Need

"He looks a little down today," a feminine voice points out.

No shit.
He makes it a bit too noticeable
even if he doesn't mean it...

What happened to those lively silver eyes?
Enthusiastic, cheerful smile?
Optimistic attitude?

I'd love to know,
because right now,
he looks dead.

"Good morning Lenalee," he says with a grin.

And then he stops to stare at me.
He shudders.

"Good morning Lavi..."

I couldn't stop myself from grinning at the effects I have on him.
I couldn't stop myself from being disgusted at the effects he has on me.

He sits,
as far from me
as possible.

We all converse lightly, eating our breakfast.
The morning was full of nervous laughs,
because we all knew something was going on.

Well...only two of us knew the real story.

I could read him easily
almost as if he is just another book I must study.

Disgust
because of the twisting pain in his grin.

Sickness
because of the way he forced down all of his food.

Nausea
because of how I knew he would regurgitate any minute now.

This angered me to such an extent...
He doesn't know that I suffer as well.

I hope you know how much I have to go through for you.

How much I sacrifice for you.
How much I change for you.
How much I die for you.

I just need to see, need to know
if you need me like I need you.

Because, my dear, I need you.

I don't care what anyone says. What I do is right.

The truth is, you don't know me. No one does.
The only one who knows me is myself.
But what if I don't know myself?
What if I'm a stranger?

How would you react...
if I stopped speaking to you?
What effect does it have on you?

Do you hurt like I hurt?
Do I make you go insane?

You need me. And that's the truth. You need me.
Don't argue... don't disagree.

Without me, you're nothing. You're empty.

You're lonely and broken.

And that's the truth.

I love it when you're suffering.

See, you don't know me.

So don't say you do.

You need me.
I am your crutch,
you backbone,
your life.

Or... is it the other way around?

This chapter was longer than the others. I personally thought the beginning was a bit dull, but it gradually got better. I hope you guys understood the message in this chapter. If you didn't, I'll explain it right now: Lavi is confused about what it feels like to be loved romantically, so he somehow gets himself into thinking that Allen needs him and will go insane without him, when it's just the other way around. Lavi is the one who needs Allen. It's kind of twisted and hard to understand; even I have trouble understanding my own thoughts.

Anyways, thank you for reading! Please review!

This chapter is dedicated to a certain someone.