresser and pulled out a tan envelope and handed it to me. They all walked out the room and I opened it and read it...

Everybody,
Sorry to leave you like this but I have to. Leaving will never take away the love I have for all of you and one day if Dom comes back, him either. Mia, take care of yourself, V and Leon…my brothers, look out for Mia and Lilly. Tell Dom, I love him, but he broke my heart when he didn't come for me. It is hard to accept that he wanted out that way but I know I can grow to accept it in time…maybe it was for the best though. I've never known anything but Dominic and beings Dom's girl. Maybe it's my turn to go find me…and love me without him. I don't know but I'm praying to make sense of all this soon I just can't do it here. Please don't hate me and don't try to find me. I will contact you guys in a couple weeks when I get settled wherever I end up. LOVE YOU ALL. I'll be okay.
Letty

A tear slip down my face. "Letty," I whispered to myself. I did this. My own selfishness made her leave. I should've just called her and trusted her to understand. Why didn't I call her and tell her I loved her? I'm pathetic that's why…I was wallowing in my own self pity not thinking about anyone but Dominic Toretto and trying to drink myself into oblivion. I wanted to come but I couldn't do it. I was so ashamed; I had gotten Letty hurt, Vince almost lost his arm and Jesse…oh God Jesse! I practically pulled the trigger just as much as Tran. I felt so responsible…sure I didn't know all that was gonna go down like that. But Letty warned me…she asked me not to go through with it and I didn't listen to her…I looked her in her eyes, ignoring her worry and told her about a stupid dream.

I should've listened to her more. And now she's gone and I'll probably never hear her sweet voice again. It's funny, I felt, whenever I did decide to come…she'd be here. Waiting for me; I just expected her to put me first…like she always did. Geez, listen to me. I'm so damn selfish; I never put Letty in the needy category. Never thought I had too. She was always so strong. Next to my mother and sister, she's the strongest woman I know and I respected her for that. I just should've told her more…and maybe she did need me. I don't know, man I really fucked up and now I'm missing the only person that I ever really loved in my life.

Mia came back in the room and sighed. "She said she'd call, but she never did." Mia shook her head in sadness, sniffing and looking straight at me. "I loved her too. She was like a sister to me. And I want you to know that I don't blame you for her leaving Dom; she left us all."

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